When I got home, I thought I would be hospitalized, but my father just let me recuperate at home, I don't understand, it was not that there was no money for hospitalization at home at that time, but just like my brother was sick at the beginning, confined at home, I almost thought that I had a terminal illness, even if I couldn't see it in the hospital, but I finally recovered slowly under my father's careful care, but my father also shattered the best dream of my life. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

My father will do some massage, every day to give me massage, rub my head, every time he massages to the end, he will always press his palm on my eyebrows, then I will feel a strange force along his warm and generous palm from my eyebrows, then I will feel much more comfortable, and my brain will be much clearer. But after every massage, I saw that my father looked tired.

When I was in junior high school, I had a lot of friends, both boyfriends and girlfriends, and even more friends of the opposite sex, maybe because of my big personality.

And from these friends, my parents soon found out the clue, my father ordered me very strictly, not allowing me to contact Qin Yu anymore, I was disgusted by their practice, I was angry, I resisted, I refused the treatment my father gave me......

I said, I am a very paranoid person, if you love, you want to love vigorously, pure and pure, I think this may be my Achilles' heel, people like me are very easy to be extreme, I am incompatible with my father for this, and I can't understand what: in this incident, my brother is also on the same front as my father! If there is a generation gap between me and my father, as a new youth, how can my brother be the same?

Maybe all women are paranoid when they fall in love, so much so that they hurt their hearts to the point that they can't bear to live, and they may not want to really let go of a relationship.

But in the end, I saw with my own eyes the naked betrayal of my so-called lover!

It's like my brother lost millet at that time! Is it the case with all the men around me? I hate! I hate every single one of them. Is a woman's love so worthless in their eyes?

It turns out that all my persistence and persistence are so ridiculous, I don't think I will ever believe in love again in this life, and my heart is dead, I feel that I have lost my enthusiasm for everyone, and it is as plain as water.

I don't understand why they would rather accept someone they don't love than work hard for someone they love, it turns out that love is so shallow.

I think I'm so dead in heart that I don't even want to mention the details of that love again......

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Sitting alone in the dark night, stroking the red jade on his chest, this is the last thought my brother gave me before leaving, in that night full of fear, in the face of his tolerance, washed by tears, the mustard in my heart seems to be disintegrating little by little, how many years have passed, is it for that unworthy love, I really can't forgive my family?

I can't help but ask myself, if it were now, would I still leave my family for that ridiculous love?

The night was speechless, and I couldn't get an answer from my heart.

I only remember that in the early hours of that morning, my brother has been sitting with me on the cold ground, I have been crying, he is silent, he used to be such a funny and humorous person, but since he fell ill and broke up with Xiaomi, he has become a stuffy gourd, if you don't need to be easy to speak.

He kept holding my shoulders and didn't say a word, until I calmed down a little, I felt that he seemed to have endless heavy thoughts, maybe from life, in the face of mutations in the family, as the only man in the family now, his pressure is the greatest, right?

A wisp of morning light finally broke through the layers of morning fog and projected it into the dim shop, the room lit up, he gently brushed my face with his hand because of crying and tears, his eyes were so melancholy and gentle, he suddenly hooked his lips and smiled slightly, that smile was full of pampering and pity......

"Good, it's okay, it's all over!" It's still the same as the caring and persuasive tone of me when I was a child, that warm smile, always gives me a sense of security, how many years, it turns out that his love for me has never changed, but I am far away from him......

My eyes were moist again.

"Brother! I ......, "How long has it been since I called him brother?!" I wanted to apologize, but my words choked up in my throat.

"Shh He stretched out his index finger to me, he buried my head in his broad chest, and rubbed my silky black hair, "Xiaoman, remember, always love yourself, no matter what happens, you must be strong, be happy, don't embarrass yourself, don't hurt yourself, no one blames you, because you have really done a good job......"

I still can't understand my brother's words, I didn't do anything at all except for doing something to hurt them, but he said that I had done a good job......

He didn't know that his words came out, which stabbed my heart even more, like a naked mockery, and it was everyone's willful tolerance of me, and no one blamed me, that made me even more painful and unable to get rid of it......

He coaxed me for a while, and then put his hands on my shoulders and looked at it carefully, as if to engrave my face into his heart, he was obviously smiling, but his eyes were so deep, like a bottomless pool, I suddenly felt a little inexplicable panic......

Suddenly, he raised his hand and imprinted a palm on my forehead, there seemed to be a desperate scream from the depths of my soul, the whole body seemed to be pulled away, all rushed to the center of my eyebrows with the strength of his palm, at that moment I had a headache and pain, but I couldn't even make a painful sound, at that moment the world was gray, the pain had lost the concept of time, it took a long time for the pain to be relieved, the whole body felt more relaxed than it had ever been, and even had the illusion of floating......

But my brother's face was pale, but he still smiled at me dotingly.

The smile on his face suddenly made me feel so far away, so far away that I couldn't catch it, a desperate emotion suddenly rushed to my heart, made me feel scared like never before, I panicked, grabbed his hand, looked at him pleadingly, wanted to pray for something, I didn't even know myself, maybe only the simplest prayer, that is, don't let me lose him!

I never knew what he had learned in the years since he disappeared, but at that moment I knew that it was not as simple as practicing martial arts!

"This, you must put it away!" He took off a pendant and put it around my neck, and I shook my head desperately against it, and I couldn't hold back the tears like a, because I knew that this pendant was the blessing of his father when he was seriously ill in high school.

But his insistence cannot be denied.

This is a red pendant, the most ordinary square, without any patterns, but red as fire, such as amber transparent, there seems to be a small point of light in the middle, because of the small, not to say what color, holding in the hand actually feels like being warmed by the sun, as if there is a sound of heaven coming, will make the heart clear, but after the Qingming I only have deeper regret and pain.

(To be continued)