My consciousness is drowsy, I feel so uncomfortable, my head hurts, what's wrong? What's going on?

I couldn't see it, I couldn't hear it clearly, I was dizzy, and the feeling of nausea rushed up, I wanted to vomit but couldn't vomit anything, and I didn't have any strength in my body. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

He opened his mouth, but all he could do was a groan of pain of unknown significance, and his throat was so dry that it was about to crack.

Captain...... I miss you so much, you won't be with me in the future, right...... Yes, after all, I did such an excessive thing, I am such a monster, I did that to the captain, don't be gentle with me anymore, I am a monster......

Hey? What was that? Is it the sound of the door opening?

Is it the sound of footsteps? It sounds like the captain's footsteps.

No way, the captain can't come to see me again, I'm a monster. Even if you don't see what you look like under the mask, even if you don't know the sin of killing my father that I committed, I can't be together forever based on what I did last night.

But, but, but I still want to be the captain. The more I feel my ugliness, the more I feel my deformity, the more I want to be the captain, so I want to be with him all the time. But it's impossible, I've done such an excessive thing, it's impossible, even if it's useless to apologize, how can you forgive me?

However, even so, I still want to apologize to the captain. You won't forgive me, so leave after you apologize. Leave quietly, without alarming anyone, put on another mask, go to a place where there is no one, and stay there forever and ever. Monsters like me, don't come out again.

However, I know better than anyone how attached I am to this light.

……

"Hey, hey, a thousand machines, a thousand machines!"

On the floor, the emaciated girl lay there, moaning indistinctly.

"Wake up! Wake up! “

I reached out and touched the girl's forehead, and I could feel the astonishing heat even through the mask. She was having a high fever, which was very bad.

"Ice cubes, use ice cubes to cool down first."

I have never experienced such a feeling of helplessness.

There was still pain in the pierced palm, and I was obviously still resentful, but at this time, when I heard her moaning in pain, I forgot everything, and I ran to her room at once. When I saw her like this, I felt a sense of panic that grabbed my heart at once.

"Captain, help me, help me."

"Don't, I don't want to go back, don't, I'm afraid, I'm so afraid!"

"There's no one there, it's just me, it's just me, it's just me and the cold room, I can't even see a little light!"

"Please, Captain, please, please, please save me, save me!"

"I'm not a monster, I'm not a monster, I'm human, I want to take off my mask and live...... Woo, forgive me, save me, forgive me, save me! “

The girl with a high fever is begging indiscriminately, damn, hateful, damn, why can't the fever go down at all!

She's begging me, bastard! She wants to take off her mask, she wants to take off her mask and live, help her, help her, you have to help her, you must help her!

Medicine, by the way, brought medicine, there is medicine in the room!

Roughly opened the door and shouted loudly: "Hui, Qianji has a fever, help me take care of it, I'll go get the medicine!" ”

Hurry, hurry, get the medicine, get her better. Then tell her, I know, I know, I know!

I knew it for a long time, and I knew it after I came back from the mission in the Land of Rain, and then I saw what it looked like under the mask. After becoming the captain of the Tian Squad, he has already turned over the file as it was, and he already knew what happened back then.

Tell her, I already knew, she's right, she's not wrong, she's not wrong at all, she's not a monster!

Why, why, why didn't you tell her sooner. Afraid of irritating her? Afraid of backfire? No, no, no, neither! Because I'm a bastard, a bastard with pity, a self-righteous bastard.

It's just to make yourself feel satisfied, it's just to help the weak from the standpoint of the strong, so as to satisfy yourself, and I'm thinking about myself from beginning to end!

Rushing frantically towards the room, an indescribable sense of remorse filled my heart.

I don't know what I'd do if there was a little bit of an accident...... Do you cry? Will it be crazy? I don't know, just thinking about that scene, my heart is like a piece has been stripped off, and an incomparable sense of emptiness and pain rushes over me crazily.

Yes, from the very beginning, I came to interact with Chiki with the mentality of helping the weak. I like pretty girls, I don't like girls with disgusting ugly scars on their faces, I'm just satisfying myself.

With power, I can do things that I couldn't do when I was weak, I can change the fate of others, I can help the weak, I'm just satisfying my own ridiculous vanity.

But, but ...... But now, it's hopeless.

When is it? When did it start?

It's her who thinks about her during the day, and she's the one who dreams at night, and she's hopeless, even with that scar, I'm hopelessly in love with her.

I picked up my speed and rummaged frantically around the room.

……

Haggard, how can you be so haggard!

It's hot, it's hot! Chi-chan, she's so sick!

There are still ice cubes, and the towel is no longer icy, so you have to add ice cubes quickly. With such heat, the ice cubes are not much use, so you still have to take medicine.

"Chi-chan, come on! I'll be there for you! ”

I don't know how to cheer for Chi-chan, there's so little I can do.

The popularity has not decreased, but has a tendency to get higher and higher.

"Water, Water ......"

Chi-chan let out such a painful moan, and I hurriedly took the water glass.

Masks, yes, masks.

Take the mask off and the heat will dissipate a little faster, maybe a little better.

"Qian-chan, wait a minute, I'll take off your mask first, so that the heat may be able to come down, and then I'll give you water right away."

Without hesitation, I reached for the mask that Chi-chan had been wearing, and gently removed it.

Syllable!

The glass of water fell to the ground and shattered, and the warm water splashed out, but it gave me a deep chill.

I involuntarily took a few steps back and involuntarily stepped away from Chi-chan.

Why? Why would I pull back? I like Sen-chan the most, why did you pull back?

Chi-chan opened her eyes, she saw me, wait, she saw the mask on my hand, she reached out and touched her face...... What a gaze that is!

I opened my mouth and wanted to say words like "It's okay" and "I'll be with you no matter what", but what came out of my mouth were syllables that didn't make sense, not so much words as moans of fear when I saw monsters, right?

No, no, speak, tell Chi-chan, it's okay, we're friends, best friends! Speak, Megumi Tanzo!

Chi-chan is gone...... Covering his face, he jumped out of the window and walked away like that.

I fell to the ground weakly, I didn't know what it was like to feel in my heart, I could only feel the tears flowing non-stop, and I could only feel the discomfort in my heart as if I was going crazy.

Megumi Tano, you hypocrite!

Ming Yuanjun ran up, he saw the mask in my hand, saw the empty bed, and saw the open window.

Not even having room to scold me, he immediately jumped out of the window.

It's just me, it's just me, and I sit limply on the ground.

Megumi Tasoko, what will you say will always accompany Chi-chan, what is the best friend, as a result, as a result, as a result, as a result, you can't even say a word of comfort! Hypocrite, you hypocrite!

In the face of my own torture, I couldn't excuse myself, so I could only break down and cry bitterly.

……

"Qianji, wait for me, wait for me, wait for me!"

"Will catch up with you, will save you, will definitely save you! Liberating you from under the mask, freeing you from the past, will definitely give you the courage to face yourself! ”