Hearing this, my heart chuckled: "Did he say where he saw it?" ”

"Thailand. www.biquge.info"Mi Zhen was a little strongly redirected by me, but she replied affirmatively, and then she looked at me repeatedly with a strange look.

Mizhen's eyes made me very uncomfortable, and I frowned and asked her what was wrong?

Unexpectedly, the sky came to the spirit: "Didn't you say that you don't know this necklace?" But why does your performance make me feel that things are not as worthy of the necklace as you say you are? At the beginning of speaking, Mi Zhen's attitude couldn't help but be a little hesitant, but in the end, Mi Zhen seemed to have caught some flaw, and even the tone of her voice became tough.

I was already weak-hearted, and when I saw Mi Zhen's serious face, I unconsciously stumbled: "I, I haven't seen it." I looked away, not daring to continue to look at Mi Zhen. I made up my mind and wanted to quibble with Mi Zhen again, but when I saw Mi Zhen's eyes, I became more empty-hearted. Eventually, I gave up and nodded, "I admit that when I saw the photo yesterday, I had a strange feeling, like I had seen it somewhere. But these are all impressions that cannot be verified. Maybe you gave me too much hint when you showed me the photos yesterday, and I was mistaken for thinking that I had seen it. "I'm still a little reluctant to admit that Mi Zhen has revealed the secret of my heart.

Mi Zhen saw that I confessed, and stopped teasing me: "I have long guessed that when your father kept refusing to let us contact you, I suspected that you might know about it. But I didn't ask Uncle Mo directly, after all, I knew that he was afraid of implicating you in such a dangerous matter. When we met yesterday, I kept trying to induce you to tell the truth, but you just wouldn't open your mouth. So Zixuan and I thought you really didn't know this necklace, and thought you were looking in the wrong direction. , but seeing that you are investigating again today, and asking me about things with an excited expression, I thought that you may have hidden something from us yesterday. Later, I went home and told your mother about it, and your mother confirmed the existence of the necklace with you. ”

Hearing Mi Zhen talk about my mother, I retorted with some displeasure: "It has nothing to do with my mother." Only I have an impression of the necklace, so don't trouble my mother. ”

Seeing that I was a little angry, Mi Zhen also realized that her words were a bit excessive, and immediately closed her mouth and stopped talking, and her face showed an apologetic expression.

I knew that the expression on my face should be a little scary now, because I saw that Mi Zhen was a little scared now, biting her lip and looking at me in a daze. I knew that Mi Zhen didn't mean to provoke me, so I sighed and changed the subject: "I haven't met you, so naturally I won't tell you everything." Even though I know you've met Dad many times, Dad has always kept it a secret from me, so I didn't know you existed. I thought he would never hide anything from me. "I don't know why, I suddenly said something like this. But when I suddenly thought of my behavior half a year ago, I was ashamed that I would say such a thing.

Mizhen was obviously a little embarrassed by my self-talk: "Your dad only told us to go to him during the day, and he had to make sure you weren't in the hospital at the time, and sometimes he would even sneak out of the room to meet us. Didn't he be discharged from the hospital and stay at home for a period of time during the Spring Festival this year? He met with us a few times at that time, but every time your mother asked him why, he would excuse himself by saying that he was out to do something, but in fact he came to us. At that time, he was still very happy and told me with great certainty that he was about to go. Mizhen didn't finish his words, but I knew he wanted to say that Dad thought he was getting better at that time.

"That's where we lied to him." I couldn't hold back the feeling that I wanted to cry, so I ran away in a hurry under the pretext of going to the bathroom, and locked the bathroom door with a 'pop'. I tried not to make any noise, and tears flowed from between my fingers, and there was a small puddle of water on the floor tiles. It was a long time before I stood up and looked in the mirror, where I had a dejected expression. I finally adjusted my expression, dealt with the marks on my face, and when I walked out of the bathroom, I saw Mi Zhen standing right opposite me, at the door of the bathroom. She looked at me nervously. Because I didn't have any defense, I couldn't help but be startled and let out a low exclamation, Mi Zhen obviously looked a little embarrassed because I bumped into her, and kept waving her hand to apologize to me: "I, I'm not peeping at you." After that, he felt that what he said was a little awkward, and quickly changed his words, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean that, I'm just a little worried." ”

"Worried about what?" I heard myself ask her in a very bad tone.

