For some situations at home, even if my mother-in-law doesn't say it, I can guess some, a person's words and deeds, can't say that I can absolutely see the essence of this person, and can also reflect some of it, just by the few times I have seen my eldest brother and wife, although they seem to be quite friendly, but the kind of smile on their faces is really a little creepy, and the smile is so insidious and cunning!

I can feel that there is a serious problem with the "eyesight" of the two, which is basically equivalent to the kind of person who "pees with his shell", and says in Mandarin: That is the master who forgets his righteousness when he sees profit, has milk and is his mother, and shouts his father when he sees money! Anyway, I don't want to deal with this kind of person in this life, I can't afford to hide if I can't provoke it, so it's best not to have any intersections. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

The due date was fast approaching, and that morning, my stomach began to ache and red, and the items I had been hospitalized had long been sorted out in an oversized bag, just waiting to be picked up when I went to the hospital. The three of us took a taxi and went straight to the staff hospital, (the unit hospital is directly free) probably a lot of good things, the car broke down halfway, so we had to change to another car. I felt like I wasn't going to be going too well, and I felt a vague sense of unease.

When I went to the hospital and asked about the prenatal checkup, I was speechless. Because it is a long way to go from home to the hospital, two trips in reverse, it is difficult to ask for my husband's leave, and I don't remember the road where I go alone - an authentic road idiot. Anyway, the birth of children in our family is natural, and there are very few prenatal checkups, so I take it for granted that there will be nothing wrong, and I simplified this procedure privately, and I only checked it once in the middle.

The female doctor in her fifties criticized very harshly at the time: "As a mother, you are too irresponsible to your children!" The courage is also too great, in case the child has any disability or congenital disease, do you want this child or not? You don't understand eugenics? It's so self-righteous! ”

I was told that I really wanted to have a crack in the ground and got into it, and then the doctor took me to the examination room for a full examination. "Do you have any congenital conditions?" The doctor listened for a moment, then turned to me and asked. When I answered in the negative, still a little unconvinced, she continued to ask, "Do you have a heart attack?" Do your parents have heart disease? ”

I kept shaking my head to answer her, and she seemed to be saying to herself, "How can there be no genetic diseases?" Her fetal voice was so special, so distinctive. ”

When the doctor listened endlessly, he also felt the seriousness of the situation. She said to me, "Listen to it yourself, it's the sound of a heartbeat, and it's too long to say it, and there's a break, and there's no regularity at all." ”

I pricked up my ears and listened carefully, but I couldn't distinguish any sound at all, I had a poor sense of sound since I was a child, and I couldn't step on the point of the music accurately, I couldn't distinguish it, where could I understand this high-end thing? I couldn't get a satisfactory answer, so I was soon consulted by two more doctors.

I listened to my doctor and said, "Listen, how strange is that? I've never heard the sound of my heart beating and the interval like this! ”

The other two listened for a while and couldn't explain the strange phenomenon: "This situation is too rare, it is estimated that the child has congenital heart disease!" ”

Their words made me fall into the abyss, my dreams, my hopes, seemed to be all wiped out at once, if there was an unhealthy child in my life, what kind of gray would that day be? How to suffer from that kind of heart-wrenching day? And how do I deal with that child? After all, it was my irresponsibility that brought him to man, and how could I bear that pain for him?

The doctor went outside again, as if to confirm something with her husband and mother-in-law?

Later, I asked my husband, "What did the doctor tell you when he came to the door?" ”

The husband replied: "She asked the family if they had heart disease and other hereditary diseases, and said that our children are likely to have some kind of congenital disease, so that we can be prepared." ”

"What do you think when you hear that? Is it that my heart is cold all of a sudden? What were the plans at that time? Do you want to walk away? ”

My husband glared at me dissatisfied: "At that time, I was born immediately, no matter what, I have to admit it, if I am really sick, I can only do my best, when did I become such an irresponsible person?" Can you afford to hide when you are always in trouble? ”

He changed his gaze to a gentle gaze, looked at me and said, "The doctor also asked at the time: If there is danger, will you protect the adults or the children?" "I suddenly thought of the plot in the TV series, and I also experienced a scene in this drama?

Needless to say, I also know that it is impossible to protect the child in that case, and my husband is a very realistic kind of person, first put away his feelings for me and don't mention it, he must also be a child. Because as long as there are adults, there are no more children, where are the eggs without chickens? Besides, what age is it, how can there still be a phenomenon of treating human life as a mustard?

