In fact, it was also by an accidental chance later that the country discovered that his cousin Ming had another hobby that was almost not discovered by others, and I don't know when he started to visit brothels. When the pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info talked about it later, he couldn't make himself cry and laugh. In the east street of the county seat, there is a grain depot that has been left in that era, almost all people call it the second storehouse, Wu Yuan has never seen his specific location from beginning to end, but he himself can deduce that it should be built after the establishment of the ghost in his heart or around the time of the rural cooperative, and after the rural household contract responsibility system was thoroughly implemented in the eighties, the entire grain depot has lost its most original meaning. But there are many legends here. The legendary brothel that was popular in the nineties existed in this place, and during that time, the place of Erku became synonymous with almost all the merry and happy life, and at the same time became a must-talk place for people to make pornographic jokes. Legend has it that Ming would return here once every day of the market. After spending ten dollars, and putting himself in it once, he went slowly back to his own tiled room, only from the time of his son's sudden loss of breath in his throat, in a few minutes, a living child of twelve years old lay flat in front of them. After that, he was sulking for a year alone before forgetting everything about his only son's life, and let his life return to the normal life before his son's death. Since then, he has been living in the same room with his wife Han, who was originally the same sister as Lin's son, Han, who was the eldest daughter and his wife Han, who was the second daughter. Ming's youngest daughter, born in the same year as Wu Yuan's eldest brother Bin, was later admitted to the Normal College in Zhoucheng through his own unremitting efforts. But after that, Ming, who has come out of the world of card games, is in his sixties, and he is still growing some of the few test cigarettes with his wife, and he will earn more than 10,000 yuan every year. Has entered the life of old age began to enter a state of ease, he will get up every morning as soon as the amount of the day, and then a person along the mainland in the direction of ready-made, until the center street of the bright orange, sometimes look at a few old people walking birds there, sometimes look at the playing cards they are playing almost the whole life, with a while it is estimated that the heart is almost scattered, at this time he has to turn back home from the county town from the original road, It was about ten o'clock in the morning, when he took up his hoe and went to his land, hoeing the weeds in the field for a while, until he felt hungry, and then he walked slowly back from the field. His wife showed up in the field on time every day, came home on time to cook, and then she went back to the land alone after she had finished eating, and the vegetables and rice were left on the table for him, and when he came back to eat, she put the dishes and chopsticks on the table as they were, until Han returned from the field in the evening and cleaned them up together. Ming's state of life depends entirely on the fact that few of them have the opportunity to enter the study, and his surviving father is the only single man in the family, and his sister is quite passable, so he did his best to send him to school, and after finishing junior high school, he was conscripted into the army, in the same era in which they lived, he was already a high-achieving student with such an education, and he had been a high-achieving student for a long time in the past. When the people in the child have something to do and have a feast, he is almost always the main writer in the book. His comfortable and leisurely life is entirely due to his father's sending him to school and military camps, his education and life experience brought him a mode of life thinking, after he died soon after he got married, he was left with only the tiled house, which has maintained the original state of his father's lifetime, and the later repairs are like Tai is under the support of the government to convert the two Wanfang left by his father into a small bungalow on the first floor, But the house has indeed been completely improved in terms of shelter from the wind and rain, and their family no longer has to live the kind of life where it rains heavily outside the house and rains physically, so what Han is will never forget is that in the second year of Hua's second brother Lin's death, there was a heavy white rain in the village, and their home was really leaking, and in the end they could only buckle the bamboo dustpan that their family usually used to stuff grain on their family's head. In a way, their generation, although they lived a harder life than the generations that followed, never complained, let alone filed for divorce at every turn, as later generations did, and they lived together in their lives, no matter how hard life was, but they never had more than a few cheeks between their fathers. What Ling Shui can't imagine is that their group