Gaze shifts, Taisuke gaze. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

I must have been trapped in this dark and lonely black forest for more than an hour!

During this hour, I experienced what was probably the most unimaginable thing of my life - blindness and deafness.

- I've never thought that the world of one person is so terrible.

In the darkness, I heard footsteps shaking the ground, I don't know whose it was, but it was someone walking on it.

Not a fantasy, not an auditory hallucination, but a real feeling!

I felt the gaze, a very faint and indifferent gaze, the owner of the gaze just looking at me casually. He saw me, but he didn't say anything, but I knew who he was, Makoto Ito.

He was my best friend, my "idol", but also my nightmare, he gave me salvation, but he was always indifferent to me. However, I don't mind, after all, he is not an ordinary person, and I am really just an ordinary ordinary street citizen.

When I first met him, I was just a lewd man who was often bullied, and it was he who helped me and told me, "That's not your fault!" There's nothing wrong with you, it's the people who think you're wrong! It's them who are bad, and it's the people who make them think that way are bad! You're not wrong, it's just the world that's wrong! ”

After listening to his words, I was convinced that I was not wrong, and began to "sanction" people who did not think that "I am not wrong". I just did what I wanted to do, just because I wanted to do it, so I couldn't do a lot of things.

The second time we met, I was leading someone in the alley to fight with the students of another school, and at that time he walked through the alley calmly, completely ignoring anyone. Because of his unexpected appearance, the chaotic scene calmed down early, and as I walked up to him with the man, he said this to me:

"You're doing the same thing as the people I did when I saved you! It's not something you really want to do, it's just a vent that you've been suppressed for a long time! ”

I don't really understand what he said, I just finished the fight at that time, and there is still a lot of blood in my heart, plus there are so many people watching behind me! So, I yelled at him, "What stupid are you talking about?"

"I just wanted you to be confident to say that, but now it seems that you are overconfident! It's okay, I'll solve the sins I have done! ”

Before I could react that day, I was kicked away by him and fell heavily to the ground, and then I only heard him say lightly, "Let's go together" and temporarily "lost" consciousness.

I lay on the ground and watched stupidly as he easily knocked down the thirteen men I had brought with him in less than a minute, and then quietly walked up to me and gave me a faint look.

He just left, saying nothing.

The next day I stayed at home and thought about what he had said at that time, and spent the whole day on it, and I got nothing.

I couldn't figure out why I was denied by someone who had affirmed me, so I had to find him and hope he would tell me personally.

Then I saw another side behind his coldness, a very gentle and considerate side that was unimaginable. I didn't get an answer from him, because the answer was already in my mind when I saw him.

I handed over the small group I had created to my cronies, and left the place where I had been ridiculous. I returned to my daily life, began to get in touch with him, followed him, met him, understood him, admired him, admired him!

He changed me! It gave me self-confidence, corrected my mistakes, and allowed me to have a completely different life that I never dared to think of before.

When he suddenly disappeared, I started to get used to it. Gradually, following his former shadow, I began to try to imitate him. Imitate his actions, imitate his tone, imitate his eyes, but all fail!

Because, although we have been together for so long, I have no idea what is going on in his heart, what is he pursuing? I ran to imitate it without knowing anything, and failure was just a matter of course!

But I didn't gain nothing, and after trying to imitate him, I found that my temperament and mentality changed unconsciously! I don't know if it's good or bad, but my heart is constantly becoming calm, and I can feel that my inner self is crumbling and that my new self will be reborn in gestation.

So I persevered to the end and continued to imitate him until now......

It's incredible! I was able to keep my calm when Kuroda took the initiative to dedicate myself, and when I was in close contact outside the Black Forest, I found that her gaze was not focused, so I deliberately slowed down the movements of my hands.

In order to give her time to react, the script started as expected, but the result was beyond my expectations.

Kuroda ran into the Black Forest, although I reacted immediately, shouting and running up to catch up, but she went first, I could only watch her run into the Black Forest one step ahead of me.

I knew the actual situation inside the Black Forest, and even if I chased it in, it would be useless at this time, but I still chased it in desperately.

And the reason why I'm so irrational is ridiculous, because Kuroda is a girl who once liked me.

— even if it's just a lie.

- even though the person she likes isn't actually me.

