Chapter 9 Smoke and Smoke
Ruoyun stretched her waist, and finally got up reluctantly, after many years of career, she had long lost the habit of lying in bed. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info It turns out that habit can also be a luxury, Ruoyun smiled a little helplessly, Shen Rufeng is her poison, and she can't quit it, because it has been integrated into her blood and bones.
Ruoyun got up as fast as she could, and as she expected, Shen Rufeng was busy in the kitchen with an apron. Such a conceited and proud person, willing to wash her hands and make soup for her, how can she be loved by him, and what more can she ask for if she has a husband like this. Ruoyun felt that she had some emotional words recently, and she always had the urge to cry, Ruoyun fiercely suppressed her tumbling emotions, and gently wrapped her waist around Shen Rufeng from behind. Ruoyun knew that what he wanted was never his own thank you, but a response to his love, but what Shen Rufeng didn't know was that she had already fallen in love with him.
Shen Rufeng's warm voice sounded, "Why don't you sleep more?" Since you get up, go wash up, and the meal will be fine immediately, good. ”
Ruoyun's urn's voice sounded behind Shen Rufeng, "Why are you so good to me?" “
Until Ruoyun cleaned up his mood and sat at the dinner table, Shen Rufeng's words with a faint smile still echoed in his mind, "Because you are my wife." There is no reason why he is good to her, just because he loves her, just because she is his wife, so he is willing. Obviously didn't want to say it, Ruoyun still said it, regretting that he didn't meet him earlier, Ruoyun regretted not meeting him in the best years, and he didn't love him wholeheartedly at the beginning. But Shen Rufeng told her that it was just right that they met each other at the best time and the right time. He was very glad that Ruoyun had met him after experiencing emotional pain, because only in this way could he be sure to give her the best warmth in the world. It sounded a little dangerous, but Ruoyun was still moved and thanked him for his tolerance.
Shen Rufeng suddenly became busy, and by the time Ruoyun found out, things had developed to the point where Ruoyun was unpredictable and irreversible. Tomorrow living together day and night, Ruoyun only hated that she cared too little about him, if she found out earlier, but everything was nothing.
Obviously, he was still talking beautiful love words in Ruoyun's ear the night before, and he also felt his uneasiness and strangeness, and also heard him muttering like a sigh, Ruoyun no matter what happens, don't leave me. It's just one morning, Ruoyun's life has been turned upside down, goodbye Shen Rufeng is in the detention center, obviously it's just a morning I haven't seen him, but he has the illusion of being in a different world. is still the person who is slightly elegant, the white shirt is meticulously straight, he is so calm and calm, as if everything is confident, but Ruoyun still sees a trace of sadness from his elegant smile. Yes, such a perfect person, maybe the last thing he wants to see at this moment is himself, but Ruoyun has to see him no matter what, because Ruoyun wants him to know her unwavering heart.
Ruoyun grabbed Shen Rufeng's thin and slightly pale hands, and some of the strength of the joints reached Ruoyun, but she felt stable. Ruoyun spoke eagerly before Shen Rufeng spoke: "I believe in you, so leave the rest to me." ”
Shen Rufeng just looked at Ruoyun gently, as long as there was Ruoyun, everything else was in his eyes. Shen Rufeng smiled and said, "Okay, leave everything to Ruoyun." ”
Shen Rufeng's smile was like a spring breeze blowing through the willows in March, blowing across the water, slightly moist, and the anxiety of Ruoyun was smoothed out at once, and suddenly Ruoyun was quiet. There were a thousand words, but the two of them didn't say anything anymore, just looked at each other.
