Chapter 9: Doubts in the Heart

Because I didn't have a good rest last night, I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. I had a strange dream www.biquge.info my father was very young, and he winked at me and smiled very happily. 'Serpentine pendant. I asked him, but in his dream he just smiled and didn't answer anything. "Zhizhi." I heard someone call me, and then I felt my body shake. Then the voice rang in my ears again: "Zhizhi." I opened my eyes in a daze and saw my mother looking at me anxiously.

I sat up blankly and grabbed my hair: "What's wrong?" "I felt sweat in my hair.

"You dreamed, and I heard you crying out, 'Snake, snake,' and thought you had seen a snake in the house, and I was startled and told you not to open the door. I pushed the door open and found you muttering to yourself on the bed with a frown. Knowing you're having a nightmare, I want to wake you up. My mother handed me a towel: "Wipe the sweat from your head." ”

I took the towel and smiled at my mom weakly: "I'm going to take a shower." Not to mention, after dreaming, I was sweating so much, I was hungry. ”

"What did you dream about?" Mom asked me worriedly.

I was stunned for a moment, then immediately shook my head and lied: "I don't remember." "I don't want my mom to worry too much about me.

Under the spray, I gradually woke up, thinking about the dream I had, and I felt that it was better to be clear before I fell asleep. Shaking the drops of water from my hair, I walked out of the bathroom, not thinking about it yet. I don't know why, maybe it's because I saw my dad again in my dream, but my mood is much lighter than before, and I have an appetite for food. I was gulping down my dinner, and my mother was stunned: "Eat slowly, don't choke." My mother instructed beside me, but she still added a full bowl of rice to my hand.

After the meal, I was burping and washing the dishes in the kitchen, and my mother came up to me and asked me, "Zhizhi, have you encountered something recently, I see that you have been restless since yesterday?" Mom asked me tentatively.

I didn't want my mother to fall into the same troubles as me, so I waved my hand vigorously, and the detergent foam on my hand was thrown onto the counter with my movements: "How do you say that, it's just that the blow has been a bit big lately, and I haven't had a good rest." When I looked in the mirror just now, I noticed that the dark circles under my eyes were so heavy. "I was coquettish and changed the subject.

But this time, my mother's attention was still focused on me, she looked into my eyes, and when I thought she was going to see through my lies, her eyes softened, patted me on the shoulder, and sighed: "If there is something you don't understand, or you are in trouble, you must tell your mother, don't hold it alone." ”

After rinsing the last plate in my hand, I wiped my hands on my apron and pressed my mother's shoulder: "Mom, don't worry about it." Me, nothing, really. I swore as I looked at her, suppressing my inner turmoil. I still can't tell the truth of the matter. My mother and I put the bowl in the cupboard and left the kitchen, and I looked at my mother's back.

Fortunately, now my father's help to Mi Zhen sell the stolen goods has been clarified, but there are still some questions lingering in my heart for a long time. I walked back to my bedroom, where my mom was watching the news. I quietly closed the bedroom door and sat down on the carpet.

I still can't figure out why Dad is helping her. In my impression, my father was a very decent person and always taught me to be an upright person. But cooperating with Mi Zhen is definitely not a thing that can be put on the table, which violates Dad's consistent principles of doing things.

The other thing is the necklace, why do I have an impression and my mother doesn't know about its existence? But while I have a very strong familiarity with snake pendant necklaces, there's something about that familiarity that feels old. I remember Mi Zhen saying that this necklace once belonged to a big man, so did you see it when you saw that big man? But with that sentence in my memory, I denied my own idea, and that short conversation had already explained that this necklace was bought and given to me by my father. I belong to the snake, when I was a child, I always received a small gift that my father bought the same as my zodiac, and now there is a miniature version of the small python jade sculpture only the size of a thumb in the bookcase

The question goes back to the original point, since that necklace was bought for me a long time ago, why hasn't my mother seen it? My father didn't have the habit of hiding private money, and he liked to share everything with me and my mother, so it stands to reason that if I had an impression of this necklace, then my mother should have an impression too, and she should even be able to show it to me directly. But the mother's reaction was not the same, and the mother had no impression of it. Did Mom forget? But it's a necklace with a lot of value, and it's not easy to forget, right? But if my mother remembers, why did she lie to me that she didn't remember? Could it be that there is a problem with this necklace itself?

