At the beginning of the nineteenth century, the climate of City A was hotter than in previous years. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info Maybe it hasn't come out for a long time, Geng Daquan's whole person has been in a mess in recent days, and people can't help but worry about a nervous breakdown, in order to relieve the already defeated body had to leave the attic, maybe to pass the time, maybe also to keep him from depressed, he should always find something to fill the vacant heart.

The streets are full of traffic at dusk, and the sound of "Didi" trams can be heard from time to time. The hot air rushed through the streets, showing no sign of dissipating, making him alien to passers-by. The navy blue gown was like a heavy futon covering his whole body at the moment, and the sweat was rolling in it, and his whole body was about to boil, thinking that he had been isolated from the world for a few days, and he couldn't help laughing for a while. Under the strange gaze of passers-by, Geng Daquan had to take off his long coat and hang it on his arm to get rid of the embarrassing situation, leisurely and casually learn the appearance of others, until he slowly integrated into the city without any abnormality.

After walking a few streets, I felt a lot cleaner, and the sweat gradually dissipated, and the whole person was refreshed as if I had been reborn. Then I inquired about the whereabouts of the post office, went all the way, and when I arrived at my destination, I took out the letters that had been prepared long ago from my long coat, carefully checked them, and carefully threw them in. Thinking that a miracle happened, maybe it could be seen by the editor-in-chief, and if it was published, it would be indispensable for a few small dollars, and at the same time, it would also find a way for him to survive.

When he walked back again, it was getting late, and the movement of human figures could still be seen sporadically, and a few mutters were heard from time to time, which showed that the people who should come back had also returned. Geng Daquan ate something casually, took a few books, sat down at the entrance of the building, smoked a cigarette and looked at the light. At first, I could read it, but after a long time, I was absent-minded, sometimes just looking at the blank space between the words, and sometimes I just cared about smoking.

I don't know how long it has been, but it is difficult to hear any more strange noises in my ears, and some of them are just bright moonlight shining through the glass on the window. However, a crisp "um" sound broke the calm, and a light and shadow appeared in front of him, and when Geng Daquan came back to his senses and knew that someone was back, he looked up, and sure enough, a woman was standing motionless under the light at the entrance of the building. Geng Daquan heard the landlord say that there was someone in the attic of the single room above, thinking that it should be her, and looked sideways, the woman was wearing a simple, white coarse cloth falling flower long skirt, and the black plate made simple and beautiful waist-length hair, with a tired face on her face, guessing that it was a woman who had returned from work, so she quickly stood up.

The woman first glanced cautiously at Geng Daquan, thinking that he was not a hateful person, and moved past him. Maybe it was because Geng Daquan took the initiative to apologize for making her debut, and asked in a low voice: "You... Also living upstairs? ”

Geng Daquan nodded, did not speak, and saw that the other party frowned, so he hurriedly threw the cigarette in his hand on the ground.

When the woman saw that he had extinguished the cigarette in his hand, she felt embarrassed for a while, so she said, "Are you reading here?" ”

When she asked, Geng Daquan was a little ashamed, he couldn't be clearer about what he was like, how dare he admit it, he just said: "No, just sitting here." ”

"It's good to read a book, but it's better not to smoke." The woman was clearly unconvinced.

"Yikes!" Geng Daquan looked at the woman in front of him, and he didn't know how to answer for a while.

The woman did not stop because of Geng Daquan's silence, and continued: "Our factory is making cigarettes, I don't know how much to do in a day, I have to deduct wages if I do one hour less, and sometimes I have to work overtime until late at night. ”

When the woman said this, Geng Daquan suddenly felt like he had done something hurtful, and he didn't dare to be silent anymore, so he cautiously agreed: "I'll try to smoke less in the future." ”

The woman cautiously agreed, thanked her, and turned upstairs.

It is true to say that Geng Daquan has the heart to calm down and do something, however, the double weakness of body and spirit makes it difficult to maintain a high ideal state for a long time. He could only wait for his spirits to improve a little before writing a few translations and mailing them to the newspaper, most of the time there was some chaotic mind that bothered him and exhausted him.

