Chapter Twenty-Three: I Heard It All
"Tell me, do you like him?"
"I ......" Bai Furan suddenly didn't know how to answer, her feelings for Duan Chenjing had far surpassed her liking, but she dared to touch it. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info
Hongxi raised his voice, and his voice began to tremble, "Are you...... Fell in love with him......"
Bai Furan didn't speak, just looked at his reddened eyes, shook his head vigorously, and muttered: "I don't know, I don't know......"
Hongxi hugged her and put his chin on her shoulder, and the more Bai Furan struggled in her arms, the tighter he hugged her.
He had been thinking about this for three whole years. How greedy he was, the warmth that belonged only to her.
"Fu Ran, you tell me that the person you have always loved deeply is me, and you have no feelings for Chen Jing."
Bai Furan struggled in his arms for a long time, but after all, he couldn't win him, so he had to compromise.
She felt the heat of his body through the fabric of his clothes, and sighed helplessly.
For her, he actually had no love at all. Yes, she admitted, she liked him a lot. However, it was just a love between friends. He was like her family, like her brother.
Perhaps, she also liked him, right? Or maybe that's just a good feeling.
If she really loves him, then it is impossible to empathize with him and fall in love with someone who doesn't care about her at all in just three years.
In fact, Hongxi also knows this in his heart, but he is unwilling to accept it.
"I'm in love with him."
Bai Furan's faint voice came from behind, making Hongxi's heart, which still had a trace of hope, instantly cool down like the cold ice of winter.
"I'm in love with him."
Bai Furan once again said firmly that this was also the first time she had openly expressed her heart to the outside world.
She has been silently burying this feeling deep in her heart, and she will never mention it for the rest of her life. However, she is always deceiving herself, she thinks that she has hidden this feeling well, but outsiders can often see through it at a glance. Sure enough, feelings are always a thing that the authorities are obsessed with bystanders.
Now, she doesn't want to have anything to do with Hongxi anymore. Rather than the two of them being entangled all the time, it is better to simply end this affectionate relationship that has been misunderstood for so many years.
After she said this, she felt Hongxi's body holding her obviously stiff, and she was stunned for a long time.
As she expected, Hongxi slowly let go of her. The expression also changed from disbelief to pretending to be calm.
"You mean, you're in love with him?"
Bai Furan nodded, although she really didn't want to admit it, but the fact was that she couldn't deny it. She doesn't know what is going on with herself, she has no feeling for the man who is very attentive to her, but she has a soft spot for the person who ignores her, like poisoning.
Hongxi nodded, "In that case, if I continue to fight to the death, I will only lose both, and maybe in the end, I will hurt you deeply." No matter how difficult it is, you must eventually learn to accept it and try to face it. So, let's finish dyeing. ”
End the love for you for nearly 20 years, end the hope I have for you, and end those unforgettable memories with you for so many years.
Hongxi's reaction was unexpected by Bai Furan, but she also felt relieved to see that he could put it down.
"Yes, it's all over. In the future, we will be good friends, we can still talk like before, and you can often come to Jian Shui Xuan to play with me. ”
"Then there's no need," Hongxi smiled with relief, "Jianshuixuan is the territory of the cold-faced prince of your family, I'm afraid that he will directly freeze me into ice cubes when I go there to find you, or you often come to the palace to play with me, it just so happens that I also lack a person to talk to." ”
Bai Furan wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, his smile was very gentle, and he could almost pinch out the water, "I thought you would say something extreme, but I was really happy to hear you say that." ”
Hongxi looked at her with disgust, "You take yourself too seriously, don't you?" There are so many good girls in the world, why should I seek death and life for you. And, ah, I also thought clearly at that moment, maybe my heart has always been possessive and dependent. Maybe from the beginning, people said that the two of us would be a match made in heaven, so they subconsciously decided that you would be my person for the rest of your life. However, now that it's all in the past, and I've struggled for three years, there's no need to keep trapping myself in a dead end, it's time to get out. ”
"Then I wish you to find your other half as soon as possible, and then grow old with her."
"Who am I, I will be the emperor in a few days, how can I not find my other half."
When Bai Furan heard him say this, he was completely relieved. Even though he is smiling now, time is the best medicine for healing wounds, and it will slowly get better.
"If it's okay, I'll go back first."
Hongxi nodded, "Go ahead, I'll have someone take you to Chenjing." ”
At the moment when Bai Furan turned around, his smile gradually converged, and his fingers slowly tightened, so that his knuckles "clicked".
He looked at Bai Furan's back as he drifted away, and his eyes became cloudy and complicated.
Bai Furan thought well, he had been smiling just now, and all the things he said to her about his relief were all lies to her.
