But even that doesn't matter, I am who I am, and it's in my nature to do whatever I want. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

Nowadays, it is common sense that most countries in the world do not allow polygamy, and it is also common sense to like multiple women!

It's scum, it's waste, it's garbage. However, until more than a hundred years ago, polygamy was generally allowed in the world, and liking multiple women was only considered a flirtatious affair; Even today, there are still countries that allow polygamy.

Its existence must have a meaning.

It doesn't matter if you're pointed at by a thousand husbands, or if you become a public enemy of women!

From now on, I will make you happy, and I will try to get to know you better. It's no longer just knowledge, it's not just experience anymore! After that, I will be me, Makoto Ito, the person you like, and the man who will love you and will cherish you for the rest of your life.

Polygamy is not allowed, it's good not to get married!

If you want to have children, just immigrate! It's good to be able to understand us, identify with us, and accept us!

If that doesn't work, I'll do it......

I'll take care of you!

- So, don't leave any more tears of sadness.

- Because, I'm going to have a heartache.

When I slept on the bed, I took the initiative to hug Yan Ye and gently kissed away the tears from the corners of her eyes. Kissing the upper lip, once again, I whispered to her, "Good night, Yanye!"

There's nothing I can do for you......

At some point, a night breeze blew outside the window, and it started to rain lightly.

Tonight, after all, we can't just calm down.

In a simple bedroom, a little long-haired princess held a thick thin book and whispered, "Ito, I don't want to be separated from you......"

In the boudoir of another less delicate girl, a single ponytail girl in white pajamas sits in front of a writing desk and stares blankly at the smiling teenager in the middle of a color photo.

"What the hell is going on, Ito?"

"It must be fine......"

Perhaps it was because the smile of the boy in the photo was so charming that the girl was so engrossed in it that she was not even aware of herself talking to herself.

And in the dim bedroom of the girl called the world of Saionji, there were whimpering from time to time. She is crying, because she is sad, because she is reluctant, because she is sad!

Because it's so painful!

She couldn't take it anymore, she couldn't bear it anymore, so she cried......

She wanted to cry out loud, but there was still her mother at home who had worked hard all day and was now asleep. She didn't want her to worry, and she didn't want to burden her more. So even though she couldn't bear it anymore, she couldn't bear it anymore, but she still tried her best to suppress herself......

Not only is the pain not released, but it is also suppressed in the abdomen, and as a result, it becomes more and more injured and painful; In the end, it was no longer unbearable, but too hurt! The tears flowed, that's why it's the way it is......

Empty eyes! Her head has stopped thinking! I didn't think about anything, and I can't think of anything! It's just that......

"World, I'm leaving ...... next week"

"Where are you going?"

"Because of my mother's job transfer, I have to go abroad......"

"Where to ...... abroad"

"London!"

The conversation still rings in my ears!

"Don't ......"

"World ......"

I ran away, it was so sudden and too much to accept!

I'm tired, really...... Tired......

Early in the morning, Makoto wakes up in a daze.

He opened his eyes and looked through the darkness that filled the entire space, looking at the delicate people around him. There's nothing to hesitate about, just move forward! Just looking ahead, that's enough.

Makoto quietly got up and left the room lightly. After washing up in the bathroom, Makoto changed into a brand new school uniform, put on an apron and began to prepare breakfast.

Eyes jump, Gui Yan Ye.

Awakened from the haze, silently stared at the different dark space in front of him, and quietly waited for the place of consciousness to return.

I had a dream last night!

A sad, terrible, and sad nightmare......

I met Sei-kun on the train, and at that time we didn't know each other's names, and he was just someone I "cared about", so we didn't have anything to do with each other.

After that, I met the world of Saiyuan Temple and became good friends with her; Through her, I started dating Seong-kun. However, it was my first love, and I didn't know anything, and I didn't know what to do...... When I was confused, Saionji helped me. She taught me what to do, and thanks to her, my relationship with Makoto went smoothly.

However, one small thing I did wrong changed everything - I showed disgust at Sei-kun's sudden intimate behavior.

