I've been in a bit of a mess lately, and it seems that I've been listening to inspirational songs for more than a month since I wrote this book. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

As mentioned earlier, I am a very lazy person, a person who gives up easily, and my persistence is nothing more than listening to inspirational music and drinking chicken soup for the soul every night, telling myself that I must persevere.

IT'S LIKE THE SONG I OFTEN LISTEN TO, A LYRIC FROM LUO TIANYI'S ORIGINAL MV "THAT SUMMER - THE WORLD THAT WILL NOT BE FORGOTTEN" BY THE GRANDMA MAIN TURTLE IN THE MUSIC AREA ON BILIBILI, "SHOUTING AND CHEERING, RUSHING FORWARD SINGLE-HANDEDLY." I refused to be mediocre and screamed with all my might. "I kept telling myself that since I had taken the first step, since I had started writing the book, I had to stick with it and write it as well as I could.

Maybe it's also a side effect of the inspirational song, right? Ever since I started writing books, I like to turn on my phone every day when I have nothing to do, and log on to the website to refresh to see if there are any new trends.

I don't need to tip, even if it's just a new review, I'll have fun with someone else's insignificant recommendation vote, let alone see someone tip me.

It seems to start from the time of signing the contract, right? I feel like a newcomer in a martial arts novel, pointing to the moves of those masters who have already rotten the streets and exclaiming, "Wow! XX Palm "Wow!! XX legs" and so on.

When I received the signing text message on the site, I was happy to say to my friend, wow! I signed up yes.

Someone tipped, and then said to a friend, wow! Someone tipped!

I received a text message to get a referral and exclaimed, wow! I have a recommendation yes!

Looking back now, I was really shocked.

I often read books by my peers, and if I used to pay attention to their writing methods, I have recently started to pay attention to their collections and their popularity. When I saw that my grades were not as good as theirs, I said to myself, "If there is a recommendation, the data will go up" or something like that.

So I was very happy when I first got a referral position. I'm glad that more people can see my books.

Until today, a week's recommendation has passed, although the grades have improved, but it is far from my imagination, I know that I am already a little competitive at this time, but I can't help but ask myself, I sit in front of the computer every day after work to code words, and even sometimes on the weekend I can only secretly write one or two chapters during working hours, from the goal of 3000 words per day set for myself, to more than 4000 stable days later, often more than 5000, I used to come home from work and leisurely hold Coke and watch anime and play games, but now I want to squeeze out a little more time to write more every day.

Just like the lyrics, I started shouting at myself in my heart and kept trying to push forward, only to find that the ending was not satisfactory. I'm starting to get a little lost. I've been feeling a little mixed lately.

Until a friend of mine asked me rhetorically,

What exactly are you writing books for?

I just remembered to look back at the starting point of my journey, I was writing a book that I liked, and I wanted to have some works when I was old, so that when I was old, I could tell my children that this was a book I wrote, not for any data or any grades.

Maybe I'm pushing too hard and forgetting where I started?

It's just my personal boredom and whining, and I'll adjust to it quickly, but it's true that I've not been in good shape lately, so I'm not very satisfied with what I've written.

This may be something that every newcomer has to go through, please?

Since you have chosen the front, it will be through thick and thin.

I'll get back to it soon.

Above.