of people who have spent together from the old society, when they were together, life was so scarce, but their relationship was so closely linked. Later, when the gradual prosperity of the country and the gradual enrichment of ignorance passed over from their generation, the various relations of the later people were in a kind of instability and even impetuousness, and they would quarrel with each other at every turn because of some difference in life opinions, and almost all of them lived in material abundance. Economic independence has made it possible for both women and men to live in the independence of their own material life, no one can live alone without anyone who loses, this material independence exercises every person with material living conditions has the decision to decide whether to stay in their own life, they have the most absolute initiative in their own life, when their lives have a certain difference in position, they have the most absolute right to fight for their own sovereignty, and it is exactly so, Life is full of their struggle for their own absolute sovereignty, and when everyone feels that it is their own absolute right and must fight for it, there is a lot of chatter and quarrels in life. In the face of this kind of personal freedom of life in family life and the struggle for sovereignty in the family, the struggle for the absolute rights of the people in his life and Ziweiwei retreated to the secondary multi-circle link, and he was no longer so interested in the so-called absolute rights in his own life. This attitude of learning to take a step back in life made him feel that he had a sense of pride in not getting involved in the struggle for absolute rights of the human self, and this pride also made him suddenly find his own happiness. Of course, Wu Yuan also understands that people's so-called happiness is completely based on someone's sense of accomplishment in a certain thing they are pursuing. The reason why he was able to obtain his own happiness on top of the struggle for absolute rights of this individual mouth, and to obtain the indisputable happiness in this world, is related to the choice he made in his inner world in the current era. The happiness he chooses with a sense of personal fulfillment is entirely derived from his own self-chosen psychosocial position, which allows him to find his own sense of accomplishment in his own inner world at all times, transforming the happiness that people strive for all the time. The reason for being able to obtain this happiness at all times is that it is able to understand her social role and position, wherever and at all times, and she cuts off all the sources of unsuffering associated with him. He understands that as long as people can cut off the root of their own unhappiness, then even if he only knows how to sit on the ground in a daze all day long, he can still obtain his own happiness and achievement, which is probably the pursuit of his own life! Although Ming and his wife have lived together all their lives and have been husband and wife for a lifetime, they have experienced the twists and turns of their lives together, but they are like a bunch of couples who have experienced all the hardships together, Han even understands that Ming has been to him those things that are not right for him, but there have been no Guo Da conflicts and quarrels in their lives, in their lives, even if they are husband and wife, they are also each other's best friends, and life is more about understanding and dependence on each other. It's not the endless bickerings of those lives that don't go their separate ways. They have never lived the most contradictory husband and wife life that can often be seen in movies and live in quarrels every day, nor have they lived the love, glue and lingering husband and wife life of love and marriage contracts that are often played in movies. They are the most ordinary and essential group of couples in the world. In their married life, there has not even been a simple mouth-to-mouth intimacy and kiss like in the movie, nor has there been a mutual entanglement on the tongue that evokes each other's hormones and produces intense sucking on each other's love saliva. Even the husband and wife express their love for each other most directly, she does not even have the strong desires and needs that are mobilized again and again in the life of the couple, each of them is only when she is completely awake or in a deep sleep, when she has not yet had any feelings and preparations, she is directly entered by her husband who is already in the state of self, and then all he has is to passively lie down and directly feel the feeling of rubbing against each other's organs. The most felt is only that every strong entry and exit inadvertently touches a sensitive nerve, and then the body suddenly receives a basin of cold water in the warm air on his body, and then there is the friction between the organs for a long time, and the feeling is as hot as a hot soup, and when this burning feeling becomes more and more intense, everything is over. The sound of his breathing, which had fallen asleep quickly in the darkness of the night due to fatigue, and he himself could not fall asleep in the middle of the night with his eyes open.

