"Why?" I looked at my mother curiously. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Mom's gaze returned to the album: "Didn't I just say that?" We want you to know that we are different, that we were before you. Aren't you curious about our experiences and what we look like? ”

Although I didn't seem to understand, I nodded obediently: "Of course I want to know." But is this the only reason? ”

"What reason?" Mom looked at me puzzled.

I pointed to the photo albums piled on the ground: "I mean, these solo albums are just here so I can see you in the past?" ”

"Almost." Mom smiled after hearing this, "It's also a kind of companionship." After all, we are gone, but these photos are the most real memories, and when you open them, you can still see us smiling at you, as if we were still there for you to protect you. But there's another reason, and while it sounds a little too early to say it now, I always feel that if you don't say it, you may never know what Dad and I mean. ”

"Intentions?" I looked at my mother in confusion.

Mom took her eyes off the album: "After all, the photo only leaves our influence, but it can't make you feel the breath of the two of us anymore." So we want to leave you something special so that you can feel our presence again. So we want to leave you with some special memories, or not memories at all, but some new memories, memories about us. After all, before becoming parents, you didn't know how awesome the two of us were. This idea came to us after you were born because we found that it was very different from what we really are in your eyes. In your eyes, we are always good, which touches us and makes us very uneasy, after all, it always feels like they are cheating on you. In fact, we have advantages and disadvantages, just like everyone else, but we can still be the big heroes in your heart. Your adoration makes us feel both relieved and guilty, and we always feel that we have deceived your feelings. But it's hard for us to admit in front of you that we're not perfect, because we always want to maintain our image in the hearts of the people we like the most. So, we decided to tell you all the truth after we died, or let you know for yourself what the real us are like. We decided to show you what we really are, and at that time, we can't stop you, this is the best time for you to get to know us. We all want you to know if we are rebellious and arrogant when we are young, or when we become kind and tolerant as we get older. ”

"Why?" I still don't quite understand what they think.

Mom's gaze became more and more gentle: "Because we are also like you, we have all experienced confusion and helplessness, we have all tried our best to struggle, and we have experienced hopeless pain, but we have also survived, met each other, and then had you, these are what we looked like before you were born." We have also made mistakes, tasted bitter fruits, and corrected some mistakes that can be corrected in the hopeless struggle, but also left a lot of regrets, these are not particularly beautiful experiences are also part of our lives, although not as sparkling as the stories we have told you, but they are also very meaningful, and whenever I look back, I feel that later, especially after you were born, we all have to avoid making the same mistakes again. At the same time, you can also read yourself and say, look, I can survive such a difficult time, what else can I not get over in the future? This is also the image we want to leave to you, which is not perfect but true. We want you to know that no one's life will be easy, but as long as you can hold on, you will still get through those times that are distressing you. ”

I couldn't speak, my eyes were red again, and my mother seemed a little helpless about the way I was crying, so she turned her attention to the photo album again: "Oh, to put it bluntly, it's just that the two of us want you to know that we used to be the same as you." But most importantly, we were much better than you when we were younger. I want you to admire us. Mom said, the thin wrinkles at the corners of her eyes deepened with the smile on her face, she opened the photo album I was looking through at the beginning, and said with a smile: "This album was taken by your father when he was in Thailand, and the children of your generation like to take landscapes or headshots of themselves." But my generation likes to take a picture of ourselves. ”

"That's called a selfie." I corrected my mom and a smile began to appear on my face.

Mom pursed her lips and made a disgusted expression: "Isn't it just a casual ID photo?" Pouting and clenching your fists, who are you trying to hit? ”

"That's pretending to be cute and cute!" I really don't know how to describe how I felt after hearing my mother's descriptions of what was trending at the moment.

