If I murder him, will he hate me for it?

When I think of this, I want to run away. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 infoBut I can't, if I run away, I probably won't see each other again! I don't know why, but I always feel this way. So, what is to be done here is not to escape, but to explain. If you explain it, Ito will definitely understand!

――I will never forgive you if I say it!

I was about to explain, but Ito suddenly looked over. A simple look, but it told me everything he wanted to say.

"I can't tell you why! It's not a big deal, but you still don't know better! But as you think, I don't feel the slightest bit of guilt or remorse about it! Even though it turned out to be wrong, I wouldn't do that to you now, but ......"

It was only a few seconds before Ito looked away again. He threw himself backwards, half of his body lying on the bed. His gaze was focused on the dark ceiling, but it was not the ceiling, and certainly not me, but somewhere in the distance......

Maybe it was the night at that time, but I couldn't prove that what Ito was looking at was exactly what I thought!

Obviously sitting next to Ito, but he always felt so far away from him......

Anxiety gripped me, and fear reacted to me. I fell down and lay down beside Ito, following his example and imagining what he might see.

However, all I could see was the black ceiling. At this moment, I can't feel what Ito is thinking. It's so uncomfortable, so annoying, there's a river that separates me from him...... No, that's not right...... It was Ito who walked over naturally, and I didn't stop......

He looked at me on the other side and whispered, "I'll wait for you!"

But I didn't have the courage to ......

"If I had gone back to that time, I would have done it again! Not only that, but we will definitely do it more thoroughly. So, at that time, what I said was 'I must forgive myself', not 'I hope you will forgive me'! Yan Ye, you, are really too innocent (stupid), and I am really too stupid (stupid)! But ......"

(At that time, I chose: Come and see you!) Come to you! to avoid the misfortune that I did not want. ）”

Interrupting my thoughts, Ito didn't know what he saw, and he smiled.

(It's a misfortune, but you're fine!) ）”

"I'm a little tired, let's take a break!"

I understood, and Ito hugged me. Let my head rest on his chest, listen to his heartbeat slowly, and I just fell asleep.

Look back.

"Then I'll go first, you have to take care of yourself, Ito! If anything, call Mom and she will be back soon! Well, goodbye! ”

After sending Maii Ito away, Makoto finally breathed a sigh of relief.

"Alas......"

However, as soon as he thought of his previous actions, Makoto's mood suddenly became entangled again, and his complex emotions made his heart very uncomfortable, so that the sigh that was originally in his heart made a sound and showed it.

"What's wrong, Ito?"

"Nothing." Makoto replied casually. It's not a big deal, but it's actually nothing to tell Yan Ye, but now it's not a time to care about these "little things" at all.

"Oh, really?" Although it stopped Yan Ye from wanting to dig deeper, it didn't seem to have her trust at all. The worried look in her eyes made Makoto feel that he had done something wrong.

"It's really nothing!"

As a result, he couldn't help but reiterate it in a strengthened tone, but in doing so, it was just getting darker and darker.

"Oh my God, what have I done!"

"Compared to this, what is Yan Ye's reservation after this?"

I don't know if it was due to the lack of oxygen supply to the brain due to the excessive blood flow. For some reason, Makoto's mind is a mess now. I didn't know what I was thinking, so I just gave up thinking.

Hearing Makoto's words, Yan Ye lowered her head, she pondered for a moment and looked back at Makoto with an expression of regret mixed with self-blame: "Originally, I wanted to accompany Ito well after this, but considering the current situation, it is really unlikely." So go home to say hello to your parents first, and then report to school. I've been off school for four days, will I be scolded by the teacher? Although it was a lie, I took sick leave......"

"Then I'll send you home!"

"No, I'll just go back by myself! Although it doesn't seem like much, Ito is recovering from a serious injury after all, so it's better to take a good rest! I don't have to worry about my affairs, I'm fine, so Ito doesn't care. I'll come to see you after school, and I'll trouble you to open the door then......"

In this way, after sending Maii Ito away for about ten minutes, Makoto sent away Katsura Yanye again. Now it's back to normal!

A small independent space where only Makoto exists!

He lived alone—a fragment of a sincere sorrow that would not have been fulfilled even in a dream.

To say that it is a dream, it is not even delusional.

There is no space for Makoto to live alone, and there is no such thing as a place in this world. If you want to ask why, it's because he's not the only one in the world!

Honesty is not a person living ......

I can't see it now, and I can't reach it, but ......

Outside the window, behind the thin glass. There are so many small black dots that you can't help but want to give up counting, like looking at ants rushing out of a cave. Column by column, clump by clump, I felt furious when I saw it, and I felt uncomfortable all over.

Even if you don't know him, even if it's far, far away, it will have something to do with him. It's inseparable, and it's cut constantly, just because they all look at the same blue sky.

To run away is nothing but self-deception!

Hermits are nothing but self-degenerate!

The choice has always been in their hands, but someone has closed their eyes......

Just like the "self" you once was! However, that was also a choice, and Makoto also walked to the end of that road.

It's just that......

Probably, there is nothing left!

