Yuan Zheng and I often talk about gender topics together. www.biquge.info He is not very old, and he is familiar with any type of woman who pretends to be like a **, and he has great doubts about love and marriage.

Once, he didn't know what setbacks he encountered, so he sat alone in the dormitory and drank beer alone, and threw me a can, and I saw that he was in a bad mood, so I sat down to drink with him.

He lowered his head and said with annoyance: "Those girls who follow Lao Tzu are all **, all for my money." Do you know how I feel about being with them? Lao Tzu felt that there was a piece of meat next to him, and it was fucking boring. ”

"Are you noble yourself? Didn't you go for other people's flesh? A fair shake! ”

He sat upright: "I have climbed mountains and mountains, trekked through mountains and rivers to find love, do you know that my heart is already scarred? ”

"You touch your heart and think about it, have you ever really loved a girl when you are so old, if the answer is yes, you are qualified to judge women."

He frowned and thought about it, touched his chin and said, "What is love, I buy them famous bags and watches, take them to live in high-end hotels, and eat delicacies from the mountains and seas, isn't this called love?" Don't talk about it, do you think it's really like two people holding hands in a TV series, leaning together, counting the stars and drinking the northwest wind, and eating this meal is called love? ”

"You still don't understand, from the heart! Instead of just wanting to sleep with her. Did you know that man is a species with a soul? ”

He jumped over and sat down on my desk and said, "Soul? How much is it worth? Then let me ask you, Sister Feng and Lin Chiling are lying naked in front of you, but you are very compatible with Sister Feng's soul, you choose, which one to go to? ”

"Neither."

"You have to pick one!"

I said, "Is it okay to fly with a double fly?" ”

He smiled lewdly and said, "I know that you are a ** man, and you have played with a few women." ”

"Want to hear the truth? So far, I haven't even touched a girl's hand. ”

Speaking of which, thinking of the encounter with Jie in the classroom, I don't even admit the intimate contact between us, although nothing happened, but I stubbornly want to erase her shadow from my body and memory, and restore my sterile and pure self.

Yuan Zheng shook his head resolutely: "Don't believe it! ”

"That's no way, the man doesn't have a male membrane, otherwise I can let you identify it."

He was very surprised and said: "Yo, I can't see that our talent is so pure, so tell me which girl you loved, I want to see what kind of goods it is." ”

"Yes, she's studying in the U.S. now."

"Then what are you pretending, don't say you don't want to her."

I said, "I'm not a god, it's not that I don't want to, but people have souls, and I pay more attention to the union of souls." ”

He "cut" without cutting, and the spit stars sprayed on my face: "People are also animals, and animals have animal nature." A philosopher like Sartre is awesome enough, it's not every day. Russell is humanitarian enough, he doesn't often commit adultery with married women, cuckold his good friends, and this old man is 80 years old and still seduces his daughter-in-law. ”

Seeing that I was disdainful, he took a sip of beer, choked on his face and thick neck, and continued after calming down: "Take Hu Shi, whom you admire, as an example, when you were young, you searched for flowers and willows everywhere, and Jiang Dongxiu was not constrained by tradition and marriage in the end, there was no way to do it. What kind of love, it's all. ”

"Let me read you a passage," I picked up the biography of Tolstoy on the bookshelf and began to read, "love is the only rational activity of human beings, and love is the most reasonable and bright spiritual realm. All it needs is nothing to obscure the light of reason, for only the light of reason can foster love. Love is the true good, the supreme good, which solves all the contradictions of life, and it destroys the horror of death and makes people sacrifice for it. ”

Yuan Zheng was quiet for a while, as if thinking of something on his mind, lit a cigarette and took a puff and said slowly: "I've heard a lot of these things, in short, love is made up artificially, and it doesn't exist in this world." Back then, my dad and my mom had nothing, they were in love with each other, they lived a good life, and when they got rich, they each had a new love. ”

After a moment of silence, he added, "I can't forget the four of them arguing in front of me at the same time, I could only slam my head upstairs under the covers and cry, I thought what the fuck this is and why there is so much deception, hypocrisy and hostility everywhere." You know, I really wanted to disappear from this world and make it impossible for anyone to find me. ”

I felt a little sympathetic to my buddies and said, "One day you meet the person you love, and maybe, you will change." ”

"I hope so." He touched the can in his hand with me, drank it in one gulp, and squeezed the can in his hand, but did not throw it away.

The writer Goethe's love affair in his youth was shattered, and his young life was full of sorrow and depression, and he projected his soul to create the fictional character Werther.