If it were to be changed to today, if the doctor asked that kind of thing, and my husband didn't beat people, he would definitely scold: Mom, why did I go to your hospital? Still fucking the baby? If anything goes wrong, I want your life!

The doctor said a few words to my husband outside, and then walked back to ask me to go to the ward and wait, she specially instructed: "You must pay attention when going to the toilet, especially when you defecate, don't force it, don't give birth to the child in the toilet!" ”

So I began to imagine the terrible scene of the child accidentally falling into the toilet: a newborn baby had his head broken, and the child couldn't even cry, and there was blood everywhere......

After tossing all night, there is no concept of time, except for the hardship, there is really no feeling, at that time, even the child has a problem, such a haunting thing has been ignored, all I can feel is that every minute and second is so long, so unbearable! It's not really painful, it's an indescribable unbearable taste!

When the first rays of sunlight in the morning broke into the ward, I was taken into the delivery room. There is only one little nurse in the delivery room of Nuoda, empty as my heart, empty as if it has lost its original weight, and can no longer settle down, what I desire most is to have a relative by my side, but at that time only my husband was my relative.

Anxiety and terror enveloped me, I wanted to grab my husband's hand, but no man was allowed to enter the delivery room, and I was like meat on a board, I could only be slaughtered, and I could only wait silently for the birth of my child in panic and anxiety, like the end of the world—the end of my suffering.

Probably in the eyes of the countrymen, having a child is no different from a cold, right? They probably don't know that having a baby can also kill them, right? Recently, I saw a woman who died because her in-laws could not have a caesarean section without signing, and the mother finally died.

I feel indescribably terrible, the mother's relatives are around, what is more important than life? The husband of the mother should be lonely and lonely for the rest of his life, he can't protect his wife when she needs her most, he chooses a silent escape in front of the most precious life, he is not worthy of marriage and children, and he is not worthy of being a man! Even if a woman can't get married, she shouldn't find such a "man"!

For doctors, they face countless mothers all day long, and giving birth to a baby is like a litter of kittens and puppies! In the delivery room, I haven't seen a figure come in for a long time, and the little nurse posed for it, gritted her teeth and endured the unspeakable impatience, and then in the ardent anticipation, I don't know how long it has been? The doctor walked in steadily, looked at me nonchalantly, and went back to his own business.

I endured the indescribable discomfort, if it was an authentic pain, I really wouldn't frown, I knew that my endurance was unique, even if it was inexplicable unbearable pain, I also endured it silently in silence, the doctor was busy for a while, and walked over very strangely, and his voice was much gentler: "If it hurts, you can call it out!" Don't bear with it! ”

I glanced at her gratefully, not knowing if screaming would alleviate the pain. It's just that I don't know who can hear my shouts? Will anyone come and comfort me? In fact, I was afraid that others would laugh at me when the ghost cried wolf, but fortunately I still kept my mouth shut and didn't say a word.

I didn't make a single ** sound the whole time, let alone scream hoarsely. The doctor was a little surprised, and she said to the little nurse next to her: "I have delivered babies for so many years, and today is the first time I have met a child who gave birth without a snort." Looking at it this way, the pain of giving birth to a child is not unbearable! ”

There is nothing impossible, didn't Zhao Yiman shout when he was tortured by scraping his bones? What if you shout? If others take pity on her, she won't have to be punished again? Or did you cry out about the pain and move elsewhere?

In my mind, there are some things that are no different from not doing them, so why bother? It's better to save your own strength and save your feelings!

At this time, the doctor changed into medical gloves, and then cheered me up: "Force, the child has an umbilical cord around his neck, hurry up!" "I really want to give birth to a baby in one go, but I really don't know how to do it? I feel like I can't use my strength even if I have the strength, not to mention that I am already exhausted, tossing all night, and all that is left is to gasp.

With the encouragement of the doctor, I still used my strength indiscriminately, and I didn't know if it worked. Suddenly, I felt a sense of relief all over my body. That feeling is that I have been constipated for a long time, and finally go to the toilet as I wish, this kind of relaxation makes people completely relaxed, I don't even think about anything, I don't care about anything, everything around me has nothing to do with me! I just want to take a breath and lie there quietly.