After that, everything changed......

Chengjun left my side, and he began to avoid me, and instead stayed with Saionji all day long; I had a hunch that I would lose Mako-kun if I continued like this, so I started trying to approach him on my own initiative, but it was too late!

Sei-kun was so far away from me that I could no longer reach him, and he could no longer see me—we became two worlds.

The relationship between Xiyuan Temple and Chengjun is getting closer and closer. Gradually, I became a girlfriend in name only. The number of times I see Chengjun is getting less and less, and even if I do, I can hardly say anything; Because of the obstacles of others, they pulled me away from Chengjun's side so that they could assist in the love of the Saionji world.

How excessive!

Helpless and helpless, I could only wait silently, I looked forward to the day when Chengjun would think of me, and in order to meet that day wholeheartedly, I desperately cheered myself up.

As a result, what I waited for was despair.

My body was defiled, and my mind was trampled!

Broken and despaired, I finally broke down.

It's just that......

- I waited silently.

Silently waiting for the day when Chengjun will change his mind!

I'm going to work harder for that day.

This intention remained.

One day, two days, Chengjun didn't come; For three days, five days, Chengjun did not come; Ten days, twenty days, Chengjun still didn't come...... And I never gave up, I just waited quietly.

Finally......

On the night of the White Christmas Land, I waited for Makoto. He finally came back to me, and I felt so happy, so happy!

However, I did one more thing wrong!

Again...... I've lost Makoto again!

However, this time I will not wait, because Chengjun will never come back......

- I've lost Makoto-kun forever.

The time of happiness is too short, too short!

Dreams are so realistic, as if they were actually experienced.

At the end of the dream, Sei-kun was killed by the world of Saionji Temple, and I cut off his head, and the eyes under his eyebrows are still vivid to this day.

Seong-kun didn't close his eyes after he died, but opened his eyes wide and put on an expression of disbelief. I guess Chengjun probably didn't think that the world of Xiyuan Temple would poison him......

But when I think back to the feeling when I hugged Sei-kun on the boat, I think maybe I didn't think it would "become like this"! At the end of his life, Chengjun's heart was full of questions, he obviously responded well to the hearts of the girls who liked him, and he took it seriously, but it turned out to be "such an end"!

It was my fault!

If I hadn't done those two little things wrong, probably everything would have been different! Five days ago, I did something wrong, I almost lost Chengjun, and after that, I must not do it wrong again......

I want to be a good boy! Be a well-behaved girl who listens to Chengjun! If Sei-kun wishes, then dedicate yourself to him!

My mind, my body, my soul......

All of me!

"Okay, that's pretty much it!"

When I got up, I found that Mako-kun was not around, and it seemed that I had gotten up, and I was a little disappointed. After getting dressed, I walked out of the bedroom. Hearing Chengjun's voice from the direction of the kitchen, I couldn't help but whisper:

"Sei-kun?"

"Ah, Yanye, I'm here."

I walked to the kitchen in search of sounds, and I happened to meet Sei-kun coming out of the kitchen with breakfast. Facing his smiling eyes, I bowed my head in shame.

"Let's go wash up, I'll fry two more tender eggs and I'll be ready for breakfast!" Putting down the hot gruel in his hand, Chengjun turned around and went into the kitchen to get busy again.

And I obediently went to the bathroom to wash up.

"Ah, it's delicious! It looks like my cooking hasn't rusted yet, which is good news! ”

"Well, the food made by Chengjun can make people feel warm!"

I looked at Sei-kun with a smile.

It's really good food!

At first glance, it looks like an ordinary breakfast, the gruel doesn't smell fragrant and charming, the bread is nothing special, and the fried eggs and hot milk are all casual. There are no highlights at all, just a normal breakfast.

But, so warm. After eating, the whole person warms up from the inside out. The food itself is warm but does not feel hot, and the light taste of the food itself has not been "corrected", and the taste is almost imperceptible, but the texture is excellent.

It's hard to imagine that this is the food made by an average high school boy.

