Before I came, I seemed to have a lot of words, I wanted to say to my godmother, I wanted to have a good chat with my godmother, but when I came to him, knelt here, and saw that there was really only a coffin and a tablet left, and suddenly my head was blank, and there was nothing left. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

She could only numbly stretch out a hand, take the Huangquan paper, and burn it quietly......

Aunt Bai was beside her, trying her best to hold back her sadness, but she could hear the hoarseness and choking of her voice: "I woke up in the middle of the night, but I saw my godmother sleeping next to me, motionless, I was ...... I am a person who has experienced life and death, Wan'er, I don't advise you to mourn. ”

With the last half of the sentence, she cried and turned her face against the wall, as if to run away.

Tears slipped down palely, Ai Wan closed her eyes, and let the tears fall to the ground one by one, or be taken into her mouth, and the grief in the hundred bones was huge and grand, engulfing her fiercely.

In this world, there is nothing that lasts forever, but there are always people who think that their relatives can last forever, today? It's okay, tomorrow. Tomorrow? No time, the day after tomorrow. It was as if they had an infinite amount of time behind them.

In this way, it is difficult to see even the last side, and it will eventually become a regret.

There is no hope for family affection, and it is imagined that love will last forever and eventually become lost.

"I was wrong, godmother." Ai Wan opened her mouth, "I should have sent you out of the palace earlier, I don't even know if you are happy in the palace...... I give you fine clothes and food, and I go to see you occasionally, is it support?! Do I know what you think about every day? I know that your body is suffering from an old disease, and it is getting worse and worse?! Her expression was empty, "A person like me, full of sins, and delusional thoughts, what else can I hope for?" I should kneel in front of the Buddha, and my heart is like water, and I repent one by one. ”

Liu Qing looked at her, her indifferent heart was always sensitive for her, and she was a little uneasy at the moment.

“……”

After sending her godmother away, Ai Wan stayed in the Kongming Temple on the way back to the palace.

Before leaving, she said something to Liu Qing.

Standing by the lake, the lake is very green, the sky is very blue and blue, the white clouds are of various shapes, the air is damp and fresh after the rain, Ai Wan said quietly: "I used to think that I came here, it was inexplicable, and then I didn't think like that anymore, I said that I came here......" Looking at Liu Qing's handsome and unparalleled face, he gently raised the corners of his mouth, but Liu Qing's dark eyes tightened, "It's because of you." Ai Wan added gently, "But my life here, until now, I suddenly found that it is not so inexplicable and not so sensational...... I don't belong anywhere, I shouldn't miss any feelings, because I'm a fool who wants to live forever, so I should cultivate it, maybe, I belong to the clear sky. Only by cutting off everything in the world can I be carefree, painless and unhurting. I'm not running away, it's that I'm really thinking like this, and I now feel like there's a pair of hands behind me pushing me towards the temple, where everything is empty, and I believe that there, I'm going to be fine. ”

"Not really." Liu Qing listened to these words with a tense face, and coldly spit out two words.

"Liu Qing, don't force it anymore, you know that it is difficult to break the mirror. If you are ...... because of this child," Ai Wan gently stroked her lower abdomen, "I will give birth to him safely, I only hope that you will treat him like you did to Jun'er, please treat him better......" She looked at him compassionately, her voice became quieter, "Don't let our children follow the path you have walked before." ”

"You want to be forever, I can give it to you." Liu Qing clenched his fists, and the sound of bones pierced and penetrated. His eyes were like torches, staring at Ai Wan deadly.

He finally forgot that he was the king of the world, and forgot that he was Liu Qing, a descendant of the Liu family, at this moment, he finally only remembered that he was Ai Wan's man.

All he wants to do is keep his woman, the world? Liability? Get out of the way!

"Liu Qing, don't you understand?" Her voice became more and more small and fragile, and her eyes penetrated through the world, "There will be nothing that lasts forever, and what you can give is only a lifetime." I said that I am a very greedy person......" she smiled and shook her head, "I don't know, how I can hope for a long time, any feelings can be rotten, I know that people will only be more than a hundred years at most, and there will be an end." It's a painful thing for people like me to live in the world, why don't you want to let me go?! ”

"Because I want you." Liu Qing lightly followed the profound words, "I will not go to the empty gate, if I can make me not suffer, then I can only get you." ”

He told the truth, but Ai Wan's heart was full of sadness, "Your Majesty, please distinguish clearly, from the beginning to the present, whether you are love, pet, or possessive to me." ”

She turned around slowly, turning her back to Liu Qing and walking in the direction of Mingkong, "I think it's possessiveness, if it's love, you won't get lost in Concubine Nan's arms halfway, you won't just think about you, never think about it from my shoes." ”

Liu Qing's heart swelled, looking at her back, gradually drifting away, his voice contained a huge fear that even he didn't know, "If I don't love you......" he roared, "I won't let you go to see my godmother!" ”

If it weren't for the fear that she would have regrets, if it wasn't for the tears that he couldn't bear her tears, whose tears would he Liu Qing not be able to? Who are you afraid of having regrets? Only her, if this is not love, tell him what love is.

