January 31, 2015. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

After the diagnosis and discussion of several doctors with excellent medical skills, it was confirmed that Shang Dongcai only had one month to live.

The doctor asked Lin Xiaoxi not to tell the news to Shang Dongcai, which affected the patient's mentality and worsened the condition.

Even though the doctor said that the consequences were serious, Lin Xiaoxi still couldn't bear the pressure and told Shang Dongcai about his condition.

"Yes, there will be another month, and the seniors and seniors should come to see me every day!"

When Shang Dongcai learned of his illness, he was unexpectedly calm, but he was rejoicing in the "merciful reward" of death for a month.

"I'm sorry, Fuyuna, please forgive Mom for being assertive for the last time, Mom wants to try again anyway, maybe...... Maybe there's a way to cure ......"

Lin Xiaoxi leaned against the wall dizzily and apologized without any confidence. In the last month, no one can bear it, and I know that there is no hope, and I want to struggle for a while.

"Well, it's okay, Mom", Shang Dongcai smiled and shook her head, not at all like a girl shrouded in the shadow of death.

Seeing this, Lin Xiaoxi's spirit was a little broken, and he walked to the side of the bed with hazy eyes, grabbed his daughter's hands, and held a lot of words in his heart, but he couldn't open his mouth.

"Seniors are here later, Mom, tell them about it."

"Can I tell them?"

"Well, I don't think I'll end up hiding something from them."

……

At the end of February, the day before school started.

Many acquaintances gathered in Shang Dongcai's ward, and everyone's original intention was to see her off for the last time.

But she looks like she is talking and laughing, but she doesn't look like a person who is on the verge of death.

stayed up until midnight, seeing that Shang Dongcai didn't seem to have an accident, most of them scattered and went home.

By the next morning, the senior was the only one left standing by her bedside.

Shang Dongcai's heart felt warm, and asked with a smile: "Senior, doesn't it matter?" Aren't you going to greet your new classmates when school starts today? ”

"Are you sick and confused? It's been half a year, and there are no new classmates. When we graduate from Zhongnan University next year, there will be a new infusion. ”

The senior got up and stretched, and then handed a glass of warm water to Shang Dongcai, who had just woken up.

"What, didn't the senior promise your homeroom teacher that you have to take the first place in the whole grade in mathematics, and you have to study on time no matter what."

"It's the top five in the whole grade!" The senior corrected: "You don't have to worry about this, what I said will definitely be done." ”

Shang Dongcai took the warm water and said, "Senior, you are lying." ”

"What did I lie to you?"

Shang Dongcai snorted lightly, drank all the water in the cup, and said unhappily: "Look, it's only been a long time, senior, you forgot." Not long ago, you promised me that you would be desperate to reconcile with Senior Sister Meng Ruoxi, but now, Senior Sister Ruoxi is gone, and you still don't chase after it. ”

The senior's face sank when he heard this, and he was silent, he had his troubles.

On the day Shang Dongcai was hospitalized, the senior and Sister Meng Ruoxi resumed their relationship as a couple, and the two went shopping together on Christmas Eve, and the relationship was more cordial than before. Everyone thinks there will be no more problems with this pair.

As a result, the day after the end of the first half semester of the third year of high school, Meng Ruoxi ruthlessly dumped her senior and went abroad with Xingluo.

Shang Dongcai only found out about this matter for a long time after the fact, and she has always been worried about the behavior of her seniors not to fight for it. She can feel that Meng Ruoxi really likes the senior, if the senior was willing to keep it at that time, maybe Senior Sister Meng Ruoxi would stay in the country.

On the day she learned about the incident, she reprimanded the senior severely, and finally skipped the matter for the sake of the senior not being as passive and decadent as before.

The senior has also been avoiding this matter, and after that day, he avoided talking about Meng Ruoxi.

Shang Dongcai wants to continue to let it go, so that the seniors can forget the painful memories over time. After so long, what she saw was that the senior was obsessed with Senior Sister Meng Ruoxi.

If you can't forget it, don't forget it. Shang Dongcai felt that he should help his senior in the last days of his life, so he brought up the old story again.

"Senior, why don't we go abroad to play?"

"Dongcai, don't say it again", the senior raised his voice to interrupt Shang Dongcai's words, and while dealing with the early fruit, he responded: "I told Ruoxi everything that should be said without reservation, she still has to leave me in the end, it is fate, she has her own decision, I can't control it."

The current situation is the best, this world does not belong to me, I will leave sooner or later, and I should be happy if Ruoxi can find her home. ”

"Huh? Senior, what are you talking about, why don't I understand, what doesn't belong to this world? ”

"It's nothing", the senior got up, didn't give a reply, and turned around and walked outside the ward with the shoulder bag next to him: "Remember to eat these fruits later, this is your breakfast." I went to school first. ”

"Don't run away, senior."

The senior stopped at the door and said, "Don't mention this kind of thing in the future, or you won't come to the hospital to see you." ”

"Cut", Shang Dongcai closed his mouth sullenly.

"I can fulfill one of your wishes, what you want, and I'll buy it for you when I come in the evening."

"Hmm......" Shang Dongcai pondered for a moment, and said in a half-joking playful tone, "I want to find someone to love during chemotherapy." ”

The senior closed his eyes and responded in the same joking tone: "Oh, yes, then please continue to receive chemotherapy for loneliness." ”

He accepted Shang Dongcai's heart, but he couldn't respond clearly, maybe the current atmosphere was not suitable for serious conversations, and it might be good to joke.

If he could, how much he hoped that Shang Dongcai's experience could be exchanged with himself. He, the person who has always wanted to die, has an unknown life, Shang Dongcai tried her best to live, but it still ushered in a short end.

Sometimes, he really can't guess Shang Dongcai's thoughts, in that hazy sky, what kind of mentality is there to show a smile?

……

March 17th

When she woke up in the morning, Shang Dongcai got out of bed as usual and walked to the window to look at the scenery outside the window.

When you are tired, go back to your bed and pour a glass of warm water to drink, then cheer up and face the rest of the day with optimism.

It should have been the same today, but as soon as she walked to the window, a strong feeling of fainting surged in her mind one after another, the skin on her whole body seemed to be tightening, her chest was extremely stuffy, her stomach was tumbling, and a lot of blood gushed out of her nostrils.

"Vomit ......"

Shang Dongcai leaned against the wall and kept retching, and her hideous face showed the fear of death.

Her body gradually felt weak, and finally she fell directly to the floor, and crawled to the door in a daze, trying to ask for help. In the end, he passed out to no avail.

A short time later, the door to the ward was opened.

"Dongcai, Dongcai, what's wrong with you...... Don't scare mom ......"