If people like Witt live now, it is estimated that they will work hard to move bricks during the day and play LOL in Internet cafes at night.

Goethe gave him tragic love and sublimated him, and it is not appropriate to say that in the age of love, Werther often gave me the revelation of loneliness and self-pity, that is, what Yuan Zheng said about pretending.

In Werther's heart, the lover Greene is like a holy angel, and the connection between them does not depend on seven emotions and six desires, but on simple love.

They care about that poetry, and distance strengthens it, but intimacy erases it.

In Goethe's view, Werther was the extreme of a healthy person - a sick person. People who are too idealistic will be out of step with the world in their actions, so Werther must finally turn a gun on himself, end his surging and desperate life, and exchange death for a new life.

Werther did not belong to that era, not even to ours, he was a premature surreal child who existed in the literary world, born for faith.

I often ask myself if I should be realistic, but when I think of Fu Wenxin, I seem to have become the Werther of that mother-in-law.

Although I told myself in my heart to stay away from the pure love of the literary and artistic world, I went to drink and brag, and found a girl to shoot in a small hotel south of the school, ending my virgin career and virgin plot, so that college life would not be so boring and tiring.

But I couldn't, I couldn't control my thoughts about her all day long, and once I left the basketball court and the vast sea of books and lay alone in bed, her voice and smile floated in, so familiar that I couldn't handle it.

At this time, I don't know the day or the night, and the whole world is completely lost before my eyes.

Love is something that can be viewed from a distance and cannot be blasphemed. Crush is true love, it has nothing to do with reality, only about faith. I'd rather live in my own simple little world, and live a lonely life.

In contrast, we had less communication with Yang Chenjun. This dragon sees the end and does not see the head, often goes out to visit the mountains and rivers, looking for immortals and visiting the Tao, sometimes disappears for more than half a month, and after coming back, he does not say a word, and we don't ask him where he goes.

Most of the time in the dormitory, only Yuan Zheng and I remained. Occasionally, Yang Chenjun would take some strangers back to the dormitory to live in the empty bunk, saying that he had met a homeless person on the road, and he would bring them back when he saw that they were pitiful.

All three religions and nine streams have been brought back, and Taoist priests, Taoist aunts, petitioners, ascetics, hikers, poets, down-and-out singers, stumbling girls, and beggars have all lived in our dormitories.

Most of them are in awe of us, saying that they are intellectuals, and they have dreamed of studying in this school since they were children, and coming to stay for one night is a dream come true.

Once brought back a mother and son, the woman's husband worked at a construction site in Beijing, and was beaten to vomit blood to ask for an explanation. The two mothers ran out of money in Beijing and had no place to live, so they slept on the side of the road and were soaked in the rain.

Yang Chenjun saw that they were pitiful, so he brought them back to live.

Yuan Zheng had a kind heart, and when he saw the mother and son away the next day, he stuffed them with 10,000 yuan. When the mother pulled her son to kneel in front of Yuan Zheng, he quickly knelt down and pulled them up, and at that time, I saw tears in the corners of his eyes.

Mr. Chen Duxiu believes that in the society where people get along with each other, in addition to the law, morality is also an indispensable maintenance, and a person who denies morality at all must be a wicked and shameless villain.

The more time I spent with Yuan Zheng, the more I felt that he was morally noble. He can't help himself if he has money in the family, his experience since he was a child has alienated his character, and he can't blame him for playing with women, ask how many rich men in the world don't play with women? Those who don't have money still love to play, just because they don't have money to play.

Therefore, although there are some differences between me and him on spiritual appeals, we have many values in common, otherwise we would not be able to talk together.

The weekend was Yuan Zheng's birthday, and he invited me and Yang Chenjun to his house.

I excused myself and said, "I'm not suitable for this kind of occasion, how about we leave it to you alone when we're free?" ”

Yuan Zheng will use the method of agitation, saying: "If you don't go, you will look down on me!" ”

He became more and more aggressive: "What if I look down on you? ”

Knowing that I eat soft or not hard, he hunched over and ran to me and gave me a back beating and massage: "Great talent, you can promise me this time, okay, I beg you." ”

I saw his cute expression, and I thought about it, this time according to him: "Okay, go, but don't introduce me to any messy friends, I'll just go sit down, and it's worthy of your birthday." ”

"Okay, I promise not to introduce anyone to you, just ask me to chat with Monk Yang," he turned his head to Yang Chenjun, "Monk, I know that you want to cultivate and become an immortal, so I specially prepared vegetarian food for you, how about it?" ”

Yang Chenjun said: "Then it's better to be respectful." ”