Zhou Zuoren said that there are two ghosts living in the hearts of mortals, one is a gentleman ghost and the other is a rogue ghost. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

I am a mortal, so naturally I have these two ghosts in my heart, and they command all my words and deeds.

It is also said that men subconsciously have the idea of being a hooligan or a playboy. I dare not deny this view.

The two women I met when I was a teenager - Fu Wenxin and Jie - constituted the two ghosts in my soul, my good god and the evil god, my good angel and the evil angel.

For many years afterward, all the reveries about women were inseparable from the phantoms, or shadows, of these two women.

When I went to the university, I was glad to get rid of Yu Yue, a bastard who admired the spirit of Dionysus, but I desperately met Yuan Zheng, who was even more bastard, in a vain attempt to lead me to the forbidden place between the legs of the evil angel.

Military training life is not easy, but there are many interesting things, and the name is counted as one.

Listening to all kinds of strange names, I admire the breadth and profundity of Chinese characters, not only Yang Wei, Yang Dawei, but also Yang Weizhong and Yang Weihou.

A woman named Du Leisi, every time the instructor is named, she can't help laughing, not to mention us crazy men and women, all of us can't stop laughing.

"Dureth."

"Here!"

No matter how you listen to it, it is like a smart condom with voice function waiting for the owner, on call.

I think this girl's parents are ruthless enough, they can't predict the future, but they don't change their names, this Miss Durex is estimated to suffer from naming phobia in her life.

At that time, the senior warned us that we had to start during the military training, and then go to sweep the goods after the military training, and the good ones were all picked. When I first entered the university, the little sister felt fresh, and the military training life was hard, they were physically and mentally exhausted and needed to rely on, and it was easy to get a little romance and tease the little girl.

That's right, by the end of the military training, the most sci-fi buddies in the department have confessed successfully, and the cost of confession is very low, so low that it doesn't cost a penny.

Pick a few wild flowers and weeds at school, bandage them into a wreath, and dedicate them to the girls in a half-kneeling posture in public, and then say two words of bullshit that you love you so much, the landslide and the earth cracks, the vicissitudes of life, and the life of nine deaths.

Stupid Lao Tzu looked at stomach cramps.

Where can a little girl who is not deeply involved in the world withstand such a wild bombardment, in the shouting of the onlookers, even if it is a boar in heat who kneels in front of her, it is estimated that she has to agree.

Having said that, it was indeed a pure white era, love and non-love were all taken care of by the household, there was no social and family pressure, there were no worldly rules and regulations, and it was all up to one's own temperament.

Yuan Zheng looked down on this way of picking up girls, and found a notebook, saying that to establish a circle of friends in the Chinese department to facilitate the exchange of information and common progress, you need to report all your names and contact information.

In this way, he easily got the contact information of all the girls in the department. also marked the girls he fancied as star friends, ready to take them one by one.

In this regard, I admire him from the bottom of my heart with Yang Chenjun.

On the last day of military training, all freshmen were reviewed.

This is an ancient ritual, which has been recorded in the "Spring and Autumn Period" of the history of the Lu State compiled by Confucius: in the sixth year of Lu Huan, that is, in 706 B.C., "On the afternoon of autumn and August, the Great Reading." ”

The "big parade" can be understood as a large-scale review of the army's soldiers, combat vehicles, and other combat equipment.

Gu Yanwu, an outstanding thinker in the late Ming and early Qing dynasties, said in "On the Military System": "If you gather and read it, you will win the army? Those who do not win will be exempted, and their fields will be collected and supplemented by new soldiers. Read it once every five years, eliminate its success, ascend its sharpness, and do not need to be in the world. ”

That is to say, through this kind of "reading," we will eliminate those who are inferior in mental and physical condition among professional soldiers, and enrich the new ones.

At that time, the military parade was to go to the battlefield to cut flesh and bleed and kill people, and after our military parade was another bloodless war, which had to be fought for four years.

The past four years have been easily wasted, and I have told myself that I must live a more meaningful and different life.

Yuan Zheng had low political consciousness and asked me suspiciously: "Why do you need military training before entering the school?" ”

I told him: "The military parade of the ancients was to increase the sharpness of the army, and our military training parade is to polish off the edges and corners. ”

"Damn, got it." He said, rubbing his sore muscles.

I said, "It's time for us to recite Amitabha, Peking University has been training for a whole year since 1989. ”

"Phew! That's a domesticated beast, huh? If I were to report to that school at all, what era is this, just go to a shabby school and then go to the American imperialist gilding, it's better than that. ”

At the time of the review, the Faculty of Liberal Arts was next to the Faculty of Foreign Languages, and both faculties were known for producing beautiful women. Looking at the rows and rows of beauties, it is quite eye-catching.

Even a monk as pure as Yang Chenjun couldn't help but take a few more looks, let alone a thief like Yuan Zheng, his mouth never stopped, and he kept saying: "There is no white entrance examination to the University of Liberal Arts, it is worth it!" It's fucking worth it! ”

The beauty in front of me didn't arouse my desires, my mind was like a fucking bewitchment, always floating in the shadow of a person, ghostly, day after day, the longing for her became more and more intense.

