Lili fell asleep as if she was dead. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Tian Donkey stood in front of Lili's bed, guarding Lili's dream like a scarecrow guarding the wheat field, although he didn't know if Lili still had a dream. He hung his hands, hung his head, a sourness in his nose could not suppress the stinging of the tear ducts, and the corners of his lowered eyes began to moisten, finally, he silently shed two lines of tears, and then, he slowly stretched out his hand and began to slap himself, again and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, The crisp slap sounded like the sound of an angry drummer beating a gong and drum, knocking on the unwilling fate! And, while fanning himself, he scolded himself.

"It's useless, it's really useless......"

If you could atone for your incompetence by beating yourself hard, your life would have been much easier.

Tian Donkey didn't know how many times he hit himself, but he only felt that his arm was sore, and his cheek was numb and unconscious because of the swelling, so he stopped.

"Lili, I'm sorry, I'm useless, I can't even let you eat, it's me who is useless, it's me who is useless...... I don't know what to do...... What the hell am I supposed to do? ”

The salty tears were full of humiliation, the humiliation of the dignity of a man who fell and was broken because he could not support it, and the humiliation of the dignity of being alive.

At that moment, Tian Donkey's sadness was not his own life, but his life with Lili, he didn't know what they should do tomorrow? Tomorrow's breakfast, lunch and dinner, in an instant, tomorrow seemed to turn into a mountain pressing down on him. Yes, there are so many tomorrows in his life, and Lili's life also has so many tomorrows, but where is the food they need? He doesn't even know what to give Lili tomorrow? If there is no Lili, Tian Donkey can give up a lot of things, for example, give up his dignity as a human being and then beg, maybe he can live, but he can't give Lili such a life, she is still so beautiful.

It turns out that the most ridiculous fear and the saddest worry in life is the helplessness of three meals a day.

Pain, sobering.

Finally, Tian Donkey woke up himself, the swelling of his cheeks and the soreness of his arms stabbed Tian Donkey's soul alternately, at that moment, Tian Donkey vowed to protect Lili's beauty, he no longer humbly begged or prayed, because he knew that the cruelty of fate is to make the bad worse, there is no myth of fate in this world that reverses the world, even if there is, it does not belong to him Tian Donkey! Now, it's time to make a change, it's time to rebel against life, it's time to put in a little bit of strength to change the status quo, he, he's going to do that! - If that was his fate.

The next day, Lili's throat was miraculously healed, the inflammation disappeared, the pustules disappeared, there was no more bleeding, no longer hoarseness, and she spoke as well as a nightingale again.

"Look, I'm fine!"

With a little joy, Lili stood in front of Tian Donkey, thin and thin, like a flower about to wither, extremely weak.

Tian Donkey, who had not slept all night, looked into Lili's eyes with red eyes, and then said in a deep voice.

"Lili, take me there......"

When Lili heard his words, she was stunned at first, and then looked at Tian Donkey in confusion.

Tian Donkey's face was expressionless, and Mu Mu continued: "I thought about it all night last night, thinking about the way out of our life, but thinking about it, there is no way out, it really makes me angry." In the past, I always said that I didn't want to live like my father, I was abducted and deceived in the first half of my life, and I always looked down on him in the second half of my life begging for food on the street, but now, I suddenly understood him, because that was his only way out, but where was my way out? Lili, you see, I'm really useless, I really don't know how to go on. Hmph, it's ridiculous, life, it's always counterproductive, I'm not as good as my dad now, at least he still has the courage to walk that way, life can't be poor, as long as you are poor all of a sudden, you can't turn over, especially, people like me who have been poor for generations......"

Tian Donkey's words, as if they were for Lili and for themselves, were a little chattering. Lili silently stretched out her hand, as if soothing an injured child, and gently stroked Tian Donkey's hair twice, and Tian Donkey continued.

"However, I will not give in, and I will not surrender to the turtle grandson under the bastard of life! So, that's probably the only way I can go."

As he spoke, he couldn't help but reach out and take Lili's hand, as gentle as Lili had just stroked her hair. But Lili's hand had no temperature, it was as cold as a stone, and it was like the hand of a person who had been dead for a long, long time, for this reason, Tian Donkey'er's heart trembled, but his determination did not waver, but became firmer.

He held Lili's hand as if he were holding a precious and true gift, and said firmly to Lili.

"Lili, I want to test the medicine!"

"Why?"

"Because...... I'm afraid of losing you, I'm afraid of living like this alone, Lili, I'm sorry, I'm so selfish, thank you, Lili, thank you for coming back to life"

"I'm scared, I'm scared to live like I'm scared to die"

"Thank you, Lili" Tian Donkey was a little excited, and unconsciously held Lili's hand, and his grip was a little tight, because what he wanted to say in his heart was a thousand words, but because of excitement and nervousness, he said something incoherent.

