Chapter 53 Breakthrough

Quan Yunzhen has no way to deal with Zeng Xunque's current state, he has almost tried to find many methods, but Zeng Xunque just ignored him, he has never been able to understand what Zeng Xunque's inner thoughts are. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

He wanted to find someone close to Zeng Xunque to enlighten him, but they all closed up in the end. The most bitter thing is Lu Ranran, in order to persuade Zeng Xunque, in the end, even Zeng Xunque doesn't want to pay attention to himself in the near future.

Things seem to have fallen into a huge whirlpool, Zeng Xunque is in this whirlpool, Quan Yunzhen wants to reach out to help him, but he is unwilling to stretch out his hand. This also made Quan Yunzhen particularly chilling.

For several days, Quan Yunzhen couldn't eat or sleep well because of this matter, and he was sad and listless all day long. This made Quan's father and mother see it in their eyes.

When he had breakfast that day, Quan Yunzhen's whole body was out of state when he ate. Accidentally, the cup containing the milk was thrown to the ground, and with a 'whoosh', the cup was shattered, shocking the three people in front of the table.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was careless." Quan Yunzhen said apologetically, and went to pick up the glass shards underground.

"I said, Quan Yunzhen, what the hell is going on with you? You're not in a state of mind all day, aren't you? Father Kwon criticized.

Quan Yunzhen said aggrievedly: "I... I didn't mean to..."

"I didn't say you did it on purpose, I just want you to cheer up, look at you these days, sad face, who owes you!"

"I... Nope..."

Quan's mother stepped forward and said, "Okay, you don't talk about the child." Yun Zhen, do you have something on your mind? I see that you have been thinking a lot lately, just tell your parents if you have anything! ”

Quan's mother's words made him feel much better, but where is his own heart as important as Zeng Xunque's heart!

"I... Nothing on mind. Quan Yunzhen refused.

"If it's okay, can you do this?" Father Quan said, "I didn't help you get into school to make you sad, but to let you study hard." Don't you tell me it's because of that Zeng Xunque again?"

When Father Quan mentioned Zeng Xunque's name, Quan Yunzhen was very unhappy. Thinking that Zeng Xunque hadn't looked at him because of Father Quan, and thinking that Father Quan had said some ugly things to Zeng Xunque, the anger in his heart swelled up.

"You mean! What the hell is going on?" Father Kwon asked again.

Quan Yunzhen said righteously, "Yes! I'm bothered by Zeng Xunque's affairs. Dad, I did everything you said as you asked, and I've moved back. However, what did you say to Zeng Xunque, so that he insisted on cutting off relations with me, and he became depressed! ”

Father Quan sneered twice speechlessly, "So you think I caused all this?" ”

"Dad... I didn't mean that..."Quan Yunzhen said apologetically.

He knew that his father was not to blame only for this, he was also a father, and he could feel the worry about his son. He didn't want to blame all this on Father Quan's head, but he only said something like that after he was overly emotional.

"Not that meant? I don't care if you mean that or not, I said I didn't want you to associate with him, aren't you disobeying it now? ”

"I ......"

Quan Yunzhen was a little at a loss, obviously he had promised his father, but now he regretted it again. I can't find a good reason to prevaricate for a while.

"I... I just think he's in a bad state right now... I just want to help him..."

"Help him? You don't have anything to do with him anymore, do you care about him?"

Quan Yunzhen's words made Quan Yunzhen speechless, so he could only plead and defend without confidence.

"I... I'm always helping ordinary classmates, right? ”

"You used to be someone who didn't care about other people's feelings at all, let alone ordinary classmates?"

"I... I... It's going to change..."

"I don't care if you change, you have to remember what you promised me!"

Quan Yunzhen lowered his head weakly, how could it be possible if he didn't have anything to do with Zeng Xunque, he was reborn just to find Zeng Xunque.

"I... I remember. Quan Yunzhen said with a weak heart, and then hurriedly changed the topic, "Mom, Dad, I'm going to school!" I'll go first! ”

Without further ado, he picked up his schoolbag and rushed out, no longer wanting to listen to what his parents said in the back.

It's still good outside air! He admired in his heart, the outside was so empty and free, at least he didn't have to be so depressed.

When he came to the school, Quan Yunzhen saw Zeng Xunque again. He still sat quietly on his desk, looking at his book, as serious as usual, but his face was less angry. It was precisely because of that anger that Quan Yunzhen felt very distressed.

Quan Yunzhen gently passed by his side and stopped for two seconds, but Zeng Xunque didn't seem to raise his head, so he ignored him.

Quan Yunzhen returned to his seat disappointed, looked at the silent Zeng Xunque in front of him, and suddenly felt a lot of contradictions in his heart: what was he thinking? What the hell is all this going on?

