Mi Zhen didn't shy away from my gaze: "Zhizhi, I'm sorry I didn't tell you beforehand. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ”

"What did Dad say when he found out about it?" It's hard for me to imagine that my dad would still be able to spend the rest of his days smiling and pretending not to know and smiling for the rest of his days.

Mi Zhen bit her lip, she subconsciously does this whenever she is stressed. Her eyes blinked nervously several times before she finally made up her mind and said, "He was really shocked. Especially when she heard me that you might lie to him, she was still angry, after all, you are the person he trusts the most. ”

Hearing this, I turned my gaze to the floor, and from the bottom of my heart I was ashamed of what I had hidden.

"He thinks you won't, and you shouldn't lie to him." Mizhen said this, carefully observing my eyes. But I just looked at the cup on the coffee table in a daze like before, Mi Zhen hesitated for a moment, and finally said everything: "He didn't believe it at first, I mean, didn't believe my words at first. No one wants to believe that kind of unpleasant words, but it is an outsider like me who says such things. Although Zixuan reminded me afterwards that it was very rude to do this, I still wanted to tell your father the truth at that time to avoid making things happen that I regretted too much. I knew I was being nosy by doing this, and after that, your father probably thought that I was an outsider and didn't need to lie to him, so he went to the doctor himself to check, and this time the doctor didn't lie to him. After he found out, he was really angry with you at first, after all, the fact that she was kept in the dark made him angry. Not only did you deprive him of his right to know, but you also made it impossible for him to arrange his future affairs with ease, leave this world without regrets, and have no way to say goodbye to you. But after an afternoon of catching him, he stopped being angry with you, and even got a little angry with himself, feeling that his situation made you very sad. So, except for the feeling of being deceived in that moment that made him sad, he never blamed you, he knew why you didn't want things to be true, I knew why you deceived him, he knew that you couldn't accept his departure. So he doesn't want you to be sad, so he accompanies you to act silently, because he doesn't want to say goodbye to you either. ”

"I really can't bear to let him leave me." I finally didn't speak until a long time after listening to Mizhen's words.

Mi Zhen's hand was on my shoulder: "He told us that he was afraid that he would cry with you in the last days of this world, and it would be too painful for him. He doesn't want his departure to cause you more pain, he wants you to say goodbye to him with a smile all the time, even if it's a forced smile to coax him, he also wants your goodbye to be laughing. So in the end, he didn't debunk your lies either. ”

"Huh. He just didn't want to cry and say goodbye to me," I laughed suddenly, "I remember when he first found out he was sick, he cried because he was afraid that I would think of him, and he discussed with me whether to quarrel every day, so that I wouldn't miss him every day after he was gone." Master I told him at that time that no matter what it was, I would be with him, and I would miss him every day after I left. "I feel like my vision is blurry again, with drops of water running over my face and my voice being hoarse.

Mizhen kept handing me tissues, and I could feel the apology in her eyes right now. I shook my head while wiping the tears on my face, and said with some sobs: "Don't blame yourself, in fact, I am very grateful that you can tell me everything today." It's just that I can't control my emotions right now, and I'm really sorry for the way I looked today. I got up and prepared to leave.

Mizhen grabbed my arm: "You don't look very good now, otherwise, you would be calm with me for a while." If you go back like this, your mother will have to worry. ”

But at that moment, I couldn't listen to anything Mizhen said, and I couldn't stand the feeling of wandering in the memories of the past for a moment, and ran out of Mizhen's house in embarrassment without even saying goodbye. Walking down the street, passers-by looked at me strangely, and because I was so irritable that I rushed straight into the subway station, locked myself in the bathroom cubicle and cried. By the time I finally stopped sobbing and struggled to stand up, my legs were numb. I guess it was because when I was secretly crying just now, the voice was heard by people outside, and when I walked out of the cubicle, an eldest sister who was absorbing next to me was looking at me with a strange look, he wanted to say something, but finally left the sink without saying a word. I looked at me in the mirror, because I had cried so many times today, and my eyes were already red. I realized that this was the first time since my father left me that I had vented all my sorrows so presumptuously. However, although I have cried enough now, I have seen such a decadent appearance in the mirror that if my mother saw it, she would be very worried. I think at first I regret that he didn't listen to Mi Zhen's persuasion just now, at least until he is almost recovered before going home. I tried to use cold water to subside the redness and swelling of my eyes, but it still didn't work, so I had to go to the nearest convenience store, buy a spoon, and with the permission of the clerk, I froze in the store's freezer for half an hour, and applied ice back and forth to my eyes to make myself look better.

