CHAPTER XXIII

It wasn't until later that Bin found out that his second brother had a problem that other people couldn't understand, no one should mention the word money in front of him, every time someone mentioned the word money in his ear, no matter how comfortable he was, how he talked and laughed with other people, his inner world would suddenly show impatience, as if she was born with something like this before. In his inner world, there is always an inextinguishable strong rebellion against everything that has to do with the former, and in his inner world he has always felt that those who talk about money on the surface are in fact the ones who do not understand money the most, and that those who have the former are only the ones who have a debt in his hands, and that this is not a completely fair relationship between the former and the debtor who owns material and paper money. The person who has a claim does not necessarily receive the equivalent of the goods he owns, nor does the person who owns the goods necessarily and does not necessarily receive the same amount of the claim in the exchange of their goods with someone else, and he does not like to own money at all. www.biquge.info Instead, he thinks that what all rich people have is not money, but has a sound equivalent, and only when they have an equivalent that is easy for others to accept, they can be regarded as having the initiative of money, but this makes Wu Yuan feel that many people actually don't understand this relationship, and this group of people happens to be the most powerful production class in society as a whole. For them, just when they envy the so-called rich people in their inner world for no reason, their psychology happens to be swollen by the trap set for them by the so-called rich people. In fact, Bin also felt that his second brother didn't really hate money or the word money, but what he hated the most was those who obviously didn't understand what money was but wanted to think that he had changed his name and talked about the seemingly elegant word money in front of him. Every time he hears people who don't understand money talking about money, the first reaction in his inner world is to choose to escape, he never wants to be with such a group of people, always think that the farther away they are, too close, it will make his inner world impetuous, as long as he finds that someone who doesn't understand money is talking about money, his inner world will involuntarily secretly swear that he will definitely reduce any interaction and contact with such people in the future, This made him feel that these boring people would always disturb the tranquility in his inner world in those vulgar worlds. But what he didn't expect was that their parents, Qin Guo and Xiu, were originally people who lived in the world of money, and in Wu Yuan's opinion, they were not the kind of people who really understood money. They have lived all their lives in what they think is a world of money, but they have been impoverished all their lives. It is precisely because of this that his inner world will never want to live with their parents, and he would rather live alone in the poorest world to drink the northwest wind than return to their so-called worldview of money. As his own parents, every time he met them talking about money, he always complained bitterly about the unreasonable concept of money in the country and Xiu, and finally not only did not persuade Guohexiu, but disrupted the peace in his own inner world, and since then he is no longer willing to argue with them about anything problematic and unproblematic, he feels that their world has nothing to do with himself anymore, Anyway, the last thing he wants is to live in this kind of life where he only has money all day long. It was from the moment he became unwilling to live in the world of money that he himself was the first to escape from their world of living only in money, and it was from that moment that he rarely returned to his parents. Besides, he himself is reluctant to go out to work, and it is precisely because of his concept of money that he has always been so poor in life. It wasn't until later that everyone who knew him felt that he was too idealistic, and even when Lang saw him again, they persuaded him to get out of this overly idealized self-world, but he not only refused to get out of his own self-centered world. On the contrary, he felt that the whole world did not know him, but he still made his own evaluation of the way of life that others had too idealized about him, and later he defended himself that since human life is divided into ideal and reality, some people live in reality and naturally someone should live in their own ideal world. He still believes