Kwon Yunzhen wants to know, but everything seems to be out of the question...

When things really took a turn for the better, three days later, Quan Yunzhen received the letter from his 'son'.

He never thought that at this time, Zeng Xunque would send him this letter. I can't tell whether I am happy or sorrowful, or more moved!

I opened the envelope and spread out the piece of paper folded in half, on which was my familiar handwriting. Thinking about it carefully, the words on the paper were like crying, and Zeng Xunque poured out his troubles one by one. It is full of his own guilt and inferiority, and it is full of thoughts about his father, as well as about Quan Yunzhen, the pain that he has nowhere to tell.

Quan Yunzhen couldn't help but cry as he read it, every sentence in it touched his heart, no matter what identity he came from, he should be that guilty.

As a father, he failed to be by his son's side when he needed it, and he was a father who failed to the extreme.

As a friend, because of what he did to put his friend in trouble, he is a hateful friend.

Quan Yunzhen never expected that Zeng Xunque's heart happened to be caused by himself. He has been doing so many things, and he thinks that he has helped Zeng Xunque, thinking that he will be happy. However, he ignored the inferiority complex hidden behind this happiness.

Zeng Xunque's mental problem has always been that inferiority complex, because of family reasons, he may have had an inferiority complex since he was a child. It's just that he has never noticed it in Quan Yunzhen's eyes all along. It's just that when he approached him as Quan Yunzhen, the inferiority complex in his heart was projected bigger and bigger. Quan Yunzhen's injury this time, as well as Quan's father's words, eventually became the fuse. It made him realize how useless he was, and how big a gap he was compared to others. In the end, this realization released the emotions that had been accumulated in his heart for a long time.

Once such emotions are released, his inferiority complex intensifies. He realizes that he is a person who not only fails to help his friends, but also drags them back, and he seems to be a special failure. He first denied himself in his heart, he was afraid that this inferiority complex would be discovered by others, so in order to protect himself, he chose to end such a friendship. He thought that if he ended the relationship like this, he would feel better, but it didn't seem to be the case.

He became more and more emotional, and he seemed particularly radical when he encountered anything, like a trapped beast in order to protect himself, making a fierce appearance to scare away those who approached him. But even if he did, his heart hurt so much. His emotionality seems to make his friends choose to stay away from him, and he seems to have become an outcast.

Quan Yunzhen couldn't bear to see Zeng Xunque continue to be so closed, since he saw the problem in his heart, then he had to help him solve it. This is what I should do as a friend, but also as a father.

He should help him enlighten him in the name of his father, and only through his handwriting can he know himself clearly. And to change him in the name of a friend, through more friends around him to find a way to help him get out of the predicament of inferiority.

After thinking about it completely, he stopped his distressed tears, picked up the pen, and wrote a reply in his handwriting:

"Baby Son:

Dad has received your letter, Dad is very good here, and he misses you very much, but Dad is very busy with work now, and he can't go home to see you. When it's time for vacation, Dad will definitely find a way to go back and see you.

Speaking of business, my father felt very sorry for you when he saw what you wrote in your letter. I'm sorry that Dad wasn't there for you when you needed him so much. After seeing you talk about the bits and pieces of you and your friends, Dad wants to say only one thing to you: open your heart and face the people who are good to you.

You say that because your friend was hurt for you, you feel guilty and feel inferior because your friend has done so much for you. Actually, it's all because of your psychological effects, isn't it? When you think like that, do you think from your friend's point of view? Did your friend tell you that he had to pay you back?

I guess it turned out to be nothing. A true friend will not be measured by how much the other party pays, and the friend's kindness to you comes from friendship, and he only wants you to be good. He always helps you and wants you to have a good time. He can often help you, which means that there are many things around you that you can't do, and he happens to be able to help you do it. And there are a lot of things around him that he can't do, and you can find these things from his side and help him solve these things, don't you help him?

It's not that you can't help him, you just don't find what he lacks, so there's no way to help him properly. Try to open your heart to the friends around you, let them enter your heart, and you can also enter their heart, so that the friend can be regarded as a real friend.

It's not that you're not good, you're not as good as others, it's just that you can't see yourself clearly because of your low self-esteem.

Your low self-esteem is more or less due to family factors, and Dad is very guilty of this and failed to provide you with a good environment. But family factors are not the factors that hold you back, Dad is very happy to hear that you have won a scholarship, and Dad hopes that you can put more effort into your studies, so that you will not have low self-esteem. How many more scholarships are you waiting for?

Written by Dad"

Quan Yunzhen stopped his pen, looked at the dense self-talk on the paper, and sighed softly: I hope to help him get out of the predicament in his heart, right?

I'll do my best to help him, but the end result is up to him, isn't it?