Chapter 10: Hesitation
On the weekend, considering that he was going to climb the mountain, Qin Zijin wore a very cool outfit, a T-shirt and shorts, looking thin but energetic. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info
Aunt Lin looked at Qin Zijin and said with a smile: "Sure enough, in addition to dressing up, girls also have to be in a good mood to look more beautiful." ”
Qin Zijin was a little unclear.
"When you first came to Shanghai before, maybe because you were busy looking for a job, you didn't smile much, but now it's different, you are beaming every day, the whole person is more energetic, and your complexion is much better."
Qin Zijin smiled embarrassedly: "Well, it may be." ”
Aunt Lin knew that Qin Zijin had a date today, and she was very concerned: "Have you told your family about having a boyfriend?" ”
"Not yet, we've only known each other for a short time now, and we need to learn more about it, and I'll tell my family when the relationship between us is stable."
Aunt Lin nodded: "That's good, maybe the family will agree by then." ”
Qin Zijin nodded noncommittally, she felt that if things didn't work out in the end, she could also skip some explanation.
After all, for the family, telling the family that they have a boyfriend and girlfriend is basically the same as telling their parents that they are married.
Qin Zijin wanted to take another look, and even if it was a marriage partner, she wanted to slow down, after all, she didn't want to be urged to marry, and she didn't want to get married too early.
At the moment when Qin Zijin was distracted, Aunt Lin spoke again, with a hint of worry: "I don't know when our family will be able to settle things." ”
Qin Zijin couldn't take this topic, so he could only laugh dryly and comfort: "Auntie, don't worry, Su Yang is not very old, and don't they all advocate late marriage now, besides, you are Su Yang's daughter, you must want to stay for a few more years!" ”
"That's what I said." Aunt Lin sighed slightly, "But I'm in a hurry, I'm afraid that she won't find a partner." ”
"You don't have to worry about this aunt, you see that Su Yang's own conditions are good, and she works so this hot day, I want to go out to play, but she is still working part-time, are you afraid that she won't find a partner if she works so hard!"
There are no parents who don't like to hear others praise their children, and Aunt Lin also felt happy when she heard this: "I hope so, I'm afraid that she will marry far away." ”
Well, Qin Zijin himself is also facing such a problem, and he also knows Su Yang's situation, and he is really entangled in Aunt Lin's sigh.
Fortunately, Aunt Lin didn't continue the topic anymore: "Don't talk about it, you go out to play and pay attention to yourself, and have fun." ”
"Uh-huh, then I'm leaving."
"Go ahead."
Qin Zijin has never been to Sheshan, and the distance between him and Liu Zishu is relatively far away, so the two still agreed to meet at the transfer subway station and then go to Sheshan together.
Regarding the acquaintance and getting along with Liu Zishu, Qin Zijin feels that it can be described as "white head as new, as old as before", but for them who want to develop as a couple, physical contact is still a little restrained, so they are still in the stage of occasionally holding hands.
Therefore, in the crowded subway, although Qin Zijin and Liu Zishu stood together, they were still separated by some distance.
There are a lot of people in the upper reaches of Sheshan, the two of them chatted and climbed the mountain, and when they were tired, they rested in the church and listened to an explanation of the church's humanities and history.
Qin Zijin later learned that Sheshan was divided into East Sheshan and West Sheshan, and he only felt that he would soon visit all the scenic spots by climbing the mountain, so the two chatted in an open place.
Looking at the scorching sun overhead, and then looking at Qin Zijin's flushed face, Liu Zishu was a little humble: "You shouldn't have climbed the mountain today, the weather is too hot." ”
Qin Zijin didn't care: "What is this, when I used to study, there was only an electric fan in the classroom, and it turned slowly, and I came over like this." ”
"Aren't I afraid you'll be uncomfortable, or we'll go back?"
"Stay a little longer, it's open here, and it's still cool when there's occasional wind."
Qin Zijin leaned on the fence with both hands and leaned over to look at the vegetation below, "Look, the green patch down there is very eye-catching." ”
Qin Zijin wanted to turn around and greet Liu Zishu to look at the vegetation about 3 meters away from the fence, but he felt a hot air surrounding him, and when he turned around, he almost hit the other party's face.
At this time, Liu Zishu also supported the fence with both hands and encircled Qin Zijin in the crook of his arm.
"I'll see." Liu Zishu pretended to be inadvertently tilted his head to look at the scenery below, although he didn't let go of his hands, Qin Zijin knew that he was nervous.
Qin Zijin smiled and did not break away from such a hug.
It seems that with such intimate contact, the subsequent contact is much more natural.
On the way down the mountain to rest, Liu Zishu naturally hugged Qin Zijin, which made Qin Zijin can't help but slander, men are really natural learning masters emotionally.
But it is not denied that Qin Zijin does not reject such contact.
Again, after dinner together, they separated.
Back home, Su Yang had already returned.
"Zijin, you're back, how are you, did you have fun today?"
"It's fine." Qin Zijin threw himself on the bed, and it rained heavily during dinner, and the air was full of hot and humid molecules, which made people uncomfortable.
"Eh" Su Yang pushed Qin Zijin, "When will you introduce your boyfriend to us?" ”
Qin Zijin thought for a moment: "Wait a little longer." He looked at Su Yang and asked, "What about you, how is the situation?" ”
"We're alright!" Su Yang pursed his lips, "I just don't know how to talk to my mother." ”
"When I left this morning, your mother was still telling me that I was afraid that you would marry far away in the future."
"Hey, I'm so worried!"
