If the bizarre disappearance of my three children deprived me of my childhood, then Fu Wenxin's disappearance from me when I graduated from college means that my so-called green years have turned yellow, and they are so yellow that they are a mess. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

When I thought of her being crushed under a fat and ugly second-generation official, I was extremely disgusted and decided to break off with her spirit.

Everything is moving quickly on some set track.

Tang Tingting was admitted to university, and Fang Xiao went to the United States for further study.

Geng Hao began to create independently in the West Study Studio in Songzhuang, and often had abstract-looking literary young women to discuss art with him.

Mr. Lu works at the Beijing headquarters of a state-owned coal mining group in Shanxi, and Mr. Yin is the hotel's youngest head chef.

Yang Chenjun works as an editor in a daily newspaper, gets back together with his charming girlfriend, and his heart is rippling all day long. Yuan Zheng took over his father's business and flew all over the world every day.

Chen Fei is studying for a master's degree in editing and directing, and is moving towards becoming China's "first producer".

I started my first job in a three-bedroom apartment of more than 140 square meters near the International Trade Center. Of course I can't afford to rent a bloated three-bedroom apartment in Beijing CBD, it's Yuan Zheng's house, and when he graduated, he had to force me and Yang Chenjun to move in, coercing and luring, saying how awesome and warm it is for us to be roommates after graduation, you two from me.

So after graduation, we became roommates again.

Some people say that your first job is like your first love, which will affect your future value judgments and aesthetics.

My first job was at the Political Science and Law Publishing House, which is a publishing house directly under the School of Political Science and Law, and is known for publishing books on law and politics, and several of my favorite scholars and lawyers have published works in this publishing house.

The president is a talkative old man who likes the NBA and looks like Dustin Hoffman, and his name is Li Kang.

In the second round of interviews, we didn't talk about anything except the NBA, from Jordan's Bulls dynasty, to the Lakers dynasty during the OK period, to James's "thick thighs". The foam was flying, and I hated to see each other late, and I forgot that I was interviewing.

It wasn't until the sunset shone obliquely through the window and shone on President Li's face that he came back to his senses, and with an ouch, he thought that this was not a tea party, and there were still a few people outside waiting to rub their skin and rub their itches.

At the end, he whispered to me: "I have read the magazine "Chao", and I used to know you, young people with ideas, I like it very much. This publishing house is from the School of Political Science and Law, there are indicators, there are hard and fast rules every year, and there are several fresh graduates from the School of Political Science and Law, and there are few foreign creatures, which can be said to be rare. I personally complain about this kind of protection policy, but don't tell anyone what I said. You'll report tomorrow, I'm going to condemn you. ”

The next day, I went to work and was assigned to the general library editing room. The publishing house is not large, with more than 60 people in total, and it is very profitable because of the publication of textbooks. In this era of paper media, textbooks have made university presses laugh.

The comprehensive editorial room is mainly responsible for the planning and publication of all books except textbooks, plus a total of five people, except for two old editors and one middle-aged editor, we are both rookies.

In those years, there were very few people who read books, and bookstores were closing down, and the situation was more thrilling than a bear market in the stock market.

As soon as we entered the editorial room, we were warmly welcomed by our seniors – welcome to the poorest of industries. It also encourages us to encourage us, the paper media is already a sunset industry, and those who make books must endure poverty and loneliness.

This is not normal, in my opinion, books should lead people to the search for the other world, spiritual transcendence, not to the quagmire of this shore, to make people fall into the desolation and triviality of reality.

The two old editors said that they thought the same way at the beginning, with idealism, but now, there are no ideals and no water chestnuts.

Another girl recruited in the same batch as me is named Liang Rongyue, a master's degree in the Chinese Department of Peking University, and is considered a super female student.

This woman has big nerves and loves to cry. I cried when I was dumped by my boyfriend, I cried when I dumped my boyfriend, I cried when I was ridiculed by my friend, and I cried when I didn't grab a limited edition bag.

Once, late at night, I saw her crying alone on her desk in the office, and I asked her why she was crying, and she said that she was in a bad mood and wanted to cry.

Seeing that she was crying pitifully, I invited her to dinner.

During the meal, she asked me, "You have such good conditions, why didn't you talk about one?" ”

"Where am I in good condition? It's just a ****, no one loves it. ”

"You're too modest, aren't you too demanding? Let's listen, what are the requirements, I will help you introduce. ”

"I have very low requirements, as long as it's a mother."

"Hehe, you're so cute." She smiled and said, "Do you think I'm annoying?" ”

"No, girls, they all love to cry. Didn't some people say that only girls who love to cry are hurt? ”

"Then what will your girlfriend do if she makes you cry when she encounters a little thing?"

I didn't think about it, and immediately replied: "Lock her in the room and cry enough before letting her out." ”

"Shouldn't you take her in your arms and take care of her?"

"I think it's okay for the first love, but the old husband and wife probably don't have so much passion."

She thought for a moment and asked, "How do you count old husbands and wives?" ”

"Look at the people, some people have been married for a week, and some have been newly married for a lifetime, but it's difficult."

"I think you're very experienced, can you tell me how many you've talked about?"

"So far, zero."

"I don't believe it."

"Then I can't help it, why should I lie to you with this? I don't have any good. ”

"Well, trust you."

I was afraid that she would cry, so I took a taxi to take her home after eating. When parting, she said "I like you a lot" before getting out of the car.

I actually heard clearly, but pretended not to hear: "Huh? ”

She smiled shyly and said she didn't say anything.

The taxi driver's uncle said: "Young man, this girl is very good, people want to follow you, you see that you are still shrinking your head, you shouldn't!" ”

I didn't want to talk and said to my uncle, the taxi driver, that she was my cousin.

