"Don't be like this, Xiaoman, in the face of such a thing, no one feels good. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoBut if you don't pay attention, more people will suffer. ”

I looked at him steadily, and I understood some truths, He Bin was not wrong. But emotionally, I still can't accept it, and I can't accept that someone who has been with me almost every day for nearly a year died in front of my eyes like this, and died so miserably......

Life is impermanent, and if a meteor passes by, what is the meaning of life?

I don't know how He Bin got a car and drove me home. All I knew was that by the time I got home, it was already dark, the sun had hidden its last rays of light, and I got out of the car in the dark.

"Xiaoman, you have to be strong, in the days to come, you have to face more life and death than this, do you have to keep being sad like this?"

I didn't answer He Bin's words.

"He Bin, thank you today." I squeezed out a wry smile and said to him, and then opened the door of my house.

"He Bin, I'm tired, I won't invite you in to sit." I said weakly.

He Bin frowned slightly, looked at me uneasily, and finally nodded and left.

Looking at his departing back, he was about to go back to the house, but found a figure coming out of the shadows.

"Bai Zixuan?" I screamed in amazement.

I hadn't seen him for a few days since that day when I said I had renounced the marriage and gave them the money for the engagement.

He stood still in front of me, and suddenly faced him, and realized that he didn't know what to say. Think about it, two people can't just stand at the gate of the courtyard. I can't send him away like I sent He Bin.

I could only silently enter the courtyard and turn on the courtyard lights. Bai Zixuan really followed.

"You probably shouldn't have come." I whispered.

"Isn't it okay to come and see it as an ordinary friend?" His voice was low and hoarse, but it struck me so heavily that I felt a shudder in the depths of my heart, and I could no longer make any more answers.

I had to close the courtyard door first, and then entered the house in silence and turned on the light. And he has been following silently.

When I turned around and looked at him in the light, I couldn't help but be startled, and I saw that he was visibly thin, with deep sunken eyes, some messy hair, and even a beard that had not been shaved, and the whole person looked very decadent. It's only been a few days since I saw him, and he's so haggard.

"Zixuan, you!"

Looking at his decadent appearance, I was a little at a loss. He should be happy when he left me. No one would affect his relationship with his parents anymore. No one will cause him any more trouble, he can find his own happiness. Why did he torture himself like this? If it's for me, is it worth it?

I deeply feel worthless for Zixuan.

At the same time, he saw my face clearly, and a flash of surprise and nervousness flashed in his eyes.

"Xiaoman, have you cried?" He was worried.

"No, I, hey......" I sighed, "Sit down." I politely sat down for Bai Zixuan.

"Xiaoman, has something happened? If anything, be sure to let me know! Bai Zixuan said nervously.

"It's nothing, it's just that a friend has passed away." I want to try to keep things as plain as possible, so as not to worry Bai Zixuan and not make myself too uncomfortable. But the tears still slipped out of their eyes.

"Xiaoman." Bai Zixuan walked into me distressedly, squatted down, and held my hand.

He is still as attentive and considerate as he was when he was not yet married, but he no longer belongs to me, and he has nothing to do with my life anymore. I unconsciously pulled my hand out.

I clearly detected a trace of pain in Bai Zixuan's eyes. I don't want him to be sad, but what he wants, I can't give it anymore, I lamented helplessly in my heart, once I thought that I would go on with him for the rest of my life, whether there is love or not, we can at least get along with each other, but then I learned that even the simplest marriage does not belong to me. Only by letting go will we not hurt each other again.

Bai Zixuan stood up a little depressed and found a place to sit for a while.

And as soon as he sat down, before he sat down, the courtyard door had already opened, and because Zixuan came in just now, I didn't lock the courtyard door, but just covered it up.

"You don't lock the courtyard door at night."

It was He Bin's voice, he didn't say a word, he didn't knock on the door and broke in in a hurry, and he was full of complaints and lessons.

When he came in and saw someone in the house, he nodded at Bai Zixuan embarrassedly: "Oh, I'm sorry, it turns out that there are guests." ”

"You haven't eaten yet, I want to get you some, there are no shops open on this street, I finally found one, I often visit this shop, the food tastes good, you can taste it." After He Bin nodded to Zixuan, he turned to me and said to me.

"Thank you." I saw him carrying a paper bag in his hand, and he took out two disposable lunch boxes from the paper bag.

"That, you hurry up and eat while it's hot, you have guests at home, I won't stay longer, I'm tired of a day, and I'll rest early for a while." After He Bin took out the lunch box, he babbled a few more words, and without saying goodbye, he left like the wind again.

Bai Zixuan looked at He Bin, who disappeared outside the courtyard gate, and turned his head to look at me again.

"You haven't eaten dinner yet?" He asked lightly.

I bowed my head slightly, not answering. After a while, he raised his head again and pushed the lunch box towards him: "Didn't you eat either, or you won?" I don't have much taste. ”

I really don't have any taste, and it's strange to have such a big thing happening in the afternoon. Moreover, after eating the fruit of blue ice and the pill of Mo Minghan, he really did not feel hungry.

"Eat quickly, don't waste some of other people's thoughts." Bai Zixuan pushed the lunch box in front of me again.

I looked at him with burning eyes, savoring the meaning of his words, but he lowered his head and smiled bitterly.

"Why don't we have one and a half?" He opened his mouth and said softly, he knows me, he is in front of me now, he has not eaten a bite of food to wait for me to come back, and now, if he does not eat something, I will definitely not eat.

He went to the kitchen and took two pairs of chopsticks out, divided the rice, put the dishes in the middle, one person and half, he did not deliberately who divided more, or who divided less, after dividing, he thoughtfully handed me a pair of chopsticks, holding this pair of chopsticks, but I felt a thousand pounds, to be honest, there was no taste.