that no matter how big the ideal ideal he can have, as long as he lives, he will never be able to get out of the real world. In this case, how much does it matter to the real world and the ideal world that live in words, he is just a little more, and wants to transform some of the things he has in his inner world into the world, and he just spends a few more hours in his room than others, hiding in the world of the stacks of books he has. And one of the purposes of his doing this is that he doesn't want to stay in the world of people who don't know what money is and talk about money all day long, he finds that all the people who are trying to get money are still in a dilemma like ordinary people living in this world, they also need to deal with all kinds of trivial things from their lives, it's not that they can really surpass the lives of ordinary people after they have money, and they still eat the same things as ordinary people. At most, it's just that the Dharma cares about this and the house it lives in is a little more glamorous than the average person. They have a few rooms for their own use, and there are a lot of stylish-looking clothes in their wardrobes to choose from, but their rooms are definitely not as clean and tidy as they appear on TV and movies, and their rooms are still full of panties and socks like in a poor man's house, and they are already messy when they walk in. From this point in Wu Yuan's view, whether it is rich or poor, they all reveal a common characteristic from their bodies, at this point, whether it is rich or poor, there will not be much difference, in Wu Yuan's view, if there is only one person living in a room from beginning to end, and no matter a person walks into their room at any time, they will see everything as in TV and movies, which is quickly tidy and neat. Wu Yuan feels that such a person will spend a lot of time in his own room every day to furnish all the furnishings that belong to him, and if the water is clear, there will be no fish, then there will definitely be problems in such a person's inner world, even if there is no problem now, but if he persists like this for a long time, his inner world will definitely have some kind of strong depression in his own life, and if this goes on like this for a long time, even a very healthy person must be pressed out of the disease. Everything that people often see on TV and in movies is so clean and tidy, but in fact, what is in movies and TV is just a kind of need when they create art. If the videos taken by the staff on TV and in movies are as scattered as everything in real life, then such TV or movies become a portrayal of the city, and in many cases, although art also comes from life, it does not need to be slightly higher than the sky. Only in this way can more people who have watched it be able to use their own real life to make a certain contrast with the life in the world, and make art have a certain visual, auditory and ideological height and space on the basis of life, so that the viewers can leave a certain imagination and pursuit after watching this TV or movie, and such an artistic style is the artistic object that the creator has run through the art world and pursued from beginning to end. In the end, Wu Yuan didn't dare to say that his room was clean and tidy like in the movie because he was afraid that he would be alone in one place, and he personally felt that there was no need to treat everything in his life with a tight heart every moment in his own world. In the long run, he was afraid that this kind of mental pressure every moment would make her whole body be hollowed out, in his own words, there was no need for people to live so tired in their own world, this was completely a sick life in the marginal stage, if he lived in such a life for a long time according to his own character, yo girl's own health would be completely destroyed in a few years, why should people live in this world where wisdom is their own fatigue, It's better to be casual, in this way, it may make a person live more leisurely and comfortable, there is no need to fill the whole room with everything wholesale, if a character does not want to get back together, everyone stays in such an environment, it will be the same as the wrong blood type in the snowy night, and sooner or later there will be problems in healthy people.

In many cases, the art world is only a part of real life, and many people have said that they do not want to live in an ideal world for the rest of their lives, but when they enter their own lives, all their lives and habits are thinking about the life they want to be close, in this case, Wu Yuan feels that even they themselves can't tell whether they live in an ideal society or a real society.

