Later, I still heard the news of Bai Xin's mother's death, but I never saw the crying female man again. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

I don't know how things have changed, what kind of blow she will have if she has experienced the death of a loved one. Maybe people have no heart and lungs in front of them, just like a mentally retarded patient. However, in the dead of night, no one can understand the days when a person is lonely and alone.

"I'm going to go out for a walk and live in a different environment." Bai Xin told me about her plans on the phone.

"When will you be back?" I don't care where she goes, I just want to know when she's back.

"Your junior year started, and I started my sophomore year. I'll be back. Have you forgotten that I still want to be a research institute? On the other end of the phone, she seemed to be full of hope for the future, and everything was in her own plan.

We exchanged pleasantries for a long time, and then we were silent for a moment. As the phone time increased, I gradually heard a distinct sobbing sound on the other end of the phone.

"When I feel bad, I cry." I said softly.

"It's either uncomfortable or regretful. In the past, I always thought that it was a long time and I could continue to be so unscrupulous, but it was less than three months from my mother's illness to her death. For her, seeing my wayward appearance, how sorry she should be when she left. I hadn't grown up yet, and she died. For me, the days when my son wants to raise but can't wait for my relatives make me at a loss. Without a haven from the wind, I am like a stray wild dog, no one loves me. ”

An atmosphere of pathos instantly hung over my head. A girl who has just become an adult, but suffers from family changes, so that she has to grow up overnight and become the pillar of the family, which is really distressing.

"You still have your father, love him well, be filial to him, you are now the pillar of the family, let him gradually come out of the pain of losing his wife." I don't know if it's good to talk like that.

"Actually, I hate the era I was born in, family planning has left me with one less person to discuss in front of big things. You won't understand the despair of missing a move and losing everything. I knew that having an extra child would have to face huge fines at the time, even black households, or even unemployment. But they still only wanted me to have a child. After all, I don't have the courage to touch the bottom line of the law. By the end, I could clearly hear her complaining about her parents.

"Actually, it's not their fault, at least you have received double the love and care, you have no worries about food and clothing since you were a child, and you are used to living a life of pearls in the palm of your hand, I can understand the feeling of suddenly being degraded from a nobleman to a commoner, but one day, you will leave your parents to grow up alone, and your parents will also be in the consumption of years, birth, old age, sickness and death. What we have to learn is to accept and understand this world that we don't understand very well. ”

"My mom is dead, how do you make me understand?" She shouted indignantly on the other end of the phone, as if I was the cancer cell, the murderer.

The chilly atmosphere made me cold from the top of my head to my heels.

I remained silent because I had clearly provoked her.

"You won't understand." With that, she hung up the phone. Left a beep hang-up sound.

Later, I learned that you can't be reasonable with girls, because their main line is not rational logic at all, but a perceptual circle of thinking, just like a whirlpool, you still have a glimmer of life along the whirlpool, if you go against the grain, you will only find death. They tell you these things for psychological comfort, and what they want is not answers, but comfort. Because this is not a black and white world, there is no standard answer to anything.

When you were born, when you grew up, when you matured, when you got married and had children. We are not a stylized program that requires countless if statements to determine yes and no. More often than not, it's just spinning in the diamond-shaped box of the if, and then a random answer that is neither yes nor no, and then moving on.

I don't know why it's so bleak in the shallow winter season. I was like an innocent warrior who went on a rampage in someone else's world and ended up bleeding from my head.