Chapter Twenty-Four: A Note on the Pillow

I ended up going downstairs and buying a burger, which wasn't as nutritious as a salad, but hot fast food was better for hungry stomachs than cold food. Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info but when I bought it back, my mother complained that I didn't have the stomach to eat other food at night. But in fact, four hours later, I ate two large bowls of jajangmyeon again, which scared my mother again.

After eating, the two of us watched the evening news in the living room, and I deliberately mentioned the matter of my father's first seven: "I will buy those things to be prepared tomorrow, and I will pass by the Buddhist supplies stall in the market when I get off work, and I will stop by when I get off work." After I buy it back, let's burn it for my dad at the intersection later tomorrow, do you think it's okay? ”

My mother didn't think there was anything wrong with it, but when the weather forecast was over, she suddenly reminded me to bring the gift that I hadn't given out: "Don't forget the Father's Day gift, even if you can't open it next to you, but if he can receive it over there, he will feel your heart." ”

That's when I remembered the handkerchief gift box I bought early last month, but unfortunately I never had the chance to give it away. I quickly ran back to my room to find the box, but didn't have the courage to open it. My mother stood at the door of the room and looked at me: "I'm sure he will be happy when he receives it, just like before." "But I still don't have the courage to look at him more.

Because of the crying for a day, the moment my head touched the pillow again, I immediately fell into a deep sleep, and I almost missed the alarm clock in the morning. I hurriedly felt my salary, stepped on time to enter the office, and almost everyone stopped what they were doing the moment they saw me. The atmosphere became very awkward for a while, and I was a little uncomfortable with the current atmosphere, so I could only stop at the door, neither entering nor walking. It was my immediate boss who broke the embarrassment: "I thought you were going to take a break for a while." She came over and hugged me, trying to comfort me.

I didn't want to come out of this very uncomfortable feeling anymore, so I hurriedly changed the topic: "That Sister Xuan, the matter at home has been dealt with for the time being, and I am a little embarrassed that you have given me such a long vacation, and I will trouble you to take care of me during this time." By the way, wasn't I sorting out my contract before I took my leave? Who's going to help me follow up on this contract? It's been a real hassle for people during this time," I tried my best to change the subject, pretending to rummage through other materials at my desk. Seeing that I didn't want to talk about family matters anymore, Sister Xuan beckoned everyone to have a regular morning meeting. At noon, because the company's canteen was being renovated, most of the people brought their own lunch, and a senior of the company who also did not have lunch invited me to lunch. I thought it would be an embarrassing lunchtime, but to my surprise, the senior didn't mention anything, but just said some personnel changes in the company. At this point, I'm really grateful that this senior, who usually looks a little unreliable, didn't make me cry again. It was just before we stepped into the office building again that he patted me on the shoulder, as if to comfort me, but also as if to encourage.

I was distracted by the hectic and unresting day, and it wasn't until I passed by the farmer's market after work that I remembered the promise I had made yesterday to prepare everything I needed for the first seven. I took another stop on the bus and took an extra turn at the farmer's market before hurried home again.

"How did you buy so many things?" When my mother watched me enter the door with a large bag and a small bag, she was in a state of shock.

"I saw nectarines on sale just now, so I bought more of them. And this eggplant looks very good, but also because there are only a few left, the boss rubbed the pile and bought it, I think it is quite fresh, just make an eggplant puree to eat in a while. ”

"Then don't buy so much?" My mother looked at the big bag of eggplants in my hand with some tears and laughter, "There are seven of them, and the two of us can't eat so much." As soon as she finished speaking, her mother suddenly covered her mouth.

I pretended not to see it and took out my lunch box in the cabinet: "I'll take the rest to the unit for lunch tomorrow." Recently, the canteen has been renovated, and the lunch has to be solved by itself. I saw a lot of my colleagues bring food. ”

"Enough to bring an eggplant?"

"Ahh I scratched my hair, "I'll make do with it tomorrow, it's Saturday anyway, so let's get ready next week." "Both of us tacitly avoided the topic of Dad's absence. However, the atmosphere is much more relaxed than in the past few days.