She was so embarrassed by my questioning that her face turned red, and she didn't know what to say. I was also a little embarrassed by his appearance, so I had to speak first to hide my same embarrassment; "I know what you mean. You're worried about me. I, I'm grateful. I patted Mizhen on the back, and Mizhen suddenly hugged me tightly, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to irritate you." ”

"I know." As he said this, tears flowed uncontrollably again. I just fell on Mizhen's shoulder and cried, just like when I was wronged when I was a child and cried and talked to my father. Mi Zhen gently patted me on the back and comforted me: "Cry, after crying." And all that was in the past. ”

Enough crying, Mi Zhen helped me wipe my tears and helped me warm a bottle of milk: "Drink a glass of milk, you just finished crying, and your physical strength is too much." ”

"I'm tired of crying, drink milk again, what if I fall asleep for a while?" After crying, my mood was a little better, and after the whole person relaxed, my eyelids were also mixed up.

"Then let's sleep here." Mi Zhen looked at me and didn't mind at all, "You wake up, let's go eat, if it's too late then let's order takeout." ”

I shook my head: "No, I'll leave in a while, and I'll go back to accompany my mother." ”

I drank the milk silently, while Mi Zhen watched me quietly. I was a little embarrassed by her staring, so I began to explain what had just happened: "I lied to my dad. ”

Mizhen didn't speak, just sat next to me and looked at me quietly. I put the milk cup on the coffee table and turned to Mizhen: "Dad was no longer good at that time. The doctor once consulted with us whether to tell him the truth, well, that is, Dad has half a year at most. But I refused. Am I going too far? I asked, looking at Mizhen.

Mizhen still didn't speak, but this time she gently patted me on the top of my head with her hand. Her gaze was still gentle, and I couldn't help but say again: "I've been wondering if I told my dad the truth in the dark room, would he be more receptive to his sudden turn in the last few weeks, and would he be more at ease." I hesitated for a moment, but finally had the courage to continue, "But if you give me another chance, I still don't have the courage to tell my dad that truth." I'm still selfishly hiding everything from him. I was scared that he knew his days were going by quickly, or I was scared to see him desperate. I mean, I expected it to be hopeless. In my subconscious, he has always been a mountain that will never fall, helping me ward off all dangers. I couldn't imagine the mountain collapsing in front of me. So I didn't tell him anything, and even lied to him that he was getting better. Although I know that this lie is very clumsy, if it were a normal person, he would definitely expose my words. However, at that time, he was also looking for hope to live, and he cooperated with believing my lies, and he struggled hard in his last days. And the only thing I can do is to say something completely nonsense around him, knowing that it will not come to fruition. Actually, all of us know it, but the people around me are also cooperating with me to create a false impression that looks hopeful. We all tacitly didn't tell the truth. Dad was the only one who was kept in the dark, and sometimes, I even used this illusion to blind myself, and even used the illusion I created to hypnotize that my father would definitely get better. Do you know? After he left, I didn't dare to close my eyes, because as soon as I closed my eyes, I would see what he looked like before he left, desperately struggling to survive. As long as I recall the scene, I feel very guilty. Because I willfully made up one lie after another for him, and made him leave this world with regret. I stared at the floor in front of me and remembered how my dad had left in front of me a few days ago. I breathed vigorously and trembled uncontrollably.

Mizhen's hand left the top of my head and patted me on the back to help me breathe. I want to know the truth, and she thinks I'm disgusting. I was about to bow my head and leave quickly, when Mi Zhen's voice rang out: "I don't know if you feel better about saying this, but I know that most patients' families will make the same choice as you." Comforting the sick with a hope that cannot be fulfilled at all, and comforting oneself until the time comes when it is necessary to separate, only to find that it is too late for everything. This regret of not being able to help the patient fulfill his last wish will follow them for the rest of their lives, leaving them to live in self-blame forever. While I think it's selfish to make this decision, I don't think it's a decision that you would be judging for yourself. At least you've always hoped that he had a good intention of living with hope. Just like we will be overly optimistic by the media, thinking that as long as you are in a cheerful mood, you can live for a long time even if you are seriously ill, I think at the beginning, you lied to him in the hope that he could live with hope until the disease can be cured. Isn't it? ”

"Don't comfort me." My nose is a little blocked again.

Mi Zhen sighed softly: "I'm not comforting you, I'm excusing myself." I've been in a situation almost like yours, and I made the same decision as you at the time, and I have had the same regrets as you after that. Merely. Mi Zhen suddenly stopped her voice as she said this.

I raised my head to look at him, Mi Zhen's eyes were a little evasive, and in the end, she still couldn't help but say: "So, with my experience, when your father told me about his situation, I broke you down and told your father about his condition. ”