Without further ado, discarding the noble evaluation between these ideals and reality, when Wu Yuan went back and analyzed the situation in the entire village where he was born, he still felt that among the descendants of the surname Wu, the most developed branch series was the one with the brother # of Ming and Hua's great-grandfathers. Their great-grandfather's generation also had three brothers, but only their branch and the one below the third brother still have children and grandchildren. The second child has an independent personality, I don't know why he saw through the red dust, and later became a monk, and his name is still left on the road in Wushi, but as long as they see this person's name in China, they don't care about any way to pay tribute to him. Presumably, whether he was alive or died in obscurity later, Xie Fan was not allowed to think that he had something, and his spiritual and physical cultivation must have been able to transform all the things that the **** in the mortal world has and all the careers that the mortal world is engaged in. When Wu Yuan heard that there was such a thing in the village and in the same family as him, he probably found a person who shared his ambitions, and he suddenly depicted in his own mind the specific situation of this person at that time. His appearance is probably similar to someone in his family, but in terms of personality, he should be an absolutely withdrawn person, and when he encounters anything, he is as easy to be happy as he Wu Yuan, and even sometimes thinks that he Wu Yuan is as quiet and indifferent. In fact, the current Wu Yuan is not much different from a married person in a sense, and all his diet and daily life are already similar to the ordinary living conditions of a monk. He had almost cut off all ties with his parents because he had lived in a world of money that he could not accept, and even thought that he would never have to return to their kind of life from now on, and among his relatives and friends, he maintained close ties with his eldest brother, because although his eldest brother also lived in the society of officialdom, and even he had solid assets and family business, he was like a scholar who had detached himself from the world. From this point of view, it seems to be a little similar to his own concept of life, but it wasn't until later that he found out that Bin's character is almost a popular character, as long as people who have had some contact with him feel that his character is similar to them in some ways, and then he learned about this situation, not only did he not get angry, but he felt that he was inferior to his eldest brother Bin in many places, but it was really difficult for him to come together with those people in his inner world, it is estimated that if he goes back one hundred and fifty years, He and their Liezu can definitely talk, but Nawei Liezu may not be a monk after meeting him again, because she can finally find someone who has the same ambition to talk to. If this is the case, maybe the two of them will not be lonely in their inner world, and after they have something to do together, they will no longer think about getting married. If things really develop like this, he will also marry a wife and have children, and he is afraid that he has already developed a large group of children and grandchildren, just like his three land locks have developed, and he has already developed the most populous Wu surname branch in the entire village.

Starting from the youngest third brother of the generation of Hua's great-grandfather, there were three brothers developed below, and the eldest developed one after another, until it developed into two brothers with Wu Yuan's grandfather Rong Ping's generation, and then the eldest son of the two brothers quickly fell into a single line, and finally there was only one son, and this chapter also died young, the son took the name Ming, Ming was also born as a soldier when he was young, he, Fu and Chun were conscripted into the army in the same year, and in the same year, As a result, among the three high-ranking people, he was rich in education and education, and after changing jobs, he became a government official, and after Chun Heming changed jobs, he returned to the countryside. Chun's father was alive for much longer than Ming's father, and the standard of living of natural spring was naturally much better than that of Ming, especially after the only son of the Ming family left him at the age of twelve, he soon collapsed, and the departure of his son was equivalent to making him lose his life's hard work and goal, which also made his original bright life suddenly covered with a dull gray. In the early years, when he was still young and had sufficient strength, he and his wife Han were busy with the only farm work in the family, and he carried the backpack to the streets of the county town to wait for temporary work, which was the early generation of backpacking in Guizhou, and even Wu Yuan's father country had done this kind of recitation for many years. In the early years, Guo was originally a martial arts novel cultivator who stayed at home and read his favorite novels, while giving him his father's share of the land that was given to him last night, and his leisurely life had reached the time when Wu Yuan and his eldest brother Bin had already read the second grade, Bin had a tidal worm disease, and Guo was penniless, but he couldn't leave his son alone, so he took Bin to the village health center. This local doctor who often traveled from village to house in the whole village was called Huang Guoqing, one of the two village doctors who were responsible for the treatment of minor illnesses such as colds and diarrhea in the whole village at that time, and the other lived in the neighboring village of Bin's village, named