Chapter 14 The Past Is Like Smoke
The banquet was finally over, and Cui Shumo had already drunk and walked as light as a swallow, like a cloud. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info
"Let's go, I'll send you back." Zhao Zhiheng pulled her and said.
"Okay," she smiled at Zhao Zhiheng, "Lin Xue, I'll go first, he, Zhao Zhiheng, we're on the way." β
She wanted to say something more, but she was already stuffed into the car by Zhao Zhiheng.
The car started and drove fast, Cui Shumo didn't know what Zhao Zhiheng was thinking about all the time, so she herself looked out the window with a lot of thoughts.
She followed Lu Fan with a fart, followed up with college from high school, in order to be able to have a campus with him, she chose a computer major, she actually wanted to study law with him, but she was really not interested in politics, the thick code, she really couldn't understand it, she thought, a campus is good, so she went to G University with him.
In college, other couples are in pairs, sweet and warm, but Lu Fan is always lukewarm to her, it always seems that she sticks to him, always she chatters, always she keeps asking, "Lu Fan, what should I do?" She really relied on him, and she always kept chasing after Lu Fan, "Lu Fan, wait for me, let's go together." β
She envied that others could hold hands, she envied others who could hug and kiss, but Lu Fan didn't understand her thoughts, she still remembered how happy she was when she took Lu Fan's hand and walked on campus for the first time, even if Lu Fan always thought she was naΓ―ve.
Cui Shumo was thinking at that time, is it true that Lu Fan is with her because he likes it? Even a little?
Gradually, Cui Shumo began to doubt, began to be uneasy, and even began to complain, the major she didn't like made Cui Shumo feel tired, and the constant chasing after Lu Fan also made her feel tired, she wanted to try what the result would be if she stopped? For a whole month, they didn't meet again on the palm-sized campus, and Lu Fan didn't even make a phone call or a greeting, as if her disappearance out of thin air was insignificant.
Cui Shumo waited downstairs in Lu Fan's apartment that night, she cried vividly, and she asked Lu Fan why he couldn't accommodate her, even once.
Cui Shumo said that the relationship between two people needs to tolerate each other and understand each other, she doesn't want to sing a one-man show unilaterally, she doesn't want a person to keep catching up with Lu Fan, she also wants to have her own life, she also has her own preferences.
In the end, Lu Fan gave him an answer of only a few words, "Whatever you want." Then they walked away, as casually as they had begun.
Cui Shumo cried downstairs for a long time that night, and then later, she went to the United Kingdom to learn what she liked, to live her own life, and that short and naΓ―ve first love was deeply hidden in her heart by Shumo.
It wasn't until later that she gradually relieved, she didn't blame Lu Fan, everyone has their own temperament and temperament, and they have their own way of life, she is domineering, unspeakable, and entered Lu Fan's life, forcing him to accept himself and tolerate himself, and it is not completely wrong.
If two people can't like each other and tolerate each other, then how can they come together, they were wrong from the beginning, and she Cui Shumo had to ask Lu Fan to make the right answer under the outrageous proposition that was already wrong, even if he was a genius, I am afraid he would not be able to do it.
She actually understood it a long time ago, but when she met again, she really saw it, and her heart would be sour, but she didn't regret it, the naivety she once had, the infatuation she once had was not for nothing, Lu Fan also taught her a lot, he was a genius, his intelligence and thoughtfulness benefited Cui Shumo a lot, and it was that short period of catching up that made Cui Shumo what she is today, if she hadn't met Lu Fan, Cui Shumo thought, she would not be as good as she is today.
Zhao Zhiheng drove silently, but Cui Shumo's movements were all in his eyes, she behaved well tonight, she was generous, humorous, everything seemed impeccable, but Zhao Zhiheng saw the loneliness in her eyes, the bitterness of her glass after glass of red wine in her mouth, and such a sad look at this time, Lu Fan didn't care about her after all.
"Here we are." Zhao Zhiheng reminded, then looked at Shumo and said to him with a smile, "Thank you." He stumbled into the apartment.
Originally, I thought that this would be the result, but Zhao Zhiheng, who was looking for hardships, thought with a wry smile, and stepped on the accelerator and left.
The days have finally returned to normal, and the substitute teaching thing has ended, Cui Shumo enjoyed this week's life until he received a call from Lin Xue.
"Come out and sit down, Zhang Ye and Lu Fan, I'm afraid it's not okay to see them." Lin Xue said.
"Okay." Cui Shumo agreed happily.
has lived in this big city since she was a child, a big city that seems to be busy with traffic and endless crowds, and the friends she Cui Shumo knows are only such a big circle, and high school classmates are the largest part of this circle.
After graduating from university, whether it was going to school in Tiannan and Haibei, or whether it was someone who had never left, everyone finally gathered here, because when it comes to development, there are few places that can compare here, and when it comes to feelings, there are relatives and friends here.
She Cui Shumo has long known that from the moment she decided to come back from the UK, she knew that her return also meant that she could accept these people, those things, compared with fleeing to the UK, she now has more courage to face them.
She greeted them with a smile, Lin Xue, Zhang Ye, Lu Fan, she, the four of them sat together again, as if many years ago, Lu Fan watched them laugh and make trouble, and expressed a few words of opinion from time to time.
"Shumo, I drank too much that night, and listening to Lin Xue, I seem to have said something very excessive." Zhang Ye said pitifully.
"No, I'm still used to it, Zhang Ye, it's always been more than enough to succeed." Cui Shumo laughed and ridiculed Zhang Ye, just like before.
"Cui Shumo, you have gone too far, it's been so many years, why haven't you changed this stinky problem, I'm too lazy to worry about you now." Zhang Ye said angrily.
"Okay, you two are here again, I can't stand you the most, you said that the few of us haven't changed at all, Lu Fan is still so boring, you two still quarrel as soon as you meet." Lin Xue said.
"What's the matter, I've become hot, gentle and lovely." Cui Shumo said shamelessly.
"Are the British all so brazen? How did I go to England, and my face became invincible. β
γγγγγγγγγγγ
During the period, Shumo talked about her experience in the UK, which was full of troubles and lightheartedness, but who knew her helplessness and hesitation when she first arrived abroad.
"Shumo, Lu Fan has always been single, do you really don't think about it anymore?" Taking advantage of the time to go to the bathroom, Lin Xue asked with a serious face.
"The past is gone." Cui Shumo said seriously, there was no smile on her face, and she didn't have the smile on her face when she was ridiculing, so why did she force a smile at Lin Xue.
"Shumo, why are you doing this, you don't know Lu Fan, he is that kind of character, except for you, I haven't seen him have a warm relationship with any girl, let alone talk and laugh, when you first went to the UK, his face has been black and scary, and he has been going to the UK every summer in the past few years, whether to see you first put it aside and don't say it, but it has something to do with you." Lin Xue continued to speak bitterly.
"Lin Xue, don't talk about this today, okay?" Cui Shumo said with a tired face.
"Well, I want to see you happy, too."
Coming out of the bathroom, Cui Shumo began to be out of state, she was ready to face it, since she couldn't give up this circle, then she could only face it, but when this day really came, it was actually not pleasant.