The first time I met Qi An was in the spring when I was seven years old, when she was a little girl who had just learned to walk, and her smart eyes were as black as black pearls. When she laughs, there are two shallow pear vortices at the corners of her mouth, which are very beautiful, and I like her very much at first sight. often pestered his mother to go to Uncle Gu's house, and then hugged this little sister.

It's just that it didn't take long for my family to move, to the city, and I never saw her after that, I only knew her name was Qi'an. It wasn't until the winter when I was in the sixth grade that my father sent me to Uncle Gu's house because he was doing business with Uncle Gu and my mother didn't have time to take care of me. I haven't seen her for nearly five years, I almost forgot about the little girl, and when I arrived at Uncle Gu's house, I didn't see Qi An at first, although I was curious why I didn't see her, but I was childlike, and I soon started playing with Gu Jie.

At that time, I was very naughty, playing a game of peek-a-boo with Gu Jie, who was also eight years old, and Gu Junxiang, who was four years old, in the Gu family's old house. Originally, I was hiding in the grass not far from the house, and then I ran into the attic on the second floor when Jun Xiang was not paying attention, and blocked myself with a waste cardboard box.

Just as I was sitting on the floor and about to fall asleep, I was woken up by the shrill invincing and crying from the first floor. I knew that sharp voice was Aunt Gu's, and the other one, I didn't hear it very well, at first I thought that Gu Jie was taught a lesson by my aunt, and I wanted to go out to see what was going on, but I was afraid that after my aunt left, Gu Jie caught me on the spot, and I lost.

After a long time, there was a sound of rustling in the hallway, and then a low sobbing, and the voice was right in front of me, and I held my breath for fear that she would know that she was eavesdropping here.

I quietly moved the cardboard box, and saw a petite figure through the gap, burying his head between his knees, biting his arms and crying, probably because he was afraid that his crying would be too loud to attract Aunt Gu. After she cried enough, she walked down lightly, and then there was a sound of chopping things in the corridor.

At that time, I didn't understand anything, but my heart was already frightened by Aunt Gu's attitude towards her, because at home, I never had to do housework, let alone be scolded by my parents, and Gu Jie, Aunt Gu never let her do anything.

I pushed away the waste cardboard box that blocked me, quietly walked downstairs, hid behind the door and watched the petite figure holding a very heavy kitchen knife, chopping the radish in the big basin one by one, the kitchen knife stuck in the wooden basin, she pulled it up with both hands with difficulty, and continued to chop, so over and over again, I don't understand what I was thinking in my heart at the time, I only knew that this girl needed something, and I only understood when I grew up that this girl needed to be hurt.

So I, who could see the gods, was hugged by Jun Xiang from behind, and shouted, "Brother Shen, I finally caught you, hehe, it's time for you to come to us." After saying that, he lifted his little thick legs and stumbled to dodge.

Jun Xiang's shout also made her hear, who was chopping radishes, only to see her raise her aggrieved and tearful eyes to look at me, and then continue to lower her head and chop the radishes in the wooden basin as if she didn't see it. Later, I was not interested in playing with Junxiang and them, sitting alone by the fire, staring at the fire burning in the stove, at that time I was in a very heavy mood, after more than four years to see her again, I recognized her from her eyes at a glance, but, her face, there was no smile a few years ago.

Later, Gu Jie and Jun Xiang often asked me to play with them, and as soon as I saw her busy at home alone, I lost my mood. Sitting alone by the fire, taking out her winter vacation homework and doing it quietly, she didn't dare to talk to me, and sometimes occasionally found her eyes eagerly falling on my textbook.

I cautiously asked her, "Do you want to be literate?" ”

I thought she would be like the first few times, and as soon as I opened my mouth to talk to her, she ran away. After a long time, I saw her nod fiercely. Every day, while Aunt Gu was away, I would teach her to read and write her name and, of course, mine.

This winter vacation has passed, and after that, I will ask my mother to send me to Uncle Gu's house every holiday, and I have become more and more familiar with Qi An, and I like to see her laugh. However, she will always be beaten and scolded by Aunt Gu because of some small mistakes, Jun Xiang cries, and Aunt Gu will beat her to vent her anger for Jun Xiang. Gu Junxiang is very annoying, no matter where Qi An goes, he has to follow, as long as Qi An doesn't wait for him and runs away quietly, he sits on the ground and cries, no one can pull up, if Aunt Gu hears it, the first thing he comes over is to hold Jun Xiang in his arms and coax him, the second thing is definitely to find branches or sticks or something like that around, pick it up and start beating Qi An without asking the reason.

Therefore, I hate Jun Xiang very much in my heart, and sometimes I bully Jun Xiang when no one is there, and warn him not to sue Aunt Gu. So in the very cold winter of that year, something happened that I regretted for the rest of my life.

Because the snow was so heavy that winter, we played together in the frozen pond. I was a little timid person, jumping around on the ice like a mischief, not realizing how serious the consequences of such a jump were, and deliberately dangling around Jun Xiang to scare him.

Qi An carefully pulled Jun Xiang to slide on the ice, and said, "Don't make trouble, Brother Shen, this will be very dangerous." ”

If I had listened to Qi An's words at that time, maybe the tragedy would not have happened. But I didn't listen to her, I still went my own way, just when we were having fun, suddenly there was a "click" on the ice, the sound was crisp and loud, I still can't forget it when I grew up, it was like a nightmare, haunted me for many, many years.

Jun Xiang didn't know how to fall under the broken ice, and was so frightened that he cried loudly, and the sound of Qi An crying was mixed. Although Qi An was a child, he still instinctively grabbed one of Gu Junxiang's hands.