The first thing not to have was his family, and he was not loved by them; The next thing is the loss of the lover, because he is too young and ignorant, so that the emotions he wants to convey cannot be conveyed at all; After that, there is a connection with the only companion who can be recognized as a "friend", and Makoto does not have the slightest sadness or resentment because of being abandoned, but hates the loss of many truly heartwarming memories because of this.

Makoto turned away, and he could never go back there; In the end, what was left behind was the feelings and dreams that I had pursued for twenty-one years!

Makoto never looked back at all the roads he had taken, and Makoto didn't know what he was like, but Makoto knew very well that there would be objects along the way, and they would be everywhere—those countless crystalline droplets of water.

- It was tears.

-- but not regrets.

- But it is precisely because I don't regret it that there are tears there.

Once "myself" finally chose to die, to end his life by death. In the end, even the feelings have been numb, and the dream has lost the meaning of existence. That's why "I" chose to die - that's why Makoto woke up.

Putting on the black coat he always wore on his body, Makoto locked the door and left the house. Coming to the street, walking in the alley, listening to the noisy noise, Makoto wandered in the city again.

School will go again tomorrow, and I will take a break today!

It stands to reason that he was stabbed in the chest with a blade of twenty centimeters, and even if he didn't stab his heart, it was normal to die like this, but Makoto was only in a coma for four days and was able to move freely like he was now. If there is nothing abnormal, then no one will believe it, even himself.

However, Makoto is going to put this doubt aside for the time being, and now he doesn't want to know about it! Makoto is quite satisfied with his current life, and he said "I like you" to him in an instant, and the world also said "I like you" to me, and Otome also said "I like you" to me, and then Yanye......

Makoto hasn't really liked any of them yet, and probably won't. I don't know if it's because of the sequelae of losing feelings, or because of a sense of self-loathing that I'm just a substitute, Makoto can't really like any of them.

-- At least not yet.

Obviously they are all very good girls, they are all cute, and they have already said to Cheng in person that they like him very much, but he still hasn't responded to their thoughts. Gui Yanye's matter, Cheng still wants to run away like that, it's really hopeless!

Anyway, Makoto Ito is a scumbag!

It's the scum to the point that it's hopeless, the worst man!

Yet even so, they all said this to him:

"I like you!"

Now, I have to do something! But what exactly is to be done......

Thinking about it like this, before I knew it, it was already dark. I opened my phone to check the time, but I saw a bunch of missed calls and emails. Speaking of which, I haven't used the phone in four days.

First, take a look at the missed call. Qingpu was the first to call, the time was four days ago at night, looking at the time, it is estimated that it was not long after the incident, I don't know what she called at that time; After that, Kato Otome, she called just after the phone call in Moment, not long after the incident; After this was the world, and her call was the morning after the incident. And at about the same time, Akina and Otome also called. After that, the three women will be marked at different moments every day, and now the upper limit of the missed reminder is ninety-nine.

It seems that they are worried!

"Huh?"

A casual glance led me to two unfamiliar numbers. The two men made several phone calls two days after the incident and three days after the incident.

Who is it? Do you want to go over and have a look?

While he was hesitating, the phone rang, and the caller ID was Maii Ito. I pressed the turn button and put my phone to my ear.

"Hey, Ah Cheng, it's Mom!"

"I know, what's the matter?"

"It's nothing, just ask if you've eaten and how your body is!"

"Oh, my body doesn't matter anymore, I'll report to school tomorrow. Let's go for dinner...... Here it is! ”

"Huh? Ah Cheng, do you mean that you are outside now? ”

Just past a fast-food restaurant, I walked in. I randomly found a corner and sat down by the window. Seeing my figure, a waitress immediately greeted me.

"Well, I want to blow the night breeze a little! Ah, a large portion of beef noodles is fine! ”

I responded to Mai Ito on the other side of the phone and ordered my favorite dish of pasta. I just don't know what it tastes like!

"Oh, that's right! But Ah Cheng, it's getting late! Remember to come home early, mom will be worried......"

How to say that? I've never understood why parents like to make such pointless phone calls when they have nothing to do. It's not serious, but it's still nagging for a long time! To be honest, I hate this thing the most.

However...... Every time, I always comfort myself with "I can't help it, just bear with it a little". Obviously very reluctant, but he still had to force himself to use a gentle tone.

Maybe this is really no way!

――I'm very conscious of the type of person who smiles at me.

Is it tolerance? Or is it gentleness?

In any case, I have suffered a great deal of wrongful sin because of this......

But I can't give it up!

I always feel that this is good, this is fine!

"So, take care of yourself and call your mom if you have something!"

From this sentence, it is clear that Maii Ito cares about me unilaterally. That's because I'm really worried about me, that's why I said it. It is not just a word that is formed by words connected together, but also accompanied by a strong longing for the sound.

For such feelings, I have no way to turn a blind eye and a deaf ear! Although, I don't need to, it's better to be treated like this only bothering me! Even so, it still can't be ignored!

So......

"You too, pay more attention to rest! Well, bye! ”

You can feel the tremor of your voice and your heart beat! Occasionally, I release my pent-up emotions like this. And every time I get excited at this time, there are some strange changes.

Of course, it refers to the state of mind!