In countless quiet nights, beside the cool stream, we sat together for the early night, many times I sat very quietly, rarely spoke, and it seemed that I and Zixuan had nothing to say. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info sat with him in the cool evening breeze, just to fulfill the obligations of a lover, he was very good, if it was a woman who loved him deeply by his side at that time, they might have been very sweet and happy, but love is really strange, it always seems to be wrong, it makes people miserable and sad.

"Don't I regret choosing it? You should probably choose a girl who is very gentle, beautiful and loves you to accompany you. It's not like me, a willful and stubborn, reckless girl, who forces you to get engaged. I sat down by the stream with my knees crossed, broke the soft sound of the stream, and said lightly.

"Don't you understand, what I like is you like this, stubborn, a little willful, and gentle under your hardness." Speaking of this, Zixuan looked at me deeply with his star-like eyes: "Xiaoman, don't wrap yourself so tightly, I will feel distressed." Maybe I can't hold your heart yet, but as long as I can see you stay by my side well, not hurt, not painful, it's already good! If you're well, it's a sunny day! Got it? His face was so serious, with unwavering warmth. Look at my blank face. Heartbrokenly, he pulled me into his arms and let me snuggle up to him. Just rely on him quietly and get a temporary peace of mind.

This is perhaps the most intimate action between us, he always likes to hold my shoulders, give me a little comfort and warmth, and guard me silently and without regrets.

How could I bear to refuse to hurt him for such unrequited love, but I couldn't go against my heart and lie to him and lie to myself that I loved him.

He always said that he could wait, for the day when my heart melted.

He was with me through my darkest days, but I couldn't tell him I loved him. Maybe I'm selfish and cruel.

Sometimes I blame myself, such a good boy, why should I bully him, can't let go and let him find the happiness he deserves?! Is he too selfish, or is he too persistent?! And his parents' opposition now is not a good thing.

The past is always heartbreaking.

Melancholy haunts my heart like a faint dark cloud.

"Xiaoman!" My mother's voice pulled me back to reality.

"Mom!" I tried to pull the corners of my mouth and smile at her, but there was a feeling of wetness in my heart.

My mother withdrew her gaze from the door and shook my hand tightly as if to comfort me.

"Hey, fate is this thing, if it's over, don't force it anymore."

"Mom!" I snorted softly, scolding her for being so blunt.

But she smiled, a little sad and helpless.

"Hey, they're all good boys, but none of them are suitable for you, that's fate." There was a deep sadness in my mother's voice, I couldn't help but look at her deeply, I haven't seen her for a few days, is my mother old again?

Suddenly I felt sour in my nose. Breathing also seemed compact and suppressed.

My father died less than half a year ago, and my mother seemed to be more than ten years old, her hair was grayer, and her wrinkles were deeper.

The mother is very beautiful, she is graceful and elegant, I once thought she was a model among women, and she was also a legend of immortality among women.

I thought that my father's success was due to the fact that he had such wonderful women around him.

But when was my father able to leave such a charming and tender woman with such hatred and hatred?!

I took a deep breath, trying to suppress the deep sadness in my heart, pouting at the warmth and humidity in my eyes, and trying to make a smile, wanting to give the woman next to me the greatest comfort.

As children, we are ultimately unfilial.

can only helplessly watch her grow old day by day.

"Xiaoman"

Mom suddenly called me again, but she just held my hand and didn't say anything, her eyes were almost full of tears, but she tried her best to endure it.

She made me feel so flustered.

"Mom! What happened to you? Say anything. Seeing that my mother was sad, I couldn't help but feel sad in my heart, and I could hardly hold back my sadness.

"Man, find someone to marry, live an ordinary life, even if it's only for one day, maybe you don't like him, maybe he doesn't really like you, but after so much, don't you understand how rare a peaceful life is? At least, there should be a child, while the mother is in good health, the mother will help you take it. I don't know why my mother suddenly said this, these words always make my heart rise out of layers of haze. And the mother's tears made her heart ache so much that she couldn't help it, and her tears could no longer slide uncontrollably. It seems that we are about to face a new round of life and death! This terrible instinct and thought made my soul feel cold for a while.

"Mom also knows that this request may be too much for you, a woman, living in a loveless marriage, will indeed be very painful, very ......sad," the mother said this, suddenly paused, her eyes were blurred, her voice was choked, making it difficult for her to speak smoothly, her heart seemed to contain deep sadness, why did she have such an expression, didn't her father treat her very well? Why does she still seem to have a sadness in her heart that will never be dissolved......

This made me suddenly feel shocked, why is my mother so sad when she is happily married on the surface?! Was it simply because of my father's death? No, it's not that kind of sadness, it's a woman's pain for love!

I suddenly realized something, my father was always humble and respectful to my mother, as if he was making up for something. Does respect and harmony between husband and wife represent love? is like his obedience and respect for Bai Zixuan. I suddenly felt a terrible coldness in their feelings, and I felt a chill in my heart. How so?! I used to think that my father and mother were happy!

And now, I see the deep heartache of my mother!

I thought I suddenly realized something, and my heart trembled inexplicably! The whole body suddenly trembled, as if we saw a pair of ruthless hands, fiddling with our fate, having to give in to it, and having to sell the happiness of ourselves and those around us to it in exchange for a short period of peace!

Father, brother, and now myself!

And the mother, sister-in-law, Xiaomi, Qin Yu, and Bai Zixuan......

They are just victims of this shadow!

I don't know why I suddenly had this terrible thought.

But this terrible thought deeply shocked and shocked me, like five thunderbolts to wake me up, but also made me feel a deep despair!

It turns out that everything is not fate and accident?!