Of the four children, I am the oldest and know a lot about it. So stop Gu Jie, who wanted to hold them, and asked her to inform Aunt Gu quickly. And I could only watch the two of them fall into the ice cave, I shouted for help, and finally before Aunt Gu arrived, a neighbor uncle rescued Qi An and Jun Xiang.

The neighbor's uncle first fished Jun Xiang out of the water and handed it to Aunt Gu, who was just in time to come over, and then went to hug Qi'an, I have been standing on the shore waiting for her, and when I saw her being picked up, her little face was frozen and bruised, and her teeth were chattering and fighting.

I heard her whisper to the neighbor uncle, "Uncle...... Put me down, I ...... I can walk. ”

The neighbor's uncle didn't answer her, and I saw her looking at her house with a kind of empty eyes, and I didn't understand why. It was only later that I realized that emotion, a look of extreme fear, and she didn't know what punishment she was going to face.

When we returned home, we saw Aunt Gu constantly rubbing Junxiang's whole body with a blanket, and when the neighbor uncle saw Junxiang's appearance, he suggested that he be taken to the hospital and drive his tricycle. The neighbor's uncle went back to drive, and I saw that Jun Xiang's face was also bruised, and I couldn't help but get scared, and I followed Aunt Gu's example, and kept rubbing his body with my hands.

Before the neighbor's uncle's car drove over, Qi An's voice sounded weakly from beside us: "Mom, I started a fire." ”

Zhao Lingrong didn't even look at her at the time, so she hugged Gu Junxiang by the stove. It didn't take long for the neighbor's uncle's car to stop at the door, and Aunt Gu picked Jun Xiang into the car, and didn't forget to look back at me and say, "Shen'er, you are the biggest here, take care of your sisters, and your aunt will call you Uncle Gu and ask him to come back to take care of you." ”

I didn't know how she used her frozen fingers to split the wood bit by bit and make the stove so warm. After Aunt Gu left, I pulled her to the stove and sat down, only to find that her hands were even colder than I imagined, I pulled her hands up and put them on top of the stove lid, and rubbed her gently, and so on and so forth, until her hands were warm and warm.

Gu Jie and I don't know how to take care of the fire, there are several times the fire is extinguished, in a daze, she may have found out, every time she gets up and goes to the wood piled up outside, picks up the wood, breaks it one by one with her little hands, and then uses a lighter to light the fire, and then puts some coal in it, and then the fire has never been extinguished, and it burns very strongly.

Uncle Gu came back in the middle of the night, saw that we were okay, and then took care of us and left alone. The next day, when I woke up, my mother came. I inquired about Jun Xiang's situation, but I didn't dare to tell my mother that I actually did that thing, and I hurt Jun Xiang.

At noon, when Aunt Gu came back, she couldn't help but beat Gu Qi'an, and even my mother and I hadn't reacted yet.

Aunt Gu cursed while crying, "Why don't you die, I have raised you for nothing all these years, I knew that raising you was such a useless thing, I shouldn't have let you stay in the first place...... It would have been wrong to let you survive if I didn't kill you....... Not only did he harm me, but now he is also harming my son. ”

I was frightened by such a fierce Aunt Gu, and after my mother reacted, she hugged Aunt Gu and said to me: "Shen'er, bring Qi'an to the room, I won't call you, don't come out, plug the door." ”

"Get up, Qi'an, let's go into the room." At that time, she must have been frightened, as if she couldn't hear anything. It took me a great deal of effort to drag her into the room, nervous and scared, and my hands trembling as I slammed the door shut.

I took Qi An to the edge of the bed and sat down, wrapped her in a quilt, hid behind the door and didn't dare to come out, quietly listening to the movement outside. At that time, I couldn't hear what my mother was talking to Aunt Gu. I only heard the sound of Aunt Gu crying bitterly.

By the time our mother came to tell us to go out, Aunt Gu was no longer in the house. My mother hugged Qi An, who was trembling all over, and choked up and said, "Qi An, don't be afraid, with Aunt Xu Yao here, your mother will never beat you again, now that your mother is out, don't be afraid." ”

That day, Aunt Gu did not come back, Uncle Gu and my father came back later, took the bedding and toiletries, and went to the hospital not long after. Vaguely, I heard my father tell my mother that Junxiang's situation is not optimistic now, and we have to wait and see.

Because I didn't worry about Qi'an, I kept staring at her, but after all, I was still young, and I fell asleep on the side when sleepiness hit. But I had Qi An in mind, so I didn't sleep long and woke up in a daze, and when I found that there was no one around, I hurriedly ran to find her, and finally found her in the kitchen.

She was holding a kitchen knife and trying to cut her wrist, and I screamed in fright on the spot. When my mother heard my voice and rushed over, I had already snatched the knife from her hand. And my palm was cut with a slender wound.

As soon as my mother came in, she knew what was going on, and she was more frightened than me. After that, Qi An stopped talking, didn't eat, looked completely scared, her eyes were dull, and every time Aunt Gu came back, I saw her trembling with fear. I was in front of her, and I was afraid that Aunt Gu would be like that again, and suddenly rushed over and dragged her to death.

Seeing that the day of school was about to start, Junxiang was sent to the hospital in the city for treatment. When I told my mother what had happened, my mother cried on the spot, saying that she had not taught me well, and then I begged my mother to take Qi'an away and take her to my house.

I don't know what my mother told Aunt Gu and Uncle Gu, when we went home, there was more Qi An by our side, my mother recognized Qi An as her goddaughter, and I also had an extra sister. And I always thought that I would love Qi An as a sister, love her, protect her, and make up for my debt to her.