Feelings are really hateful, others have failed you, how do you know, you have not failed others. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

The bits and pieces of my past with Duan Hong are now told to me that they are just a passing illusion, how can you make me believe it.

Why is my heart like the duckweed floating on the water, so uncertain, this is not me! This is not the personality of a man!

Duan Hong, you are really a demon!

can make the old lady who used to be dominant, so good at all gains!

After Duan Hong warned me that day, he never came to the Warm Fragrance Pavilion again, I looked at the dead leaves falling from the trees, and wondered whether to hang the colorful butterfly on the window lattice?

I'm a person who really faces forward when I use people, and faces backward when I don't use them. Now because of his resentment towards Duan Hong, he actually hopes that Yan Ruyu, who has been forgotten by me for a long time, will fulfill his original promise. I've become so hateful and selfish!

I don't know when, the leaves on the tree are already like butterflies with dead leaves, unable to withstand the cold and dampness, and fly away from the canopy and throw themselves into the embrace of the earth. Then in the embrace of the earth, ** disappears.

I no longer wield knives and guns, Chang's plump body, because of gloomy sadness, became more and more haggard, no longer the slightest fox, all the sorrow and sorrow of Sister Lin's funeral. I didn't have the heart to take into account whether the Chang family, who was like a flower and a jade, and the country and the city, would be emaciated and haggard, and described as withered.

Because, I have no heart, and nothing can enter my heart anymore.

Mr. Zhou Shuren's sentence, "No longer erupt in silence, but perish in silence", I chose the latter.

In the winter of Dali, I thought it would still be as warm as ever, but the rainy days brought the cold and damp to the bone.

The cold wind in the north will only cut the flesh and skin, and the winter of Dali country, which is like spring all year round, after a rainy day, the bones feel the unbearable cold, as if there is a layer of fog attached to the flesh and bones, which is slowly frosting, so cold that people's hearts are completely cold.

In the winter, Duan Hong sent someone to help Qian Miaomiao buy all kinds of winter clothes, but he didn't pay attention to me who hadn't walked out of the Warm Fragrance Pavilion for a long time.

When An Ruren came to the Warm Fragrance Pavilion to complain about the winter clothes that the prince had given her this year, there were only three pieces, and when she saw the gloomy look on my face, she was stunned, and then bowed to me, and took the maidservant and the woman to say goodbye.

It turned out that he had just forgotten about me.

In the first snow of early winter, I looked at a few patches of drifting snow in the courtyard, which melted into the soil when it fell in the courtyard, leaving no trace.

Dali country, it even snowed.

My heart, which had been unwavering, made a ripple, because I suddenly remembered that day on the snow-capped mountains to enjoy the plum blossoms, as if it happened yesterday.

My heart hurts so much that I can't breathe, I can't find the traces you left behind, I can't do anything about you, let you disappear at the end of the world.

I can't find a reason to be strong, I can't feel your tenderness anymore, tell me that the starry sky is over there, and if there is an end there? It's like a meteor making a wish so I can get out of here!

Tears slipped silently, and I actually cried, and when I was wounded by a gunshot before, I only grinned a few times, but I never shed half a tear.

Duan Hong's flowery carrot is what kind of thing, why did he make the old lady cry for him.

Regardless of whether you are true or false about Qian Miaomiao, my mother will not play with you anymore.

The long-held escape plan is set in motion again, and this time, I'm going to be ready to escape to a paradise, a place where no one is bothered. And if I flee again this time, Duan Hong shouldn't have the heart to look for me back, so let him go and accompany his Qian Miaomiao, you and me! The old lady is no longer watching the play.

I made up my mind, but my heart hurt so much that I thought it was because I didn't want to admit that I loved the wrong person. The first love that took thirty years to usher in, in the end, was just a ridiculous deception.

However, in the bottom of my heart, there is still a trace of extravagant hope, and it is not true that there is an extravagant hope between Duan Hong and Qian Miaomiao. I want to make sure of Duan Hong's mind one last time before leaving, so as not to leave myself with regrets due to doubts. Moreover, only when I am truly sure that Duan Hong has no longer me in his heart, can I go without hesitation.

It's just that after hanging the colorful butterfly that has been shelved for a long time, will Yan Ruyu still come to pick me up?

I anxiously wiped the dusty butterflies clean, then hung them high on the window lattice, and after dinner, I wandered around the courtyard to prevent Yingcui and Rosé from waiting for me.

I was under the tree, waiting left and right at the corner of the house, feeling that I had to wait until the sea was dry and the rocks were rotten, and finally I felt that Yan Ruyu would not come.

But I'm not too disappointed because it's the first day, and he probably didn't see it, and I'll keep waiting.