The air in the tiled house seemed to be connected to the whole natural world, and she could clearly hear everything that happened in nature at night, the singing of crickets in summer, the sound of melons and melons coming from frogs in the sky and earth on rainy days, and the cold air that had been rushed in in winter, and she shivered, and he quickly retreated to the place in the bed that seemed to give him all the warmth. At the moment when she instinctively leaned towards the warm and fiery place, he seemed to have found the greatest support and warmth in his life. It was at that moment that no matter how cold the weather was outside, he was informed that the whole world was safe. This sense of security lasted until the time when she no longer believed in the love she had in the world. At that time, she had been wondering for months if there was really love in this world. She recalled all the experiences she had had in her whole life, how much he longed for the long-awaited love when she was still a young girl, but since they were married, they had been tempered by the hardest life. When there is no firewood, rice, oil, and salt in the pot, he must exchange it for it in his own way. But it was at this time that she finally understood that human life is not the unrealistic fantasy of their own youth when they did not understand the world, but when a person is at home for a moment, what kind of method does person need to survive in the end, and this is also the most important issue that a person should discuss in this life, at least in her own opinion. The moment he went through the ordeal of his own life, it was at that moment that all the greatest fantasies she had ever had in her teenage years were shattered and destroyed. The most direct life she had ever experienced was completely superior to all the admonitions her mother had given her when she was still in the rebellious years of her youth, and she would instinctively rebel in her heart when she heard of it. When she picked up all the exhortations that his mother had given him in the past, she completely found that the language that his mother had given him in that era only experienced the most accurate practice of life after he really entered life, it turned out that everything had existed in the real world, but at that moment she herself could not understand it, in fact, what was even more her life experience at the beginning could not make her understand everything that she had in this world. Just like the old monk chanting the scriptures, what is emphasized is the Tao, the height and the realm. Her own life cultivation made her unable to experience the various problems that people in this world need to face in the process of survival, so when she was still a girl, he believed in the purest love in the world, and he believed that he would definitely meet a wishful man who brought infinite happiness in his life. He also recalled that in that era, when he had not yet fully entered into the real social life, when he had no children and even he himself was just a child, he believed that nothing could not happen in this world, and the result was that marriage and life with children completely defeated all the dreams of his youth, and from that moment on, she had to feed herself for life, for the sake of a large family, He had to give up all his dreams and toiled around for life. But it was only at this time that she thoroughly understood that his life was actually the most fulfilling until such a period of life later, which made him have to believe that this was all the moral everything he should have in life. But sometimes when she suddenly thought of her current state of life, she suddenly felt desperate pain about his own life. When a person's desire is stronger than her current state of life, when she is unable to complete the tasks and missions of her own life in her imagination, people will always be unable to control the pain of the greatest torture in the real world. Needless to say, if a person cannot survive even in this world, and if he does not have the opportunity to stay in this world, the person who is exploring how big his dreams will have will lose the carrier of his instinct and the meaning of reality.

In a sense, man is just one of the creatures on the earth, and it is not easy to survive in this world. When the world's science and technology have developed to such an extent, Wu Yuan has thought more than once that human eyes and thinking can be completely magnified into the entire universe. He didn't use the science and technology they invented to detect how many stars and planets in the universe, but so far, human beings have not detected a planet that can have many creatures at such a moment as the earth, from the current perspective of the universe that human beings have explored, all the creatures on the earth are precious, and it is not easy to live in the entire universe. Wu Yuan pondered: The living state of the entire human race in this world is like a woman who has entered the flood season, and only when their body has enough blood capacity can they use their ability to provide for their own children. Only after people have enough material living conditions can they have enough time and ability to think about their own lives and build their dreams, and even complete their own dreams, otherwise a person will either lack continuous material support and cut off their ability to survive in this world, and the latter will directly enter the toiling and rushing of the material life of the whole world. The energy that cannot be realized is entirely because they lack material support and fantasy for dreams, and only set off on a fantasy with an empty existence. From the so-called dream life of retreat, many people have suffered because they have no material life to support their dreams and are forced to turn to the need to survive and lower their own requirements and experience the hardships of life, after being amazed by the destruction of their so-called dreams by life, they suddenly found that the original dreams were unrealistic, and only being able to survive is the mainstream of the entire human society. Wu Yuan found that the actual life sense they published from life is indeed the same truth, because their lives do belong to the class system of living in the whole social production, and from their own point of view, their creativity not only feeds themselves, but also feeds more people who are related to them and still live in social groups, and the operators earn a part of their creation in social production, and they themselves spend a part. In fact, the rest is directly transferred to their children and the new generation of people who do not participate in social creation but participate in social consumption. So in this day and age, almost all the most faithful creators of society will attribute the poverty and misery they have experienced in society to the fact that they have not read books and do not understand culture, because they have seen in their eyes those who have some education and they have obtained a job that seems to be easier in a very easy way, and then they have obtained their harvest for almost a year in just one month, but what they don't notice is that in fact, from the same time period, The so-called rich people in their eyes actually have no penny all year round, because when they go to work, it means that they give up almost all the most basic materials for survival, and the money they get must be invested in this exchange that most directly determines their living materials. On the one hand, they satisfy the most direct material needs of their lives, and on the other hand, if they have excess living materials, then all those who are no longer engaged in the most direct material basis of life must use what almost everyone in the world is willing to accept and exchange with them. It is precisely because of this that, in general, no matter what stage of survival, on the one hand, they must have the ability to obtain enough of them in exchange for the most direct survival materials, and on the other hand, they need to maintain their ability to ensure that their money or items of the same price as money have enough to exchange for the most direct survival materials for their survival. Those who do not have the financial acumen and the ability to obtain their own living conditions, no matter how they obtain their own living conditions, will still have nothing.

