Zheng Huiya lay on the kang for a long time, thinking about all the hardships she had experienced in her previous life, thinking about her daughter who depended on her for her life, tears kept flowing, and her heart couldn't stop rolling. The thought www.biquge.info never seeing her daughter again, made her heart ache like a pinprick.

I don't know how long it took, she was tired of crying, she really didn't feel a trace of sleep, she just sat up and touched the black to touch the edge of the kang, she remembered that she used to live in a bungalow, and the lamp rope was generally under the edge of the kang or by the door.

Sure enough, as soon as she touched it, there was a "pop", and the electric light came on. Although it is very dark, it is much stronger than its own home. Her family lives in the countryside, and there is no electricity until now, so she lights a kerosene lamp at night, and in order to save money, she goes to bed on the kang early at night.

By the dim light, she looked at herself, wearing a thick blue autumn coat and a pair of large black fat cotton pants. This is my sister who knew that she was going to come on a blind date, and specially gave her her autumn clothes. She didn't have autumn pants, only a pair of red-flowered washed and whitish boxer shorts in the cotton pants, which were the kind of big pants that she used to make by herself. At this time, she was still very young, thin-skinned, and lived in her cousin's house, so she was embarrassed to wear only a pair of big shorts, so she simply slept in cotton pants.

Kang tip, neatly folded clothes, his blue-black cotton jacket has been worn for two years, it is already a little small, there are obviously enlarged creases on the bottom, and the top and bottom are obviously new and old colors.

Her eyes darkened.

In the last life, her mother died when she was two years old, leaving her two-year-old and her eight-year-old eldest sister Zheng Huijun. The next year, her father married another, and her stepmother entered the house and gave birth to three younger brothers and a younger sister in one go. She and her eldest sister are big, and they are half of the labor force in the countryside, so they naturally have to do all kinds of work. When I was a child, the conditions were not good, and I had to be angry when I couldn't eat enough to do any work, so I was bent on getting married and leaving that family as soon as possible.

That's when my cousin helped introduce the object, and she and Li Tianming met at that time.

At that time, my cousin lived in their neighboring county, and my cousin-in-law worked in the county armed forces department, because my cousin was much older than her, and she was sorry that she had no mother at a young age, so she forced her cousin-in-law to introduce her to a partner.

It just so happened that my cousin-in-law had a comrade-in-arms, who was twenty-seven years old and unmarried, ten years older than her, although he was older, but he was from the city, and he was a company commander in the army, and his conditions were much better than her.

In addition, her eldest sister Zheng Huijun worked in the township government and had her first child after two years of marriage. And she saw that her eldest sister could be the master of the house after she got married, which was much better than when she was in her mother's house, so she wanted to get married as soon as possible and have her own home, and she could also be the master of the house at home and no longer be angry.

The eldest sister couldn't persuade her, so she had to help her as much as she could, gave her the autumn clothes she didn't want to wear a few times, and gave her five yuan.

At that time, she was self-aware, she was a rural person, why could she marry in the city, and still eat public food, it was just because she was young, beautiful, and very capable.

But then again, how can anyone in this era not be able to work, not to mention that she is a stepmother in her family, and there are a lot of younger brothers and sisters in the family, who will do it if she is an older child?

In fact, she also understood that she was too picky at that time, let alone a stepmother, and it was impossible to treat everyone equally. is my mother, so many children, she is the biggest, and she has to do the most work at home, eat the worst, and wear the most worn.

They are all poor.

After the mid-nineties, several of her younger siblings have developed well, and the family will naturally not care about it when they have money, and they will help her a lot, at this time, the relationship between her and her mother's family has slowly eased.

I remember that at that time, she and Li Tianming only met once, and they felt that each other's impressions were okay. As a result, Li Tianming arrived the next day and returned to the army, and then the two exchanged letters a few times, she graduated from primary school, and she didn't know a lot of words at that time, so she put a lot of effort into learning in order to write letters. It's just that the family lives in the countryside, and communication is inconvenient, and they have to spend money on envelopes and stamps. The family is poor, how can she have the money to buy these for her, she thinks that her stepmother is against her, and she doesn't want her to marry well, so she made a big fuss at home.

Before the Spring Festival of the second year, Li Tianming asked for leave to go home, and the two pulled off their marriage certificates and became husband and wife. Less than three days after getting married, Li Tianming received a notice to return to the team, but he didn't think that this departure would be goodbye.

Less than two months after he left, she found out that she was pregnant, and she was overjoyed and hurriedly wrote a letter to tell Li Tianming. But after waiting for many months, she didn't expect that she didn't receive an excited reply from her husband that he wanted to be a father, but she received a telegram that he was injured. Accompanied by her brother-in-law Li Tianliang, she went to the south with a big belly, and before she could get to the place, Li Tianming died of serious injuries......

She couldn't stand the stimulation and fainted in the hospital...... Later, when I returned home, because of overstimulation and the fatigue of traveling thousands of miles, the child was born prematurely at the age of seven and a half months.

Thinking of her previous life, her eyes were blank, and she felt cold and painful in her heart, and she curled up and hugged her knees and wept silently...... The daughter survived, but her son ...... Born a stillborn.

