Xiao Lu actually said this, I was so moved, I hugged her directly and kissed her face desperately. It is this face, this person, who has been with me for more than a year, allowing me to live a complete first love, that is, the first love, at the moment of separation, it will be so painful.

I glanced at the moonlight outside, got up, and closed the curtains.

If it weren't for the heartache, who would remember whom. It's just that the clouds and the moon think each other is each other's surplus and shortfall.

Can't shout, it's broken, once the most beautiful.

When I was about to untie my clothes, Xiao Lu pushed me away and said, "Husband, let me help you undress one last time." I smiled wryly and agreed, saying yes. Hugh Ya double garbage.

After unraveling, I don't say anything, just one word, do it.

I can't remember how many times, and I don't bother to think about it, a rough estimate. At least seven or eight times, Xiao Lu is also very hardworking, and her voice is hoarse.

In the end, she hugged me with tears, we hugged each other there, and I kissed the tears from the corners of her eyes, salty, astringent, but it was a unique taste, the taste of Xiao Lu.

Maybe many years later. I'm facing the sky, I'm facing the moon. Thinking of her in the past, the tears broke the line, and I only remember the most beautiful memories that I once had.

Breaking up, it's not scary. The terrible thing is to break up in what way, the two hate each other, and they want to deal with the kind of breakup that dies early, which is the saddest, but it is also the kind of breakup, the easiest to get out, there is no trace of reluctance, there are just three words: get out of here.

Xiao Lu and I, who are completely different from that kind of breakup, can only be described in four words: reluctant.

Even if it is ten or eight times, we still keep a clear head, and even, every time, I can't feel the kind of desire I used to have, some are just endless attachment, reluctance, liver and intestines, inch breaking, heart like a knife.

She was in my arms, on my chest, drawing circles, with a crescent smile on the corners of her mouth, and asked me softly, "Silently, if we never see each other again, will you still remember me?" ”

I gritted my teeth, held back the tears that seemed to fall from my eyes in the next moment, and said softly, "Yes." ”

She stopped her fingers, changed it counterclockwise and circled my chest, and asked me again, silently, "To be honest, it's me, it's you, don't you blame me?" ”

I smiled slightly, and my heart ached, saying that I couldn't blame her, it was impossible, but I couldn't blame her.

"Pity the hearts of parents all over the world, your father is like this, if I forcibly possess you for my own selfish desires, let him die with such infamy, ruin his reputation, and ruin your family, then am I still a person?"

"Lulu, first of all, I have to be a person, a person with a minimum bottom line of being a person, then I am a man, and finally, I am your boyfriend, do you understand?"

She sneered and said, "You know so much." ”

Then she kissed me lightly under the neck, like a dragonfly touching water, and said,

"You just, too fierce."

My whole body trembled when I laughed, and I kept laughing, this was the first time I heard her say this about me, I thought it was funny, funny, in this sad atmosphere, she said this kind of thing, it was indeed amusing, but I smiled and laughed, the kind of uncomfortable, unequal, unwilling tears that had accumulated in my chest, and it fell down.

She was stunned, her face was pressed against mine, and my tears, falling on her face, flowed down her neck, and then down my neck.

I desperately hugged her, kissed her face, she also hugged me tightly, I felt some parts of her were squeezed and deformed by me, but I still didn't let go of my hand, I thought about it so much, just like that, I held her tightly, rubbed her in my heart, rubbed her into my body, and let her not be separated from me.

Lu ...... Lu, why do we have to separate? ”

"Why did God do this to us.

Why is the fate of Dog Day so fucked up!

Why is God unfair, why God has no eyes. ”

"Say no more, silently."

She pressed my head under her neck, let me cry loudly, she just hugged my head tightly, close to my body, in this small, thirty yuan a night of small hotel, in this small space under the light of a small piece of moonlight, me and her, two small people at the bottom of the world, can not control their own fate, their own love, can only hide here, cry loudly, that's all.

Gradually, I seemed to fall asleep, and she also fell asleep in a daze, until the next day when I woke up, I found myself curled up in her arms like a shrimp, she seemed to be my mother, very motherly in my arms, I pressed her arms, and slept all night.

She used to sleep with my arm pressed, and I knew that the arm would be numb the next day, and it would hurt for a long time, and my heart hurt a little, and then I moved my head slightly, but I woke her up, and she opened her eyes, and my eyes were together, four little eyes, and so on.

Then there was a snort.

"Fool." I scolded, and she said, "You don't too." ”

Then she sighed and said, "Why does my arm hurt and numb, blame me." "I looked at her like this, wearing nothing, so cute in front of me, I pressed her down again.

After three or four more passes, my waist was about to break, I was exhausted, and I didn't have any more strength, so she asked me, "Is it enough, silently." ”

I nodded and hugged her, "That's enough, Lu, you will take care of yourself in the future." ”

She choked up too, "You too." ”

Get up, get dressed, go to the toilet, and then there is nothing more to say, is it time to part, I looked at the busy street outside, the hurried and bustling crowds, as if I was the only one who was so out of place with Lulu. We are like people outside this world, who are about to return to this worldly world and enter the relentless cycle of samsara, which is fate.