Mom has already opened the photo album: "That's not confident in yourself, taking a full-body photo can best see the figure." You see, your dad took a lot of these photos in Thailand. This is one he took when he was riding an elephant in Thailand. This one, he took it when he was buying fruit by the river over there, and he said that the fruit sellers over there are all rowing boats in the river to sell, and the tropical fruits are very cheap and delicious, and you will be very happy if you can go. But at that time, you were too young, he was a big man, where can I rest assured that he will take care of you. Mom grumbled with a smile.

"How old was I?" I asked as if I had not done so, but then a strange feeling arose in my heart. I always think that the necklace thing has something to do with my father's trip to Thailand.

Mom took out the photo, looked at the back, put it back again, and then said, "You were just two years old." Ah, actually, I think your dad took good care of you. ”

I tilted my head and looked at my mom suspiciously, wondering why he suddenly said that.

Mom continued to flip through the photo album: "That time, your father just came back from Thailand, and your grandfather was sick and hospitalized. Your uncle and I take turns taking care of your grandfather. So when I'm away, only your dad can take care of you. Every time I come home, I see the two of you making a mess. He's laughing at those gold-plated miniature animals he bought from Thailand. Mom said, with a nostalgic smile on her face.

"Critters?" I began to have a vague impression that when I was a child, I remembered that when I was a child, I seemed to see a lot of golden animals the size of small fingernails, but they all seemed to let me use them as toys for my family.

"At that time, I didn't have much money, and I wanted to buy you some souvenirs, and I couldn't bring back some fruits, so I could only bring back some small toys, and I happened to see that there were cheap small animal statues selling this kind of gilded in the stalls on the street, which were beautiful and cheap, so your dad brought you a lot. But later, when we moved, I didn't know what to do, so we couldn't find it, maybe we lost it, right? Mom shook her head with some pity, "It's all pretty good." ”

I echoed my guesses. The time that appeared in my mother's words was very appropriate, and the age of two years was just the beginning of the formation of memories, so most of the fragments left in my mind were vague fragments. If Dad had shown me the necklace at that time, then it would have been common sense to recall it in just a few words. Many things, even if a long time has passed, must be carefully hidden in the bottom of the heart, become memories, and will never be forgotten.

In addition to the time is very consistent, the Thailand where Dad went is also very consistent with the description of the necklace. Thailand is a country that likes to make gold jewelry very much, and it is also a country with many snakes, snake-shaped ornaments are not uncommon there, I remember that not long ago a female star in Thailand wore a snake-shaped diamond necklace to participate in the catwalk. So I wondered in my heart that the necklace that was causing trouble could it be that my father bought it from Thailand.

However, all is just my speculation for now, and if I want to confirm it, I think I will have to go to Su Baichang's jewelry store and ask him where the other similar necklaces in the store are made.

"Zhizhi." Mom shook my shoulder, "What do you think?" ”

I went back to the real world: "It's nothing, it's just a little nostalgic, let's go to Thailand in the future." Let's go see the place where the fruit is delicious. ”

Mom tilted her head to look at me, pursed her lips and smiled: "I'm hungry." ”

We looked at the photo album for a while, and finally both of us were a little sleepy, and my mother sat up from the carpet, and as I was leaving, I stopped her: "Mommy." ”

"Huh?" Mom looked back at me, "What's wrong?" ”

I lowered my head and thought for a moment, then raised my head again and asked in an uncertain tone, "Mom's photo album?" ”

I didn't finish asking, but my mother understood what I meant, and she grinned again: "I can't tell you my secret until I'm gone." After all, it's embarrassing to think about the ridiculous things I've done before. She hid the corners of her mouth, "Okay, it's getting late, go to bed early, you've been too tired lately." ”

After my mother left my room, I completely relaxed, and after all the information my mother had just told me, I was sure that my judgment would not be wrong, and I had to go to the place where the matter originated, Su Baichang's jewelry store. With this in mind, I fell into a deep sleep. This time, when I closed my eyes, I finally stopped seeing the image of my father struggling to breathe the moment he left me.