Even so, the fact that she was the girl who had liked me didn't change anything. And for those who have liked me, I will definitely be responsible to the end.

That's why it's the way it is!

In the absolute darkness of the Black Forest, where nothing could be seen, I was able to catch up with Kuroda purely because I closed my eyes that were of no use here at all, and focused all my concentration on hearing.

The two of us followed one after the other, and because of this, I was able to protect Kuroda when I fell into the pit. As for what will happen to me, I have not thought about it at all.

Because, the "me" at that time was not me, but him-Makoto Ito, that person.

At that time, at that moment, I felt it!

In a short period of time, my body, mind, and personality resonated with the "phantom" of him that I had been imitating all along. It was at that moment that something gradually became clear.

Why did he have such a look in his eyes when we met again at Sakakino Academy, and why did he say something to me that I didn't understand!

"Seeing you now is like seeing your past self, and that's a very happy thing. However, on the other hand, you should also be aware accordingly. Because, at some point, you will definitely be confused because of pain, and at that time, regret is the only salvation! But...... At the same time, he also pushed himself into a desperate situation. There is no way back, so I can only keep walking forward......"

Because, he had already foreseen the current situation at that time!

So, I feel sad for myself, but I also feel glad for it.

I'm an idiot! That's why it's the way it is.

Yes, I'm an idiot!

He's gone, but that doesn't mean I can too.

But he had told me all beforehand! I don't know why I was told him, but I was mentally prepared for it out of trust in him, so I became what I am and was able to maintain my current self.

For that, I really appreciate him!

When you get out, let's talk about it together!

However......

"Taisuke, you stay there first, I'll go to Xiaoguang first, and I'll come back to save you in a while!"

Haha, this guy really forgets his friends!

You have to hurry, I'm so impatient, I'm afraid I'll fall asleep in a while!

Ito, Kuroda please......

Shift of sight, outside the dark forest.

"Chengjun has been in for more than an hour, and he hasn't come out yet, and he doesn't know what happened!"

"Gui, why don't we go in and look inside?"

"World, don't be joking at this time!"

Seeing that Cheng had passed the agreed time but had not returned, Yan Ye and the world were so worried that they were going to die, and the two of them kept looking into the interior of the black forest. Seeing that the world was desperate to rush into the dark woodland, he hurriedly stood up and stopped her.

"Are you kidding? In an instant, I'm serious, not kidding! "The world was a little angry, because now the face was still the same as usual, and nothing had changed.

"Chengjun hasn't come back for so long, isn't Qingpu worried at all?" For the moment of calm, Yan Ye felt very surprised.

All the women here like the same person. Although everyone doesn't say it, the girl's words can be understood, but everyone doesn't say it.

Because, there is only one official lover of that person, and that is Qingpu Instant!

And......

"How is that possible!"

"So ......"

"No way!"

In an instant, he silently stood in the middle of the world and the black forest, opened his arms horizontally and said in a deep voice: "Listen!" You can't enter the inside of the Black Forest under any circumstances', that's what Ito said to us before he went in! Have you all forgotten? ”

Hearing this instantly, everyone was silent except for the world! She looked at the black forest in front of her unwillingly worriedly, and then looked at the moment in front of her, and she shouted as if venting: "Instant!"

"World!"

However, she was unmoved, and after the world, she also shouted out as if venting.

"Even if you go in, what can you do? You can't see anything in there, what are you going to do? ”

Listening to the words of the moment, everyone silently lowered their heads.

Yes, they can't do anything! Just wait here. Not adding to the chaos is the only aid they can do for Makoto Ito!

However, time passed faster and faster, but Ito Makoto was never seen, and they were so worried that they forgot that they could not do anything but wait now.

"Even if that......"

Yan Ye stepped forward and shook the world's hand, and shook his head slightly at her who looked back.

Now we have to keep waiting!

Gaze back, Makoto Ito's gaze.

It's almost there, and one more point!

Well, it's finally here!

This is a natural trap in front of the Black Forest—an abyss that suddenly appears in the darkness where nothing can be seen.

The abyss itself is not very dangerous, the cliffs are only five meters apart, and the left and right are only about twenty meters apart, in fact, it is more like a huge crack that leads to the depths of the earth than the so-called abyss.

But in that case, it might be more appropriate to think of it as a big open mouth.