When Ruoyun came out of the police station, he saw Han Dong, who was leaning against the corner of the wall, and there was an unburned cigarette between his fingers. Ruoyun didn't know that Han Dong, who had always been strict and self-disciplined, and regarded cigarettes as a flood beast, would also have a day of smoking. Others don't know Ruoyun, but they clearly understand that Han Dong's childhood was not good, and it can even be described as bleak. Han's father was one of the first laid-off workers, and after being laid off, he did not want to make progress, and soon got together with a group of thugs, eating, drinking, and playing all day long, and even getting involved in gambling. A good family is already crumbling, and what is even more hateful is that Han's father is drunk, and when he loses money, he will take Han Dong's mother and son out of anger. The mother and son are often covered in bruises, and once Luo Yujuan wanted to divorce, but Han's father was red and pointed at Han Dong and Luo Yujuan with a knife, if they divorced, they would kill his mother, and he also committed suicide. Luo Yujuan firstly doesn't want Han Dong to become a child of a single-parent family after the divorce and be instructed by others, and secondly, she is afraid that Han's father will die badly. The divorce was finally settled, but Ruoyun knew that Han Dong was still injured, and now there was a slender scar on his arm. So Han Dong rarely wears short-sleeved tops, even in the hot summer. Luo Yujuan's body gradually deteriorated in those years, which is also the reason why Han Dong has been determined to study medicine since he was a child. Han Dong's childhood can be said to be extremely miserable, until Han's father got drunk again, ran a red light while crossing the street, and was hit by an oncoming truck. Han's father died on the spot, and Han Dong's childhood ended during the summer vacation when Han Dong was promoted to junior high school.
Seeing Ruoyun, Han Dong quickly pinched the cigarette in his palm, Ruoyun saw his small movements but only pretended not to know. It's just that after getting closer, the strong smell of tobacco still makes Ruoyun sniff unconsciously and frown.
Han Dong lowered his head and looked at his toes, which was his usual performance when his heart was weak: "I didn't expect you to come out so quickly, not next time." ”
Ruoyun knew that he was talking about smoking, and he shouldn't have asked, but Ruoyun couldn't help but ask: "When did you learn it?" ”
Han Dong raised his head and looked at Ruoyun, with unconcealed joy in his eyes: "Since you left, sometimes when you think of the past, you can't help but order one, and never again." “
Ruoyun sighed impatiently, facing Han Dong a little speechless, so familiar but so unfamiliar. Ruoyun finally said: "It's harmful to health, it's good not to suck." “
Han Dong bought a car, Ruoyun sat in the co-pilot, and all kinds of past things couldn't stop pouring out of his mind. This car is still the year they were admitted to college. On the day she received the notice, Han Dong rode her bicycle to the beach, and she sat in the back, dancing, laughing and shouting, and couldn't stop. Until Han Dong couldn't stand her noise, and deliberately rode the car crookedly, the distant sea breeze blew in front of him, puffing up Han Dong's white shirt, Ruoyun suddenly hugged Han Dong's waist. Han Dong's body stiffened, so he tried to ride the car steadily, Ruoyun gently leaned his head on Han Dong's back, Ruoyun saw that Han Dong's ears were red, she thought that her face must also be red. Fortunately, Ruoyun was not noisy, just quietly hugged Han Dong, at that time, they were so young at that time, young enough to believe in it for a lifetime.
When he arrived at the beach, without waiting for Han Dong to park the car, Ruoyun jumped down, kicked off the sandals on his feet, and ran towards the sea without daring to look at Han Dong. At that time, Han Dong knew that Ruoyun, who had always been not afraid of heaven and earth, was also shy, and Ruoyun, who had escaped, was like an elf, casting a layer of ripples in Han Dong's heart lake like a pool of stagnant water, even if Han Dong didn't admit it, but at that moment he was really moved. This situation and this scene are too beautiful at this moment, even if more than ten years have passed, Ruoyun still clearly remembers the scene at that time, including every word they said, the clothes they wore, and even every expression of Han Dong at that time. Han Dong's eyebrows rose, it was a faint joy, he said, Ruoyun, you are so good-looking. Obviously it was so far away, it was clear that the sea breeze would disperse as soon as it blew, and it was obvious that Han Dong's voice was so small, but Ruoyun still heard Han Dong's words clearly. Ruoyun felt that he was going to die of happiness, his heart seemed to be soaked in a honey pot for three months, and then soaked in spring water for three months, and the people by the sea felt Ruoyun's happiness and joy that day. That day, Ruoyun wore a beige one-piece knee-length floral cotton dress, which was the first time Ruoyun wore a skirt. From that Ruoyun's wardrobe, there are fewer denim, shorts, and all kinds of skirts, and Ruoyun also falls in love with wearing skirts.