"Brother Sanjun, I've never heard such nice words, can you say it for me again?"

"I'm sorry, Lili, I'm sorry......"

Tian Donkey'er thanked for a while and apologized for a while, expressing his heart incoherently. Yes, he wanted to thank Lili, thank her for this incomparably precious gift of life in his life, accompany him to face the life of poverty, and also feel guilty, because he couldn't let Lili continue to be beautiful, that kind of emotional and guilty mood tormented him, as he spoke, his nose was sore, like a child, suddenly cried, he couldn't help hugging Lili, as if holding something lost and regained, holding Lili who woke up and stood in front of him, crying uncontrollably.

Lili stroked the donkey's head again and muttered.

"Fool...... Why are you crying? ”

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... Lili ......"

Tian Donkey repeated, repeating over and over again that he was sorry.

"Fool, it's not your fault, that's not your fault, everything is not your fault, and thank you for worrying about me, though, you really ...... Got it in mind? ”

Tian Donkey raised her head, let go of Lili, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, and said.

"Well, I thought about it, I want to test the medicine, but, in the future, you are not allowed to test the medicine, you can't touch it, you know?"

Lili nodded.

"No, I want you to promise me"

"Okay, I promise, but, Brother Sanjun, tell me why you did that?"

“……”

"Tell me, why did you do that?"

“……”

"Everyone's life, whether it is poor, rich, beautiful, rotten or rotten, belongs only to themselves, Brother Sanjun, so, please tell me why, okay?"

“…… I want to heal you! ”

This is the best love story Tian Donkey has ever said in his life. It is also the best love story Lili has ever heard.

“…… That's good......"

As she spoke, Lili smiled, laughing and laughing and crying.

Tian Donkey wiped away her tears over and over again, but Lili's tears, like pearls, kept falling.

In this way, Tian Donkey also stepped into the ranks of drug trials and became a guinea pig.

On the day Lili took Tian Donkey to test the medicine, the weather was still hot, and the whole sky was like a large curtain that would spontaneously combust at any time, covering people's heads, and there was no trace of wind penetrating the stuffiness, making people feel like they were about to suffocate.

Along the way, Lili didn't speak, Tian Donkey didn't speak, and when she was about to arrive at the hospital, Lili gently held Tian Donkey's hand, as if she was comforting him, as if it was a silent ritual, and silence was its theme.

Tian Donkey smiled at Lili, patted the back of her hand and said.

"Don't worry, my body is stronger than yours, I can bear it, don't worry"

Lili nodded silently.

It was a humble place that could not be called a hospital or a clinic, and the only sign was a faint red cross on the blue-gray concrete wall next to the rusty tin door, and, as you could see, was a little blurred because it had been washed away by time and rain. And behind the door, which didn't look like it would be walked through, there was a door, and on that door, there was a half-filthy curtain. Lili walked in front as if she was familiar with the road, and Tian Donkey followed behind, and walked into the two doors one after the other.

When he entered the door, he entered that strange world, Tian Donkey'er's eyes kept looking around, no one made eye contact with him, everyone was very indifferent, as if no one cared about whether there were people in or out of the small door behind him, but Lili seemed to be accustomed to all this, and did not feel strange. Tian Donkey continued to observe, those who came to test the medicine, both men and women, and even, a few young men and women who were gorgeously dressed and immersed in the music world with headphones on their ears also appeared there with their heads down. Everyone lined up in a long line with expressionless faces, waiting quietly, as if waiting for a gift of fate.

"Lili, what should we do now?"

"Line up first, someone will come and give you medicine later"

"It's that simple?"

"Hmm"

"And then?"

"And then just wait"

"Waiting? What are you waiting for? ”

"Wait to see the effect of the drug and the body's reaction after the test, if everything is normal, you can take the money and leave"

"Really?"

"Hmm"

Lili's words made Tian Donkey surprised and delighted, he didn't expect that testing the medicine was such a simple thing, even simpler than selling blood, there was no threshold, no difficulty, no blood, and even no inquiry and physical examination as Tian Donkey imagined, he knew that he should have come earlier.

"It's too easy, I also brought my ID card, I guess I won't need it"

"Well, they don't need to know who you are"

"Oh, that's good, Lili, then I'll wait by myself, you go outside and wait for me, it looks pretty simple, I'm fine, don't worry, when I'm done trying, I'll come out to find you, let's go home"

"Hmm"

Then, Lili nodded and went out.

Tian Donkey began to wait with antiquation. He was still curious to look back and forth, left and right, and suddenly, a middle-aged man with a wrinkled triangular eye in another team not far from Tian Donkey whispered to him.

"You're new here?"

