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However, this sentence could not be more apt to describe Xiao Nei.

His body is not dead, but his heart is dead.

His heart is dead, but there is an infinite temptation that stimulates him.

It's like torturing a weak soul in purgatory.

Therefore, the prosperity of Guangzhou is not a kind of beauty at all for Xiao Nei.

Rather, it is a sin and torture.

Exhausted, he still has to find a job that suits him in this thousands of work-related jobs.

Although it is not looking for a needle in a haystack, it is also at a loss.

After a few bus trips, Xiao Nei finally boarded the bus to Dongguan.

That was his second and final stop.

There are so many variables in this journey for him.

Originally, Guangzhou could not find the north, and now I have to go to Dongguan again.

I don't know where to settle down or what the future holds.

His heart was already in tatters.

It's only barely healed under the warmth of the home.

Now we have to experience the impact of the unknown again.

Xiao Nei can no longer cope with all this with consciousness.

The only thing that supported him was trance-like willpower.

Or rather, an invisible push that pushes him to go where he doesn't like.

Pushing him had to be separated from his home.

But what else can be done?

For college students who do not have a job assignment, is there any other way than to work part-time?

With Xiao Nei's helplessness, the car finally arrived in Dongguan.

It's a bustling city again.

Walking through the streets and alleys, all he saw were factories with concrete and steel structures, as well as groups of migrant workers.

The sheer number is incalculable.

However, quantity never meant hope for him.

Just like in love, he never has a shortage of objects to pursue.

It just never worked out.

Is the same true for work?

He didn't know.

However, those frequent job applications on the eve of graduation are not experiences for him, but a blow.

What is Karma?

It's a coin tossed into the air.

Throw ten times, there is always a probability of heads and tails.

But if there is always a negative side, it will naturally be associated with fate.

Xiao Nei is because of his frequent failures in love, so he will have his later despair.

Once fatalism is formed, no amount is hopeful.

Even if there are more factories and more beauties, what's the use?

If it's just parallel to him, no amount of more will be in vain.

That's why Konachi hates this kind of metropolis.

He is sometimes amazed at the likeness of girls.

10 out of 10 girls don't like him.

Even if there is only one, it will give him great hope and motivation.

The same goes for work.

Of the 10 units, 10 refused to accept him.

It is often said that there is always something for you.

However, he seems to be an exception.

Always abandoned.

Coming to this metropolis, he felt a serious lack of security.

It seems that everyone is struggling for money, like the gears in a mechanical watch, endlessly.

However, the faces of those young migrant workers with dyed yellow hair and dark skin are still so vibrant, even a domineering spirit with a desire to conquer.

It's in stark contrast to the melancholy of Konai.

In their concept, the world is perhaps the greatest joy.

But for Konai, it is a sin to be uprooted from his homeland, especially to such a bustling metropolis.

In front of his mother's simplicity, excessive prosperity will make him instinctively resist.

But he had to come to such a bustling and noisy place.

Those workers are very young, but their faces are full of the smell of rivers and lakes.

And Xiao Nei still seems to be childish.

It's so childish that it's pitiful.

If you are a colleague with them, you may be excluded because you don't fit in.

Xiao Nei thought secretly.

Thinking of this, he, who originally hated the city, resisted even more.

He knew that those workers with a bit of vigor were all workers on the production line.

However, he knew that he did not have any advantage over them after graduating from the bachelor's degree.

It can even be at a disadvantage.

After all, he doesn't have the proficiency of skills.

If you can't find a suitable job, you have to work as a general laborer.

Inevitably, you will become colleagues with them.

But in his impression, his colleague should be a mild-mannered, white-faced scholar with glasses.

That would make him feel more secure.

From an early age, he resisted stern people, or rather people who were not gentle.

The fierce migrant workers reminded him of the ruffian students he saw at school when he was a teenager.

At that time, he was often the object of their laughter or bullying.

In his opinion, those who are so adapted to life in the metropolis, and even like it, must be not idle.

At least more than he did.

He didn't dare to imagine that after graduating from college, he would be ridiculed and even reprimanded by them for his clumsiness.

This is not something he imagined.

Every anxiety and fear has an archetype to correspond to.

This archetype may be the memory of being bullied at school.

At that time, even if he didn't have much to do, others couldn't help but bully him when they saw his bitter and hateful appearance.

Xiao Nei found a corner and sat down, waiting for his classmate Ah Hao, who asked him to come out to work.

He set off from another city and made an appointment with Xiao Nei to meet somewhere in Dongguan.

It was also his only acquaintance outside.

It is also a kind of encouragement for him to persevere.

No matter where you go, it's always good to have someone by your side.

Just like when Ah Wei stayed in the dormitory with him.

He was frustrated in love, but there was still no shortage of friendship.

This is the only proof that he is not worthless.

But that's all.

The girl is always able to magically turn love into friendship in him.

This is the most painful thing for him.

Because love often means tenderness between men and women;

And friendship reminds him of buddies.

It's a physiological shift.

While waiting, Xiao Nei's phone rang.

It turned out to be my mother calling.

"Hey, Xiao Nei, are you here? Did it go well along the way? Have you seen your classmates? Have you found a place to stay? ……”

Mom asked a series of questions in one breath.

She still cares about Xiao Nei as much as she did when she was a child.

He's never been far away, so maybe he's not used to sleeping in a bed outside, right?

In a foreign country without relatives and no reason, will there still be classmates or friends who help and take care of each other like at school?

The first time you step into a materialistic society, will there be selfless love at home? ……

"It's been there early!" Xiao Nei replied angrily.

Until now, when communicating with my mother, there is always a natural expression of anger.

Until he proves his ability, his mother's love will only make him feel powerless and bored.

Before her mother could continue to ask, Xiao Nei hurriedly said goodbye to her.

Perhaps this is a kind of cruelty, a kind of cruelty that kills the mother's hope.

Perhaps, how much the mother wants the child to say, "Mom, don't worry! I'm fine here, I'll be able to get a job soon......" and other comforting words.

However, for Xiao Nei, too much hope will only be the premise of loss and despair.

……

After waiting for nearly an hour, Xiao Nei finally met Ah Hao, who had not been seen for a long time.

Ah Hao's face is still so dark and square, with a flat head, and he looks full of energy.

After a brief exchange of pleasantries, the two wandered the streets looking for shelter.

Finally, a rental residential building was found not far from a factory.

After paying the cheap rent, the two lived in a 20-square-meter room. (To be continued.) )