When I came back, I passed by the 4S shop, Ruoyun dragged Han Dong in, and Ruoyun took a fancy to this car at a glance. Ruoyun said that if she has money in the future, she will buy this, she will be the landlord's wife, and Han Dong will be her driver, a driver for life. Han Dong's eyebrows and eyes were raised at that time, Ruoyun could feel his pleasure, he rubbed Ruoyun's hair, Ruoyun was still short hair at that time, he said, Okay, he will definitely be a driver for Ruoyun for a lifetime, as long as it is a car he drives, only Ruoyun can sit in the co-pilot. Now Ruoyun has sat in her exclusive seat, but her mood has changed, and she no longer has the same caution and joy as she did at the beginning. It turns out that you remember what I said, since you remember why we separated?
The car turned around on the road blankly for a long time, just like the two of them were in their mood now, but no one spoke anymore, and it wasn't until the car stopped that Ruoyun felt his soul return.
Walking on the most familiar road on the university campus, Ruoyun once again sadly found that she had no way to refuse Han Dong, or she didn't want to refuse. This road is so familiar, she has walked from this road countless times in her four years in college, just to go to Han Dong's classroom, just to go to the cafeteria to occupy a seat for him in advance, just waiting for him to look at her in the dormitory, just ??????
Han Dong said, come with me for a walk, she followed without caring about anything, despising herself so much, but she still couldn't control her desire to get close to him, even if she just looked at him from afar. Obviously there is already Shen Rufeng, why do you still want to think about Han Dong, do you really want to turn Han Dong into a cinnabar mole in your heart, torturing yourself to sleep and eat, before you are willing?
Han Dongqing's voice sounded in his ears: "Ruoyun, is it possible for us to start again?" ”
Ruoyun's voice was a little bitter: "Start over, Han Dong, you forgot, I am already married to Shen Rufeng, you understand better than me, we can't go back, so there is no way to start over." ”
Han Dong suddenly hugged Ruoyun, and then the hot tears burned Ruoyun's skin, Ruoyun let out a long sigh, and finally reached out and hugged Han Dong's waist. She allowed herself to indulge for the last and only time, even through several layers of clothes, Ruoyun still felt that Han Dong's skin was also piping hot, burning Ruoyun's heart.
Han Dong's sigh-like muttering came into Ruoyun's ears, "Ruoyun, Ruoyun, what should I do with you, what should I do with you?" ”
The tears that had been held back for a long time finally flowed, as if there was a surging and majestic momentum, "Han Dong, obviously you let go first, you asked me what to do, you said you let me do?" ”
Han Dong's voice suddenly became cold, even with a hint of coldness, "Ruoyun, I can't live without you, I want you to leave Shen Rufeng." Ruoyun's tears flowed more and more, and there was unspeakable sadness in his heart, and he didn't know if it was for himself or for Han Dong. Han Dong suddenly hugged Ruoyun's face, kissed the tears from the corners of Ruoyun's eyes lightly, and then moved his lips all the way down to Ruoyun's bewitching red lips. It's just that before he could kiss him, Ruoyun pushed him away fiercely, and Han Dong took several steps back before stabilizing his figure.
Ruoyun couldn't suppress a sarcastic smile on his lips, Han Dong, Han Dong, you are too underestimated to be like a cloud, you are the yesterday that I have long forgotten, but I am your unattainable tomorrow. When I regard you as a jewel, you abandon me like a mustard, I am you like a shoe, but you treat me like a treasure, which is really ridiculous.
