I'm afraid of others sharing my world, lock the door, don't smell the red dust, and live my life comfortably. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

People who love to pretend to be deaf and dumb either see through the rolling red dust, or boast that they are strong inside. I presumptuously think it's both.

At the end of the Ming Dynasty and the beginning of the Qing Dynasty, there was a wonderful painter, named Zhu Qi, for the protection of Mingzhe, he wrote a "dumb" word on the fan, and opened the fan when he didn't want to speak.

Zhu Qi, pretending to be also, since you don't want to talk, why do you still have to swagger around the market with a broken fan, can't you stay at home alone and entertain yourself? is like Liu Ling in the Seven Sages of the Bamboo Forest, drinking at home, and running naked in his house when he is drunk, and the police can't control it.

Geng Hao and I are like Benjamin? Barton, growing upside down, too precocious to see through the red dust, is this a tragedy or a comedy? There is no answer.

When we were together, we never talked about Fu Wenxin, and tacitly let time solve the problem of infatuated men and women. It's not at all like the bloody cuckoo in the dog blood drama, which is called green spring and turned into a spring sacrifice.

Personality is like a needle, and it is you who stabs yourself. I chose an abusive love, but I never believed that it was fate, I only believed in the choice, and I took the consequences of the choice. As for fate, that's just an excuse for cowards.

At this point, Yin Deji dares to love and hate, and can show his emotions without scruples. He said that you see love as a work of art, that's not interesting, love is the same as eating, drinking, and Lazar, and it needs to be grounded.

Although Lu Zejun has a hard mouth, he usually brags about his love saint, but he has never practiced it himself, and he is as big as me, and he has never even touched a girl's hand. He was an authentic turtle in front of Shen Lu, and as soon as there was a stir, he immediately shrank his head and shrunk his head, and he didn't dare to come out.

Sitting together over tea and chatting in the afternoon, although Aunt Miao is not the same era as us, she is healthy and fashionable in her thinking, not resting on her laurels, not at all like some old bad guys who have been Red Guards. Family affairs, national affairs, and world affairs, there is no barrier between us and us. After chatting until dark, Yuan Zhengcai sent Geng Hao, Lu Zehuan, Fu Wenxin and me back to school.

Finally, I went to the University of Liberal Arts, only Yuan Zheng, Fu Wenxin and I were left in the car, no one spoke, the air tended to freeze, only the slight engine sound of this Land Rover was heard, I thought a good car was a fucking good car, there was no extra noise at all.

The three people in the car may have their own thoughts, and they all choose to be silent. The main reason is that Yuan Zheng is also silent, which makes me particularly unaccustomed. As long as he is there, urinating on the side of the road will be involved in the cause of China's socialist construction.

Fu Wenxin suddenly said, "I want to go for a while, Xiaoyu, you can walk back to the dormitory with me." ”

"Okay", I patted Yuan Zheng on the shoulder and said, "You go back first, just put us on the side of the road." ”

It could be seen that Yuan Zheng was a little disappointed, but he still pulled over and said in a reluctant voice: "Then you guys take it easy." ”

I didn't know what "leisurely" meant, and glared at him. He smirked and drove away.

After Fu Wenxin got out of the car, he kept walking forward without looking back, and I caught up and asked, "Girl, what a coincidence." Is the girl also going to catch the exam? It's better to go together to prevent jackals, tigers, leopards, and perverts, how about it? ”

Usually Fu Wenxin is happy in the morning, but today is very strange, ignoring me, wrapping the scarf around his face and continuing to walk forward without saying a word.

I asked, "What's wrong?" Get up on the wrong side of the bed? ”

"Nope."

"How many years have we known each other, can't I see your little temper? Tell me what's going on, or go back and ask my roommate Monk Yang to calculate a hexagram for you and give you Chong Chongxi. ”

"I'll just play a little temper, go find your sister Lulu, she doesn't play a little temper."

I immediately understood what was going on, it turned out that this girl was still fighting over Aunt Miao's messy mandarin duck score.

I said, "Alas, you too, Aunt Miao is in a good mood, and she doesn't understand what we people think, so you can rest assured that you are talking nonsense?" ”

"Then do you like Shen Lu?" Fu Wenxin finally turned his head and said, "Tell the truth! ”

"Like my sister as much as I like, that's the truth! Your eyes are so sharp, haven't you seen that Shen Lu likes our Lu Zelian? I really hope they can be together, really. ”

"Hmph, then trust you for the time being, come and let me pinch your nose." Fu Wenxin smiled, and I am still obsessed with that smile, which is deep in the bone marrow. After pinching my nose, I asked her if your hands are cold. She said frozen.

I asked her to put her hands in my clothes, and she did. I still don't have the courage to put my arms around her, fuck her, why don't I dare to pierce the last line of defense and tell the truth.

Years later, I recalled the bits and pieces between us, the grievances and grievances, and gave myself a slap in the face, trying to make the strength travel through time and space, wake up my old self, fuck, and slap my face hot.

I just stood there like that, looking at her with a red face blown by the wind like a monkey's buttocks, smelling the fragrance on her body, wishing that time would stand still forever, frozen in that moment, and become the most poignant picture of my life.

