152 crumpled in the waves

The late summer afternoon sun was a bit strong and a little hot, but it wasn't very hot.

It's just that for a while, Li Xianxian really felt some hot sensation and panting when she was walking in the sun, maybe because of what happened just now?

Li Xianxian tried hard to shake those unpleasant things out of his mind, and no longer remembered them. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

In fact, after all the turmoil and some trivial and chaotic things, she was still a little dumbfounded,

It's as if she still hasn't reacted to her mind somewhat, as if, she can't react, and she doesn't seem to be able to figure it out.

Li Xianxian not only couldn't figure out how she provoked this person, but she also seemed to often get involved with this kind of character.

Thinking about it, I feel very annoyed in my heart, but I can't help it, I can't help it, she just did it in that country.

Moreover, she still plans to go in again, perhaps, after flowing through the muddy water, it will inevitably be able to get out of the matter, and it seems that there is no hope of being clean.

It's just that she feels sad and helpless there, but on that sad and helpless road, she and her husband still seem to be sighing deeply there, sighing that they have no way out.

She just slowly came to the river and sighed that she had no choice, if she really didn't do this business, then she still had to live and survive.

She doesn't know what instincts and skills she has to make a living, so what else can she do if she doesn't do this? What does she rely on to make ends meet?

She can't rely on her brother, and it's good that her brother doesn't often ask her for debts.

And now if she doesn't do something, she will simply sit there and eat nothing, how can she live and make a living.

Besides, she has sound limbs with hands and legs, so maybe she really should be doing something, so is that better?

She was just there confused, just uneasy and full of questions.

I once heard the words from there: "The lazier you are, the more you fall, the more you fall, the more lazy you are, and then there will be a vicious circle, and there will never be a better day." ”

Li Xianxian suddenly felt that the afternoon sun was a little dazzling, and she didn't know how these words suddenly came out of her mind.

It's just that it's difficult, it's just that it's hard to feel there, it's a kind of embarrassment and hardship that belongs to life and life, and it's also a kind of embarrassment and hardship in life.

She just felt that she didn't have much power, she was a weak woman, and she didn't have any strength at all.

She really couldn't think of any other way for her to support herself, except for that.

Is she going to feel ashamed? Or do you still feel helpless?

Or will you be self-satisfied about this, and you will be there to persuade yourself, and you will comfort yourself by saying that there is no way to do it?

Li Xianxian was so confused and confused, and then, she came to the riverside from the noisy street unconsciously,

There are rows of willow trees planted by the river, and the willows in late summer are still a little green, although there are a few yellow leaves that have fallen.

But no matter how you look at it, it is lush, and in the shine of the sun, all the flowing willow is like hair,

Like the warm and warm light that ripples in the field of the heart.

In the warm light, she dropped the two dirty shoes in her hand, and threw them aside, on the lawn by the river,

Anyway, it's a pair of dirty shoes, no one will want them, Li Xianxian doesn't care much about these, and no one will take them away anyway.

Li Xianxian came to a willow tree and stroked the tree pole with some nostalgia.

It was some tender time, some solace in life, some enjoyment in life,

Enjoy the feeling of belonging to life and life itself, and also enjoy and feel the flow and flow of life and life there,

It was there that I felt the existence of life itself.

It seems to be the simplest thing, everybody is alive there, just every day that they have to live.

But sometimes, it's like living there every day.

Some of the essence of life, some of the value and significance of some details of life,

Sometimes it will be carelessly ignored and forgotten there, or it may become indifferent there.

Li Xianxian herself has to admit that she is indeed a relatively lazy girl.

She was reluctant to do a lot of laborious or exhausting work, and then she found that this kind of thing was not suitable for her.

She didn't want that kind of thing, and she had to rule it out until the end, and she found that in those legitimate things,

There is nothing suitable for her to do, either it will be tiring, or it will be unbearable there.

Or if you want craftsmanship and skills, she naturally doesn't understand it because no one in her family has taught her since she was a child.

Her father died very early, and her family was originally a powerful family, until the final collapse,

All the way up to the decay of the family, everything was a surprise to everyone, but, if you think about it,

It is also an expected thing, the rise and fall of the family is always unable to show the essence and essence by the superficial glory of a time.

In addition, neither she nor her brother are people who care and work hard.

Li Xianxian is a woman, so naturally she doesn't have to go to school, and he, Li Zhiqiang, because he doesn't have to work,

After studying for a few years, he only felt that it was a waste of money, and in the end, he stopped reading, and he also read for a few years when his parents were alive.

Later, his parents had no choice but to ask him to go out to do business, but before the capital was recovered, his parents died.

Maybe this is a kind of exclamation and feeling of ups and downs in life.

I will always feel lonely and lonely there, and I will always feel the difficulty of survival there,

I always feel a little bit of uncertainty about the future, so melancholy and empty,

It's a kind of general that is difficult to grasp even your own life. Although Li Xianxian also thought about it, he had to spend time like this,

It's a day to spend like this, but it's not always a rebellion.

And the thing she found now was not a serious thing after all.

In addition, she is still young, she is obviously still very young, and she is already there and feels that life is not good.

If she gets old, what will she do?

When she was still young and she was still a little beautiful, it was true that some men liked her.

However, if she is not young in the future, she will not be so beautiful in the future, will anyone still like her?

Will anyone still want her? Will anyone marry her? Still is...... Her final path is just to marry someone else as a concubine? ……

Li Xianxian was so annoyed that he slammed his fist on the tree pole hard, but found that he couldn't use force,

Because if she really tried hard, it would hurt a lot, and she still couldn't bear it.

She just doesn't want her life to be like this, she doesn't want this kind of life yet, she still doesn't want to live like this.

However, she doesn't seem to know much about her life and life, and how she should live it.

She doesn't even know how to make her life choices.

My life seems to be settled there, and it seems that nothing will change there.

Then, she also seemed to feel that her fate was also set there.

Her life would have been like she was dead, just standing still.