Chapter 43: This Is Not the Beginning
Mrs. Wu dragged her tired body up to the second floor of the hospital, she insisted on refusing to take the elevator, and she couldn't stand the oppressive feeling of iron walls and no windows. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info Xu Ming accompanied her and could still force herself to get in, but now there was a stranger in uniform next to her, and she really couldn't muster the courage to get in.
"Please wait a while, I will definitely find a way to get my ID card as soon as possible." Mrs. Wu panted and said to the patrolman who was accompanying her up the stairs.
"Huh, okay."
"Madame, you're finally here." It was Lin Yue's voice.
"Boss Xu, what's wrong? What's wrong? Why did you come to the hospital? ”
"I don't know, I wanted to call him and ask you how the treatment is at the psychiatrist, but who knows that the doctor picked it up and told me to come over quickly. said that he was lying alone on the side of the street shouting that a headache was life-saving, and was taken to the hospital by well-wishers. Go in and see him, he's not very emotionally stable and keeps calling your name. But I haven't been able to get in touch with you. Didn't you go to the psychiatrist together? How did they separate? What's the matter with you all over the place? ”
"What about his family?"
"I didn't dare to tell Grandma Xu, she was old and I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to stand it. Besides, it can't help much, so I notified Brother Xu Ming, but he is now on a business trip and can't come back for a while. ”
"Then what should I do, what about his father, who is not in this city?"
"You don't know yet, he doesn't associate with his dad. Let me briefly tell you that Xu Ming has had a trauma and lost his memory for ten years! Forget it, I'll talk about it later, and when he gets better, I'll tell you in person, you go and see him first! He's been looking for you. ”
The two came to the door of Xu Ming's ward under the leadership of Lin Yue, and Mrs. Wu saw Xu Ming huddled on the bed like a helpless child at a glance. There is no such thing as his previous arrogant and confident appearance. He was trembling and his mouth was repeating words, and she could tell by the shape of his mouth that he was calling her name and telling her that he was sorry.
Mrs. Wu was a little overwhelmed when she saw this, and she looked at Lin Yue with some embarrassment. She is now depressed, she can't protect herself, and she doesn't know if she can comfort Xu Ming.
"Why are you stunned, you go in quickly!" Lin Yue urged.
"I, I, I don't know if I can help, I think I'd better go first! Or are you better guarding him here? Mrs. Wu muttered. Also, this policeman asked for my ID card. I'm going to find a way to go back and get my ID to him! ”
"Ahhhh Are you mentally retarded, why do you think Xu Ming brought you here? He has money and nothing to do, and he is well fed, isn't he? You're an adult too, and even if you don't remember something, can't you feel his heart for you? Please don't pretend to be garlic, okay!! Although I don't spend much time with you, I always feel that you are reckless and pure, why are you still confused at this time!! It's not your fault that you're stupid, it's too despicable and shameless to torture someone who loves you and likes you with your stupidity, do you know it! Even if you treat him as an ordinary friend, you should guard him and comfort him at this time, right? Isn't it?! Lin Yue screamed uncontrollably, causing patients and nurses to come and go.
Mrs. Wu was awakened by Lin Yue's anger and felt that although what Lin Yue said was a little biased, it was indeed because she was too stupid and weak that things had developed to such a point. She looked at Xu Ming in the ward again, he had already seen her, and his eyes were full of crystal tears that were about to overflow.
Why did she hesitate? Why can't you walk in and encourage him and hug him? Like he used to encourage her to hug her when she was most helpless? But what she thought to herself was that she was worthy of comforting him. Did she approach him at this time to harm him or help him?
Mrs. Wu gently walked to Xu Ming's side, wiped away the tears overflowing from the corners of his eyes, and hugged him tightly in her arms. Although she was a little squirming, she didn't know what happened to Xu Ming. But at the moment, as Lin Yue said, even as an ordinary friend, she didn't want him to tremble so helplessly alone. However, she still has some contradictions and struggles in her heart.
She gently patted him on the back and whispered to comfort him who was trembling: "It's okay, it's okay, it's all over." As soon as these words were spoken, they unexpectedly comforted Mrs. Wu herself. Yes, it's all over, it's over, let it all pass.
"You're back? I thought you'd never see me again! Xu Ming also hugged Mrs. Wu's waist tightly, buried his head in her chest, and listened to the powerful beating of her heart. He was sure that he was not dreaming, not fantasizing, and instantly felt that the world had become quiet and beautiful again.
