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Mom called out to Ane, who seemed to be asleep.

For Ane, this feeling is like returning to the moment when his mother called him to eat when he was a child.

At that time, it was such a wonderful feeling.

Even the cabbage tofu made by my mother is better than the delicacies of the mountains and the sea.

But now, with the big fish and meat in front of him, he feels that it tastes like chewing wax.

"Eat more, Ané. You must not have such a good meal at school. ”

Ane eats quickly, but it's more of an anxiety than an enjoyment.

During the meal, Mom and Dad kept it in mind and didn't ask Ane about his graduation plans.

Only my mother couldn't help but ask, "Where have your classmates gone?" ”

"Shanghai, Guangzhou."

Ane replied as if he was not angry.

"I must get a job!" Ane's face was almost full of anger and forbearance.

Mom and Dad looked at each other and stopped asking.

At the moment, perhaps only silence is the only way to soothe Ane's wounds.

Ane was their inseparable flesh and blood, and seeing his devastated expression, they knew the pain in his heart even if they didn't ask more.

It was only at this moment that Ane's long-suppressed anger finally exploded.

Although this outburst is still clinging to his kindness, and showing a kind of gentle anger.

He hates the injustice of love and the injustice of society.

Perhaps, as Ah Wei said, bad luck.

In this era, people seem to favor men with ambition and ambition.

A man like him, who is too docile and modest, is unpopular.

No one understands Ane's heart, except for his parents.

In the eyes of outsiders, how naïve and fragile Ane is to sink and degenerate for several love setbacks and temporary unhappiness in work.

They may say, "You've just started your life, and you're holding back for these little blows." Like a man? You haven't seen a bigger storm than that, and what is your little setback compared to that? ”

It's like people often impose on the will of young people, "You are young, do you know what love is?" ”

When you see them in pain for love, you will only have a disdainful attitude.

However, they may understand love too narrowly, and only limit it to the feelings between men and women.

I don't understand what kind of primitive archetype there is behind love.

What does love really mean for Ane?

Why is this exhausting?

Perhaps only he and his parents know.

Therefore, the bruise of love is by no means an understatement as understood by outsiders.

The most serious injuries are often the earliest to develop.

It's not about maturity or not.

On days at home, Ane hardly sleeps or eats.

Occasionally, I go to my childhood friend's house.

But it's no longer the lightness it used to be.

The happiness brought to him by family affection and friendship seems to be a thing of the past.

In the face of the bruise of love, family and friendship seem to have become weak.

But the darkness still prompted him to go home in search of the emotions that had brought him joy.

Although he told his mother a white lie - go home and wait for the mail.

A mother always understands her son.

This kind of understanding may be heart-to-heart and self-evident.

Therefore, one day, when a song and dance troupe came to the neighboring village to perform a program, his mother, who had always disapproved of Ané going out to play at night, took the initiative to tell him the news.

"Ane, get up quickly, there's a show in the village opposite, let's go and see it."

"Really?"

Ane rubbed his sleepy eyes and slowly got out of bed.

If it was in the past, he would definitely get up and go to the show in high spirits.

Maybe now that I'm mature, I don't like to watch these shows anymore.

But sometimes sadness often manifests itself as a form of overmaturity.

Mother's call is still powerful, although he is still indulging in the pain of love.

It seems to evoke memories of taking him to the theater when he was a child.

Ane finally followed the crowd of the village and made his way towards the neighboring village.

It's like watching an open-air movie when I was a child.

Although he is almost the only one who is a young man.

But at this time, why not regain virginity?

Ane's mood seemed to change slightly.

……

After watching the play

Ane paced alone to the small bridge in the field where he had once played.

There was a time when he had a happy and carefree time.

But at the moment, memories only add to sadness.

Because that time will never come back.

He couldn't remember when he ceased to be virgin and pure.

Pastoral pleasure alone could no longer satisfy his heart.

He can only pursue the thrill of love and desire.

If he could, he would rather go back to that ignorant childhood.

At that time, at least it was full of dreams and motivation.

But now, he seems to have lost his motivation to move forward.

How helpless and helpless this is for a young man!

He can't fight for love like other boys.

That may be a luxury for him.

The only motivation that motivates him to look for a job is simply that he can't bear to see the traces of time left by his parents who overworked him.

It was like a whip whipping his sleeping heart.

In the quiet night sky, a bright moon hangs.

The bright moonlight sprinkled on him, like a warm current that flowed into his heart, seemed to reawaken his childhood memories of listening to his mother sing nursery rhymes in the moonlight.

The pain of being at school seemed to be light at that moment.

At this moment, the depression in my heart seemed to turn into an inexplicable force, and I secretly vowed: I must regain my strength!

The shattered blueprint vision is also beginning to be redrawn.

Although he was also suspicious of this unprovoked power - perhaps the good times were short-lived.

However, as long as there is motivation, there is hope.

With this idea, he just had to wait for an opportunity.

A chance to get out.

Maybe it's better to go far.

He didn't want to stay in the city that made him sad.

Although he doesn't like to be too far from home.

But once the hope in the heart is dashed in a certain place, one can only hope for the expansion of space.

Maybe the outside world is different from here, and there may be his hope and destiny.

He can only have this ethereal yearning.

At this time, one of his classmates was also going out to look for a job.

The destination also coincided with what he had imagined.

The two hit it off and made an appointment to set off.

This change may have come too quickly, and it has a certain willpower effect.

However, for Ane, even a short-lived forward momentum is invaluable.

As long as there is a glimmer of hope, he will never give up and will act immediately.

It is precisely because of this that he is so persistent and eager for love.

But sometimes, the reality is so cruel that even that glimmer of hope can be taken away.

If love is like this, is it true of work? (To be continued.) )