At last, from the moment his father died, Ming lost the happy life that his father had brought him because of all the care he had given him when he was young, and he himself was a man who did not like to do farm work, so since he became the head of his own house, his life had always been spent in poverty, and then his son, who was only eleven or twelve years old, took care of him, and died so suddenly, and he spent so much time and energy raising him so much, He died again in the longed-for rural life that is still patriarchal and inferior. It was during that time that he mourned for his dead son for three years, and then he was no longer ready to build his own two tiled houses that his father had left behind during his lifetime, mainly because his inner world still contained a traditional ill left to him by rural life, and he felt like Haru that his daughter would belong to someone else sooner or later, and that it would be enough to raise her. It is precisely because of this that he felt that even if his two houses were built, no one would be able to live in them, but then his daughter stimulated him with the words "If you don't build the house, I will take my mother to live with me in the future, and I won't care about you anymore", and after listening to this sentence, he advocated taking advantage of the government relief to pick up the house left by his father again, but until the end, there is still the shadow of his lost son in his inner world, It wasn't until his daughter was admitted to university that he re-established in his inner world the desire of a scholar to be promoted to an agricultural society and make a fortune after being admitted to university, and only then did he completely establish a part of his desire for a better life. He came out of the world of cards completely after his daughter graduated from college and got a job, she would send him a part of the money every month, and after he had grown his own flue-cured tobacco and had an unknown income, there was no longer a person and a strong burden in the family, and the bank deposit was in the village when he had a sum that he could not eat in a year. At this time, he should no longer gamble like before, and every time he can't help but take a handful, he always takes it when he sees it. When there is no money, because of the desire to be able to make more money in the channel, he can see it, and when he finally has a sum of money, he is more afraid of such things as gambling money than before, every time he gambles money and touches the cards, his hands will always shake unconsciously, at this time his inner world is more afraid of his bank, but the money that has been saved in it is so lost, or deceived by someone when playing cards, It is precisely with this psychological fear that he has too many worries in his inner world, and after having financial constraints, half of it is also because of age, and he has become more timid than ever before. He went from being a fearless true proletarian to a cash and bank owner who was primarily cautious about money. After he had money and savings, he grew older and feared losing everything in his inner world, which is why the guest and host saw him come out of the world of cards. At this time, he must be more careful than all the previous times, because once the wealth he longs for is lost, he may not only lose the dreams he has had since his youth, but even more he may lose the capital and the material security that he has been roaming the streets all day long. Knowing that moment, all of Ming's actions began to change into the image of a rich man, and he learned to be as thrifty as a lady, and to be as forward-looking and cautious as a rich man. He suddenly became a gentleman who he did not remember at any time before him, but whose habit of dressing had never changed until the end of his life, when he was still able to take care of his own life, and he still wore his blue tunic, which was the most popular in their time in the sixties and seventies, during the most vigorous period of the Chinese Revolution, and still wore his newly purchased clothes inside and outside as before. Throughout Ming's life, in fact, he has always been diligent and thrifty in his own folds, and the difference is that he has a strong desire to become a rich man, and it is precisely because of this that she will eventually go to the gambling of the card game without any scruples, but the follow-up is as he said, in the previous many times it was completely because his own water was not deep enough, in the gambling of the card game, he rarely had the opportunity to really reverse the game for himself, so many times he lost more and won less. In his later years, he still had a high sense of poker, and he would always unconsciously discuss his game with others in the game, and at that time, his language was much more if and should. Probably because the game is different from life, life never has too many opportunities to repeat, but haiku is different, it comes and goes is just a few fixed cards, a card game is only ten minutes at most, in a person's life he can have countless opportunities to start over, so people talk about if and should be justified on his top. If and should be completely based on the fact that our vitality can be renewed, when human beings should have courage and if and should be such words, it is the time for them to summarize their own life path, but in terms of time, if human beings can start again, then human life will lose a lot of its meaning in the current human world. It is precisely because life cannot be restarted that human beings can know more clearly what they should do and what they should not do, so that the meaningful things in life and the meaningless things can be completely distinguished by people. But in addition to the time that everyone has in life can not be repeated, in the case of having time, many other things in life can indeed be repeated, just like the card game that a doctor has thrown himself into, just like the science and technology and production tools that human beings have obtained today, that is the science and technology and experience obtained by many people engaged in science and technology through how many failures and how many times they have come to restart, at that time, words such as if and