A few days later, Geng Daquan went out for a walk in the evening, saying whether it would help his weakened spirit, but his body was really better, and he could eat more, during which he met the woman upstairs many times at night, and knew that her name was Ah Mei, as he had guessed before; Ah Mei walked to the cigarette factory before dawn in the morning, and came back at night to cook, almost in the middle of the night to sleep, but every time I saw my sister would have a smile on her face.

One afternoon, Geng Daquan went to post again, and as soon as he went out, he saw the landlord come over and say, "Circle, there is a messenger outside who says that there is your letter." Looking at her face full of doubts, I didn't think anyone would write to him.

Geng Daquan also wondered, not to mention that he had never had any friends, and then he resigned and changed his teacher's residence, and not many people knew about it, who would write to him now? However, the landlord's words did not seem to be fake, and when he rushed outside, he saw a postman waiting anxiously, and when he saw someone coming out, he asked, "302?" Geng Daquan nodded, and the other party immediately handed him a bunch of things, and said with a smile: "You have put it away." ”

Geng Daquan received it in his hand and learned that there was a package wrapped in oiled paper, but there was neither a recipient nor a sender on the letter, and he didn't know if he asked the postman, so he just sent the letter to the designated address and didn't care about anything else. After hesitation, I decided to open the letter first, and the following is as follows: "The kindness of the king of that day is beyond words, and if there is no work of the king's hands, I am afraid that I have been buried in the ocean............. and now I have something important to ask for, I am grateful." - Robert. Hurd. "Then there are some specific events noted, Geng Daquan didn't look carefully, to the effect that he understood, but he didn't expect to send a fee with the letter, a bank bill of three yuan.

Geng Daquan didn't know Robert. Hurd, even more unable to remember this past, for a while only thought that a friend was afraid that he would not be able to save face and find an excuse to send money, he was almost unable to open the pot, whether it was really a friend to help him or someone else sent the wrong letter, the matter has come to this point and can only accept it with peace of mind. So I took the bill and went to the bank, and the staff took out the money a lot, and ran to call Wen, and really got a clear answer. These thirty yuan can be said to solve the urgent need of Geng Daquan,

Maybe God really took pity on Geng Daquan for sending him this windfall, he first paid the rent arrears, seeing that the weather was getting hotter and hotter day by day, and the long coat on his body was not enough to wear, if the heat stopped, there was still a discussion. When he arrives at a clothing shop, the owner is a middle-aged woman who lives in the same building as him, and she recommends a set of summer clothes. After packing, he went to the bathhouse, gritted his teeth and bought another piece of soap, a soap he had never seen before, square, with four arc-shaped corners, wrapped in a piece of turquoise paper, and opened it to find that the soap was also turquoise, printed with the texture of paper pressing, and smelled a faint fragrance of jasmine tea.

Geng Daquan took a comfortable bath with this piece of soap, changed into new clothes, and swept away the sadness of many days. He is such a person, most of the time he is quiet and confused, but he will always find a breakthrough, and his life will be full of brilliance. He would also buy some German brown bread, fruit might be a must, and he took care of the lodgings, and when everything was in order, Geng Daquan handed it over to Sunset.

I don't know when a breeze came from the window, with the unique coolness of summer, the light at the entrance of the building was gone, Geng Daquan got up and lit a candle, looked at Ah Mei's room, and knew that she had not come back yet, although he was hungry in his stomach, he didn't take the bread he just bought to eat, he wanted to wait for Ah Mei to share it together. I don't know how long it has been, Ah Mei never came back, and her tiredness crushed Geng Daquan on the pile of books.

When the sound of Ah Mei coming back woke Geng Daquan, the candle in front of her had reached the root, so she asked her what time it was? "The clock has struck ten o'clock," she said. ”

"Why are you back so late today?"