Li Dexue. But the village is spreading that Huang Guoqing's medical skills seem to be higher than Li Dexue's medical skills, in fact, they are engaged in some small illnesses and small injuries common to the tip of the nose in rural areas, these small illnesses and small injuries have to be born and seen more times, every time I take injections and take medicine, I see that the doctor prescribes those medicines to myself, and after a long time, the sick people have become their own doctors, and they can also see their own doctors. In terms of these most basic and common minor illnesses and minor injuries, in addition to the length of time they have seen a doctor to a certain extent, the medical skills of the two people are also equal, but Li Dexue may be much smarter than Huang Guoqing in dealing with people, he said that the people who came to see the doctor did not understand pharmacology and trusted him, so they casually prescribed some drugs that had little to do with the real disease. However, the eyes of the masses are always bright, although they do not understand the pharmacology, but it happens to their own bodies, they have taken injections and medicines, whether they are good or slow, this is the most instinctive feeling in their bodies. It would have been fine if they had been deceived only once or twice, but when it had happened to them many times, it was no longer anything in their eyes, and the most that they had not seen a doctor was three or four dollars, but in the matter of fame there was a strong contrast between the two of them who practiced medicine at the same time. Although people don't say it on the surface, they still have a few pounds and taels of a certain person in their inner world. In the end, this unnecessary cleverness becomes the medium for people to see the essence of a person clearly. An honest person has instead gained his own fame through clever people who are also engaged in the same trade. Just like Zeng Guofan, a military strategist and politician in the late Qing Dynasty, said, it is precisely because there are so many people in this world who want to covet fame and fortune that it finally promotes a person's reputation and has the opportunity to achieve great things. Li Dexue's ingenuity not only contributed to the gradual decline of his own reputation, but also brought out the reputation of Huang Guoqing, a competitor in the same industry, on the other hand, and naturally his business quickly surpassed Li Dexue. Wu Yuan's father was also a person who had huge doubts about Li Dexue's art and character, so he still took Bin to Huang Guoqing's hospital without any money, and took injections and prescribed medicine, but he lied that he forgot to bring money. After that, he completely gave up the martial arts novels in his hands, and worked as a memorizer from the next day, and it took him several days to save enough medical expenses to return to Huang Guoqing. It is precisely because of such a small favor that the country has spent a lifetime of repaying the favor to maintain due contact with Huang Guoqing's family, and it is since then that Wu Yuan finally saw spare money in their home, but the country has since embarked on a road of half peasant and half worker, as long as there is a job to do, he left his identity as a farmer to work in the ranks of workers, and when he did not have more than homework, he returned to his home to do his identity as a farmer. Probably because of living in this world of money, there is no longer the tranquility in his inner world when he was studying. He spent all day planning how money could be converted from his strong body and strong physical strength that he had been honed over the years, but in this way, all his income in this year was no more than the expenses of Wu Yuan's third brother in college for a year. Regardless of the job in which country went, with his strong body and strong muscular strength, every workers' group would regard him as the pillar of the work team. It is precisely because of this that the powerful power of this muscle, which has been sharpened and tempered in his life, has prompted him to brush shoulders with the mental work of management and contracting. Imagine if he hadn't been the kind of person who had worked from beginning to end all his life, and if he hadn't been a lot more physically and powerful, he would have been able to be more flexible in the whole team and do some relationship work. Perhaps, with his level of knowledge and conscientious ability, he will soon be able to free himself from the heavy manual labor, and his own work will be easier, and he will earn more annual or monthly income, but all this will eventually lead to the opposite of his ideal life, and all this is the root cause of the most painful life that has caused the country to live in his own inner world for the rest of his life. He spent his whole life thinking about why he was the most industrious one in the process of dealing with all the workers all his life, but he did not change much in his life, and every time someone else had a project, he would be the first to call him, the reason is that he was their pillar in the construction process of each project, and he was the most industrious one among them, and every project as long as there was the existence of this pillar. They will spend less effort and more effort in the whole construction period, which will also shorten the overall construction period and save more time. But this kind of small project generally does not have much difference in position, at most there is only one leader of the engineering team, and everyone else is equal. In a sense, the most suitable thing is to pull up a team by himself, and then undertake the project by himself, and his ability and integrity are already fully capable of all this. But there