He actually fantasized about other women doing that kind of thing like him, and it made him feel dirty, really dirty. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 Info That day he sat in the bathtub and washed his body violently, trying to erase everything that happened last night. But there are really some things that can't be forgotten, and although he repeatedly doesn't want to remember what happened last night, the fragments of his drunkenness are presented in his mind one after another. Although he just mistook the woman in the room for Tang Hanfeng last night, the person who had a relationship with him in his memory was exactly what Tang Hanfeng looked like. Even though it's just a fantasy, it's real to him.

Thinking about it, he shamefully found that he actually felt it again, and the feeling was still so strong, so strong that he did such a thing uncontrollably in the water.

After everything calmed down, he was more self-loathing at first, but slowly he figured it out a lot.

He has tried his best to change the matter of liking men, but since he can't change it, he simply won't change it. Anyway, even if he likes men, then what he likes is only Tang Hanfeng alone, and not all men like it, so there is no need to change, right? If you like it, you can like it, anyway, this man is worthy of his liking.

So after that day, he began to contact him intentionally or unintentionally, at first he just stayed by his side as an ordinary friend to help him with some things, and later as long as he could use him, he would try his best to help him. And their relationship did take a big step forward after that, and he seemed to genuinely regard him as a friend, a bosom friend who could be compared to the loyal subordinates around him.

It went on like this for nearly two years, and then he was a little no longer satisfied. He wanted to be closer to him, he wanted to have him, but whenever the confession came to his lips, he didn't have the courage to say it. He was afraid that after he told him about his feelings, they would not even be able to continue to be friends. He is also more afraid that he will dislike him, hate him, and stay away from him, if this is the case, then what will he do in the future?

He and his affairs dragged on and on in his hesitation, until one time Tang Hanfeng was seriously injured after going to the battlefield, and he stayed up all night by his side to take care of him. It was at that time that he was more sure of Tang Hanfeng's position in his heart.

Because of the inflammation of the wound, he was always awake during his recuperation. And on the night he was alone with Tang Hanfeng, looking at his pale face, he finally didn't restrain himself and kissed him. But sometimes things are so coincidental, just when he was about to kiss his lips, Tang Hanfeng woke up, to be precise, he looked at him coldly with a cold face.

Hurriedly away from Tang Hanfeng's bedside, he really felt embarrassed and embarrassed at that time, if there was a hole in front of him, he might really get into it without hesitation.

Originally, he wanted to keep this feeling in his heart, but since it had been discovered, it was not interesting to hide it again, so he honestly told him his feelings for him for so long.

When he said everything, he thought that he would see Tang Hanfeng's expression of disgust or disgust, but no, there was none, his expression was very light, so faint that there was hardly the slightest wave.

It was at that moment that his heart sank to the bottom.

He would rather have him show a look of disgust than that he would treat him completely as an irrelevant person, and not even bother to give him a single expression.

He told him very solemnly that he would not dislike him, but that he would not have anything to do with him, that there was always one person in his heart, and that there would be no room for a second.

At that time, he didn't believe it, thinking that he deliberately said it in order to reject himself, so he still didn't give up and wanted him to be able to accept his feelings, no matter what he was asked to give.

After two years of relationship, he really endured too hard, so he completely confided all his thoughts at that moment, just to be able to get a little response from him.

What did Tang Hanfeng say at that time? Oh, by the way, as long as he can give up this relationship that shouldn't exist, they can continue to be friends with each other, otherwise they won't even be friends in the future.

If he had been smarter and less stubborn at that time, maybe he should have pretended to give up his feelings for him first, after all, as long as this is the case, he can still stay by his side, right? Even if it's a friend, as long as you can stay by his side, he'll have a lot of opportunities, won't he? But looking into his eyes at the time, he didn't know what was wrong with him, he was so stubborn and refused to let go, even if he didn't want to be friends, he was unwilling to give up his feelings for him.

Maybe he was a little selfish at that time, just thinking that if he insisted so much, would Tang Hanfeng be moved by him? In that case, will he have a chance?

How cold Tang Hanfeng's personality is, he has been by his side for nearly two years, so he naturally understands it clearly. But he also knows very well that his personality is cold, but he has a kind and warm heart, maybe that's why he is so persistent with him.

He actually felt that he was quite despicable, knowing that Tang Hanfeng was emotionally deficient, so he would rather give up being friends than insist on loving him, just so that he could understand his heart for him, so that he could slowly accept himself.

But what he didn't expect was that Tang Hanfeng was as decisive as he said when he treated him, completely away from him, and he didn't even see him in person.

It wasn't that he hadn't gone to the barracks to look for him again, but he had been free to go in and out in the past, and he hadn't been in since he confessed to him. Anything he had been involved in before was slowly being isolated. At that time, he was very painful and panicked, for fear that he and him would really be friends like now, let alone be friends, and they would never see each other again. Later, he tried his best to inquire about any news about him, as soon as he left the barracks, he would create a scene of a chance encounter with him as soon as possible, hoping that he could see his love and attachment to him. (To be continued.) )