As a result, just as I was about to turn around and enter the house, a figure suddenly fell behind me and hugged me tightly in my arms.

"It's such a cold day, why are you waiting outside so stupidly, what can you do if you catch a cold?"

The familiar sweet voice touched a soft place in my heart, and a little tears overflowed from my eyes.

"You're here."

"I told you that if you want to leave here in the future, I will stay by your side."

I turned around and hugged Yan Ruyu and buried my face in his chest: "I'm sorry, and, thank you." “

At this time, apart from these two sentences, I don't know what else to say to Yan Ruyu.

Yan Ruyu put her arms around me and didn't ask me why I suddenly wanted to leave here, I guess he was seeing my sick and broken appearance, and he should be able to guess what happened to me.

"Lin'er, you can rely on me in the future! I swear, in this life, I will never betray you, even if I can't get your heart, I will still stay by your side, believe me. “

"Okay."

My tears, unable to be restrained any longer, wet the brocade robe with a yellow bronzing cloud pattern. He, he changed the crimson wedding robe, is it because of me?

I sat side by side with Yan Ruyu on the swing under the plum tree in the golden building, and he rubbed my cold hands. His fingers were still as clear as jade, but not as cold as jade, but as warm as a charcoal furnace.

I remembered the time when he took my small hand and accompanied me north. At that time, his hands were so warm that I was reassuring, and I wholeheartedly believed that he would take me out of Dali, from this place that made me sad and desperate, and almost buried my bones.

"I want one last thing to confirm, can you wait for me?"

"Okay."

"If I'm sure I'm going to go with you, or I'm going to stay here, do you think I'm using you selfishly?"

"I don't want anything, to be able to stay by your side, even from a long distance, silently watching you content."

Hearing Yan Ruyu's words, my heart ached, and my eyes couldn't help but redden. Feelings are really hateful, others have failed you, how do you know, you have not failed others.

"Why is it so good to me?"

"There's no reason, if there is a reason, you're the only one who can make me want to take off that red wedding robe."

"Will you tell me the story of that wedding robe?"

"It was a sad story that had passed away with the wind. The promises I once made are gone, and I am not a selfish person. “

I didn't speak, but held Yan Ruyu's hands in my hands, and I suddenly had the idea that I didn't want to confirm Duan Hong's thoughts, so I left here directly with the person next to me. Maybe after this, we will stay together until the end of the day! However, this idea was only for a brief moment, and it was replaced by Duan Hong's gentle and bright smiling face. For Duan Hong, it seems that it is really difficult for me to give up.

After all, he is my first man, the first man I love to death, he has completely occupied my heart, if I don't completely remove him from my heart. No matter where I go in the future, I will only be a careless person who can no longer hold anyone in my heart. Perhaps, after I completely remove Duan Hong's heart, my heart will become an empty shell. But even so, I believe that the time that can heal and heal everything will slowly nourish the empty heart and return to its original state.

"I'll wait for you."

Yan Ruyu seemed to know what I was thinking, and suddenly said a promise, only three short words, but it weighed as a thousand catties and was as stable as Mount Tai. Even if I say 10,000 thanks, I can't achieve the same weight, but I still say the word "thank you".

Yan Ruyu didn't say anything, and hugged me tightly for a long time, a long time.

On the day of the winter solstice, Duan Hong set up a dumpling banquet in the Spring Festival Pavilion, and all the concubines in the palace had to produce a few novel dumplings, and then the winner would be rewarded. Some of Duan Hong's brothers will also bring their families to participate, but the sewing machine that accompanied Duan Hong in previous years is not on the list this year.

After Taohong learned about the reward of this year's Winter Solstice Dumpling Banquet, she immediately ran into the Nuanxiang Pavilion and told me that it was this year's reward, and it had been set that she could ask for one thing like the prince Duan Hong, and the prince Duan Hong had no right to refuse. But that thing only works tonight, and after tomorrow, it loses its effect.

There is nothing to be happy about this reward, but I can use it to question Duan Hong.

Peach stood aside, staring at me all the time, I guessed that she wanted me to win the game, and then asked Duan Hong, the prince of the world, to come to the Warm Fragrance Pavilion to ease the atmosphere between us, but I was afraid that I would be sad and didn't dare to speak.

I had already made up my mind to go to the competition, and when I nodded, Pink swept the clouds off her face and smiled.

But he didn't know that I didn't care so much about Duan Hong now, but inviting Duan Hong, the son of the world, to come to the Warm Fragrance Pavilion was undoubtedly a good opportunity to test the relationship between Duan Hong and Qian Miaomiao. However, I still think that after winning, it is good to just ask Duan Hong a word, and there is no need to invite him here to catch up.

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