is also one of the biggest next times in his body is that he looks more honest in physiognomy, and this kind of appearance directly reduces his integrity in nature and they are worried about his absolute control over the entire team, and finally directly erases his role as the leader of the team. This kind of thing is incomprehensible to anyone: it is really impossible to say in words and theories that a person's abilities and wealth can be erased on a face that looks too honest, but the real world is like this after all, it is like the fact that no matter who has to dye him in the end. Although it is necessary to say what is necessary to be reasonable in words and in theory, it is not necessary that the situation in the real world will develop as theoretically and verbally can be predicted. After more than ten years of professional life, this is also something that Bin can't think about in any case, most of his personality and appearance have too many similarities with his father, and as a result, he also embarked on a similar path to his father in the final workplace, with the same sense of responsibility and dedication to the whole team, but in the end he was still in order to be able to obtain the social life status he finally wanted in the workplace, After more than ten years, he just couldn't see anything in the workplace anymore, he could feel the people and the direction of progress, and since then, he has been discouraged with his entire professional career, and the final attitude of getting by in the workplace has prompted him to suddenly have some improvement in his entire working life. has been nearly forty years old, this time finally let him talk about a girlfriend, it didn't take long for them to become a marriage contract, but when his wedding was really completed, from the moment he finally lived in the world of two, he was already a full forty years old, less than a year later he finally had his first child, and after the third year he had a second child, and since then his inner world has finally gained his own peace, He finally returned to the world of books that he had given up for several years, and vowed to keep his due distance from the most absolute real world, while he himself still returned to the world of his old books and the creation of short essays and is, and since then he has lived a life rhythm of life in the wilderness, in the city, and in the court, and has changed his own life to a state of simplicity and indisputability.

It was an unwritten habit throughout Ming's life that he never wore new clothes. Every time he bought a new garment, he would put it inside, and then put the old clothes he had worn over the new clothes. Later, when he had a deposit in the Ming Palace and the test, he started a small business again, that is, he used the back basket he used to make a back basket to buy two or three or five roosters and put them in it, and then when the price was right, he sold the roosters again, and in this way he made a few dollars from the difference. If he couldn't get out, he would carry it home in a basket, but he never dared to put the rooster he bought from outside with the chickens he had raised at home. She was afraid that the roosters she bought from outside would have a fever on them, so not only did she not earn them before, but she killed her own flock of chickens by infectious diseases. So every time he bought a rooster, he would not take it home, but would use his rooster basket to turn it upside down and buckle it to the ground in a place far away from his house but he could keep an eye on it at any time. It was also from that time that the people in the village gave him the nickname of Boss Chicken, a nickname that has accompanied him throughout his life. Ming has one of the biggest hobbies is playing poker, no matter where it is, as long as there are playing cards you can definitely see his figure, as long as he sees someone gambling with playing cards in a small amount of money he will also participate. As long as the place where the roommate is playing cards is seen by him, he will go over to watch the life struggles and ups and downs of people in the whole poker world, whether he is involved in the struggle of playing cards or not, and whether the people who are playing cards are familiar with him, after a life debate on playing cards, he will have a fight on playing cards with the people who are doing it. Wu Yuan could feel that from the level of a literati intellectual, it was fortunate that his uncle, who was almost a decade older than his father, was not a philosopher, but if he was a philosopher, his arguments at the poker table would definitely win more admiration from his peers. All his philosophical assertions can be compared and metaphorized with playing cards, so that more abstract philosophical concepts can be explained more concretely in the metaphor of playing cards, and from this aspect, his decades of experience in playing cards can create a philosophy of playing cards named after him, and his life experience in playing cards since he was a teenager will bring him a steady stream of wealth, and after he becomes a philosopher, His poker theories are sure to bring him endless fame in history. But no matter what, Wu Yuan's eldest brother Bin finally inadvertently got a sentence in his mouth that he understood from the playing cards can almost make Bin feel the concept of playing card life for the rest of his life, that is also a sentence in which he played a multi-person gambling with a group of men in the village, and the gambling rules are: as long as there are more than two cards in each of the cards in the game to lose five yuan, anti-spring (out of a card) to ten yuan, spring (not a card out) to twenty yuan. The position where Ming first sat had been sluggish, he had not won a single game, and