A faint tearing pain in his chest......

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Huo Xi, why are you so embarrassed. You said that you want to be as good as your brother Huo Zhun, but if he were alive today, would he be like you, so panicked?

You are still only doubting your own experience, and there may be events that upend your beliefs and views. Are you scared? You just want to back off? Where have you lost your old confidence? Huo Xi, you just lost one step to the opponent, she saw through your fear in front of you, and took advantage of it, just like the moon cicada at that time, in fact, you could have avoided the harm caused to you by her inducement, but because you gave up on yourself first, you ended up being led by the nose, the same mistake, it is not enough to make it once, do you have to make it again?

Huo Xi, what you are afraid of is actually just being confirmed, you are Xiyue. With what you've learned, what you have, you can't give the most reasonable explanation for it, so you're digging into the horns. You resist acceptance, but your instinct is to crave more clues to corroborate, and that makes you feel miserable.

Huo Xi, the deepest fear in your heart is to lose "him", lose your brother's existence, and all this, in fact, you already know what is going on, you know that you have the existence of a second personality, and you are just once, no, twice, twice did not make "him" appear with your heart, you are dependent, you are relying on him to help you analyze, your trust in him is more than yourself, this is originally a road that is getting darker and darker, so when you realize that you may lose "him", you are uneasy, you are afraid, So you have to rely on yourself to make your own reasoning, and at this time, if your reasoning is different from reality, you will only doubt whether you can do it at all, so, as Professor Nguyen said, after hurting your self-confidence, the blow you get makes you avoid solving the problem you face.

Calm down and think clearly, even if it's just you, you must not do anything that will disappoint "him".

God, it's starting to rain again.

It rains the most I fear......

Huo Xi, what have you forgotten in your life?! You may just be using escape to protect yourself, but the fact that you dare not face it has become the Achilles heel of your life! If you don't find out the answer, you will only dodge and flee in a hurry, then this most fatal weakness may follow you for a lifetime, a lifetime! Whenever you turn around, this fear of the unknown accompanies you, what you refuse to think about is your own life, and if you don't remember what happened, then you never know what kind of threat you face, who is your hidden enemy, who is the one who killed your parents, your brother, your adoptive parents?! Why do people around you have accidents one after another, what kind of "ghosts" are with you, hurting the people around you.

Only by facing it can we become strong. Either kill the fear, or be killed by fear, or live in the shadow of panic for the rest of your life, longing for the shadow brother, greedily absorbing the only little warmth, your life is too sad.

……

Seventeen years ago.

"Think about it carefully, sign the divorce agreement today, leave the house to you, and our savings are half for each person." There was no expression on the face of the man who was driving, he was behind the wheel and had a pair of glasses with large square corners on his nose. "I'm done this week, I'm already looking for a house, and I'll move out at the end of the month."

"Huo Guoan, are you so breathless?" The woman sitting in the passenger seat turned her head and glanced at her daughter sitting in the back, her beautiful white cheeks lined with a pair of disheartened eyes. "My daughter is only four years old, and you don't want to take her away from me."

"All I want is my daughter." Huo Guoan said that when he arrived at an intersection, he turned the steering wheel and turned around, still looking expressionless.

"Impossible!" When the woman heard this, she immediately became anxious. "I can promise you a divorce and let you go with your mistress, but you don't want to take your daughter! My daughter is mine, and I will never let her leave me. ”

"Yuan Hui, do you know that your own illness is very serious?! If your daughter follows you, you will only ruin her and turn her into a madman like you. At the beginning, you were pregnant with Xiaozhun and married me to conceal your illness, and I didn't want to pursue it. The little quasi-old can follow you when he is older, and it is convenient for you to take care of your own life. But Xiaoxi must come with me, I can't let my daughter end up being a neurotic like you. Huo Guoan ruthlessly exposed the past.

"What do you say! You hate me now?! Why didn't you say it at the beginning? My mother is like this, and so am I, what's so strange, you took the initiative to have a relationship with me, and you were not very happy when you knew that I had Xiaozhun? Well, now that I have another woman, I hate me and want to take my daughter?! Huo Guoan, you are not human. Yuan Hui was very angry, and despite the fact that the car was still moving, she was very excited to have an argument with Huo Guoan.

Huo Guoan turned his head to look at his daughter in the back seat and warned, "I tell you, don't talk nonsense in front of your daughter!" I just don't want my daughter to grow up with a crazy woman like you and be ridiculed for the rest of my life before I made up my mind to divorce you. Kiki is a good woman, she will take care of Xiaoxi as if she were her own daughter. ”

"Huo Guoan, who spoke nonsense in front of his daughter first! You are a dignified Professor Huo University! He is the leading professor in the Department of Psychology! What's the matter, didn't you just seduce me, a student, to get into bed and have to marry me after you got pregnant? Now you're here again, seducing your student, what's that Qiqi called, do you want to be ashamed?! Yuan Hui scolded Huo Guoan angrily.