"The factory is selling too much, and we are asked to work at night. The wages are increasing, but the people are too tired. ”

"Then you don't have to do it."

"But there are not enough workers, and it is not possible to do nothing."

When she said this, two tears suddenly rolled out, Geng Daquan thought that she was tired of work, although he pitied her in his heart, but at the same time he saw her child-like temper, but he also felt some happiness, called her to come in and take out bread and bananas for her to eat, and at the same time comforted: "I was not used to working at night at the beginning, so I felt sleepy, but it is nothing to get used to."

Ah Mei sat on Geng Daquan's chair made of books, took a few bites of bananas, looked at him a few times, as if she couldn't say anything, Geng Daquan urged her, "What do you have to say?" ”

Ah Mei was silent for a while, and then asked intermittently: "I .......... I wanted to ask you ........ a long time ago, these few nights, you are outside every night, what can you do with the bad guys?" ”

Geng Daquan was shocked when he heard this, knowing that Ah Mei thought that he was going out every night to do some messy things, and before he could explain, Ah Mei said: "Why do you want to eat such good things and wear such good clothes?" Do you know that this thing is unreliable, and it will eventually be discovered, and how will you see people at that time! You listen to me, don't talk about the past, just ask you to change it. ”

Geng Daquan's eyes widened, he forgot to smoke the cigarette, and looked at her blankly, just because her imagination was too fast, how could Geng Daquan explain his windfall. Ah Mei was silent for a few seconds, and then said: "As far as the cigarettes you smoke, if you quit smoking every day, you won't be able to save a lot of money." I have long advised you not to smoke, especially not to smoke the cigarettes of the factory that I hate, but you always refused. ”

Ah Mei said this, the corners of her eyes could no longer stop the tears, her expression was excited and sad, Geng Daquan didn't know whether she was crying because she hated the factory or was just sad because he refused to listen to her advice, but how could the other party's kindness not shock him. After she calmed down, she told her about taking money to buy things today, and finally told her about her neurasthenia and the reason why she had to go out for a walk every night. Wouldn't it be better if you could do things well? You just said that if someone asks you for help, you will give 30 yuan, if a few more people ask you to help, then it is not okay? ”

Geng Daquan looked at Ah Mei's innocence, and suddenly felt an incredible feeling in his heart, just wanting to be able to hold her in his arms. However, the remaining reason told him that he couldn't hurt Ah Mei, and people like him were qualified to love someone. Geng Daquan closed his eyes, waiting for reason to overcome him before slowly opening his eyes, and the surroundings suddenly became brighter than a few seconds ago. smiled at her and urged, "It's late at night, you should go to sleep!" You're going to work tomorrow, and I'll promise you to quit paper cigarettes from today! ”

Ah Mei listened to Geng Daquan's words, stood up, and went back happily with satisfaction.

After Ah Mei left, Geng Daquan put on a new candle and thought about many things quietly. He has gone a long way on the wrong path all his life, and he has never been clear about what he wants, as if he is always struggling with contradictions, that is, he has not been able to please others and he is living in pain.

Of course, he wanted to do what he envisioned, but there were too many realities in front of him to be able to, suicide? Of course he thought about it, and he never thought that he lacked this courage, but he was thinking about how he could let this already rare person down if someone still had good intentions for him and hoped that he would live.

Ah Mei has a job but doesn't want to do it and has to do it, and he wants to work but can't.

He had to come up with a way to get himself out of poverty, most of the money he got today had been used, and an idea suddenly popped up in Geng Daquan's heart, a method that was not feasible, but as I said earlier, he didn't want to disappoint people who still had good intentions, even if it was not feasible, he always had to try.

The whistle of the factory outside, as if the bell was ringing at twelve o'clock, the whole building in the community had already slept, and in the distance were rows of western-style buildings, and a few red and green electric lights, where the cool breeze brought a crisp singing, sad and sad, which was about the singing of a wandering girl, who sold money there. The sky was covered with a gray mist, like a rotting corpse, and the dawn did not know when it would come.