Ruan Qing held her head incomprehensibly, she felt a headache! Let the little alarm clock be unreasonable all the time! What is the reason for this situation? Am I really still in my dreams? Logically speaking, shouldn't there be a diary from the previous one?

Will trying a new option remove it? Must die in a car accident? All the things that want to change, those who want to escape from dreams are just to die again? Still dead without proof? Is this in which movie?

Ruan Qing, who felt that it was difficult to wake up, even almost forgot the existence of the diary to see if she was really still in a dream! I just think it's really incredible! Why do you have to die? Now even the diary is not what it seems! Is there still a bug in this loop?

The rain outside the window was still falling, as if it didn't give her a chance to buffer. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info She is also starting to lose herself. Is it really in a dream? Or has it come back to reality? This question that couldn't answer herself echoed in her mind for a long time!

"Is there only one problem with such a large diary?" Ruan Qing patted his head and thought, "Isn't that evidence to determine if you are still in a dream?" But it's so unreal! Ruan Qing was unconsciously biting her tongue again. But is this action of biting her tongue really an action that she will only do when she is awake? She couldn't tell the difference, which had made her incapable of analysis.

Looking through the diary, she actually thought that everything was just a dream! It's just that the reality is always unsatisfactory. Yes! Her diary still records what she had written, but it was—not the same one she had written yesterday, the last time she died!

"This?"

Ruan Qing was a little confused, what was going on? It's still the same day's content! Why is there one article missing? But the content of the car accident is still there! This is completely unreasonable!!

Ruan Qing felt a very headache! She even began to doubt her own existence! She took out a bottle of wine from the most secret place on her desk (in fact, there was a little space behind the disc under the desk), it was the liquor she had secretly hidden, and it was something that the family had been thinking about for a long time!

But what can I do to be sure of my current situation? She thought to herself, why don't you calm down first! But anyone who drinks alcohol knows that alcohol only makes people feel excited and unable to ego! Ruan Qing, who wants to find herself in wine, will of course only be more confused.

Feeling confused and strange, she silently drank the first sip of home-brewed liquor, which was a little spicy, but mellow and mellow into the palate. And how much alcohol does Ruan Qing drink? Honestly, it's not good! It's just that after she broke up with him, she deliberately contracted the bad habit of drinking. She thought that maybe she would be able to forget the one she once loved for a while! Even if it's all at once! Even Ruan Qing knew that it was impossible!

I suddenly recalled the sentence I learned from watching a TV series with my mother, the so-called: cold wine hurts the liver, hot wine hurts the stomach, and if you don't drink it, you are sad! Isn't this exactly the example sentence of life now?

In fact, every time you drink, the lovelorn person is more out of shape to cover up, regardless of whether he is really drunk or not. I just really miss him! I just want him to stay around! I just can't let go, I can't let go of everything! I want to talk to him about everything, and there are not too many problems between them! But why did it still end up breaking up? Although everyone understands that the water spilled is the most difficult thing to take back, a man's change of heart is also the most irreparable thing.

It's just that I hope for it, and I have to hope for it.

Ruan Qing, who couldn't tell whether he was still living in reality or not, took a sip of wine, of course, it was impossible to make Ruan Qing drunk with a sip! But who can stop the heart that is bent on getting drunk? Then it's better to let the alcohol pour into the throat and invade the nerves.

At this time, you don't have to think about anything, and you don't have to think about the difficulties you will face after graduation! Don't think about how to face your family's expectations! I don't want to think about what would happen to me without him! Without his gentle tone and unchanging promise of infatuation! And the last thing I want to think about is whether this strange life is true or false!

It's just that every sip of wine is spicy enough, so that tears fall silently. Go crazy! Go crazy! Alcohol rushes to the brain, making the whole space wonderful, and the colors become so colorful, as if you have stepped into a new world, you can't extricate yourself!

She rubbed her numb face with both hands, as if it wasn't her own face at all! The kneading of her hands and the feeling of the muscles on her face made her dizzy and unable to distinguish herself! Even if it's a dream, it's real! Since you have to die to do anything! Then I'll do nothing! That's it!

Alcohol gradually invaded the cerebral cord, and a fluttering sensation made her wave her hands to play the flying bird! But the naughty little alarm clock always rings again at an inappropriate time, ruining the sweet dreams that others deliberately deceive themselves, and the annoying voice keeps trying to remind the stupid bird that is flying. Sure enough, it completely angered the flying bird! The flying bird took the alarm clock in his hand with an angry face, and it was half past ten o'clock!

"Half past ten! Half past ten! How the do I set the alarm! "The flying bird howls angrily!

"Smack!"

The alarm clock rightfully shattered to the ground with a final scream, and finally stopped its life abruptly.

Half past ten! Is this really reality, or is it a bug in a dream? After a series of coincidences, Ruan Qing didn't notice any problems at all, when did he start to be so stupid? Is this the magic of love? I finally realized that this sentence can still be reversed! It's just that there is no problem with a diary, Ruan Qing actually uses wine to anesthetize himself! This must be the magic of love!

Now Ruan Qing, who starts to want to escape as soon as he encounters a problem, is cowardly! She forgot her ideals, her own pursuits. Books on logic and psychology are whispering on the bookcase, isn't that Ruan Qing, who wants to be a psychologist or psychiatrist? I am mixed up like this and still want to change others psychologically and change the world? It's ridiculous, it's stupid!

People who are too weak and warm will only be forced by society to become alcoholic maniacs, people who can't even help themselves! Who else are you going to help? I didn't even give myself a chance to think about why this happened and how I could have avoided such an ending again! I've been hiding myself from others, I just want others to be happy, and I don't want to be worried! Do you want to keep torturing yourself when you only have yourself?

Ruan Qing, who usually only secretly amplifies a little stereo in the middle of the night when encountering difficulties, and silently weeps silently holding his feet, can't stand the ups and downs of love, or can't stand the ups and downs of life?

Ruan Qing, who had finally finished venting recklessly, fell back to the bed softly. As a lyric says, let the time pass by, I only care about you. People who are obsessed with not wanting to let go of the passers-by in life, after trying all kinds of masochistic methods to forget, to alleviate the deep feelings, but they are so sad.

Is she worthy of pity, worthy of sympathy? Or is only Ruan Qing, who is afraid to touch him by suicide, actually worthy of contempt? Blame her for not letting go, not daring to try, and unwilling to choose other ways?

Ruan Qing closed her eyes and breathed softly, maybe only falling asleep would bring her stability, but she felt that she was living in a dream. Ruan Qing, who had tried to struggle, picked a bell for herself, but now the ringing of the bell seemed to be sarcastic.

“Nevermind,I‘llfindsomeonelike

you. Iwishnothingbutthebest,foryoutoo. Don‘tforget

me,Ibeg,……”