It's not a good time to ask her mother, and Mi Zhen's side isn't a good place to find the truth. After much thought, I decided to rely on my own strength to find the truth.

After all, it happened a long time ago, and the only memory I have is just a few short lines of dialogue, so it's really hard to rely on my own strength. I searched for things that had become blurry in my memory, and the memories after the age of ten were very clear, and the golden thing like the necklace would never be easily forgotten unless it was a very young age. So I thought about it, and I guessed that the first time I saw it was before the third grade of elementary school, or even earlier. Narrowing down the scope of my memory, the next step is to find something related to the necklace.

Assuming that what my mom said was true, then this necklace should have been something I saw when I was alone with my dad. Now, instead of looking for the reason why my father hid from my mother, I will find the lost part of my memory. I had a hunch that if I found the missing parts, I would be able to find the truth that would solve all mysteries.

But where to start? In the midst of my distress, I looked up and saw a picture frame hanging on the wall. I suddenly had an idea, by the way, photos, will there be some photos that I took alone with my dad when I was younger? I flipped out the photo album in the bookcase, but the moment I opened it, I couldn't stop the tears, the sadness came back again, and I couldn't even bear to look at the man laughing at the camera again. The photo freezes his youth, and it also freezes the time that he can never go back again, and this smile has disappeared forever. In the photo, he is very young, with thick hair and a high spirit, riding on the back of an elephant, waving at the camera and laughing at the camera.

But I couldn't laugh when I looked at the photo, I closed the album with a 'snap', and tears fell down my face.

"It was taken when your dad was in Thailand." Mom's voice suddenly appeared behind me.

I looked back, no longer caring about my current embarrassment, and looked back with tears in my eyes: "I'm sorry, I don't want to be like this." ”

Mom sighed and sat down on the carpet next to me, "I'm looking at your father's old pictures." She picked up the album in my hand, "I remember there were several more." He'd been to a lot of places before. ”

I took a few more of my father's solo albums from the bookcase, and looking at his photos alone made me feel tormented inside, and I couldn't say if I looked at the family photos and looked at the good times we used to have, with my current emotions, I would not go crazy. Mom opened the album and looked at the photos one by one. Mom exclaimed, pointed to one of them and said, "Ah, I didn't expect him to keep this picture." ”

I followed my mother's gaze, and it wasn't my father, but a young woman, wearing a blue dress, lying on the green grass, staring at the white dandelion in front of her. "Was it when Mom was young?" I asked, looking at my smiling mom on one side.

Mom nodded: "When the two of us just fell in love, your father took a picture of me." ”

"It's a great beauty." I praised that I rarely saw pictures of my mother when she was young. Almost all of the photos in the album were taken after I was born. So this picture is also very new to me. My mother flipped back and told me that when my father was young, he was the backbone of the business, and he often traveled outside to negotiate business with people. At that time, the father in the photo was a high-spirited young man, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, and he looked very energetic. After that, there was a photo with my mother, and even if the two people were just standing together, they could faintly detect pink bubbles in the air. The photo behind us shows our first home, which is a very small bungalow, and my mother and father sat on the low steps in front of the door to find this photo, at that time, my mother was pregnant, and her slightly bulging belly contained me who was still in the state of the fetus. That was supposed to be our first 'family photo'.

Flipping back, he was the only one in the photo. I looked at my mother suspiciously, and my mother explained with a smile: "These albums are your father's separate albums, so they are all him, and occasionally these photos are specially added by him because he thinks they are the most important moments in his life." It's the same with my photo album, only the most important moments are taken together. Everything else is a single person. ”

Mom paused and said, "Your father and I have agreed that each of us will put together our own photos so that we can leave you with more memories after we pass away." I mean, we're not the same as you think we. ”