"Don't blame me, I don't know how I can say so many things that make you sad. I'm just, I'm just a little angry. I don't know why, I couldn't control myself at the time. I think about some things from the past, some things I want to forget, and I, I still can't figure out the situation. It's okay, it's okay, you're back, I'm afraid you'll get lost and won't be able to find you again. I've been lying to you, and I'm lying to myself. Actually, I think I really like you, yes, I like you and I want to be with you. But because of all the obstacles, I can't be with you, I'm also very conflicted, very helpless, I have never felt like this, except, except...... Can you forgive me and accept me? ”
Mrs. Wu listened carefully to Xu Ming's every word, and she slowed down and lengthened every word in every sentence in her mind, thinking carefully. Her nerves were still a little nervous, and she had to figure it out carefully to understand Xu Ming's true meaning.
Yes, he liked her, she guessed right. But this kind of feeling is like a five-finger mountain for Mrs. Go at this moment, the pressure is great, she can't carry it, she can't carry it, and she is still a little uncertain.
"Okay, okay, it's okay, don't worry, calm down first, you have a good rest first." Mrs. Wu held back the tears in the corners of her eyes and comforted Xu Mingdao.
Madame Wu felt that what she needed to do now was to let go of her grief and anger and take care of the person in front of her who was kind to her. This man who seems to be sunny and cheerful, confident and determined, but has some secrets that she doesn't know. She used to simply think that she knew him very well and knew everyone around her, but now she understands that she really doesn't know anything about the people around her.
"I, I'll always be with you. You can rest assured. She remembered what Xu Ming said to him, maybe now, he also needs this sentence.
Xu Ming gradually quieted down, his brain was now on the verge of collapse, and he also needed to digest and understand Mrs. Wu's words. Why does she say that, does she accept herself? Will she never run away again? However, his current situation, the memory that he didn't want to see as real as a black hole came back, how should he face her with all this?
Xu Ming has thousands of words to say and thousands of questions to ask, but now he can't say or ask them anyway. Only the arm that circled Mrs. Wu tightened, feeling the gentle embrace from her.
Even if we can't be together, it's good that the gentle hug at this moment can be longer and longer. He remembered many things when he was a child, unpleasant things when he was a child, where he had a father and a mother, but they were not happy together. They didn't love each other, they didn't love him, he was like an abandoned stray cat, and he had to keep warm alone. He didn't know why such a memory suddenly came to him, it was a memory he had never remembered before!
Is it an illusion? Hallucination? Or is it real? He had doubts, but he didn't have the courage to solve them. He had a splitting headache and was at a loss, and he couldn't find Mrs. Wu, so he had to shout for help on the side of the street alone. He felt that he was too out of shape and too bad, and he didn't want to see anyone, but Mrs. Wu. But he couldn't get up and chase her.
Now that she was back, she stood in front of him, gently comforting him, making him feel confident and strong again. He needed her, he needed her comfort and encouragement, he wanted to hug her tightly, no matter what it was. Now, at this moment, she is everything to him.
Outside the ward, Lin Yue watched the two people standing on the edge of the cliff in the ward hugging each other for warmth, and a heartfelt smile overflowed on her face, smiling and smiling, but tears flowed from her eyes. From the moment she saw Xu Ming and Mrs. Wu talking and laughing together in Wujia Village, she knew that this day would come eventually, just sooner or later. Luckily, it's not too late, she thought.
The patrol officer next to him handed over a crumpled tissue, Lin Yue took it, wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, but saw that the man who handed the tissue next to him also had red eyes and tears flowing on his face, "You are so interesting, what are you crying about, you can cry if you know anything, it's your business!" She didn't have a good impression of the police, and she always felt that they were all robbers in the cloak of law enforcement, so naturally she didn't have any kindness towards them.
"Hey, I don't feel sorry for you!" After speaking, the patrolman turned around and prepared to leave, walked a few steps and turned back and said, "Tell the blessed people inside, remember to bring your ID card when you go out in the future!" He muttered again, "...... What a pathetic man. And he walked away.
Lin Yue heard the fog and didn't know what to do, and saw that there were a lot of people around her who were watching the lively things, and shouted loudly: "Ah, look, look, what to see, go back to your own ward, haven't you seen the reunion of the young couple for a long time?" Go away, go away, go away! Look at the charges again, go away, go away! A bunch of things! "She was in a bad mood, if she hadn't cared about the hospital being a public place, she would have been swearing a lot! Maybe it's rude.
The crowd gradually dispersed, leaving Lin Yue alone to look blankly at the pair of wall people hugging each other tightly in the room. I was moved and sad at the same time, if it was the one Xu Ming held tightly in his arms, how good it would be for me.
But she already knew that even though they had been reunited after a long absence, even if the two had never been separated, even if she had always been by his side, she might not be able to enter Xu Ming's heart. Xu Ming may not know it, but she knows very well in her heart now that he has never loved her!