Ruoyun suddenly burst out laughing, laughing so much that tears came out, and his voice was as bright as ever, but there was a trace of cruelty in Han Dong's ears. Ruoyun said: "I once swore with my life, if you love me as much as I love you, I will live up to you for the rest of my life, but in the end, on those days, it has always been Shen Rufeng by my side." I have loved you with my life, and I would rather be hurt myself than see you hurt in the slightest. I am even afraid of death because I love you, I am afraid that if I die, I will never see you again, and I am afraid that there is no one in this world who loves you more than me. However, it's just that I'm luckier than you, I walked out, and you are still trapped in it, and I'm even more fortunate that I met Shen Rufeng, the person who is gentle as water, elegant as chrysanthemum, and loves me more than his own life. So Han Dong, I don't hate you, on the contrary, I am grateful to you for letting me meet Shen Rufeng after you. “
Han Dong's expression, which had always been warm, was finally expressionless, and there was a lot more coldness in his voice that Ruoyun was unfamiliar with, "Feng Ruoyun, you forced me, I am bound to win you, even if I sell my soul, I will not hesitate to do it." “
Ruoyun felt that Han Dong had some magic obstacles, he was no longer the gentle person she was familiar with, she provoked the violence in his bones, maybe he provoked it himself. Ruoyun didn't bother to pay attention to him, turned around and left, but Han Dong refused, and grabbed Ruoyun's arm with his hand, Ruoyun slapped Han Dong's face with a backelbow, and blood flowed down the corner of his mouth.
Ruoyun said angrily: "Don't let go yet, you don't want your hand anymore?" “
Han Dong stubbornly grabbed Ruoyun's arm, and his bright eyes looked at Ruoyun fixedly, just like when he was a child, Ruoyun's heart suddenly softened. Ruoyun said impatiently: "You let go of me first, I promise not to leave, you scratch me." “
Han Dong immediately let go of Ruoyun's arm, but he held Ruoyun's hand as if he was still uneasy, and he said to Ruoyun almost pleadingly: "Yunyun, please don't leave me alone." “
If time could be turned back, if they could still be together, she used to be ******** and just wanted to be Han Dong's bride. A long, long time ago, when they were still children, when Han Dong was beaten all over her body by Han's father for the first time, and only a pair of bright eyes flickered and looked at her with a little wetness, Ruoyun knew that she had been poisoned by a poison called Han Dong. That was the first time Han Dong said to her in a soft voice, "Yunyun, please don't leave me alone." Ruoyun knew that she didn't want to get rid of a person named Han Dong in her life, maybe she really owed him in her last life.
All the barriers built in her heart collapsed, it was the person she had liked for more than twenty years, how could she forget, forget the memories they had together. It's just that just thinking about Shen Rufeng who is still in the detention center, Ruoyun can only harden her heart and tell herself that it was Han Dong who didn't want her first, she didn't feel sorry for him, she had already missed Han Dong, and she couldn't miss Shen Rufeng anymore.
In the end, Ruoyun ran away, she was afraid that Han Dong's eyes could see her heart, she broke free from Han Dong's hands, her feet were unstable, and she was a little panicked.
Han Dong told Ruoyun that Shen Rufeng couldn't come out this time, and he waited for Ruoyun to come back to him. Ruoyun firmly told Han Dong that she would not come back, even if she went all the way to the dark, she would not look back, she just hoped that Shen Rufeng's matter had nothing to do with Han Dong, and hoped that Han Dong was not the driving force behind it. Han Dong didn't answer her, just shook his head slowly, but Ruoyun said that she believed him, and she believed what Han Dong said since she was a child, even if it was a lie to her, she believed it. Just like when Han Dong said that he didn't love her, she believed it, he introduced Shen Rufeng to her, and she was with Shen Rufeng as he wished, but, I'm sorry, she didn't keep her heart. So Ruoyun was suddenly afraid to face Han Dong, she didn't want to think about the things she had tried so hard to forget.
Ruoyun walked too fast, and didn't hear Han Dong's self-talk: "Ruoyun, how can I let you go, I have already sold my soul to the devil, I have no choice, I have nothing but you." Fame, fortune, and wealth, it's not that I don't want it, it's only you, only you, I can't ask for it. ”
Ruoyun didn't know that after she left, another person came, a person she didn't know very well, and what she didn't see was that the person who came was in Han Dong's car and left with Han Dong. It's just that that person is not Ruoyun, so he couldn't sit in the co-pilot, Han Dong stubbornly kept the promise they used to joke, because he knew that Ruoyun always remembered.