Regain a broken heart

Refresh the weary soul

Carrying a simple bag on your back

Ane finally embarked on his journey south. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

There is no bustle in groups of three or five

There is no joy of talking and laughing

Only the simple mother accompanied the gloomy Ane on the field path

Mom still loves Ane so much

Just like when I sent him to school, I helped him carry his backpack for fear that he would be tired.

Ané was reinvigorated, but, as he thought in his heart, this revival was only temporary.

Or rather, it is the effect of willpower.

It's like he makes up for credits with willpower.

As long as it is for the dignity of his parents, even if it is a dead heart, he will resurrect it once again.

Even if his mind wanted to rest again, reality had to force him forward.

Even if he was no longer willing to leave school, he was no longer willing to leave home, he had to leave and embark on a strange journey.

What made him even more desperate was that this melancholy of leaving home was almost offset by the expectation that there was no place to go.

The dirt of the soul, even at home, is difficult to wash.

In the past, no matter how melancholy the parting was, there would be the warmth of home to soothe it.

However, the pain of love seems to be in hand.

Even at home, this haze is there.

No one knew what love meant to him, not even himself.

Why is it so irreparable damage?

Even family affection is difficult to repair.

"Ah Zai, go out in the future, work hard. In the future, when I buy a house outside, my mother can come out and take a look. ”

Mom dropped Ane off the country road and told him hopefully.

For her mother, who has lived in the countryside for a long time, living in the city may be her greatest wish.

In Mom's eyes, hope is still complete.

However, this hope is applied to the little heart, like a stimulus.

"Buy a fart! Whether you can find a job or not is a problem! Ane replied angrily.

When it comes to work, he immediately thinks about the experience of being rejected by an employer at school.

At that time, he felt like a clown.

is also stupidly dressed in a suit and leather shoes, speaks meticulously, politely and modestly, but is not as good as those classmates who talk and laugh.

The society's abandonment of him made him also rejecting society.

This resistance has nothing to do with the number and extent of the setbacks he has experienced.

But people tend to measure whether a person is hurt by the number and extent of setbacks.

The most important thing is his faith.

If he has always believed that kindness and humility are the foundation of being a human being.

It only takes a few critical blows to knock out his spiritual pillar.

"How so? You haven't tried it yet, how do you know if you can't find a good job? You are a college student, you have to be more educated than others, and you have an advantage......"

Mom still seriously comforted him.

In her heart, as long as she has culture and good character, she can find a good job.

Ane really wanted to tell her: society is changing too fast now!

People tend to like strong people.

The more polite and humble you are, the less people will take you to heart.

This is true of love, and so is work.

"It's useless. Others don't look at these at all. They only look at whether you have experience or not, whether you can speak......" Ane said frustrated and angry.

A person can withstand many blows and setbacks as these setbacks are often directed at their bad habits or casual behaviors.

But they can't afford the negation of personality.

Ane's personality is soft, not strong and domineering.

This cannot be learned.

It's innate.

When most of the girls and bosses reject his personality, he can only despair.

"Experience can only be obtained by work, you tell those bosses that they must give you a chance before you can have work experience."

Mom gently comforted him.

In her opinion, those bosses are like neighbors in the family, who can be reasonable.

Only Ane knows that the society outside is cruel, or realistic.

They will not sympathize with Ané because he has no job and no livelihood security.

"I told them! It's useless! Ane was still angry.

At that time, he did talk to the interviewer about this "logic".

But it didn't impress them in the slightest.

He sometimes tries to show how much he needs the job and how loyal he is to it.

Hopefully, they will be moved by his sincerity.

But, like love, bosses tend to favor job seekers who have a bit of contempt for them.

This may be a sign of self-confidence for them.

"Don't be discouraged, Ah Tsai, you haven't tried yet, how do you know you can't find a job? You try it, maybe it's not as hard as you think. ”

His mother was still reassuring him with longing.

"You don't know what's going on with me...... Ané said, speechless.

Tears welled up in his eyes.

But he was still stubbornly choking back tears.

"Alas~~" Mom finally took off her strong appearance and squatted down tightly holding Ane's schoolbag.

Needless to ask, seeing Ane's tears, she already knew that the child's injury outside must be extraordinary.

She seemed to feel that her comfort had pale and that she could only grieve alone.

Holding a schoolbag in your arms is like holding a childhood child.

Unconscious movements, still revealing her maternal love.

Only when the child is greatly hurt will she use her mother's greatest embrace to give him warmth and safety.

What Ane fears most is loss.

Therefore, he would rather give himself hope first, and give his mother no hope; I don't want to feel that huge gap when I'm down.

Therefore, he would rather hurt his mother first than let her down to death.

It was so painful!

He had experienced it deeply.

I once pursued love and career with endless beautiful visions.

It turned out to be a total blow.

However, when he really saw his mother sad, he couldn't bear it anymore.

Mom is also sentimental.

Most of the injuries she suffered were internal friction.

And internal friction is often a kind of helplessness.

What could be more heartbreaking than helplessness and helplessness?

Xiao Nei didn't dare to stay with his mother anymore.

That feeling of helplessness and sadness would break his barely healing heart again.

He took the schoolbag with body temperature in his mother's arms, and boarded the bus to the county seat without looking back.

Although this way of parting made him feel like a "sin".

However, he believes that he has suffered most of the loss, and what he has left for his mother is just a psychological preparation.

At the time of parting, my mother's gloomy eyes were still full of hope and love.

This is my mother's wish to Xiao Nei.

No matter where the child goes, this outpouring of maternal love will never be interrupted.

Farewell, hometown, farewell, mother.

Welcoming Xiao Nei will be a vast road to the future. (To be continued.) )