The driver's uncle immediately stopped talking, with an expression that he couldn't hold.

Liang Rongyue has an older brother, who works in IT in Zhongguancun and is married. Her parents bought him a big house, and she lived with him and sister-in-law.

According to her, her sister-in-law is a native of Beijing, and the first thing she did when she got home was to take off her shoes, and the second thing was to complain to her, saying Yueyue, how is the daughter-in-law of the family, you see how I am married to your family, Yueyue, I am not targeting you, your brother is too unmotivated, how will we live in the future.

In fact, her brother was so tired that he vomited blood outside every day, worked overtime all night, and sometimes came home stupid, and even forgot his surname.

This reinforces my belief that marriage is the grave of ideals.

I carefully maintained my colleague relationship with Liang Rongyue, I didn't want to complicate the simple colleague relationship, she occasionally asked me out, but I refused on the grounds that I was too busy.

Over time, she understood my attitude and stopped asking me out.

There are many aunts and uncles in the publishing house, these people are used to staying in the old system, after the publishing house has been restructured from a public institution to a company system, a group of people have withdrawn, and the remaining group is in a state of imminent retirement, they have no motivation all day long, and they are just messing around.

Their greatest pleasure is to introduce boyfriends and girlfriends to us young people, and as soon as I catch them, I will ask, Xiaoyu, I don't have a girlfriend yet, I'll introduce you to one, and it's okay.

Later, I passed by them, and I suffered from the fear of being introduced to my girlfriend, and I didn't want to stay longer, or simply said that I had a girlfriend. But that didn't work either.

I don't have a girlfriend Aunt seems to know better than me, saying that I definitely don't have a girlfriend, and how about having a girlfriend, you can shop around, come, Auntie will introduce you to a better one. At that time, I wanted to crash into the wall on the spot.

The publishing house is located on the west side of Jimen Bridge, next to the Film Academy. Chen Fei occasionally came to play with me and asked me to go shopping with her. At that time, she was studying for a master's degree in choreography and directing at the film school, and she had nothing to do all day long. I guess I'm idle anyway, so I'll hang out with her.

Once, she asked me curiously, "Where is Sister Wen Xin now?" ”

"I don't know." I looked dismissive.

"What happened between you and Sister Wen Xin? Can you tell us about it? ”

"I don't want to say, don't let me talk to her in the future."

When she saw me straighten her face, she snorted and said, "You are virtuous, you deserve to be a single dog for the rest of your life." ”

"What's wrong with the single dog, where does love go, life is free."

"So what do you think?" Chen Fei asked me with a red face.

"What do you think?"

"Look at you."

"Left and right hands."

"Haha, I can't imagine that there are such times when a cold genius has such a time, let me imagine your bear-like ...... for a while" She thought about it, and she was happy again.

"What's so fun about that. Isn't it normal to eat color and sex? I asked again, "How are you and that little white?" ”

I had never asked Chen Fei anything about her before, and as soon as I asked, her spirit immediately came: "Ouch, you care about me so much?" You say Bai Zongze, it's nothing, we can only be ordinary friends forever, no call, no way. ”

"People work very hard, every day Feifei is long and Feifei is short." I deliberately pretended to be Bai Zongze's yin and yang weird voice and said.

"There are things that can't be earned by hard work, and things that can be obtained by hard work can be bought with money, and I prefer things that can't be bought with money." Chen Fei said seriously.

"Love, you say? Pull it down, girl, what age is it now, love can also be bought with money, and without money, it is really love that can't be bought. ”

"Are you so realistic? Stimulated by something, can the love that can be bought with money be called love? ”

I said, "Your sports car, your luxuries, do you think you can leave these behind and pursue love?" If you choose you, will you choose love? I don't believe it! ”

"Hey! Believe it or not, what else do I do to you, tell you, my sister is the one who can throw anything away for love. I don't like all that I have, the people around me, or the way I look, or the wealth of our family, I've met so many people like that, they make me feel disgusting, I don't even want to say a word to them. I just want to have a few houses in the beautiful countryside with my loved ones, raise a few small animals, grow vegetables, drink tea, lean together to blow the wind and chat, and watch the sunset. ”

Chen Fei's eyes became a little emotional, no longer playful as before, and became pure and clean, a little like a child.

Looking into her eyes, I froze for a few seconds.

Her cheeks flushed again, and she said, "What are you looking at me?" ”

I immediately looked away: "Who looks at you, I look at the puppy behind you." ”

I pointed at her again, "That one over there, do you see, what a cute puppy." ”

She looked back, saw nothing, and instantly woke up.

She lightly hammered me on the shoulder: "You stinky rascal, scold me puppy." ”

She asked me if the memories of those 20 days of graduation trip had not come back.

I said no, maybe God took it on purpose.

She was going to take me to the United States and said that there was a brain hospital in Washington, D.C., which was quite good.

I firmly refused, saying that I was a naturalist, and that God had taken away the memories of those 20 days for his reasons, so be it.

I don't know how to describe the feeling of being with Chen Fei, there is no sense of oppression with Fu Wenxin, every pore seems to be open, relaxed.

Although for a long time, I was deluding myself and unwilling to admit this feeling.

Every time, she took the initiative to make an appointment and drove the car to pick me up. But every time I pay for a meal, I won't let her suffer. One meal she treated, the next meal must be my invitation, she resolutely refused to agree at first, saying that you little boy just graduated, how can you be rich.

I was adamant that if I didn't want to, we wouldn't have to see each other again.

She could only give in and scold me for being temperate.

I know that both men and women are honoured by treating people and things. There is no unwarranted charity in this world, only self-esteem and self-love are worthy of talking about other higher propositions.