Ups and downs, desolate and desolate, Tian Donkey lived a full eight years of wandering. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

In these eight years of displacement, Tian Donkey bravely walked through every bump, stepped over every thorn, endured hardships and shed tears, needless to say, with the dream of one day going home to farm and marry a daughter-in-law to inspire himself, inspire himself, step by step to today, but, in the dream of today, he lost the courage to live.

Tian Donkey stood dumbfounded, dazed, and couldn't help imagining that after being freed from the suffering of this life, in the next life, he could have a good birth, and he could live aggrievedly without swallowing tears like now. He didn't know how long he had been numb, how long his head had been blank, but he felt that his body was like a pile of cold ashes, slowly losing weight, and it seemed that he was about to fly, but he was not dead, how could he fly? He just knew the feeling clearly, the feeling of powerlessness.

It's really a cruel and cold city, the city that I have dedicated with blood and sweat, and what I give back to myself is a desire to seek death, or in this cold winter when the wind is howling! It's really a numb and ruthless world, the cold world that he has embraced with youth and enthusiasm only gives him the coldness of the world. It's really a superfluous life to die, a person like him who struggles to survive like an ant, and when he dies, he will only let the stinking body rot a cloud of air, what is the greater benefit of living? But the city in front of them, the huge world, the heavy life, what is wrong with them? They just don't belong to them. So, if you die, if you die, it won't hurt, and if you die, the world will be painless, what a good thing!

Enough life, enough sadness, the whole meaning of his donkey's life is probably to appreciate this endless sadness, no, there is an end! Death is the end of desolation, and he has come!

However, after strengthening his determination to die, Tian Donkey didn't know how to die, just like he didn't know how to live well. It's really a dilemma, a dilemma of life and death, Tian Donkey, what should you do?

It's like in the world of donkeys, the difficulties are always greater than the sky! The difficulty of how to die hangs over you like a dark cloud, and slowly spreads, and you are about to defeat yourself! The more I thought about it, the more discouraged I became, and the more I thought about it, the more frustrated I became, it turned out that he really didn't know how to kill himself. Hang yourself and drink medicine to wipe your neck, or jump off the building and hit the street to find an accident? How to die? Where did you die? Does death cause trouble? The kind-hearted donkey just wants to die quietly and harmlessly and cleanly, but it seems that every way of death needs a price, not the price of courage, but the price of money, he imagined that even if he was pulled to be cremated as a nameless corpse after he died in every possible way, he also needed money, and the city is not better than the countryside, not everywhere the loess can bury people, the city is reinforced concrete, there is no trace of loess. Thinking about it, Tian Donkey sighed deeply, hey! In this city, there is a price to live, and death needs a price, so he can't afford to live and die! And, at this time, he was hungry.

Hungry, the intestines in his stomach were like an infusion tube that had entered the air, and like a tattered well rope on the edge of the well, howling and wailing, so that all the imaginary deaths of the donkey stood aside, and they were all dimmed. At this moment, Tian Donkey, who even felt that he was desperate and luxurious, closed his eyes helplessly, and shouted silently in his heart, "God, you don't let me die, how can you let me live!" ”

Cease! Cease! Cease!

Just like the sonorous and powerful singing of the heroes who were dying on the stage of their hometown, Tian Donkey gritted his teeth and stomped his feet, and finally decided that he would simply resign himself to fate and starve to death. Think about it, compared to the death methods such as hanging himself and drinking medicine to wipe his neck, starving to death does not require any tools of death, it is a very economical way to die, and it is the best way for God to reward him with a donkey.

Thinking so, Tian Donkey began to prepare to starve himself to death, but the warehouse could not stay any longer, because even the dilapidated wooden bed was moved by the angry workers, if he wanted to starve to death in this warehouse, he could only die on the cold floor under his feet, but this place could not, this was his sad place, how could he bear to let his corpse lie here to guard those solidified sorrows? In that case, even if he dies and becomes a ghost, he will not be able to live in peace, so if he can't here, then leave, no matter where he is, as long as he leaves here, he can face death quietly.

Walking out of the warehouse, it's another night. The beauty of this city is charming and swaggering in this star-like neon light. Ah, the prosperity is still eye-catching, but the temptation to yourself has been lost. Tian Donkey looked around in distraction, and looked around with a dull gaze, not knowing where to go, so he could only walk wildly and follow his footsteps to wherever he could. It's just that he deliberately avoided those streets and houses that were overflowing with fragrance, although this was very cruel and irresponsible to his body and stomach, but Tian Donkey could only continue to starve his stomach and drag the empty skin bag to continue to walk on the road to starvation. Sometimes, he felt that he didn't live like a death row prisoner, and those death row prisoners would eat a full meal before he died, feast on it, and be a full ghost after his mouth, and he could only choose to be a hungry ghost impotently, and even, several times, his nose was guilty, and he greedily breathed a few mouthfuls of the smell of food sent by the distant wind that filled the air, and he wanted to cut off his nose, and then, with his hands clenched his mouth and nose, ran wildly, avoiding the delicacy like a plague, Run to death like a paradise of joy.

Stumbling all the way, my steps were high and low, I don't know how long I walked, I don't know how long it took, but the hustle and bustle around me was getting farther and farther away, the heavy night was getting darker and darker, and the red light in front of me was getting brighter and brighter. Perhaps instinctively, Tian Donkey walked towards the red light. Presumably, his eyesight began to dim due to excessive hunger, and he couldn't tell what the red light in front of him was. Ah, if that is the light of hell, then he has reached the end of the body, and if it is the light of heaven, then he has reached the end of the soul, in short, away from the tall buildings, away from the warm and cold world, whether it is heaven or hell and the donkey accepts it.

"Mister"

As soon as he entered the alley, no, to be precise, it was Tian Donkey's right foot that had just stepped into the alley, and when his left foot was still hanging behind him, he was caught by a pair of soft and fragrant jade hands, and what surprised him even more was that the beautiful woman in front of him who was like a goddess descended from heaven turned out to be the owner of the pair of jade hands, and the two petals opened slightly and gently wriggled red lips, and issued a call with pink and floral fragrance really frightened Tian Donkey.

Tian Donkey's instinctive flashed back like an electric shock, intending to shake off the woman's hand, but he was grabbed tighter, strangely, the woman's hands were like handcuffs, not only handcuffed Tian Donkey's arms, but also hooked his soul, making him even more trance, so, in a trance, he boldly looked at the woman, and then doubted in his heart.

"What? I'm already dead? It's that easy? Could it be that this is heaven? ”

Under the double torture of exhaustion and hunger, Tian Donkey only felt that the world was spinning, and he was confused in the face of the charming woman in front of him, and wondered in his heart whether he had died to heaven and saw an angel? is also a little lucky, that is, I didn't expect it to be so easy to die, if it was so easy, he shouldn't have been sad for so long, thinking for so long, causing him to become a ghost now and be hungry.

"Mister"

The woman called sweetly again, and called back the soul of Tian Donkey's out-of-body body. If this second call made Tian Donkey's dazed head a little more reasonable, then the next sentence completely sobered Tian Donkey'er.

I saw the good-looking woman, with an intoxicating smile, looking into Tian Donkey'er's eyes, and asked gently.

"Overnight?"