It is different from the general sense of "delicious" that the public thinks!

It's not the taste, it's the heart!

But when it comes to heart, it's not the love of food, or the desire to make the people who eat it smile, but the warmth!

Lightly! Only those who eat it can taste it with their hearts and care lightly! In other words, it's completely different from those delicious dishes that also contain a heart.

It's selfish cooking!

It's not for everyone, it's just for one person, and that's what I make that belongs only to me.

This warmth, this care is only mine......

"Makoto-kun!"

In order to be worthy of this care, in order to give me a warm sincerity, I want to be a more obedient and good child!

The belief in my heart couldn't help but be stronger.

For this, it is necessary for me to cut off the thorns in my heart.

"Why would you want me to forget everything about you?"

Probably, this is not what an obedient good boy should say!

But even so, I wanted to figure it out.

Why?

Why did Seong-kun do such an excessive thing to me......

"Why? To put it simply, I don't want my heart to ache! ”

"Actually, I'm a very cowardly man!"

"It's not someone who is worthy of you."

"There's no such thing......"

Watching Chengjun sigh softly, watching him constantly belittle himself, his chest hurt so much for a moment. I inadvertently shouted loudly, and when I realized it, I immediately wanted to apologize. But I was surrounded by Chengjun with a gentle smile, because it was so comfortable and warm that I forgot to speak.

"Nope! I know best. All the while, I just kept running away! I'm trying my best to suppress my true self, just for fear of getting hurt...... That's what I've always thought. However, it was only recently that I realized that maybe I was wrong! I sensed that I seemed to have forgotten something, but I couldn't remember it...... Sorry, off topic! ”

I always felt that Chengjun was lying, but this was just my instinct at best, and there was no evidence.

"Is that really the case?"

But I have a way! Although it is despicable to do this, I really want to know why Seong-kun did it and what reason he needs to do it.

“……”

Although I knew that as long as I asked this, Chengjun would definitely show flaws, but I never imagined that it would be so obvious: Chengjun was silent.

When I looked at Sei-kun with sincere eyes and told him, "I hope you can tell the truth", Sei-kun lowered his head and fell silent.

"Alas...... Women are terrible! But it's also because I'm too cowardly! ”

Chengjun lowered his head and sneered, his eyes staring at the porridge noodles gently stirred with chopsticks and sighed softly. It looks like I've given up on something, and it looks a little decadent, but it also seems more relaxed.

"Sei-kun?"

The change in Sei-kun made me wonder.

"Yan Ye, the reason why I did that was indeed for my own reasons. Well...... How to say......"

Seijun raised his head, and he looked into my eyes with sincerity in his eyes. This time, there was no sense of lying, which meant that the previous statements were not lies. So, why......

"It all started because I had a nightmare, a nightmare about your misfortune. In my dream, you caused your misfortune because of my small negligence, and I feel sorry for it. Everything went well at the beginning......"

"But the process and the results are unacceptable......"

As I listened to Sei-kun's words, I somehow suddenly remembered the nightmare I had this morning. At the beginning of the dream, I became lovers through the Saion Temple, but then everything changed because I resisted Sei-kun's further intimacy.

"Everything went smoothly at the beginning......

"You caused your misfortune because of my small negligence......"

"A small mistake on the part of Makoto-kun?"

A minor negligence......

In an instant, I always feel that the clues are clear, and then all that remains is how to combine. However, I had already figured it out, but there was no real information in my mind, as if I didn't know anything.

"I'm scared of that, and I want to avoid it."

"The accident in front of the school toilet a few days ago reminded me of the source of your misfortune – that is me. So, I said that to you that day......"

"Forget me!"

"Yanye, forget me!"

At noon that day, the image coincided with Chengjun in front of me in my mind, and I suddenly felt that Chengjun was so far away from me, not because the space I couldn't see was far away in the physical sense, but because I couldn't get close to it.

Don't leave me alone......