I know Fu Wenxin, she is as imperfect as us, but she has always been looking for her own life and is not trapped by her family.

Her life from childhood to adulthood was very different from ours, living in a big house, having two nannies to take her, and attending the best school in the county. But she never disliked us, and as always, she was respectful, religious, and treated us as friends.

When I told her about the miserable and happy days of her childhood, she found it amusing, because the kindergarten she attended as a child was so luxurious that she judged us like us. The kindergarten on F4 is not even as good as a zoo.

A female teacher, a rented mud-walled and blue-tiled house, a two-square-meter wooden board painted with black paint, and about 30 children with snot marks on their faces. This is our kindergarten.

The classrooms are rented, the greenery is good, and there are always endless weeds growing under the eaves.

The landlord is an elderly couple, the old man is skinny, and the eyes are slightly bulging, like Nicolas Cage who has lost weight. He often sat on the threshold and smoked and took pleasure in watching and laughing at the students who were so smoked that they couldn't concentrate in class.

The old man's wife seems to have been born to wash clothes, and what impressed everyone the most was washing clothes, and I have not seen her do anything meaningful other than washing clothes and calling the old man to eat viciously.

In order to save labor, when we were cleaning the classroom, the landlady asked him to clean her two rooms by the way. Young people should exercise regularly, this is the iron theory of the old woman. With her on our backs, we all called her the old witch.

In the depths of winter, thin ice formed in the paddy fields, and the cold wind forced everyone to huddle together to listen to the lectures. The old witch passed by the gate with a battering stick, and a pair of thick hands soaked red with water, and the yellow dog, who was so cold and melancholy, liked to follow her, as if the stick in her hand would turn to bones at any moment.

Not far from the school is a bamboo forest, which is a place for sunshine and birds, as well as a playground for children. As soon as May passed, the wind blew through the hall to bring the coolness of the whole summer. In the bamboo forest, the breeze and bamboo leaves play a natural sound, and the bamboo leaves piled up on the ground become natural firewood, everyone lights a bonfire, and sweet potatoes, potatoes, and peas soothe the appetite of childhood.

Rural children can always find something to satisfy their cravings, and at that time, Yin Deji was good at digging birds' eggs, and once took out a green snake. Because "The Legend of the New White Lady" was playing on TV at that time, the old landlord happily threatened: "It's okay now, the green snake will climb on your pillow at night to find you." ”

Yin Deji was so frightened that he didn't dare to sleep at night, he sat upright on the bed, Yin Laohan got up in the middle of the night and peed and saw it, and asked the baby, have you fallen into evil?

Fu Wenxin said that our childhood was fun, her life was boring, and she asked me to take her to the bamboo forest, to the river, to the mountains, to see the things we saw when we were children, to appreciate the childhood she never had.

I had a photo of my childhood in my wallet, which was snatched by her, and she said that she was in a bad mood to look at Lehele, saying that I looked like a little radish head when I was a child, and I couldn't help but want to pick it up and pinch it.

I said, I was the town marshal of the town at that time, and the treasure of our town.

She sarcastically said that if I were the town marshal, I would be the galactic flower.

I said, you are the flower of the English Department of the College of Foreign Languages, I admit it, no matter how you say the flower of the galaxy, you have to rank behind Ruhua.

She gently hammered it on her shoulder.

Downstairs in the dormitory, ready to see her back to the dormitory as usual. But she didn't leave, but turned to me and said, "There are a few boys chasing me, and one of them is more handsome and talented than you, should I agree?" ”

I was disheartened when the cold water poured over me in the winter, but I knew that this day would come eventually. At that moment, I was like a lonely dead leaf on the snow that had just withered, but I was able to hold on, and I pretended to be casual and said, "Go with your feelings." ”

Inside, I've already fucking turned the river and the sea.

I don't know what she meant, but I shook my head meaningfully and left.

Back in the dormitory, Yuan was waiting for me with Erlang's legs crossed. As soon as he entered the door, he said, "Why did you not open a room with Miss Wenxin?" ”

I wasn't in the mood to pay attention to him, I didn't want to vomit a word.

The more he didn't speak, the more he liked to harass me. He said: "I analyzed it, you don't dare to confess because of low self-esteem, right?" ”

I said angrily: "I have an inferior complex, live my own life, do not flatter and grovel, do not maliciously flatter, what do you say I am inferior?" ”

"You can't give her the best life by yourself, but I can give it to her."

"I don't want to talk to you about this, I'm sleepy." After saying that, I climbed into bed, didn't take a shower, covered my head with the quilt, but I was thinking about what kind of mood I would be if she really had a boyfriend. The sourness came one after another, and it was overwhelming.

I think Yin Deji is right, I stubbornly treat love as a work of art, and I can't bear to secularize it, otherwise, my worldview will have no pillars.

I had a strange dream at night. Fu Wen fell in love with Yuan Zheng's Ferrari sports car, and this fucking dream has become more and more frequent recently, which is about to make people nervous breakdown. When I opened my eyes, I saw Yuan Zheng on the other side snoring so loudly that he was about to overturn the roof.