should in the human world can completely exist in their world. They also need to have the spirit of what and should be, because that is the ultimate ability for them to finally achieve their own achievements, and it is also the guarantee that their lives can be continued in the end. In that world, thousands of ifs and oughts have made their lives, made them an absolute contribution to the mouth of mankind through their own hands, and they have also created their own fame and fortune. Although all these names and fortunes themselves were not what they wanted to obtain before engaging in their own research, too much fame and fortune in their inner world would only make their inner world more impetuous, and finally because of the impetuosity and restlessness in their inner world, they would not be able to study their homework calmly and emptily throughout their work. The only thing they have is unyielding to the whole world and a rare peace in their inner world, and after having this calm mind, it means that they have the whole world and the ability to feel the whole world with their desired heart. For those scientists and creators, a calm mind is equivalent to owning the whole world. And for Ming, the place where there are playing cards is his whole world, but his dream is not a person and creation in the scientific world, but his wireless pursuit of money, just after he is old, he still hopes that he will have more and more money, and for this he is more afraid of everything he has, and life has become cautious because of this, and he has become a gentleman because of a certain amount of material and practical use. It was only after he was sixty years old that he learned how to use his most immediate material things. At the same time, he also learned how to re-accumulate more of his wealth, he is already a lot of age, except every day because of the chronic illness of the elderly, he can no longer sleep after five o'clock in the morning, when he encounters good weather, he will get up from the bed early, and then go down the road alone to the county town has a circle back, he still does not insist on digging a hoe in the land for a hoe, he planted a flue-cured tobacco that can be exchanged for 20,000 yuan in a year, His wife, Han, planted corn on all the land he grew from planting flue-cured tobacco, and was responsible for the whole process of corn from planting to going to Hebei to drying under the sun, and came over to help her grow flue-cured tobacco when she had time. In that world, women are the hardest working people in the world, and they have to go through a lot of more labor every day than their husbands, but they also gain absolute sovereignty and status in the family. In their inner world, they have become weak in the cooperation between the whole man and mankind, they want to have the absolute sovereignty of the whole world, but they are not willing to pay all the labor services that the whole world rightfully owns, they always choose the right to enjoy themselves in the face of rights and obligations, but in their inner world they ignore the obligations in the enjoyment of rights, and after bearing the obligations that should be borne in their world, they forget all the rights they can enjoy in the whole process of obligationsThus in their inner world they always hold all the injustices and injustices of this world, and they often compare their lives with those of the happiest years of their youth. Throughout the life of women, except that they are still in their teenage years, because they always live with their parents, the happy era of their lives is also completely in it, because all parents will be like a towering tree that has grown up, they return to the sky and stretch their most fierce posture, and when the sun comes out, they use their vigorous posture to cover their children with this strong yang pass in this world, and use most of the energy they themselves receive in the yang pass to feed their children; When they vent their desires, they let their dense foliage shelter their children from the wind and rain, and protect them from the most direct attacks of raindrops and winds. But after they get married, they are bearing everything they have to experience in life, and then they will accept the injustices and injustices in their inner world in the whole life, and they will sprinkle all these injustices and injustices on the people closest to them, but such women always have health and happiness in their inner world, because they release all the injustices and injustices in their inner world like the people closest to them. After that, there will only be a healthy soul in their inner media, so as not to be healthy and energetic all the time on the surface, probably because there is nothing in their inner world that is not in a hurry. And they will never confide in a person they are not familiar with in their inner world, unless the object of their confiding is someone they feel is completely trustworthy, Han Shi He feels that he does not have too many people to confide in in this life, and his vitality does not have much to complain about, after all, her life has gone through so many years, and his inner world is still only the mentality of running for life, although his daughter is already a person who came out of the countryside, But she went to college and then undergraduate, and when he really came out of school, he was already an older woman of nearly thirty years old, and it was not until she was nearly thirty years old that she began to enter his own marriage hall, into her decades-long married life, and when he came out of school, he entered the heavy social pressure of supporting his parents and raising children.

Decades of independent life experience made his inner world miss his parents with memory more than once, and recalled everything they had done for him when they were alive, and it was only then that he realized that he was old. He felt that the life and death of any person was more than the death of his parents, and they gave him the most profound education in the world of life and death, and only when he felt the existence of human death and happened around him, did he feel the meaning of human life in this world and the meaning of life in this world.

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