The story itself is accidental and unhistorical, it is an encounter with a friend whom I have not seen for many years, and it is here that things sometimes happen inadvertently, and then everything I know is known, and I will tell the story here. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

On the cold winter solstice, I was entrusted by my mother to go to my hometown in Jiangxi to worship my ancestors, and my mother repeatedly instructed in the letter, saying that in recent years, I often saw my first sister who died early in my dreams.

The bricklayer who built the tomb, the carpenter who made the coffin, the great monk who recited the scriptures, everything I knew was prepared in advance, and even the flowers on the new tomb I bought in advance, one is red, the other is yellow, and the family is a color, this new plastic flower that is only sold in the provincial capital, if you don't consider the color falling off, it will bloom on the grave all the time.

After a long journey, a few days later, I arrived as scheduled, stayed at my uncle's house for half a day, and went to Wei's grave early in the morning, and arrived at the destination, as my mother said, the river invaded the mound, not to mention pushing the grave and opening the coffin, a meal, in a black lump of rotten wood, in a mess of mud, I told you everything I could see.

I heard my mother say that my sister was seriously ill just after the full moon, and the cause of the disease is unknown, only that she died in half a month, so I don't know much about this sister who has never met, and of course I can't talk about how deep my feelings are. In a pile of black mud, I chose a part of the clay with hair strands and sealed it with a round porcelain jar to preserve it, in fact, I have heard that the most difficult thing to decay in the human body is hair.

When it was all over, I found out that I had abandoned the flowers I had bought and had left them in my lodging without bringing them, and it became more and more difficult for my already restless heart to calm down, and I could not imagine how my mother would feel when she knew what I had done. In Jiangxi's hometown, it is delusional to find a flower in the mountains in this cold winter.

The rest of the **** temporarily lived in his uncle's house, and he went to the old house to sort out some things during the day, and sold the ones that he couldn't take away, and scattered the worthless ones to the relatives and friends of the old people, so it had taken several days. However, in the end, there was a set of ancient books handed down by my grandfather, which was said to be valuable, and no one in the village could understand it, so it was a pity to discard it.

On the afternoon of the second day, I went to the market with my uncle's children to sell books, and in the evening, the people became scarce, and the children pestered them to say that they wanted to eat, so they settled down in a restaurant called 'Tongyuan Restaurant'. Just order food, the children gobbled up, and at the end when they were going downstairs to settle the bill, a figure hurried over, at first they didn't pay attention, and only after they found that they were familiar, and when he turned around and talked to the shopkeeper, although his face had changed greatly, he knew it at first sight. This young man was clearly my classmate and friend, and the only friend I could still remember when I was studying in Hunan. The unique hippie has become extraordinarily slow, very unlike the vigorous Ma Gu name of the year.

"Haha, I didn't expect it to be you, I never expected to meet you here."

"Ah, it's you? I never thought ...........! ”

I invited him to sit down, but he seemed a little hesitant and sat down for a long time. I was strange at first, then sad, and the joy I had just felt was much lowered. Looking closely at his appearance, he still has a messy beard; Pale rectangular face, a lot of weight loss. The spirit is more calm, or it is decadent, and the eyes with thick, dark eyebrows and low eyes lose their brilliance. But when they looked at me, there was a flash of light that I had often seen in my school days.

"We ......... We've been afraid for five or six years, and I know you're in City A, but I'm too lazy to put pen to paper, and I haven't been able to write a letter from beginning to end. I looked a little embarrassed and paused for a moment.

"Others wrote to me, but I never replied."

"By the way, what were you doing in City A before?"

"Teacher, at the Higher Teacher's College for Women, but only for one year."

"Teach what?" I asked again, "What about after that?" ”

"Mathematics, natural science, do you think it's the "Daughter's Sutra"? After that, doing everything is the same as doing nothing? ”

"I really didn't expect you to be a teacher."

He also asked me how I was doing after I said goodbye; While telling him a rough idea, I told my uncle's child to go back first, and at the same time added some wine and food, but he did not retreat, and the two of us began to talk slowly.

"As soon as I came back, I thought of my ridiculousness." Holding a cigarette in one hand and a wine glass in the other, he said to me with a smile: "When I was a teenager, I saw flies and bees stop in one place, and I was scared of something, and I flew away immediately, but after flying in a circle, I would fly back to the place where I had landed, which was very strange and ridiculous at the time, but I didn't expect that I would go out for most of my life and finally return to the starting point." ”

"You're back today, and you can't fly farther, or never come back."

I was a little unsure of what he meant, so I said with a smile: "It's hard to say, people fly in this life is nothing more than a big circle or a small circle, and why do you fly back." ”

"It's nothing more than something boring." He drank a glass of wine in one gulp, took a few puffs of cigarette, and his eyes widened slightly, "It's boring, but I'm still going to talk to you." ”

The added wine and food were served up by Xiao Er one after another, the flame of the oil lamp was burning more and more, the uncle's children had gone back, the restaurant that was not lively seemed to be quieter, and the sky outside was getting dark, as if something was floating in front of him.