It was a boy who didn't look much older than me, and he kept looking at me without saying anything. In order not to bother to explain, and for the sake of Jin Yu's dignity, I kept facing the freezer and never turned around. At this time, I suddenly thanked the development of modern science, which allowed me to hide my embarrassment with my mobile phone. It was also at this time that I suddenly thought of whether I could find more comprehensive news about Su Baichang from the Internet, or the news in Su Baichang's store. I typed the name of Su Baichang's jewelry store into the search bar, and soon, lines of advertising-like information came into view, and I turned two pages back, only to find some buyers' postings, I bored and flipped through the post for a while, and when I felt that it was not interesting, a title caught my attention: "The owner of the jewelry store resells cultural relics." "I clicked on the post, but I was told that the post no longer exists, and that it may be deleted by the original author or forced to delete because it does not comply with the forum policy. I couldn't help but sigh when I removed the cold spoon from the freezer and put it on my eyes, and the cold comfort dry relieved the dryness and pain in my eyes caused by the pain. Realizing that I seemed to be making a noise, I cautiously looked back to see if anyone was paying attention to me. The boy at the convenience store was also looking at me cautiously, and the moment we looked at each other, the two of us quickly looked away at the same time. After relieving most of the pain in my eyes, I walked up to the boy and smiled and thanked, "Thank you for letting me use the refrigerator in the store." ”

"It's a gesture." The boy seemed to be afraid of my embarrassment, and when he had finished answering, he immediately lowered his head again, and looked very shy.

When I walked out of the store, it was already past three o'clock in the afternoon. After crying for a long time, it took a lot of physical strength, and my stomach started to rumble a little. When I was struggling with whether to go home or not, my phone rang, and the caller was Mi Zhen. I connected the phone, and Mi Zhen's worried voice came from the other end of the phone: "Zhizhi, are you okay?" ”

"Much better, thank you for your concern." To be honest, I really don't want to talk to her now, I'm afraid that I'm thinking of something I don't want to recall because of talking to her, so I'm in a hurry to end the call, "Mi Zhen, I'm still not in a very good mood right now, that, if there is something, can we talk about it in two days, my current state really can't help you with anything." ”

"I know." Mi Zhen seemed to realize that I was going to hang up the phone, and hurriedly said, "But I still want to make an appointment with you to have a specific time to talk." You know, a white snake necklace is also your father's last knot. Mi Zhen said at the end, her voice getting quieter and quieter, probably because she was afraid of irritating me again, but she could also hear the anxiety in her tone now.

I reconciled my somewhat fluctuating emotions and said, "Well, I'll go to you after my father's first seven." Well? How about this weekend, normally, I can't take any more time off. "I realized that I had to do something to distract myself from the negativity I was feeling right now, and I didn't want to indulge myself in this low ebb without limit.

Mi Zhen didn't embarrass me anymore, and hung up the phone after telling me to contact her. I have to say that Mi Zhen's last words still made me repeat it, but I patted my cheek, I will finally get out of this state, and the road still has to move forward. When I cheered up, my stomach was screaming more and more, and I was very embarrassed to hear the cooing sound, I have been so embarrassed since I came out of Mi Zhen's house, and I sighed in my heart, I don't want to go out like this again. Thinking so, he got into the subway again.

It may be that this time there is no painful expression on his face, and the sparsely populated subway receives a lot less attention. I've been praying in my heart that my mom won't be at home, so that I won't explain to her why I'm so embarrassed now. I walked home groggily, and when I opened the door, my mother looked up and saw me pushing the door into the house. "Crying?" She asked bluntly when she saw me.

I nodded, trying to get by, "Mom, is there any leftover fruit salad in the morning?" I need to fill my stomach, I'm hungry right now. ”

"It's in the refrigerator, but if you're hungry, you shouldn't be able to eat cold directly, it's not good for your stomach." Mom followed me to the kitchen and said, "What the hell is going on?" Look at your mood even worse than the previous two days. ”

"I just met a friend of my father, and I mentioned something sad, and I cried when my emotions were infected. No big deal. "I'm still trying to hide the necklace from me, and the less people know about it when everything is uncertain, the better. I made up my mind that I would never say anything about Mi Zhen.

My mother didn't ask any further, she saw me call the salad dressing on the fruit cuts, and still advised: "I think it's better for you not to eat cold directly." ”