after more than a dozen games in a row, he had lost one hundred and seventy or eighty yuan, and it was only then that he proposed to change his position, and the one sitting on his left was very happy to switch places with him. After sitting down for a few games, he relied on a game of cards, and played the whole game, except for the one who exchanged places with him, who was anti-spring, everyone else was spring. He got back most of the money he had put out through a game of cards, and after playing a few more games, he won a few more times, and this time he calculated that almost all of the money he had output had won back, he stood up and rolled out the game, and turned to watch others play, and after a long time, he sighed to himself that if his own water was not deep enough, then the more than 100 yuan he had in his previous book would have been wasted. When Bin, who was also a spectator next to him, heard this sentence at that time, he was suddenly shocked. In Bin's view, if you use this sentence to compare life, that is, on the road of life, everyone will have a time to turn defeat into victory, but it depends on whether you are not thick enough to buy yourself, whether you can persist to the end, if a person can persist to the end, no matter what, he can also have the opportunity to turn defeat into victory. Bin was shocked that he was able to not only come out of the game on his own, but also understand the rules between winning and losing in the game, and he could still move from emotional haiku to rationality, which is really rare, but it is also related to his experience in and out of the game in the past few decades. It's a rare feat to be able to play poker to the point where he can get out of a virtual game world, rather than just falling into it, as he did before. However, Bing Jingming was already in his sixties at that time, and Jingguan did not have the most comprehensive school education, but his life experience of more than sixty years still made him understand many problems in this life. In the simplest words, although his academic performance was not very good when he was in school, although he didn't know a word when his face became bold when he was studying, his life experience has told him what he has represented in the whole life, although he still didn't understand how to write a word in the end, but it has understood the most specific meaning that the chair represents in the whole life of the provincial capital, so how to write a word has not much meaning to him, How to write or what shape to write in these are already questions that scholars and researchers need to understand, they just need to understand what role and significance they have in their actual lives. There is nothing wrong with the need for learning in life, but it does not mean that it is necessary to think that learning means life. This sentence coincides with Yu Bin's dream of being a writer, his dream is to be a writer, but on the other hand, he is laughing at his own poor Chinese performance in school, but he also thinks that people with good language scores do not necessarily become a qualified writer, they should be more with the study of words and grammar, but the writer only needs to define the words to wake up, and his comments can be a true portrayal of the environment in which he lives in life, just like people usually speak, And how many people understand and will notice that the way they speak is inconsistent with the methods listed by the so-called researchers, who will only pay attention to the most direct expression in their inner world, what subject-verb-object, definite complement, all of which have little to do with them. A writer is also expressing the truest thoughts in his inner world, and their written expression is as simple and straightforward as they usually speak themselves, and they only need to express the meaning clearly, as for what grammar or how to arrange it in the orange wound, this is completely a matter of their fingertips. And creation in a sense is the innovation of words, Chinese writing has always been infinitely changing, as long as the expression of consciousness is accurate, it is the same in any way, if the grammar of words is used, this is a restriction on their text innovation, and it will be self-defeating in more cases. Therefore, as the old Chinese saying goes, it is better to believe in a book than to have no book, as long as the meaning is expressed correctly, why care about the right way or not? For innovation, it is a continuation of something that has been around for a long time. Life is not destined to be like the playing cards he has spent a lifetime on, no matter how many years he has spent investing in it, it will always be just a few numbers between its own internal changes, but people are different, although from the perspective of the face and the period of time, he is just like a playing card in several things constantly repeated back and forth, but life is constantly changing in advance whether it is from the material life of people or the spiritual world that belongs to each of their own self. As a wise man, although he still likes playing cards all his life as he used to, in the end he still has a detachment from his own spirit, and his life and material world are no longer limited to the playing cards that he has loved all his life, which is already a kind of progress and detachment in his spiritual realm. Of course, there is also a possibility that this is probably a relationship between each person's view of their own life in their own different stages of life, maybe everyone will have such an experience in the course of their life, but for Wu Yuan's spiritual realm who is still in the midst of self and stubbornness, this may still be a huge distance.

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