Standing on the edge of the abyss and looking down, a dusty, gray-faced girl was "slowly" falling. I didn't have time to think about it, so I took out the rope I was carrying with me with my right hand, and quickly threw my left hand behind me. I didn't check the results because I didn't have that time.

When my life was at stake, I didn't have time to think about it, so I jumped off without hesitation.

My body fell rapidly, and seeing that I was getting closer and closer to Xiaoguang, I not only did not feel happy, but became more anxious. I thought, "Hurry up, hurry up!"

After about a second or two, I was finally within easy reach of Xiaoguang in the blink of an eye. Wait another second or two, and I'll be able to reach Xiaoguang's body! But......

But I let go of the only life-saving straw that was connected behind my back!

Because, not long enough!

The moment I realized it, I untied the rope without the slightest hesitation! However, he hugged the little light that had fallen because of his weakness.

In mid-air, I hugged Hikari's body tightly. Staring at her pale face, I laughed softly: "Xiaoguang, I'm here to save you!"

"I'll save you!"

"I kept this agreement!"

"I'd be glad if you could open your eyes and compliment me......

After a moment's delay, I came to the part where I could vaguely see the bottom, looking at the black shadow that was rapidly becoming clear and getting bigger and bigger, and looking back at the small light that still showed no signs of awakening, my eyes froze.

It's a waterhole, it's good, it's saved!

I rolled over and lay flat in the air, holding on to the little light in my arms while trying to hold my position desperately under the strong wind.

Listen to the sound of the wind, look at the scenery that is receding rapidly, listen to the dissuasion in your ears, and wait for the next moment to come.

In an instant, it's like a horse watching flowers! Memories of what I had experienced kept replaying in my mind.

"Brother Cheng!"

"Brother Cheng?"

"Brother."

"Brother, let's play with Xiao Zhi!"

"Okay! But is it okay to wait a little longer? ”

Different places, the same words, different moods, have been experienced countless times, but the results are not different!

- If you had to do it again, wouldn't it have made a difference?

No one knows!

No one knows!

With the same sentence, I kept rejecting Xiao Zhi for more than ten years! But Xiao Zhi never resented me, let alone felt disgusted with me because of it, but again and again......

I don't know if she cried because of it, or why she did it!

Because, I never asked.

"Where's Makoto?"

It seems that because I can't understand what I'm thinking, the world always likes to ask my opinion directly.

"If Ito said that, then be it!"

In contrast to the moment, she hardly thought about my innermost thoughts, and always supported and agreed with what I said and did, whether it was right or wrong. Probably she already knows me very well!

Trust! This was one of the fundamental reasons why I broke up with Xing, although it was only a trivial matter, but she did show her distrust of me in anger.

Although, for me, it is not absolutely unforgivable!

However, we broke up without a word!

She always trusts and supports me at all times, she can understand my thoughts and understand my willfulness. She almost perfectly portrayed the impossible lover I had envisioned!

She is cute, innocent and quiet! She likes me, trusts me, understands me! Not only gentle and considerate, but also demure and delicate......

That's why I fell in love with her?

No, probably not!

I only fell in love with her because of what she said to me!

She fell in love with me, she told me – she liked me. Feeling her true feelings, I awakened another self in my heart - the gentle me. I want to respond to her: to respond to her thoughts, to her concerns, to her heart.

Probably, this is not love!

I'm willful, I'm cunning! I deceived her, and now I have failed her again......

If she knew, what would she say?

If I could, I would like to know!

"I'll be here waiting for you to come back! Be careful, Ito! ”

Damn it...... It's a pity that there is no time to look back at her.

What a pity!

"Beep......"

The wind stopped, the sound could not be heard, and the receding speed of the scenery stopped instantly. The body could not move, and it could not make a sound, but the consciousness was not gone. The scenery in front of you is not black, and darkness has not yet fallen. Staring at the dark shadows that were getting farther and farther away from me, getting smaller and smaller, I laughed.

Then, I saw blood! The crimson blood instantly stained the pool of water as far as the eye could see, and there was only red in the eye. And then, nothing can be seen!

I closed my eyes and slowly sank.

In my mind, the past experiences flashed by at a faster pace, and I was dazzled by them. My head was dizzy, and I felt a feeling of vomiting as my consciousness began to dissipate.

What, doesn't it hurt at all......