That morning, Cristao had spent the morning in tears, and there was more water in her eyes than she had drunk.

I didn't know how to comfort her because of the bad mood, and my weak arm prevented me from putting it on her shoulder. I can only cry silently like her, venting the grievances in my heart in this silent way.

"Don't cry, Ouyang Ze will see it later..."

After a long time, I didn't dare to comfort Christao until she was no longer as excited as she was just now.

The vague teary eyes were already red and swollen, and I was really afraid that Ouyang Ze would be suspicious when he saw it. Cristao was still trying to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes, but the result only worsened the red and swollen bags under her eyes.

Although I comfort Chris Tao in my mouth, I am actually the one who needs comfort the most, and I am the one who should cry the most...

"Don't give up, this disease is not without a cure. So you have to persevere, and you can't give up on yourself! ”

Christao held my hand tightly, feeling the temperature transmitted by her cold palm, and her body felt even warmer.

"Forget about the detective's business, Ouyang Ze has been busy with the company's affairs these days, and I don't want to distract him anymore."

"yes, okay."

Christao nodded, but at the moment of nodding, there was still a hint of unhappiness on the tip of her eyebrows. I don't know if it's because I'm worried about Ouyang Ze's company, or...

"I'm back."

As he was talking, Ouyang Ze walked in quickly. The absence of the door made his steps faster and faster, and his vision lost the obstruction of the door and noticed the abnormality on my and Cristao's faces.

"Rui Rui? What's wrong? ”

Ouyang Ze walked to my bedside and kissed me lightly on the forehead, his fingers gently brushing his cheeks that were stained with tears.

"Isn't it..."

He asked tentatively, his expression becoming a little flustered.

"I just want to be with my parents... I don't know if my dad's illness is getting better now. ”

"Well, I'll send someone to visit them in the next few days."

Bypassing that sensitive question, Ouyang Ze's face also stretched a lot. It's just that the eyes wrapped in heavy eye bags are still not shining, and they are still full of sleepiness.

Chris Tao turned her back to the side, avoiding Ouyang Ze's gaze, for fear that the eye sockets that were redder than apples would be caught by Ouyang Ze.

"Then I'll go out first, and call me if there's something..."

Christao kept her head down, although she couldn't see whether her expression was still as dignified as just now, but listening to her tone, it was still as trembling as it was just now.

After all, if you don't study acting, it's impossible for anyone to turn a sad mood into a smile in just a few minutes. So, I understand her, and I understand that Chris Tao who is genuinely to me.

"How's the company doing?"

"Hmm... It's fine..."

Ouyang Ze's voice was a little reluctant, and his expression was not so natural, more far-fetched and helpless.

Yes, seeing the company you built with your own hands facing difficulties, even individuals will feel depressed and collapsed.

Even so, he was smiling in front of me, showing a sad smile behind him. Seeing him so reluctantly, my heart also hurts...

"I'm sorry, I'm not sensible, I didn't help you and made you worry..."

"Shh

Before I finished speaking, Ouyang Ze put his index finger on my lips.

"Can't say that. You are very sensible and didn't worry me, and it is because of you by my side that I have the determination to persevere. ”

I didn't know what to say, but I looked into his eyes quietly, looking through the deep pupils at the fragile heart, at my reflection on the tip of the heart.

"You, you have to get rid of your illness quickly, and you can't go hungry anymore."

Ouyang Ze picked up the half-peeled apple, as well as the fruit knife stained with juice, and continued to peel it little by little along the broken place just now.

"We're going to get married, and you'll have to be fat for nothing."

His voice was a little choked, but his face was still full of smiles, and his dry eyes were still under the moist sockets.

Tie the knot... The word suddenly struck me as foreign and made me feel distant. I came to the U.S. to be with him, and in a few months we're going to get married, we're going to get married... Still, the word "marriage" is still so far away...

Will I be able to make it until the time I get married in a few months? Can my crippled body still be sustained by my fragile beliefs?

I don't know, I really don't know. I don't know if I will be dead in a few months, and I don't know if Ouyang Ze will be the only one on the wedding day...

"Hmm..."

I held back my tears and whispered back to him. But when the slight sound left my mouth, I only felt a pain in my heart.

No, I can't drag him down any longer. Since I can't be his helper, I can't be his burden. Since I can't wait for the day of marriage, why not let him choose someone else to be his partner and choose someone else to spend his life with?

"I want to go home..."

"Okay, we'll be discharged from the hospital today, and I'll ask Chris Tao to make something to eat for you!"

"Hmm..."

Ouyang Ze put down the apple and got up and left the room, looking at his hurried back, he only felt that he was not going to find Cristao but to go out and find a place to cry loudly.

Home, I want to go back, I want to feel the warmth of home before leaving, and feel the place with Ouyang Ze's breath. So that I can still have some good memories before I die.

Crying is really a silent exercise that consumes physical energy, and the tears that have just cried are already heavy at this time. Although my stomach was still tempted by food and fruit, my eyelids chose to kiss each other, and I chose to fall asleep again, into the dream where I was still healthy...

"Rui Rui? Wake up and get up and get something to eat. ”

When I woke up, the window was already shrouded in black, with only a few bits of starlight shining in the sky, emitting a faint glow in the boundless darkness.

In the dark, Ouyang Ze looked even more haggard. The whole person is like a migrant worker, his hair is messy, his face is like dust, the heavy eye bags hang down on his eye sockets as if they may fall at any time, he has always loved cleanliness and is still wearing yesterday's shirt at this time, and even the dust on the ground still has marks.

"Haven't you slept today?"

"Slept for a while."

When I touched Ouyang Ze's haggard face and touched his cheeks, which were not as tight as before, my heart felt like it was being pinched hard.

The man who loves me is so unbearable and depressed now; The man I love is so emaciated and emaciated at this time... What can I do for him? How can I get him back to the way he was when he was so bright?

There is only one answer...