Liu Qing should chase after him, and he also thinks that he should chase after him, but he is doing what he would disdain the world if he was a bystander.

He actually stood where he was, obviously desperate to keep her, but he just stood there and stupidly shouted at her, "Have you forgotten what you promised me?" You'll never talk about leaving again, you'll never ...... again."

Never, leave.

His feet, as if tightly bound by invisible vines spreading up from the ground, Liu Qing's deep voice gradually became so small that it choked into his throat, it turned out that in front of parting, he could only watch.

……

The sunset in the distance projected Liu Qing's lonely back on the icy lake, red and unreal.

"Your Majesty, you have been standing here for a long time." Mingyue stood beside Sheng Wang, and couldn't help but say to the back in front of her, slowly sad, "Queen Mother...... Won't be coming back. ”

"yes." Sheng Wang echoed, "Your Majesty, your dragon body is the most important, the queen mother, you will figure it out one day." ”

Liu Qing looked at the remnant sun in the distance, his dark eyes were silent, and his thin lips were pale: "In the past, I never imagined that one day I would be trapped for love...... She has never forgotten my "betrayal", how could she forget my "betrayal", so now she has suffering, pain, tears, and even despair, and is willing to go to the Tao with a Buddha statue that will not respond, and she must stubbornly turn her back to me. ”

"I know that I didn't do a good job, but, but I really love her, I really love ......" his sword eyebrows frowned in pain, and his voice was suppressed only by himself, but it was extremely sincere and painful, "I, I really love you......"

The fist behind him, the palm of which was already dripping with blood.

The emperor's unfathomable eyes seemed to be filled with a trace of mist that made people think it was an illusion, and the fog was forcefully pressed down by the emperor before it blurred the emperor's vision......

In the temple of the clear sky.

Ai Wan walked in with a resolute heart, and after being taken in, she took her to practice. Every afternoon after listening to the chanting, she sat in front of the Buddha for a while, she looked at it for a while, but every time she stood up, she walked out of the Buddha hall, and the sky outside was already half dark.

She looked back at the Buddha statue, but she couldn't remember what she had been thinking that afternoon.

The abbot of the temple came, his expression was as light as clear water: "Donor, the sea of people is the sea of bitterness, the sea of bitterness is endless, turning back is the shore, how many people understand, but there are very few people who can turn back, you can come here, I have seen your sincerity to the Buddha, I will live here in the future, with peace of mind." Now that you're here, don't think about it. Heart Sutra, remember three copies every day......" His voice of instructions, word by word, was very slow, very slow, with an inexplicable magic, and the listener felt calm.

"Thank you, Abbot, Wan'er knows." Ai Wan stood up and nodded slightly.

The abbot turned to leave, she raised her eyelids and looked at the abbot's quiet back, for a long, long time.

He must have arrived at the palace.

She turned around and walked into the Buddha hall.

……

In the palace, a treacherous corner.

In the palace of Concubine Nan, in the inner hall, Concubine Nan and Aunt Bai sat face to face, and between them, there was a chessboard of black and white children fighting each other.

The hot tea on the side was still steaming, and Concubine Nan's true words were terrifying: "It is worthy of being the person who knows Ai Wan best, and knows how to stab her to make her collapse in pain, I just asked you to find a way to teach Ai Wan to stand out for our southern country, but you directly forced her out of the palace ......" Concubine Nan's hand with the ring slapped three times, and the sound of the ring colliding was dim, "Aunt Bai also gave her hand to the godmother, and she really deserves to be the general's wife of the general of my southern country." ”

"......" Aunt Bai was short of breath and stared at her expressionlessly.

"You are doing evil yourself, what are you doing watching me do like this? I didn't let you kill anyone, it was ...... kill you," Concubine Nan squinted gloatingly, "Ai Wan's godmother." You say, if she knows the truth, will she collapse again, or will she take the sword and kill you?! ”

"......" The hot teacup was tightly held by Aunt Bai.

"Heh, don't be so nervous." Concubine Nan covered her sleeves and chuckled, and observed Aunt Bai with a charming gaze that she suddenly did not smile, "Aunt Bai, it is useless to force her out of the palace, she collapsed, and it was not Liu Qing who collapsed, you know what I wanted......" She curled her fingers, knocked on the table slowly, and added, "As long as I stop the war, the southern country will be safe." ”

“…… So? ”

"Aunt Bai is so smart, she naturally knows how to do it." Concubine Nan smiled, "Think about it, I'm not as ruthless as Aunt Bai, I'm here to advise, isn't it too self-righteous?!" ”

Concubine Nan sipped half a cup of tea lightly and raised her palm slightly: "Qi'er, send off." ”

"Yes." Concubine Nan's personal palace maid walked to Aunt Bai'er's side with an expressionless face, "Please leave." ”

“……”

Concubine Nan watched Aunt Bai leave, lowered her eyes indifferently, and drank tea coldly: Liu Qing, one day, you will only see me in your eyes. Regardless of whether there is a southern country or not.