After the qiē was done, she and I hugged each other for the last time, and I asked, "Lulu, can't we have a future?" ”

She said, "Possibly, the three points I told you about last night." ”

After separation, I was alone, looking up at the blue sky and white clouds, inexplicably melancholy, I was only a sophomore in high school, and it was not easy to do those three points. First, his father is no longer in a vegetative state when he comes back to life, and second, the crisis in the family has passed, and it doesn't matter if money is money or not, the important thing is that everyone is safe. Third, deal with the Jiang family and the people behind the scenes who want to deal with his father.

These three, that is, Zhuo Xiaoyu, have to be weighed up, I'm sure that Jiang Hua's family is so powerful, connected and status, and it is impossible for him to have the ability to bring his uncle back to life, right?

So, Lulu and I ......

Fate, is this a fate.

After I went back, I took a leave of absence for nearly a week, and no one paid attention to it, just locked in my room alone, reading books, playing computers, not on QQ, playing games or something, just don't contact the outside world, even my mother, I rarely talk to her.

Because, the first thing I said to my mother after I came back was that Xiao Lu and I were completely finished.

She looked at the dead look in my eyes and read the meaning in my eyes.

A week, I have to spend a week adjusting, people, not so alive. Lulu's mountain, although high, although far away, unreachable, unclimbable, but the highest peak in the world, Mount Everest, known as the peak that no one has ever climbed, was not climbed up later, the facts have proved that there is nothing difficult in the world, only afraid of people with hearts.

Perhaps, in the future, I will say goodbye to Xiao Lu, she is not married, I am not married, as a matter of course, we will be together, get married, have children, life is like a play, drama is like life, who can say clearly.

In the past seven days, I have cut off all contact with the outside world, Brother Big Box came to see me once, and brought my sister-in-law, but I didn't say a word to Xiaoling's sister-in-law, I didn't even look at her, I was not in the mood, but Brother Big Box, I said a word to him, it was three words, Brother Big Box.

Then I never spoke again, because I felt that my vocal cords couldn't speak at all, and when I did, it was uncomfortable, it hurt, not only in my throat, but also in my heart.

Xiaopang and Chang Bangs, Wang Anmin and a few of their brothers came once, I asked Xu Yan to tell them not to come, they were in the living room, they probably talked about something, I also heard it, but I pretended not to hear, Xiaopang They called me at the door, told me to look at the point, and said, Xiao Lu has changed schools, it seems that she went to the provincial capital, everything has been moved, and she said goodbye to Sister Xuanxuan and Sister Xiaoyu, Sister Xiaoyu They went to send her in person, by the way, that Lin Zhiting also went to see her off.

Hearing Lin Zhiting, I paused slightly, I don't know if this person, the hatred in my head has been let go, her so-called revenge, in the end, is to lift a stone to hit her own feet, will she think about embarrassing Xiao Lu by soaking me again, but now, it's useless, Xiao Lu and I are no longer a couple.

There is another person who came once, the head teacher, I used to forget the New Year's friend, when he came to see me, I opened the door to him for the first time, he said three words to me, more than not, he also saw it, I don't want to talk.

"First, are you alright?

Second, what has passed is over, be yourself, study hard, and everything will be fine.

Third, remember to report to me when you come to school. ”

Then he left, he didn't say anything superfluous, he is really a person who understands me, at this time, no one wants to pay attention to me, and I don't want to talk, just like when my uncle was about to go to prison, he didn't even care about me.

Zhuo Xiaoyu didn't come, but just sent me a text message and asked me how I was okay, I heard that I hadn't been to class, and told me to do my best. Sister Xuanxuan, they also texted me one after another, but I didn't reply.

Around the early morning of the evening of the seventh day, I went on QQ, looked at Xiao Lu's QQ and said, what she sent was, goodbye, my love.

I silently turned off the computer, got off QQ, and silently said to her in my heart, goodbye, my love.

I still remember that the National Day just passed, November just came, when I went back to school, I just passed a November 1st and November 11th, two Singles' Day, this time last year, I still laugh at them for not having a girlfriend, a single dog, a poor ghost, this time of this year, I only laugh at myself.

On the first day I went back, Chubby and they came to pick me up, and Chubby touched my head and said, Brother Mo, this long hair is comparable to long bangs.

I didn't pay attention to it at the time, looking back, it was really, and later, I simply learned the senior bangs, and also made a bangs, maybe because I was thin this week, at home, the skin was a little whiter, the face was sharpened, Xuanxuan They saw me, they all said that I was a lot more handsome, I deliberately got the bangs to the right, because the bangs are on the left, I can't learn from him.

Chubby They said, in the evening, go to have a meal together, have a meal, I haven't been together for a long time, Xiaopang also said, "Brother Mo, when we went to see you, you looked at our eyes, like the eyes of a dead man, I haven't slept for several days." ”

I gave him a kick in the ass, and I said, "Do you curse your brother Mo to death like this, do you want to mess with it?" ”

Wang Anmin also made up for it by the way, saying: "You little arm cub, when you come back, you will speak ill of Brother Mo, don't think about going back straight at night." ”

Xiaopang laughed and said, "Brother Wang, did you invite me to prostitution, and you didn't let me go back straight, I didn't want to go back hard, I wanted to be soft." ”