After eating, I went straight to my room under the pretext of tidying up my day's work, but I actually had other things to do. Although I don't really believe in the rumors I've heard before, when I really encounter the same situation as in the story, I can't help but think of some strange things I heard from old people about the first seven when I was a child. It is said that on the seventh day after the death of a person, the soul of the departed person will return to his home when he was a child, have his last meal, and then leave without any worries. If this soul stone leaves suddenly, maybe he will still leave some clues in his former home, so that the people who are still alive can help them, but the regret in his heart. I'm not very superstitious, but I really believe that this legend works at this moment. I tore a piece of paper from my notebook, wrote a sentence on it, and reverently placed it next to my pillow. If the human soul really comes home on the first seven days, if the white snake that Mi Zhen said is the last knot in Dad's heart, I really hope that Dad can leave me some clues, and this may be the last thing I can help him do.

At 10:30 p.m., the streets were not as lively as before, and there weren't many places around the neighborhood for supper, so there were still only occasional people passing by. I squatted at the intersection with chalk and drew a circle, and then I burned the paper money and the clothes that my father liked to wear when he was alive, and the gift that was not given, and the smoke from the fire made me cry, and in the blur, I saw a figure at the intersection, who stood at the other side of the intersection and looked at me, not far away. I wiped my eyes, and the shadow was still there. But when I tried to see it better, the figure was gone

"What are you looking at?" Mom's voice sounded behind me, and things were almost burning.

I pointed in the direction in which the figure had appeared, "I feel like someone was watching us just now." ”

"Dazzled, huh?" Mom knew what I was trying to say, "You miss him so much." ”

I nodded, stopped talking, and waited until everything was reduced to ashes before I tidied up my things and went home with my mom. As I lay down on the bed, I caught a glimpse of the note I had just placed next to my pillow, and I saw a clearly drawn tick on it, and the look of this tick was all too familiar to me. When I was in elementary school, whenever I reviewed at the end of the semester, I would always check the practice questions I had done with my father, and after each correct question, my father would always give me the exact same checkmark. Looking at the familiar checkmark, my eyes widened, and then I covered my mouth to keep myself from making any noise, and then I cautiously looked around the room, hoping to find clues that my father had been here, but it was impossible, how did he come here? He's gone.

But how to explain the familiar tick on the note? Mom and I went out and came back together, and the note I had just put to my pillow that night, and my mother had never been to my room that night. It wouldn't have been written by my mother, but no one could have drawn the same checkmarks. My heart was pounding and racing, and O'Haemis had a myriad of ideas. I looked around the room again, and I noticed a slight change in the position of the pen in the pen holder on the desk, and I glanced at the note again, and my eyes fell back to the red ballpoint pen in the pen holder. I cautiously picked up the ballpoint pen and brought it to the light to look at, but I unconsciously smiled bitterly. Am I just right? If it's really Dad who is back, his soul won't leave fingerprints.

With that in mind, I put the pen back down. "Why don't you sleep yet?" A mother's voice came from outside the door, "Didn't you say that you can't let the people who come back see your relatives?" He's going to be uneasy. ”

I hurriedly turned off the lamp and lay back on the bed: "Sleep immediately." ”

Lying on the bed, I held the note I had left behind, whether it was my father's tick on it or not, there was at least one thing that I could confirm now - Mi Zhen said that Mi Zhen didn't lie to me about what Dad knew about the White Snake.

Because I only wrote one sentence on the note: "Dad, do you really know about the White Snake?" ”

After falling asleep in a daze, I had a dream in which my father, wearing her yellow plaid T-shirt, was standing outside the hospital room waving at me. He had packed his things from the hospital room in his hand, and I wanted to go up and take them, but I found that I seemed to be at a distance from him in my dream.

"Mozhi, my illness has been cured." He smiled and talked to me.

I nodded, suppressing the joy in my heart: "Great, then go home with me." ”

"I'm not going home with you." He was still smiling, "My Grandpa Deng will pick me up later." You see I'm living well here, and I don't hurt anymore now. ”

I wanted to say something, but his smile became more and more blurry in my dreams. I woke up suddenly, only to find that the pillow was damp, and it was a dream. I sighed and sat up from the bed, the window was still a bright gray, and I felt a strange feeling coming from the credit, and I had slept all night with the ticked note in my hand. The note was crumpled by me, and the sweat in my palms blurred some of the handwriting on it. I respectfully put the note in a drawer, and then sat on the bed for a long time.