At midnight, I was standing by the moat. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info is pitch black all around, and in my head is 10,000 grass and mud horses galloping. To die or to live, that's the question! Mother, I am kind-hearted and helpful, and I would rather suffer myself than treat others badly. I am obedient to my father and mother, loyal to the male ticket, loyal to my friend, willing to let him use my last drop of residual value to the boss, and is almost a perfect girl who is hard to find in the sky and hard to find on the ground. But forgive me for saying 10,000 swear words to express my anger at this time! (18,000 words omitted below).

The male ticket abandoned me, abandoned. Although you have the right to choose, isn't it okay for Nima to get together and disperse? I cried and kept a few words, and you disdainfully asked me to look in the mirror to see my fat and strong figure and big face that could shave off two taels of lard, and said that every time I saw me lying on the bed, I thought it was a whole piece of pork belly, or the kind of pork belly with more fat and less lean meat. As the saying goes, a husband and wife are half a day, and we have slept in the same bed for more than three hundred and sixty nights for a year, and almost all of my salary for more than a year has been spent on you, and you say that it is a waste of money when I buy myself a bottle of treasure. I've been following you so intimately for so long, in exchange for you hooking up with my best friend and then dumping me together. Shake it off, and disgust me with such vicious words, why did I fall in love with you such a scumbag blindly!

And my dear best friend, I've had a cookie since kindergarten and I've shared half of it with you. When I grew up, you would come to my house for three days every month when you had your period, so that Nima could use my sanitary napkins. I treat you as a friend's best friend and sister, and as a result, you pry my man, you pry my man, you pry my man! (Say important things three times) That's not all, I sold the condoms you two used when you two cheated! The lace you wear is the same as I bought, and two pieces will be given to you! How can you make me willing, ahh!!h

I looked up to the sky and roared, I am such a good girl, why do I meet all scumbags, scumbags, scumbags, s

Admit it, endure it! There will still be a male ticket, there is no school grass at the end of the world! There will still be girlfriends, and there are still confidants in the country, so why worry about having no friends. There will be a male ticket, and so will a girlfriend! Sooner or later, happiness will come!

So I sang that my future is not a dream, encouraged myself with the NNNN power of the Ah Q spirit, and returned home with my head held high, and ushered in the last straw that crushed my fat camel!

The house was as gloomy as ever, and I had been used to it for almost thirty years. Although his heart was full of tears of abandonment, he still licked the smiling face that had worked hard, and respectfully handed over the pig's head meat and the second pot head he bought for his parents to the two ancestors. Looking forward to a night of peace.

But I was wrong, I couldn't have been more wrong. I should look at the yellow calendar today, I don't know if it's bad or going out to go home is hell, in short, today is my darkest day, I was dumped by a male ticket and betrayed by my girlfriend, I thought I could take a temporary respite when I went home, and it wasn't like a bigger storm waiting for me. O my fragile and strong little heart, prepare for the baptism of the storm again!

My father calmly took a handful of the wine bottle in my hand, unscrewed the lid and poured a big mouthful. Then he slammed the wine bottle on the table, I couldn't say it in my heart, this was the prelude to his old man's scolding! Sure enough, he poured the wine into his mouth one after another, pointing at me and educating me in between drinks. From the beginning when he made me not easy, to the time I started from eating his and drinking him, I have no ability to let him live a good life for almost 30 years, so I took ten yuan and eight yuan a bottle of two pot heads to send him away, I don't know what face to go home! Like every time I was scolded, I automatically turned on the Ear Closing Magic Skill, and memorized recipes such as French fried lamb chops, Russian beetroot soup, Sichuan back pot meat, etc. Experience tells me that after memorizing about ten recipes, his old man's combat effectiveness begins to decline. When he reached the fifteenth, his old man would be drunk into a mess, and then I, an idiot with no ability, would help him into the bed in the bedroom with all my might. Then I went back to the living room, and by this time the queen mother had almost begun to burp after eating the pig's head. I respectfully put on a pot of tea for her old man to digest, and then stood aside with my head down, listening to the next round of lectures! It's nothing more than who and whose daughter bought something for their parents, who and whose daughter took their parents on a trip, who and whose daughter married a rich man, and who and who。。。。。。。。。。。 To put it irreverently, I've been hearing these words for almost a decade. Since I graduated from high school and studied as a chef, my parents have been teaching me to fight hard, to make money, and to let my parents live a good life! Helplessly, I came out of a technical school and worked in a small cabinet with only eight tables, except for buying them some cheap clothes and shoes, and then two pots of pig's head meat, I really didn't have a greater ability to let them live a better life. Therefore, coming back every day to listen to their teachings can be regarded as a way for me to fulfill my filial piety. But today's queen mother doesn't know what crazy she smoking, it is estimated that I bought two taels more pig's head meat today than usual, so it strengthened her combat effectiveness, in addition to the usual words, she added words such as "What's the use of people like you living, you can't even keep a man, don't blame people for priing your man, think about how failed you are, don't talk about others, even your father and I can't look down on you" and so on, and so on, righteous words and lethal sentences!

So the old lady was sad, angry, and indignant!!

Me, Xu Xueyao! I haven't stolen, I haven't robbed, I haven't bullied, I haven't hurt anyone, I have never washed my hands before cooking after going to the toilet. Never took a piece of meat from a customer's plate. I donated blood for the Wenchuan earthquake and money for the snowstorm in Tibet. How did he become a person that even his parents hated?

I don't know how I got out of my house, or how I got to the edge of the moat. It was cold, there was no one around, only me, a failed cook who didn't love a man and didn't love a man, cried in the biting cold wind.

Perhaps, what they said is right, one is almost thirty years old and has not yet married, one is fried and fried in a small restaurant every day with a limited amount of money, and the other is a fat chef who is reluctant to buy a bottle of treasure or a male ticket with the transferred money, what face does she have to live in this world? It's a hundred to jump, no more hard work, no more pain, no more infinite pain imposed on you by the person you love the most, okay, so be it! Goodbye, this world I once loved! Goodbye, my once patriotic parents and loved ones! Goodbye, friends I once treated with all my heart! I gritted my teeth and plunged into the icy river! The moment my body came into contact with the river, I suddenly felt relieved. Who said that the only thing to die is to die through the ages, for me, it is much easier to die than to live!

My body sank and sank and sank in the river, and my consciousness and consciousness gradually left me, and I couldn't even feel the coldness of the river, this is death.

Just as I closed my eyes and waited for death to come, suddenly I don't know whether it was a dazzling white light flashing in front of me or in my mind, and a powerful force threw my body up, and then fell to the ground hard! Hallucinations before death, I told myself in my heart.