A wife he thought he had been a child with, and suddenly married someone else, and that person was still the one who threatened him, how could he say that he would let it go.
"Heh, Fu Ran, do you think I can really let go, Bengong's heart is not that big. Duan Chenjing, let's see. ”
Bai Furan walked out of the side hall and didn't take a few steps, and when she looked up, she saw Duan Chenjing waiting for her outside. She smiled bitterly, and it was in front of outsiders that he would care about her a little and deliberately wait for her.
Duan Chenjing walked up to her, squinted at the brightly lit side hall, smiled, and then looked down at Bai Furan, showing tenderness between the lines, "I heard that people said that you came here, so I came to find you and go home together." ”
Go home.
What a warm two words, Bai Furan looked at him, slightly distracted. If he was just a commoner, and he was a matchmaker with her parents, even if he had never met, after getting married, would he fall in love with her and become a real husband and wife like other couples?
However, in the world, what is lacking is what ifs.
On the carriage back, Duan Chenjing sat face to face with her, and no one spoke.
Come to think of it, he didn't have anything to communicate with her. She has no right to ask about his affairs, the two have been married for three years, and the topic they talked about the most was his sister An Lingxuan.
The two of them thought about their own thoughts, and they didn't know how long the carriage had been walking, and then slowly stopped, only to hear the coachman outside say: "Lord Wang, it's here." ”
Bai Furan didn't hesitate, and immediately stood up and lifted the covering curtain, wanting to get out of the carriage, but coldly heard the person sitting behind her say, "I heard it all." ”
Bai Furan's heart twitched, his body seemed to stiffen, and he stood in place and maintained the posture of lifting the curtain, and did not move for a long time.
Did he hear it? What do you hear?
Bai Furan's heart has no bottom, he only feels that his heartbeat is faster, and there is a sense of shame of being nakedly peeped at.
She simply didn't speak, waiting for Duan Chenjing's next words.
Duan Chenjing raised his eyes lazily to look at her, there was no temperature between his eyebrows, and even his voice dropped to zero o'clock, just like when he was waiting for her outside the side hall.
"I heard what you said to the prince inside. After three years of marriage, I originally thought that you and I had always been well water and not river water. But I didn't expect you to ...... me Gave birth to some feelings that shouldn't exist at all......"
Bai Furan felt his nose sour, so he heard her say to Hongxi that she loved him. Now, he said it so bluntly, feelings that shouldn't exist at all...... Yes, she shouldn't have fallen in love with him at all, and she wasn't qualified to fall in love with him......
Holding back the tears that were about to burst out of her eyes, she lowered the half-opened curtain and stood with her back to him.
Duan Chenjing paused, and then said, "If I do something to make Miss Bai misunderstand, Chenjing is here to compensate Miss Bai." I still have the same old saying, Miss Bai has always been a free person in my Jianshui Xuan, and she does not need to be restrained in any way. ”
Bai Furan felt that he was terribly calm now, so he didn't turn to look at Duan Chenjing, and said calmly: "So, are you going to drive me away now?" ”
"I didn't mean that, I just wanted to tell you that I have someone I like, and I've liked her since I was very young. In my life, Duan Chenjing, I only think she is my wife. So, please Miss Bai, please stop your feelings for Chen Jing. ”
"That girl, is that the young lady sitting across from you tonight?" In fact, as soon as she entered the door, she could see that there was something wrong with the way he looked at the young lady. During the meal, although he was helping her with the dishes, he would still look at the girl sitting across from her, intentionally or unintentionally.
Duan Chenjing said "um", "Her name is Wang Mengning, although she has a careless personality, she doesn't remember who I am at all." However, I always remember her, and it doesn't matter what happened before, as long as I know that I love her. I'm sure she'll fall in love with me sooner or later. ”
Bai Furan's tears kept falling, and this was the most tender passage he had ever said to her. But between the lines, there was not a single word about her.
She took a few deep sips of water, trying not to sound so choked, "Okay, I see." From now on, I will try to manage my emotions so that you don't feel any burden. In addition, I wish you and that Miss Wang can have a lover and eventually become married. ”
After speaking, she did not hesitate to lift the curtain, jumped out of the carriage, and the movements were smooth and smooth, all in one go.
Then, she almost ran to her room. Let the tears rage on his face, blurring his vision, but his steps are still unabated.
She slammed the door shut, crouched weakly against the door, hugged her knees and buried her head in her knees, her shoulders shaking.
Sure enough, when people are sad, they don't even have the strength to cry.
He called her one by one, he asked her to end her unnecessary feelings for him, he told her that she liked someone else, he ......