It is precisely because of this that although Zhu Zhanji is still in love with Queen Sun in front of people, but in the future, he can really avoid seeing Sun Lingwei, so he tries to avoid it, and he has to find a high-sounding reason. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

Therefore, on the day Sun Lingwei was canonized as the queen, he went to the south wall where Wu Wu was located and pretended to be drunk and slept for a night, and was unwilling to go to Sun Lingwei's queen palace to give her the icing on the cake as usual.

He wasn't drunk at all that night, just a little bit of wine couldn't get him drunk.

He has always been a rational person.

That night, he really was a kind of willfulness.

This willfulness is a subconscious protest against Sun Lingwei's dreams of tying himself up.

"Why, this woman, I have fulfilled my responsibility to her, she has no problem winning the middle palace, why should I force myself to face her who I don't like."

Now that I think about it, this is the most straightforward inner thought of that night, Zhu Zhanji would rather sleep at the root of the south wall than go to the "Kunning Palace".

This is also the fundamental reason why Zhu Zhanji did not hesitate to ruthlessly refuse the request to accompany Sun Lingwei when he was on his northern tour.

Because he really didn't want to face her anymore, and even in his heart, he was already starting to get bored with her.

Although later, Zhu Zhanji felt a little unbearable, and before setting off with Wu Wu, he reluctantly agreed to go to the "Kunning Palace" to accompany Sun Lingwei for one night.

However, when Sun Lingwei kissed Zhu Zhanji's eyes affectionately, Zhu Zhanji felt not "lingering", but just a kind of "lingering", so that he shouted and screamed at the night when he should have been enthusiastic, so that it ended hastily.

Think about it, all the stories of him and Sun Lingwei over the years really seem to be deep and meaningful, and the "lingering" love between the two is actually just a person's complex feelings of "lingering" on the way to realize their dreams.

Zhu Zhanji finally figured it all out.

He has always been a man who lives very clearly.

He can pretend to be confused in front of people, but he has to be very clear in his heart.

Then comes the second question.

"If I really didn't love my sister, but only saw her as a means of the ideal now, then who am I really loved? In my heart, what should true love look like? ”

This is the next problem that Zhu Zhanji, a generation of saints, will face.

What is true love?

In the past, if Zhu Zhanji was asked, at the age of 17 or 8 years old, Zhu Zhanji may have thought that love is, "I like your beautiful face, or admire your graceful figure." Or "I like your talent and so on".

In short, love when you are young can always be justified. It's hard to like if there's no reason.

For a woman, perhaps, the same.

But now Zhu Zhanji finally understands that any liking that can be justified is not a real liking.

True love is unexplainable.

You may not be beautiful at all, and you may not be talented at all, but I just want to be with you, and I just love being with you.

The kind of liking that can't be said for reasons is worthy of being called true love.

Because of the love that can be said for a reason, once your face disappears, your talent is drowned...... Then your emotional sustenance will immediately become invisible, which will produce what people call "liking the new and hating the old"!

But only liking for unspeakable glossy reasons is really liking, because that is the real attraction of a man to a woman.

This attraction comes from the heart, and it is the most shocking thing that comes from the depths of the heart.

So for the current emperor Zhu Zhanji, the love that he has always understood should be with that person, and he can exude a small happiness from the bottom of his heart!

This feeling is not something Sun Lingwei can give Zhu Zhanji.

But Zhu Zhanji felt quite familiar.

He suddenly remembered that every time he was with Wu Wu, he had that faint feeling.

From the first time they caught crickets in the fields of Changping County, to the last time Wu Wu accompanied him on another northern tour, he could drink and talk with Wu Wu, open his heart, and chat all night until dawn, and he already felt the feeling of happiness.

Especially in the process of quelling the rebellion against the Han king Zhu Gaoxu that day, he found Wu Wu and allowed her to accompany him until he returned to Beijing. On the road, fighting crickets together, Zhu Zhanji's feeling of small happiness that time is still very strong when I think about it now.

That was the first time Zhu Zhanji vaguely realized the importance of Wu Wu to him.

But at that time, everything was renewed, and he didn't have time to sort out his thoughts.

"So, the person I love has always been my daughter-in-law?"

Zhu Zhanji suddenly realized this, and instantly became frightened.

"No, no, why is this happening? I prefer to believe that the person I have been loving for so many years is Wei'er. Because, I really don't want to love the wrong person. ”

After a short period of clarity, there is a long-term pain, the pain of not being able to face reality.

Zhu Zhanji couldn't help but start to doubt his thoughts just now:

But is that little happiness really love?

Maybe it's just something like love? ”

Zhu Zhanji pondered:

"Maybe the reason why I feel this way about my daughter-in-law is just because she did eight years of detailed work for me to go to the Han Palace, and then worked hard for the second time to make great contributions to my country?"

"Yes, it's just a humerus."

Zhu Zhanji seemed to be very happy that he had finally found an accurate positioning for Wu Wu. He breathed a long sigh of relief, sweated profusely and took off the golden crown on his head, and said to himself:

"I, I really prefer to believe that I love Sun Lingwei, my queen, not someone else. I, who have been established for a long time, can still fall in love when I am no less frivolous than when I am young. ”

Some self-deprecating smiled: "Middle-aged people, don't you just want to be steady?" I don't believe that just this night, the emotional changes in my heart will be so earth-shaking! The two women in my heart will also be so completely subverted. Forget it, don't be so naïve. ”

Zhu Zhanji said to himself sadly, he was almost ordering himself to accept the current position of Wu Wu in his heart.

Because it's always cruel to peel back the heart.

How many people can honestly face their hearts and finally feel their own hearts?

Zhu Zhanji was feeling sad, and suddenly someone outside urgently asked to see him.

He heard Haitao Gonggong scolding the person who came to the palace for not understanding the rules, and it was late at night, and he came to break into the palace, but that person seemed to be very anxious.