"I'm a fool, if I hadn't said that to you that day, probably you wouldn't have been in a car accident. When it happened that day, you were thinking about what I said to you at noon that day, right? ”

I have a good understanding of what happened that day. The driver who hit me with his car took me to the hospital, paid me the medical bills, and explained to my parents what had happened. Probably Chengjun already knew what happened at that time, so it was already obvious.

"Hmm!"

Obviously shouldn't admit it, obviously can't tell Chengjun the truth......

But after being stared at by Sei-kun with a "tell me" look, I had no choice but to admit it.

- Just like he did to me.

When I trusted Mako-kun unreservedly, Sei-kun responded to my expectations; Now that he trusts me unreservedly, I have to respond to his expectations wholeheartedly.

Even if I don't want to do that, even if I know I can't do it......

"Sure enough, I knew!"

Chengjun is sad! It was all my fault that I said that.

"At that time, I was even more convinced when I guessed the truth of the matter. So, while you were unconscious, I conveyed my heart's desire to you. When I saw you again, I found that you really didn't remember me, and to be honest, I was really happy, so happy at that time...... I thought you'd just forget about me for the rest of your life...... I naively thought that I wouldn't see that sad image again......"

At that time, it was really uncomfortable!

Chengjun! When I saw you and Kato-san kissing on the rooftop, I was really miserable. There was a piercing pain in my chest, but I didn't know why. I thought desperately, constantly asking myself why. In the agony of suffering, I remembered the things I had forgotten all this time because I was immersed in the joy of getting friends, and I went to school to find the person whose memory was missing.

The name of the man who felt a dull pain in his chest just by reciting it silently, the boy named Makoto Ito.

And the person I was looking for was right in front of me at the moment, and watching him and Kato kiss made me heartbroken. So, everything was remembered! The events of the middle of the day, the events of the car accident, the events of the early hours of the morning, the voices of the men I heard at that time, and the events of the reunion after being discharged from the hospital, all the scenes kept changing in my mind until everything was quiet.

When I came back to my god, I looked at Sei-kun who was falling to the ground......

At that time, it was really painful and uncomfortable!

"It still happened because of my fault, and it turned out because of my ...... That night, when I saw you like that at that time, I really thought: If you didn't meet me, it would be fine. I couldn't wake you up again, but I saved you, and I was really satisfied at that time......"

"It's great you're okay!"

"Now I think so too: Yan Ye, it's great that you're okay."

This voice, this sentence, I also heard it at that time. At that time, I couldn't hear anything, I couldn't see anything, but when I sat on my knees in the dark, before I could regain consciousness, I heard. Sei-kun's voice, that voice that was gentle and joyful.

Yes...... I see! Sure enough, as I thought, although it was excessive, it was all for ......

Although it is very painful, although it is very sad, although it is pitiful, although it still has some doubts. However, it doesn't matter anymore.

"Chengjun, I like you! It was before, it is now, and it will be the same after this. I will always like you. ”

The words that I couldn't say, the thoughts that I wanted to convey but couldn't convey, were simply said at this moment.

Then, the longing for something became a different kind of distant existence......

It's not a dispensable existence, but it doesn't matter if you don't! Warm and subtle, probably this is love, probably this is "like".

"Yanye, I'm very happy!"

Seong-kun laughed naturally and looked happy. In this way, I will also have peace of mind.

"But I'm not going to say 'I like you too' because ......"

It's a little regretful, but it's not sad, and it's not discouraged.

"I haven't liked you yet!"

"But you like me so much! No, I hope you'll just like me that way until I like you......"

"What a cunning, Sei-kun!"

My eyes were so hot, I felt a hot spring gushing out of the hole. Falling on the sloped ramp, wet, hot, and sticky, it feels so bad! But I couldn't help it, because I was so happy that I gave up patience.

"Doesn't it matter already?"

Chengjun gently wiped the liquid off my face with a tissue, and although he was smiling, he was indeed smiling, but he always felt a little sad.

"Well, it doesn't matter anymore. Thank you, Makoto! ”

But now I don't ask why, because I don't need to ask anymore. I just need to show the current state of the land as it is, but that's it.

"You're welcome."