Suddenly, someone was talking to him, which surprised Tian Donkey, and the other party could see at a glance that he was a newcomer, which surprised him even more.

"Well, how do you know?"

The man pretended to smile mysteriously, did not answer Tian Donkey, and then asked again.

"Who is she?"

“……”

"The woman who came with you?" As he spoke, the man snorted at the little man who walked out of Lili, signaling and reminding Tian Donkey.

Tian Donkey didn't know how to introduce his relationship with Lili to him for a while, so he looked at the man in a daze, but the man nodded to himself, smiled again, and stopped talking.

The long wait was like a trial, torturing people, and Tian Donkey waited a little overwhelmed, so he asked the man who had spoken to him just now.

"That...... Big brother, I wonder, why don't you speak? ”

"It's forbidden to make loud noises here, you see, aren't there words on the wall that say no loud noises and no smoking?"

"Oh oh, I...... Illiterate"

"Oh, that's fine, shhhh

Tian Donkey originally wanted to ask what an eye examination was, but the man had already turned his head away and stopped talking.

At the front of the line, a man in a white coat and a white mask walked out, he came out of the small door in the middle of the room, and closed the door behind him casually, he also wore white gloves on his hands, and held a stack of serial number plates. He walked over, gave everyone in the team a rough look, and then handed them a number plate with numbers written on it, and his movements were neat and clean. He walked up to a thin, somewhat elderly man, looked at it, and took back the number plate handed out, ready to give it to the next person, but unexpectedly, the person who had taken back the number plate suddenly grabbed his arm and pleaded.

"Please, doctor, let me try the medicine, I need money, my little grandson at home, still waiting for me to get the money back to save his life"

"No, we give medicine but not coffins, that's a loss-making deal"

"I'm not sick, doctor, look, I'm not sick, really not sick......"

The old man, perhaps because he was anxious to prove his emotions, or perhaps because he could not hide his illness, coughed violently, coughed violently, coughed and bent over, coughing with a red face and a thick neck.

"You're like this, you can't even pass the eye examination, you're not qualified at all, you'd better go back, don't get in the way here"

After the doctor finished speaking coldly, he waved his hand, and two fierce security guards appeared behind him, and they put the thin old man out of nowhere, and the doctor immediately handed out the number plate in his hand to the next person.

Later, Tian Donkey figured out that the so-called eye examination is jargon, that is, to see with the eyes, and through the observation of the eyes, to screen and select people who are not suitable for drug testing, this process is called eye examination.

"In groups of ten, enter the observation room in turn"

The person who finished distributing the number plates said to the team, and then everyone entered the observation room in an orderly manner, and Tian Donkey, who happened to be in the same observation room as the triangular-eyed man who had just talked.

Everyone sat quietly in the observation room again, and soon a nurse-like woman, also wearing a mask and white gloves, and carrying a tray in her hand, walked in. In her tray, there were ten small paper cups, and ten white pills, one cup and one pill per person, Tian Donkey, like everyone else, raised his head and took it, and then waited quietly again.

During this time, no one asked what the medicine was, what its effects and side effects were, as if everyone didn't care, and the nurse didn't say anything, but came and went like a programmed robot, and the tray in her hand was replaced by a notebook, on which she wrote these things from time to time. After two trips like this, Tian Donkey couldn't help but be curious, so he asked.

"Nurse, what did you just give us food?"

"Medicine"

"What medicine?"

Hearing Tian Donkey's inquiry, the nurse stopped the pen in her hand, then turned her head and looked at Tian Donkey in surprise, as if no one had ever asked her, and she shouldn't have asked, her eyes were full of contempt and disgust, like two lasers, eager to kill Tian Donkey, a stupid and stupid active single cell. Tian Donkey was so frightened by the nurse's eyes that he had to shut up and stop talking, and the nurse wrote and drew in the notebook for a few more times, then turned around and went out again.

"Hey, newcomer, don't talk nonsense if you don't know the rules"

The man with the triangular eyes just now spoke, as if he was complaining.

"You don't care what medicine she gives you, as long as you can't eat the dead, it's fine, you can settle down, if you provoke others, we won't do any good"

"Big brother, I don't understand, just ask......"

"If you don't understand, talk less and ask less"

"Oh"

There was another silence, some people closed their eyes to recuperate, and some people opened their eyes in a daze. The process of waiting for the effect of the drug to take effect is like waiting for death, depressing and boring.

Finally, another voice sounded, it was the triangular-eyed man who forbade Tian Donkey to speak.

"New here, why did you test the drug?"

"Huh?"

"You're a newbie, and you're here with that woman, so I'm more curious."

"Big brother, aren't you not allowed to speak?"

"Ahem, you're stupid! You can't talk when the nurse is there, isn't she there? Besides, I'm about to lose my breath."