"Yuan Hui!" Huo Guoan was exposed by his wife in front of his daughter, and he was instantly furious, he simply parked the car on the side of the road, turned his head to look at his daughter, she sat in the back seat, holding a big doll and watching her parents quarrel with a childish face, frightened.

Huo Guoan was very distressed, immediately unbuckled his seat belt and got out of the car, walked to the back seat, opened the car door, and hugged his daughter down. He hugged his daughter and turned around and left, Yuan Hui saw that something was wrong, and chased down like crazy, "Huo Guoan!" You put your daughter down! ”

Huo Guoan ignored her at all, and walked forward with his daughter in his arms.

Yuan Hui didn't care about anything else, caught up with her, and grabbed Huo Guoan, her hideous appearance frightened her daughter. "Huo Guoan, let me tell you, if you take your daughter away today...... I tell you, I'm going to kill you...... Fok Kwok !! ”

Huo Xi was so frightened that she shrunk into Huo Guoan's arms, motionless, with a pair of eyes open, looking at the woman she called her mother in horror.

Huo Guoan shook off Yuan Hui, hugged his daughter, walked back to the road without looking back, stopped a taxi and left......

In life, there are always a lot of memories, because I felt embarrassed, embarrassed, and unbearable at the time, so for many years to come, we refused to recall, even though the things at that time can no longer be remembered clearly, but what we never forget is that emotion. And what we have been escaping all our lives is also that kind of emotion, choosing to avoid people and things related to that unbearable memory, we close ourselves, but one day, the memory that is sealed in the bottom of our hearts, because when the unintentional related clues are connected, the closed past will be reopened. When I look back, I will smile faintly, not untying the knot in my heart. It's about learning to let go of yourself, which is also a kind of growth.

I remember the day my mom picked me up from kindergarten before school in the afternoon, and the teacher handed me over to her unsuspectingly. My mother took me by the hand and walked home with me, and on the way, she bought me my favorite sugar-fried chestnuts, a big pack. I clutched the mouth of the paper bag tightly and held it in my arms, and I said, I'm going to wait for my brother to eat together.

My brother is very attentive, he is very good at peeling chestnuts, he will peel and eat them himself while feeding me.

Mom didn't speak, she paid and pulled me on.

I asked Mom, when Dad and Brother would be back.

Mom still didn't speak, pulled me, went upstairs, took out the key to open the door, I changed my shoes and ran into the house with the bag of chestnuts. Later, my mother brought me a glass of water and told me to drink it, and I took two sips, and she let me drink it, and said that when I was done, I drank all the glass of water.

Then, I was sleepy. I was very sleepy, and I thought, why haven't my father and brother come back?

I lay on the couch and fell asleep.

I will wake up in the middle because it is too noisy in the house, it is too noisy. When I opened my eyes, Mom and Dad were fighting.

Dad said that Mom was crazy and took me with her if she was going to die.

The house was smashed in a mess, and everything that could be smashed was smashed. There was a strange smell in the air, which made my head dizzy and I wanted to vomit, and my dad pushed my mother aside, and then came and hugged me to go out.

I was lying on my father's shoulder, and in a daze, I saw my mother who had fallen to the ground, and suddenly, I rushed over, and she had a knife in her hand, and it was plunged into my father's back.

Dad seemed to be in pain, and suddenly stopped.

Unwillingly, my mother pulled out the knife and inserted it again...... Dad fell to the side, and I fell to the ground, and he didn't wake up no matter how much I shook him. I was crying, but my mother stabbed me and stabbed my father in the body...... Until, Dad didn't move.

Xiaoxi, you have to remember that men can't be relied on, you have to rely on yourself.

These were the last words my mother said to me, holding my head. Then she pushed me out of the house, and the door slammed shut right before my eyes. I was scared and banged on the door as hard as I could, but there was no movement inside.

I cried and cried all the time.

The cry attracted the neighbor's aunt, who opened the door of her house, saw my blood all over, picked me up and knocked on my door.

The door still hadn't opened, but she could smell something. She was also scared and her face was ugly, and she ran downstairs with me in her arms, despite my cries...... I don't remember what she shouted downstairs.

Everyone came out, and I was left in the corner, standing alone. It seems that someone called the police, and the police car has just arrived downstairs.

"Bang !!" With a loud bang, my house, exploded. (To be continued.) )