2 And she was only there perplexed, and there she was perplexed, and she felt a kind of pain,

A kind of pain that seems so suppressed there, crying and crying,

It was so deep and painful crying, as if it wasn't good there, and it seemed that it was difficult and difficult there. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

She was always there for something she couldn't do.

The demands and standards of reality always seemed so high that it seemed as if she would never be able to meet them.

She would feel timid there, just crying timidly and fearfully there.

It is a kind of crying in the face of all kinds of difficulties and dilemmas on the road of life.

It's just that I feel the difficulties of life there, and it's just that in the midst of those difficulties, I feel powerless,

I can't do anything there, and I can't seem to change anything.

It is an urge, as if it were an urge, which belongs to life and life itself, and is also in the midst of that difficulty and difficulty.

She almost had a feeling there, as if she was in the middle of that pressure, and she was going to die.

There's a feeling of pain there, as if you're going to chase death so much.

I also felt a general sense of pressure and depression chasing death there, just urging there,

It's just that I feel driven crazy there, and I just feel hard there.

Will be there so terrified that I want to die.

Because there will be fear of life, and there will be fear and fear of all kinds of difficulties in life,

Even when those are afraid and evasive in the face of difficulties, they are there to try to learn to be stronger.

She was there trying to comfort herself, to be stronger, to be stronger.

She needs to be strong, and she can't be strong.

Because everything seems to be going on and going on and on all the time,

It also seems that it will happen and feel there as if it is dead.

What kind of perception and feeling of persecution is it, and it seems to be a kind of haggard waiting and watching that belongs to life and life,

It's like there's been waiting and watching out of it.

It's just that she feels like she's actually having a general feeling that she's about to be crushed and smashed with one stone after another.

She was just there to feel pain, just there to feel a hardship, a hardship to make ends meet. ，

It's just that in the midst of those hardships, she is already there with melancholy. It's already demented and sluggish there.

She didn't know what everything was going to turn out and what would happen again, she just wanted something to change.

If she could change herself, or her life itself, how much better it would be.

However, it is not what kind of expectations and expectations she has for life, life will be very peaceful there as she wishes,

Life is not as plain as water as she thinks, because if it is really plain as water, it is still healthy,

But she was just there and felt like she was dead. It is a kind of general that belongs to life itself, a sense of urging and struggling.

Is it something that you want to struggle and struggle in that life, and it seems that in that struggle and forgetting, it seems that you still want to forget and forget something there?

It's always not clear there. It seems that there is always no sense of right and wrong.

In those times when she couldn't find anything at all, she would feel distressed there, she would feel a kind of trouble there, and she would be angry with herself inexplicably there.

It's a kind of anger that you can't get away with and yourself. She was just troubled and depressed in it.

It's a kind of general helplessness that seems to be dead there, and it seems to be there as if it is dead and it seems to be forgotten there.

Just in that place, only in that blank and white sunlight,

It's as if it's a kind of dizziness and confusion in the sunlight and time and the turquoise wicker.

It's just that you can't find any kind of peace there, as if it is a very difficult and difficult thing to find a moment of peace there.

It's as if she's in one where she can't find her own heart, as if her own heart,

It's been in that long and long time, and unconsciously it's been there quietly and silently to eat something,

It's as if something was done there to die.

She was just in that place, and she was only there to feel sorrow and heartache.

It is a kind of sadness, but also a kind of embarrassment, but also a kind of forgetfulness and trance, and also a kind of mental haggardness,

A kind of fragmentation and what kind of pain and unbearableness in that struggle is about to die of emaciation,

It is a kind of emaciation that belongs to the mental strength, and it seems to belong to a kind of forgetting and forgetting in the mental strength there.

But it is a very unbearable and powerless kind of what kind of forgetting and forgetting general.

It's just that there seems to be something to care about, and it seems to be something forgotten there, and it seems to be desperate for something there.

There she laughed, she stood in the sunny wind and smiled, in the background of the fluttering catkins laughing helplessly and sadly,

It's a sad smile that sheds tears.

And she didn't feel a kind of despair for Ye Luowu?

Ye Luokong will never have anything to do with her.

There are some things that can't be forced. Yes, she can't force her to fall into vain, but she can't force herself either!

She couldn't force herself to just miss that Ye Luokong, and she couldn't force herself to be so good to Ye Luowu, in the end, it was just some politeness and politeness in return from him.

She can't stand those politenesses, she can't stand those politeness with distance.

Because it was too polite, it was as if it was deliberately alienating her there.

She is not a woman who can withstand loneliness.

Does she feel that she is in her youth, the best time of her life, how can she just endure loneliness and just indulge in that longing and nostalgia?

No, she can't do it, she really can't do it, she just misses it so much or is just there to deliberately hide her affection for him,

And on the surface, she just treated him like an ordinary friend, which was intolerable to her.

She didn't want to do housework, she didn't want to do any manual work, except as a last resort.

She would never tolerate herself just guarding an empty and lonely house there.

Therefore, Guose Tianxiang is the most suitable place for her to work and play, so to speak, it is the most suitable and most satisfying place for Li Xianxian's requirements, compared to other places.

However, Li Xianxian didn't understand why everything was there very, very conforming to her heart.

And there very, very satisfying her requirements, why is she not happy there,

Why is it so reluctant to be there all the time?

At least, there was a group of men there who would play with her, but she wasn't happy.

I don't like it either, it's not happy to play, she's just disgusted and bored, and she doesn't want that kind of life.

Although she is also very confused and annoyed by her ambivalence, she really wants to find the person she likes.

And in such a group of men, she seems to be there to fight against herself, but she just likes Ye Luowan, who shouldn't be liked at all.

Because Ye Luokong will never like her in his heart.

Or perhaps, Li Xianxian is really very suspicious, suspicious, Ye Luokong will not like girls at all.

Li Xianxian didn't know how she would have thought of this.

But compared to Ye Luokong's indifference and low-key.

His circle of communication is still narrow, at least there are very few people who are really familiar with his life and his heart and feelings.

At least Li Xianxian, who already knows him very well, still feels that he still can't see through him and his psychology how he sees Ye Luokong.