"Oh"

"Tell me, newcomer, I don't want to talk alone, like there's something wrong"

"Then ......" Tian Donkey glanced cautiously at the door before speaking, and then said, "Big brother, why do you keep calling me a newcomer?" ”

"Isn't it? Obviously, there are so many people coming and going in this place, and there are new faces coming, who can't see it! Moreover, you came with that woman, and he is your upline? ”

"What?"

"So she developed you?"

"Big brother, I don't understand what you're saying"

"Test this thing, it's not a last resort, no one likes to do this, and there are no acquaintances to introduce it, ordinary people don't know about this thing, I guess you were developed by her"

"No, I'm here on my own"

"That's fresh"

The man was about to say something, but was interrupted by the nurse who came in.

"No talking, no talking between patients"

The man kept his mouth shut.

The nurse looked at the crowd, then wrote something in her notebook one last time, and then said.

"Okay, it doesn't seem to have any adverse reactions, let's start getting the injection"

"Injections?"

"That's right."

"And what did we eat just now?"

"I just took it to calm the blood vessels, and now it's a test drug"

Tian Donkey thought that he had misheard, and his eyes widened in surprise, because he was muttering in his heart, he was here to test the medicine, not to test the needle. But his surprise didn't help, the nurse continued.

"There are many types of drugs, solid drugs can be taken orally, but liquid drugs need to be injected by injection."

After speaking, he injected everyone neatly. Tian Donkey, like everyone else, received a needle in the buttocks, and the nurse walked out again.

After the injection, Tian Donkey'er was nervous in his heart, because he was thinking that if he tried the medicine, he would eat the small pill in his mouth, and it would not be long before he could pull it out and turn it into a piece of and excrete it, but what would happen to the needle that went into the meat, he didn't know. Tian Donkey touched his buttocks with his hands from time to time, but fortunately, he didn't feel anything on his buttocks except for the pain of being pricked by needles.

"She won't fetch us water, why don't you have any reaction," Tian Donkey said as if talking to herself.

"You can be happy, thank your ancestors in your heart, if there is a reaction, the eight achievements will hang" Triangle Eye rubbed his ass and said.

"Oooh"

"You're in good health, and that woman has a good eye, but your vision isn't good."

"Big brother, what do you mean by that?"

"What do you mean? Tut-tut...... The triangular-eyed man shook his head, sighed heavily, and said to Tian Donkey, "Don't say I didn't tell you, that woman, tsk, brother, I think you are also an honest person, that's why I told you, I advise you, it's for your good."

"Big brother, what are you going to say?"

"Listen, woman...... It's a madman! ”

“…….”

"You'd better stay away from her! She's known as a pure male killer......"

The triangular eye kept saying with a sophisticated face, but Tian Donkey couldn't hear his words anymore, he only saw that the triangular-eyed man's mouth was constantly squirting out filthy liquid, polluting the beautiful appearance in his heart, so Tian Donkey roared.

"Lili is not crazy!"

Then, Tian Donkey, whose eyes were bloodshot, grabbed the triangle-eyed man's collar, and the triangle-eyed man stood up suddenly, as if confronting Tian Donkey, shouting.

"Ahem, you man, you, you...... Believe it or not, that crazy woman is sick, who doesn't know here"

"Nonsense! You are talking nonsense! ”

"Ahem, what are you shouting? Do you believe it or not, tell you, it's for your good! It's really a dog biting Lu Dongbin, I don't know the hearts of good people! Phew, something! ”

As he spoke, the triangular-eyed man opened Tian Donkey'er's hand, dusted off his clothes, and was about to turn around and walk away from Tian Donkey'er's eyes. The angry Tian Donkey, without saying anything, rushed up again and hooked the man's neck with his elbow, and the two scuffled together.

Immediately, chaos erupted in the observation room. No matter how indifferent the crowd is, there is a passion to see the excitement. Those people, some of whom were strong for Tian Donkey, and some of whom shouted for the triangular-eyed man, the entire observation room was like a pot boiling with a pot of porridge. Suddenly, the nurse slammed open the door and blew the whistle urgently, and then, the two fierce security guards just now, with a few equally strong men, pulled away from the crowd watching the excitement in three or two, and instantly separated the two people who were scuffling together, and then picked up the donkey fiercely and threw it out.

Tian Donkey, who was thrown out of the hospital, of course, did not receive the money in the end, because there had never been such a thing there, and the others, because they were affected by Tian Donkey, did not receive the money, and cursed Tian Donkey angrily, and even cursed Lili.

On the way home, Lili supported Tian Donkey all the way, and she asked Tian Donkey, who was beaten with a blue nose and swollen face, why he was fighting. Tian Donkey said that he believes in the beauty of Lili, and believes that Lili is the most beautiful person in the world.