"There must be a road before the car reaches the mountain, don't worry, it's useless to worry, you still have to find a way to solve it." Qin Zijin sat up and inadvertently saw a nail-sized blue-purple mark on Su Yang's neck, "What's wrong with your neck?" ”
"Uh, bitten by a mosquito." Su Yang pulled his hair to his chest as he spoke, covering his neck.
"Oh, I went to take a shower, I was sweating too much today." Qin Zijin didn't care much, picked up his clothes and went to the bathroom.
However, I kept thinking about the attitude of my parents, Aunt Lin, and even my colleagues and friends towards marrying away.
She doesn't understand that now it is no longer a feudal society, the economy is developed, the transportation is convenient, under such conditions, marrying far away is not a big deal at all, as long as you have the heart, it is not a matter of minutes to go home.
The so-called various worries are just lack of confidence in oneself and the other party.
However, she had to consider this lack of confidence.
I've seen too much and heard too much, and there are many uncertainties in Qin Zijin's heart about the fact that the distant marriage ended in tragedy.
Therefore, she told her good friends about herself and Liu Zishu.
"Honey, I'm in love."
It was only a few seconds after the message was sent, and there was a dripping sound in the headphones.
There are only eight people in the group, all of whom are good friends from high school, and they have expressed their concern and gossip.
"Really, you're not lying to us, are you?"
"Who, who, who, where?"
"Do we recognize each other, are we handsome?"
"No picture, bad review! Seek the truth! ”
Qin Zijin was speechless for a while, is this really the right way to open?
"You don't know, it's from Henan."
"Out-of-town? Girl, didn't your family disagree with you looking for someone from another place? ”
"Inconvenient in the field? Is it good-looking? ”
“…… Affection you mean, if it's good-looking, it's convenient! ”
"Hey, that's! Those who are good-looking have privileges. ”
"However, you see that the objects we have are all local, and those who do not have objects are not ready to look for outsiders, my dear, you are the only one looking for outsiders."
"Yes, yes, in the future, if you marry in a foreign country, it will be inconvenient for us to even meet."
"I'm so sad, Zijin, you better come back, the fertilizer and water don't flow into the fields of outsiders, otherwise we will introduce you to a few fellow villagers!"
At this moment, Qin Zijin suddenly felt so powerless.
Is it really as the book says, when you get married, you will lose your old friends and have to face a complete stranger and things?
Qin Zijin disagreed.
But it is undeniable that she was shaken by the unanimous appearance of relatives and friends around her.
From the time Qin Zijin knew that he was going to marry someone in the future, he hoped to find a boyfriend from other places in the future, at least not locally. The reason is very simple, Qin Zijin has always had a poetic place in his heart, and the resonance of this place is not something that dialects can cause.
She doesn't hate dialects, she just thinks there is some tactful and timeless poetry, dialects can't express the feelings in her heart, and even if she can say it, it lacks that charm.
Qin Zijin didn't want to, there was only firewood, rice, oil and salt in his life, and endless commuting.
After considering the situation between himself and Liu Zishu, Qin Zijin decided to ask Liu Zishu to talk.
"Are you free for the evening, I have something to tell you."
"Yes, I'm coming from work?"
"Get out of the subway when you get there, I'll wait for you at the exit."
made an appointment with Liu Zishu, and the group was still chatting enthusiastically.
Qin Zijin looked at the cries of her friends for photos collectively, a little helpless, she only had a photo of Liu Zishu in her mobile phone, and she still sent each other headshots to prove the truth when she didn't meet.
After thinking about it, Qin Zijin still didn't send it, for her, this photo that Liu Zishu personally admitted to being retouched is really not as good-looking as a real person.
"Not yet, just one photo, which is different from the real person, so I won't send it to you first."
"My dear, when you were studying, so many boys liked you, why did you find someone out of town!"
"I'm looking for someone who speaks Mandarin."
"Why?"
Qin Zijin said what he thought, his friends all knew Qin Zijin, and when he saw her say this, he didn't say anything that was uninteresting.
"Did you tell the family?"
"Not yet!"
"If you really decide to be with him, it's better to tell the family earlier, so that the family can also be mentally prepared."
"That's right, even if the family doesn't agree, there is a time to relieve."
Friends gave their opinions in a gossiping manner, and Qin Zijin smiled and watched quietly.
In the evening, at a quarter past six, Liu Zishu appeared at the exit of the subway on time.
"Tell me so seriously that you have something to say, what is it?" Liu Zishu took Qin Zijin's hand, a little apprehensive.
"Tell me about what happened between us." Qin Zijin didn't earn his hand and spoke calmly.
"Aren't we in good hands!"
Qin Zijin smiled: "Let's go eat first, and then we'll talk about it after eating." ”
A meal, the atmosphere is unprecedentedly depressing.
Qin Zijin was the first to speak, his tone was flat, but he smiled with his eyebrows: "I only learned today that the people around me, my parents, my relatives, my friends, all of them disapprove of finding a boyfriend from other places." ”
"You mean to break up with me?"
Qin Zijin looked at Liu Zishu: "What do you mean?" ”
"I mean, if you break up with me because of this, I will definitely not be reconciled!"
"Unwilling." Qin Zijin repeated, raising his eyes to look at him: "If we are together, do you want to go back to Henan in the future?" ”
"I should go back, and the current economic conditions can't make it possible to settle down somewhere else."
Qin Zijin stopped talking, she felt that there was no need to continue talking.
No one can predict and guarantee the future, and it is better to live the present life than to worry about those speculative misfortunes and hardships.
Perhaps, it is the current cherishing and hard work that will have a better future!
So this conversation still ended in failure, but Qin Zijin's heart was clear and clear.