"You probably do." He continued: "When I was still studying, one year I happened to stay in Jiangxi for a long time, and my family helped me book a family business, which was a household boat, and he had a daughter named Meizi, who you may have seen when you came to my house, but you must not have paid attention, because she was too young at that time, and later she was not good-looking, but she usually had a thin melon seed face and yellow skin; Only the eyes are very large, the eyelashes are also very long, and the whites of the eyes are as green as the night. She was very capable, she lost her mother when she was a teenager, and she called her two younger siblings to rely on her, and she had to serve her father, and everything was thoughtful and orderly. I remember the first time she came to the house when she was older, her father was at home, and he left me for lunch and buckwheat flour and told me that it was sugar. You think, there is a boat owner at home who can eat sugar, which shows that he sincerely accepts me. I was dissuaded, so I agreed, but asked for a small bowl. Meizi's father also understood me, so he told Meizi that they literati would not eat, so you should help him use a small bowl and add more sugar! ”

"But when the plums came, it still startled me, it was a big bowl, a whole big bowl of sugar. I've never eaten buckwheat flour in my life, but this time it's really delicious, but it's very sweet. I ate a few bites at random, and I didn't want to eat it, but unintentionally, I suddenly saw Meizi standing in the corner of the house, and I immediately lost the courage to put down my chopsticks. I looked at her eyes, I was scared and hopeful, afraid that I would not be able to adjust well, hoping that I would be able to eat deliciously, and I knew that if I had half a bowl left, it would definitely disappoint her and make her very sad. I let go of my throat and ate it all in a few bites. From this I only remembered the pain of eating hard food, I only remember the pain when I was a child after eating a bowl of sand pond with insects, and when I went back, I was so full that I couldn't sleep at night, and I had a lot of nightmares. Yet I did not complain in the slightest, for the triumph and joy with which she came to clean up the empty bowls, a smile that came from the depths of my heart, was nothing compared to the pain I had suffered! ”

He took out another cigarette, put it in his mouth, and lit a fire.

"Judging by the look on your face, you seem to have some anticipation. I'm a little uneasy, afraid that I'm finally going to fail your good intentions. He suddenly stopped, took a few puffs of cigarette, and then said slowly: "Today, just before coming to Jiangxi, my mother told me that Meizi didn't know who she saw wearing a red shearling flower on her head, and she wanted to have one, but she couldn't get it, she cried, cried for a little half of the night, and was beaten by her father, and then her eyes were red and swollen for two days. ”

His face was flushed, and he seemed to be a little drunk, but his eyes were depressed again. I sighed slightly, and I didn't know how to answer for a while.

"I didn't know that she had been beaten for a shearing flower, but I remember that one year, I didn't come back for a long time outside, once in S City, I happened to see a shearing flower, a big red, a pink, I heard that others said it was very suitable to give to a beloved, so I wrote a trustee to send it over."

Hearing this, I was a little strange, since Ma Gu wrote that the trustee sent flowers, why would Meizi be beaten for cutting velvet flowers, and at the same time faintly felt a trace of inexplicable unease.

"Since about last spring, she has seen that she is yellow and thin, and then she has often shed tears, and when asked her why, she will not say; Sometimes I cried all night, and my father thought that the girl was old and went crazy. But at the beginning of autumn, I finally lay down, and I couldn't get up from then on. It wasn't until a few days before she breathed that she was willing to tell her father that she had been like her mother, vomiting red and sweating at night from time to time. But I kept it a secret, afraid that the people at home would worry, and I never told anyone. ”

"A few days ago, Meizi went out of the funeral, and at her grave, there were two flowers clearly inserted, and the red and yellow could be seen from afar."

At this time, there was a noise downstairs, thinking that the shopkeeper was cleaning up, I turned my eyes to see Ma Guming, and he was also looking at me in a blink of an eye, so I asked the shopkeeper to count the wine money.

"What are your plans for the future?"

"Later? - I don't know, do you think I look like a person who thinks now, maybe I've been staying in Jiangxi, maybe I'll go back to City A! ”

The shopkeeper sent the bill, I took the money to settle the account, he didn't speak, as soon as he went out, one went to the east, one went to the west, the two said goodbye, the dim sky did not know when the snow was floating like cotton wool, in the courtyard of the restaurant, faint and fragrant, a plum blossom over the wall bloomed unevenly on the snow. Until the end, Ma Guming did not tell me whether Meizi received the velvet flowers he sent, I just want to say that Meizi has no blessing, no blessing to be together, I and Ma Guming met again It has been thirty years later, during which there are friends who rumored that he committed suicide in the northern city of A, however, everything seems to be not so important, in these thirty years Ma Guming has been fighting against fate, experiencing the ups and downs of life, and I am extremely fortunate to witness his beginning and death.