……

Qi Er secretly sent Aunt Bai in, walked in, and said with questions: "Isn't Niangniang's purpose to gain a firm foothold in the harem?" Now that the queen is out of the palace, it is the best time for us! Why did Niangniang call Aunt Bai today, suggesting that she go to the queen again? How could the queen refuse Aunt Bai, at this time. So isn't the queen involved again? Qi'er is only afraid that it will be against us......"

"This trick is a bit risky, but it's better to seek it in danger." Concubine Nan stood up, looked at the sky outside the window and sighed, "If Nanguo can keep it, it will naturally be better." ”

"So ......"

"At the beginning of the palace, I just wanted to lend the matter of sending troops to the southern country, so that Ai Wan and the emperor had a gap in their hearts, but they didn't want to, the general's wife went off the rails and killed Ai Wan's godmother, causing Ai Wan to have a haze in her heart and no longer return to the palace, which was originally unintentionally inserted into the willows, but the palace also thought that it would be good if she could keep the southern kingdom again...... "Is she greedy, but people, who is not greedy."

"So, this palace is doing this today, the general's wife who loves the country and her husband is a wonderful chess piece, and it is not impossible to use it twice. Now that Ai Wan is gone, the emperor must have thought to himself, then she might as well not leave. This time the palace wants them to break with them completely. ”

Qi'er bent down and said: "The slave and maid understand, Niangniang wants to add another one to them, for the south and for herself." ”

"That's right." Concubine Nan said with a smile, "Whether Nanguo can be saved or not depends on Nanguo's fate, this palace has done its best, and it has a clear conscience." But I ...... myself It must have a good ending, because this palace doesn't believe it, Ai Wan is spoiled and spoiled, meddling in his politics, and he can bear it. Can he endure it, can the entire northern kingdom endure it? Can you endure the bright future of Kitakakumoto?! ”

It is certain that they will break with each other. Because of their disparity, who can understand whom.

Concubine Nan smiled, drank the tea, Liu Qing, I will definitely let you remember, remember me, remember me again.

……

……

When night falls, the palace lights are shining.

In the quiet lake of the palace garden, a lantern with a fire burning inside drifts with the water to the direction outside the palace.

Liu Qing stood quietly in front of the lake.

Sheng Wang and Mingyue, who followed him, chewed on the words in a low voice: "You are all day long, you only have swords and murders in your eyes, do you know, but it is not festive, why did the emperor come to put the lamp?" ”

"I want to know." Mingyue said sadly, "But since I was a child, my world is all about doing things for him, and these daughters are ...... Oh no, these idle things, I really don't understand, but I want to know. She looked at Sheng Wang expectantly, "Can you tell me?" ”

Sheng Wang raised his eyebrows, "The lamp has been waiting and waiting." ”

"What?"

"Wait for the lights!"

"Oh, oh."

"Your Majesty, this is thinking of the queen." Sheng Wang sighed.

"Is that so?" Mingyue muttered, "It turns out that waiting for someone can be so beautiful and romantic......"

……

In the bright sky in the distance, after eating fasting and washing, Ai Wan curled up on the edge of the bed in her room, looking at the Heart Sutra she had copied today.

After looking at it for a moment, she closed it and fixed her eyes on the darkness outside the window.

I don't know where it came from, a female voice, a series of singing voices, Ai Wan raised her ears suspiciously, and listened: "The soul of this life withers...... The soul withers, and I will meet you again...... Goodbye, goodbye, no regrets...... No regrets......"

She lifted her heart and got up to open the door, but to her surprise, there was calm outside.

"Chenjue, what are you doing?"

Ai Wan was startled, turned her head to look, and a woman in a nun's cloth dress stood there with a swish, looking at her, laughing all at once, and walked towards her, "Chenjue, Chenjue, what are you doing?" You said you were going to take me to the world outside the mountains, let's go, I've already packed up, let's go!! ”

"......" Ai Wan's arm was pulled, and Ai Wan looked at the woman in front of her in front of her who had made up and was still wearing Buddhist clothes.

"Take me away, you said you would take me away...... Where are you? Where are you? The woman pulled Ai Wan's long hair that had been exposed to the air and pulled Ai Wan's pain, but she said, "You're not him, you're not him, he doesn't have that long hair, he doesn't have hair, he doesn't, he doesn't have hair......

As he spoke, he turned back and seemed to be still looking.

She's crazy. Ai Wan's hand holding the door tightened, looking at the back that seemed to have lost the whole world, and her heart was inexplicably sad and monstrous.