My brother used to be good with a girl named Xiaomi, who was a skinny little and very sweet little girl, who didn't talk much, always smiled sweetly when she saw people, and her voice was sweet and soft, she was the kind of girl who could arouse boys' desire to protect, I felt that she was very suitable for a warm man like my brother, but maybe all first loves are like sour green apples, and they will end in a poignant tragedy, and my brother's first love is the same. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

After high school, my brother got sick for some reason, always had chest tightness, shortness of breath and chest pain, and finally had to suspend school, and the girl came to see it a few times.

However, when she came to our house again, my brother told her not to let her come and see him again. I remember that the girl cried and had red eyes, and later, my brother insisted on sending her out, and the two stayed outside together for a long time, and when I came back, my brother also had red eyes, and he slept without saying a word, and my brother was almost unfinished for a few days, and he was so emaciated that he was almost out of shape, and since then I have never seen the girl named Xiaomi.

After two or three months, my brother's health seemed to be a little better, but he proposed to learn some martial arts, saying that it was to strengthen his body, and his father sent him away, and this was a few years, during which he rarely came back, and I rarely saw my dear brother again.

It was five years after my brother went home again, and I was already going to the provincial capital to go to high school, and the distance between me and my brother was getting farther and farther away, but I knew that our strong family relationship would never be on the line, and every time I came back, or he went to see me, he always gave me a big hug.

After my brother came home, he quickly became married to a girl who had not known him for a long time, that is, my current sister-in-law, and lived the most ordinary life, which I also couldn't understand.

I can't understand that two people who have only met a few times and have no emotional foundation can live happily together? I think love should be unswerving until death, but I saw in my brother that love turned out to be just an accessory of life.

And during my school in the provincial capital, I also met the true son of my life - Qin Yu, we actually knew each other in junior high school, but my big personality, I always thought that we were very good buddies, until I went to high school in the provincial capital, he still always insisted on seeing me every week, our emotions subtly deteriorated, I feel that somewhere in my heart like a pool of spring spring began to ripple......

But by the time I was a sophomore year of high school, I suddenly started to have a headache, and I had a faint mole in the center of my eyebrow, which was barely noticeable in normal times, but it stood out at that time, became conspicuous, and began to look blood-red.

Every day, there seems to be a cluster of flames in the center of my eyebrows, burning my brain, day by day.

Then I seemed to have auditory hallucinations, and I often heard a woman's screaming laughter, until one time I fainted and I was taken home by my father.

When I came back from the provincial capital, my headache symptoms were not alleviated, and my condition seemed to be aggravated, and I always felt hot all over my body, it was the kind of burning sensation from the inside out, and there seemed to be a flame burning in my internal organs, but the strange thing was that the body temperature was not high and I did not have a fever.

Later, when my headache was at its extreme, I hallucinated, and I saw a woman, dressed in a red wedding dress, with her head covered in pearls, swimming along a dark river, and the water in the river was darker than the night, and seemed to swallow all life. At the edge of the Black River were endless towering mountains, black, strange and abrupt, even the sky was dark, everywhere there was black and gray without a single color, and there was no sign of life, there, it was so desolate, gray and dead, only the red and dazzling eyes on the woman's body became the only bright color in this darkness, but it was bright and strange.

I couldn't imagine how the woman would have survived in such a lifeless place.

There was an air of sadness, desolation and despair emanating from the woman, which always inadvertently affected me, and made me feel that my life seemed to be full of despair and sorrow.

The woman seemed to have been trapped in that world for a long, long time, so long that she had forgotten the change of time, and the anger on her body was so heavy that I could see the anger on her body condense into a black mist escaping around her in such a dim environment.

I often see her being sucked by the black river, when she seemed so desperate and helpless, when she was so panicked and stretched out her hand to me for help, she seemed to be right in front of me, but so far away from me, I wanted to pull her, but I couldn't reach her......

I watched her flesh be soaked and rotted by the black waters, peeling off layer by layer with her bright red dress, until she was bloody and bone-like, and I watched her struggle and scream in pain in the black waters, and although I couldn't hear her voice, I thought it must have been a terrible scream......

Then I will see the blood-red skeleton thrown back to the shore by the black waves rolled up by the black river, the skeleton is painfully and terrifyingly twisted, watching the little bit of flesh and meridians grow little by little, such as the only blood tree that grows in the darkness and slowly builds a human body, I think this process must be extremely painful and long, from the extreme twisting and struggle of the skeleton, you can feel the torture and pain that penetrates people but not people! I am often so shocked by such scenes that I can't breathe, and I can't imagine how that "woman" endured the extreme pain.

When she recovered, the anger on her body seemed to get worse, and black smoke was billowing.

At that time, she was extremely terrifying, her face was distorted, she would stare at me fiercely with a fierce and vicious gaze, and she would send a cold voice at me, I don't know whether it was mockery and despair, or a terrible smirk, and her eyes were greedy blood red. It seems that she is the god who controls the world, as if she is watching an interesting game, and as if she is coldly rolling her anger into my body, to see how long I can suppress the anger in my heart. Then there will be blood and tears from her blood-red eyes, and even her chest will flow red blood......

This woman is as illusory as air, and I have always thought that she is my extremely depressed psychological phantom.

I don't know what kind of hatred and pain she has in her heart that makes her have such a heavy anger, and so much pain and despair......

At that time, she was extremely ugly and terrifying, but for some reason, I was not afraid, but there was a deep heartache that pierced my heart......

The woman also has quiet times, although such times are rare, she will sit quietly on the side of the black river, looking so quiet, gentle and hopeless, the gray and black around her clearly outline her graceful figure in a happy robe, so beautiful, so beautiful, so beautiful that she is like a fairy who has fallen into the dust, as if she has endless thoughts to sit alone until the old age and the earth is desolate......

Hate and hate crazy, beautiful and desolate, what kind of woman is this? Why suffer like this? I don't understand, so I often ask myself, and why does she always fall into my dreams?

She was like a spell in my life, and whenever I saw her, I would pass out, and the longest time I was in a coma for three days and three nights......