Her mother-in-law treats her very well and takes care of her meticulously, only the eldest sister is cold next to her from time to time. At that time, her heart was warmed by her mother-in-law, and she felt that she was unfortunate and lucky, and her husband was gone, but her mother-in-law was as good to her as a daughter, which made her want to give her heart to her mother-in-law.

How stupid she must have been!

Her true heart was tricked by others, and she was sold to her stupid helper to count the money.

No matter how difficult those days were, I survived little by little, but later, my mother-in-law persuaded me to take another step, and said that even if she remarried, she would be her daughter. And that man, who was also introduced by his mother-in-law, said that no matter how responsible a person is, how honest and capable he is, he will definitely be good to her, and he will be good to her daughter Ning Ning.

But who knows, not long after she got married, the man showed his true colors, drank heavily, gambled, and beat her to death if he drank too much, without taking a penny from the family. When she was struggling to survive alone with her children, she knew that she had to be powerful and support the family. Therefore, when the man beat her, she picked up a kitchen knife and fought with him, and the man who came and went was instigated. She thought about divorce, but a widow divorced within a few months of remarrying with her children, and their mother and daughter didn't want to raise their heads again in this county. Just as she was hesitating, she found out she was pregnant again. At that time, she hated her fertile physique, and the two were together a few times when they first got married, and they could have it again, which really made her helpless.

This time she gave birth to a son, and the man was ecstatic, and his attitude towards them was much better. But a few months later, I found out that something was wrong, the child's neck was soft, couldn't stand up, and couldn't turn over when it was time to turn over.

The man rolled up the family with only a little money, sold the house and ran away.

She and her daughter had nowhere to go with their son in their arms, so they went back to their mother-in-law. But her mother-in-law, who has always been kind to her, only secretly stuffed her with fifty yuan, saying that her son and daughter had spoken: she had remarried and had nothing to do with their Luo family, and she was not allowed to come to the door again.

She was standing on the street, dazed and at a loss, and the feeling that the world was big but there was no place for her to live made her hate to die. If it weren't for the fact that her daughter was eleven years old at the time, she was sensible and held her tightly. If it weren't for the fact that my cousin came over and took her home. If the eldest sister hadn't heard about it and immediately rushed over in a long-distance bus to take them back to her hometown, she wouldn't have known if she would have had the courage to live.

But at that time, my son suffered from the wind and had a serious illness, and he was only one year old.

Thinking of her two sons who had nothing to do with her, she couldn't help but cry like rain, hiding in the quilt and crying heartbroken.

At that time, she didn't blame her mother-in-law, and it was not easy for the old lady to live with her son, if she didn't listen to her son's daughter-in-law, would she listen to her, an outsider? You know, people in this era believe in their sons to support their old age! It's just that understanding is understanding, but since then, she has no longer been in contact with her in-laws.

It wasn't until five or six years later that her daughter was already old, she was very good, she studied very well, and she was admitted to a university in the provincial capital. She took her daughter to visit, and after the funeral, her daughter Ning Ning told her the secret she didn't know all along.

She was young when she got married, and she didn't understand many things, and Li Tianming did not hand over the family's money to her, but was held by her mother-in-law. After Li Tianming's sacrifice, the pension was also in the hands of her mother-in-law, except for the expenses for her childbirth, the rest was borrowed by her eldest sister, saying that she wanted to build a house.

Later, the county arranged jobs for the martyrs' families, but at that time, because of the heartache of Tianming's death and the death of another child, she only knew sadness and self-pity all day long, ignoring her newborn daughter. And the eldest sister persuaded her mother-in-law at this time, saying that she was so young, she would definitely take another step in the future, and when she remarried, she would have children again, but she was afraid that it would not be good for Ning Ning. It's better to give her this job opportunity, she is the child's aunt, how can she not lose the child and so on. And my cousin-in-law happened to go to the province for further study at that time, and when my cousin found out about it, the wood was already in the boat, so my cousin had a big quarrel with her mother-in-law's family.

At that time, she listened to her mother-in-law's words and thought that this was the county because she only graduated from elementary school, so she specially arranged for her eldest sister, who was a new graduate, to become a primary school teacher. For this reason, I also persuaded my cousin that they are all a family, and there is no need to turn their faces over this trivial matter. She didn't know what to do, so she angrily pointed her cousin on her forehead and scolded her, saying: You fool, is that a trivial matter? That's a lifetime for you!

As for the man, who is also the second uncle of his daughter Ning Ning, Li Tianliang, wanted to monopolize the house, for fear of being poked in the back, united with his eldest sister, found a candidate, and coaxed the old lady. The old lady really thought about her at that time, thinking that she was so young, it was not a matter for her to live alone with a child, and she was moved by what her son and daughter said, so she nodded and agreed to persuade her.

The old lady felt guilty and restless day and night, and because she had worked too hard in her youth, her body was exhausted, and she became seriously ill within a few years, and before she died, she confessed to her granddaughter, told the truth, and begged for forgiveness from their mother and daughter.

Knowing the truth, she cried all night, and since then, her heart has hardened even more, and she has never shed a single tear.