I don't know how I ate a heavy dinner, let alone what it tasted like. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

After eating, Bai Zixuan didn't let me move, and took the initiative to clean up the dishes and chopsticks.

Looking at his haggard and busy figure, his heart was mixed. He's a good man, but he's bound by me.

He sat down beside me and watched me quietly for a long time. In fact, I didn't want to live such a life, have a stable home, have a man who loves him, when the night comes, someone understands your happiness and your melancholy, soothes every sorrow for you, and sometimes even asks yourself, have you really not been moved by the man in front of you? Maybe there was no bitter love, but after a few years, I found that I had become accustomed to his pampering, his care, and his love. At the moment of the real breakup, it turns out that I will also have heartache.

"Xiaoman, I know we broke up, I won't pester your ......" Bai Zixuan broke the silence and opened his mouth gently, his tone was full of sadness, but every sentence was comforting me, he seemed to be saying these words with a lot of desperation.

My heart trembled at this, and every relief he gave me a crack in my heart.

"I know my parents are doing a little too much......"

"Nope! Don't say that! I looked up at him, "Every parent is here for their child's future." Even if my uncle and aunt don't bring it up, I'll bring it up. I said in a light tone.

"I know, I know you've never loved me." Bai Zixuan's voice trembled slightly.

"Zixuan, I didn't mean that......"

"Don't say it, I understand, I understand......" Bai Zixuan's eyes suddenly looked at me, "I give you together, I don't want to get your love, I just want to have a chance for me to love you......"

Zixuan's throat was dry, and I couldn't hold back my tears anymore.

"You know what? I just want to be able to see you every day, to see you smile, to see you safe, to see you happy, just to accompany you silently, it's enough, whether you have me in your heart or not, as long as you allow me to love you......"

"Zixuan, I'm not worthy of your effort." I choked uncontrollably.

"But you know what? Later I found out that I don't even have the ability to guard you at the very least, and I want you to be happy, but I can only see you sinking deeper and deeper into pain day by day, and I can't do anything for you......"

"Don't talk about Zixuan, you've done enough for me! I'm sorry for you......"

"Once, whether in terms of family background or study, it was like a gap between us that could never be bridged, and you lived so deeply in my heart, but I could only look at you from afar......"

I raised my head in surprise and looked at Zixuan with tears, I have been with him for three years, but he has never confessed to me so affectionately, has not told me about his feelings for me, and at this moment, he is completely immersed in his emotions, and I am also shocked by his confession, once upon a time, I have been immersed in my own emotional pain, but I have never considered the emotions and feelings of the person around me who loves me so deeply, he has been so silently giving, but I have been ignored, My heart welled up with deep guilt and pain......

"I thought that in my life, I could only pay attention to you silently like this, your smile could only appear in my dreams, and I could only look at you from a distance. You used to be so sunny, so beautiful, you are like a round of sunrise in my life, bright and fiery, once you were young and casual and flamboyant, you are different from other girls, you are even sometimes as reckless as a tomboy, silly and stupid, as if you will never think about anything, you always think about everything so simply, worry is so far away from you, you are willful, you are reckless, but your heart is hot, there is always a bright smile on your face, so deeply infecting the people around you. And that's when I fell into it, into an impossible love......"

Zi Xuan said mercilessly, a doting smile appeared on his handsome face, and his eyes were distant and misty. He is the object of many girls' infatuation, although he used to have an average family background, and when his family situation improves, there will be more girls who pursue him, but he has never said to let go of me, including the last breakup.

He fell into that long memory and love, and my heart also followed his recounting, back to that long time of youth, when I was so heartless, so happy, but since when, that time has long been far away, that kind of me, has long been lost, can never be traced back.

"I never thought that this love of mine would confess to you, and I never thought that I would be so close to you that someone entrusted me to help him take care of you. At that time, I was afraid that I would not be able to take care of you at all, that you would push me away from afar, or accidentally hurt you. I approached you with such trepidation, and my heart was full of apprehension, but I did not expect that you would accept me, and even offer to be engaged to me. ”

But you know what? At that time, you were so painful when you accepted me, I knew that you didn't love me, you were engaged to me, you were just choking, just punishing what you thought was wrong love, just to make yourself die. Do you know how much my heart hurts? I feel sorry for your pain and regret that I can't really bring you happiness. ”

But at the same time, I am so happy and excited in my heart, I am glad that I can have such an opportunity to wait for you silently, and I thank you for giving me this opportunity to love you well. I swear I will do everything I can to give you happiness and happiness. I even think that we will be happy all the time, and have been walking into the wedding hall plainly, it really doesn't matter if you love me or not, I just want you to be happy, you are happy! But I didn't expect that I would bring you troubles and pain and even humiliation in the end, I hate myself so much, I really hate myself, and I can't protect you well after all......"

Zixuan had never said so many things to me at once. I didn't expect that he knew all my joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and he actually endured them silently, never asked me for anything, and his love was so lenient and selfless, and I couldn't bear it......