But I had to hide the magma that was about to burst out of my thoughts, and try to imagine that she was walking hand in hand with another boy in New York's Central Forest Park, and in this way, she became a woman who had nothing to do with me, and anger overrode the thoughts.

Life is a process of constantly creating memories, and I lived in memories and didn't want to grow up, and I grew into an 18-year-old giant baby. I always hope that F4 will always wander around Qiaobian Town like a child, I hope that I will never graduate from high school, and eat cold noodles at Brother Mei's house every day until I am old.

That way, I could look at her smile forever.

I had a crush on her, and my crush was so uneasy that I didn't want to think about her unbridledly, but when I saw a girl who looked like her, my stomach hurt gently.

She liked me, and I could feel it the moment we made eye contact. The look in his eyes sounds a little evil, but I believe it.

In Jane Austen's idyllic love story, the hero and heroine make eye contact.

Who can deny that Darcy's arrogant eyes were not the source of Elizabeth Bennet's disgust and fascination, and the latter's independent and resolute face also made Darcy obsessed with his soul and his soul.

Modern people are accustomed to communicating in the form of dialogue, and endless arguments and lies numb people's nerves and consume people's will.

In a society that values communication and eloquence, silence is a trait of losers. Still, I sing the praises of nature's mysterious silence, the deep silence of the stutterer, and the shy silence of the timid that makes me feel close and solid.

Fu Wenxin once told me that she likes to stay with me in silence.

When I'm with her, whether we're discussing a question or we're still quiet and don't say anything, I feel like the universe is in my hands.

She once told me that if a woman falls in love with a man, even if he commits a mortal sin, is ashamed of society, and is not tolerated by others, as long as he is deeply in love with her, then this woman will suffer with him and go into exile even if she abandons everything.

But why don't I have the courage to be honest and express myself?

I had been frantically imagining what it would be like to confess to her, when the cowardly face appeared in my mind like a grim reaper, and gave orders: never confess, you can't promise her the best life, don't lead her to the deep sea of misery, destroy the affection between you, she has a life of her own.

Perhaps, I fell deeply in love with the feeling that it was a compulsory course for adolescence, and I would spend the rest of my life in reverie and nostalgia.

Only a crush is true love, because a crush is not confined to any reality, it is all born from the heart. Thinking of this, my mind is calm and calm. I'd rather not get her unrequited love for the rest of my life than bury her happiness in my own hands.

"I don't regret the gradual widening of the belt. For the sake of Iraq, the people are haggard. "It is said that since ancient times, literati have not been romantic, but I can't break free from the shackles of fate and let my body and soul go.

Liu Yong, who wrote such refreshing words, is just a who eats, drinks, prostitutes, and gambles.

Yoo Young is both a tragedy and a comedy.

The system of the righteous man and gentleman completely rejected him, and he could only wander in the land of smoke and willows to pour out his sorrows.

He used the most spicy satirical means to bring out the meanness and hypocrisy of a righteous gentleman.

Sadness has been poor and haggard all his life, and he is happy that he has received the most sincere love from the courtesans.

Liu Yong's sadness is doomed, and his humor is helpless.

"Who will rely on the will of the speechless", this is a kind of desperate loneliness. From loneliness to madness or seclusion were the two ways out for feudal intellectuals.

Today's people want to thank the narrow-minded Song Renzong, if it weren't for his angry face and the criticism next to Liu Yong's name, "Let's go and sing low, why do you want to be famous", maybe Liu Yong in the future may be a mediocre and obscene feudal official, and he will never be able to utter those desperate words.

"Endure the floating name, change the shallow and low singing", this is of course not Liu Yong's sincere words, this sentence is the implicit expression of the contradictory thoughts of all literati in feudal society. I read Yoo Yong and must separate his words from his people.

The real Liu Yong is a wandering person, his sympathy for ** is because of the similarity between them and his own experience, his sympathy for ** is actually a kind of self-soothing and self-sympathy.

I'm not Yoo Yong, I can't give my body over to be and then put the force high in the text.

My soul and body cannot be separated, and I must be in harmony with God.

I can give my carnal desires to the right and left hands and **, but not to the ** of a woman I don't love.

I am as innocent as a catcher in the wheat field, and this innocence comes from my confidence in my hometown and myself, from my spiritual will, without the slightest pretentiousness, and completely from the heart.

In this uniform pace, we wore green military uniforms, but we did not feel any thoughts or emotions.

"Hello comrades!"

"Hello Chief!"

Is it so important to have every student with an idea work in unison?

Does he enjoy the pleasure of being worshiped and holding power so much?

Thinking too much, I inadvertently shook the face in the crowd that I had been thinking about day and night.

I think I must have been dazzled, and when I looked closely, I was indeed dazzled.

How could she be here, having been working hard in New York for her dreams and future?

I lifted my spirits and prepared to forget her completely, turn her into a fossil in my memory, cut off the relationship and thoughts, and start a new life.